I Called It "Kiskisan"

I have been with same "top" guy before.Our relationship lasted for two months at that time it was already long for me since I'm only 23 years old then and all I did from previous years are having sex with any guy I like.Meaning: slut LOL! But that was in the past.I'm 29 now and I can say I'm done at that stage in my life,casual sex is a no-no already.

I met Mark from TV-chat where in you will post your number to look for a text mate at that time it was so "in" now I realized how cheap it was haha!But I gotta admit I loved it then I got too many respondent a 100 replies!My pre-historic Nokia 5110 phone almost exploded!He was one who passed for a text mate.We met and we instantly liked each other.He's cute and got a stable job.

We became boyfriends.And everything was beautiful for me.He seems so perfect.We were in love.But there was one problem.He's top too.Well,I'm his first bf and he was a virgin too but he didn't wanna be the bottom.I didn't want either.I cant forget him because his lips was so sweet (damn I love virgins) and he responded to my touchings very hungrily...and he always stare at my d*** i just pretended I didn't see him (napapahiya siya e).

Actually you might think that it was a lame sexual relationship,no one even do the blow job!haha.We kissed and touched each other,but I discovered one thing...we were both standing and I pulled off his briefs and mine and I pressed my d*** with his and it was so good!The sensation was so great...its hotness and the hair Oh lord it was heaven.Next thing we knew I was on top of him and I was humping and pressing my p***s on him real hard...I later called it "kiskisan" with the special help of lubricant and it was the only thing we did for the duration of our relationship.

I didnt know it was possible to have a wonderful sex life even if we are both tops.I preferred to do it standing with his one leg wrapping around my waist.I have nothing to asked for during those time.He's thoughtful,he checked me out at home,he was nice to my sister and he's in love with me.I could feel it in my boner I mean bones.

Why was it so nice to make your bf jealous?haha even if he tried to hide it, brought smiles to my face...

But I guess all things are not permanent,we broke up.I got really jealous to this girl he's with and when I look back I realized how stupid I was to let him go away.i mean he's gay why would he be interested in girls?he loves holding my d*** for god sake!I loved him so much.I asked for forgiveness a 100 times over and then he finally answered me and said "I don't know anymore,I don't think I can love you again.."

And after 2 weeks he texted me "I wanna come over at your house" I thought to my self,thank god maybe this is it,he finally realized he still love me.We talked but nothing about us and we went to bed and when I tried to kiss him he avoided my lips, "no kissing pls.." I was hurt by that,I didn't complain,beggars cant be choosers right?

We just had sex ate charo...haha.And he just visit me to have sex...he's punishing me.I felt so sad about it...what happened to us?I know its my fault but I already repent on all of my mistake and felt really sorry for it.

I felt like a whore a sex machine that if he had an itch he will have sex with me.But despite of all that I still love him.He just vanished all of a sudden,his number became unreachable.It made me cry.But anyway it was 6 years ago...