A Family Show

My mom called last night and told me its confirmed that she'll be going home next month...hep hep hep...hold your thought guys!not because of the recession,but to have her 30 days vacation hehe.We are so excited its been two years since we saw and hugged her.My nephew were just 2 years old then barely crawling the floor and now he's 4 and running around the house already!

That made me happy.I missed my mom so much.I don't know maybe being a bi or gay made it so natural to be super close to their mothers than their fathers.Mothers made it so easy for us,me being gay by being so understanding,so forgiving,so loving...At least she will be free from responsibilities from my uncle who is currently her problem at Dubai.

But there is one slight problem of her homecoming...my father.You see,mom and dad are not really together,like together-together anymore.They are separated but without the legality.I mean my mom is living her own life now without caring what my dad thinks.Its fine with us,I mean she deserves to be happy.And my dad was really hard to reasoned with.He have an impossible personality that no one could bear!We all see it coming.

You see,my mom don't have a problem not seeing my dad for many years since my dad was out of the country too and he have his yearly vacation every December and my mom every May,so its been a success avoiding him.My dad don't seems to take it,he's still hopeful,but my mom and I thought its hopeless.She told my sister too that there is no love left at all.

But this year its a totally different scenario.My dad quits his job last year.And his visa for another work hasn't come yet,so my mom cannot avoid the inevitable hehe.Seeing my dad and actually living together in one roof!That's exciting for us haha we don't know how my mom is gonna play this!

I mean will she be sleeping the same room with him?
or how is she going to tell him that its not what's he thinks looks like?
Will there be lots of fights?
For my dad they are still husband and wife.He's in denial,that gets me irritated.

This will be the much awaited event of the year.
Abangan ang susunod na kabanata.

Father And Son Story

Are you close to your father? -I'm not.

Do you love your father? -I don't.

Do you hate your father? -not anymore.

I know you're curious about my answers.Well,me and my dad had a very long history of disagreements and fights.We have this big wall between us, its too late to break it now.Even if he's trying to reach out for me,I just can't restart all over it again with him.

I like to watch Variety shows.He gets mad at me.He wants me to watch NBA or PBA!

I like staying home and read magazines and all.He gets mad.He wants me to play with the boys outside.

He wants me to play ball.But I played my friend's balls.LOL

He yell at me.I yell at him.

He said fuck you.I said fuck you too.

He pushed me.I pushed him back.

Everyday was like hell for many years.

My mom,defended me.They fight.

They're separated now.

I left home.He checked me out,because my mom wanted him to.

I hate him so much then.I wanted to put him in an elderly home when he reached old age and will let him rot in hell.And not attend his funeral.

Many years had passed.He accepted my preferences.

But I forgave him.He changed a lot.

I see him everyday.He's just an ordinary person to me now.

Like a neighbor.Like a boarder at home.

He's nice too me now.But I can't be nice to him.

Its too deep.I can't forget it.

I can't eat dinner with him at the other side of the table.

I'll loose appetite.I eat at my room.

He asked something.I answer.Just One word.

I assessed my self.I'm not angry anymore.I just don't feel anything about him.

If he dies maybe I'll cry.Maybe not.

One things is for sure.

I'll die for my Mom.