Isang Taon

Isang taon na pala ko'ng single....damn, that's a long time.

Isang taon na pala akong tigang...tagtuyot...tag araaaaaaaw!

Oo ako ang walang nakaka-sex!!! Oo, ako na ang loser! nyahaha!

Pero come to think of it (uy ingles yun!) I don't feel that bad at all...I don't know, parang wala lang...teka, baka naman menopausal stage na to?LOL

Naku wag naman sana...kasi di pa nga ko dinadatnan, kala ko delayed lang ako this month...echos!!!!



*sorry sa walang kwentang post haha...sabog pa ko..galing ng night shift lagi*

At The End Of The Day...

Met with friends at the mall, its always fun seeing them.We talk about anything, everything like there's no tomorrow. The laughters are endless. We don't care about what others think of us! We're just happy!

Partying like an animal. Bright lights. Great foods. Loud sounds. Dancing till the break of dawn.

Going to work. I love my work. It gives me purpose. Meeting many people. Meeting many patients that some are friendly and some are "not". Some are discharged some are not so "lucky". Work keeps me busy. Its fun.

Dinner with family.I love my family. Chatting while we have dinner is priceless. Or even while watching TV together are all great moments.That will forever be treasured.

Went inside my room

Sat on the bed for a while

The lights are out

No more party music

No more laughter

No more busy work

No more co-worker, no more friends

All there is silence in this dark space

This is my reality...no matter how happy I was earlier

At the end of the day

It's still me.

Just me.

Emptiness.

Loneliness.

(Sorry feeling "emo" tonight hehe)

Single-ness!!!

I was at the mall today after I paid my credit card bill (which by the way is so maxxed out!haha) I was just walking,strolling,window shopping and feasting to the cute guys I see...then I realized I am the perfect example of the regular-original-classic-single-gay guy in the country!The only consolation I have is that I know I'm not alone haha I know a lot of homos out there who are exactly like me today!LOL

Since my last relationship ended last December 13 ,its been what,two months now.I missed it.I miss having a boyfriend.I'm used to having someone by my side most of the time,whenever theres a good movie,a 70% off sale to the malls and dates on special occasions.All the signs of being single are all pointing towards me now.Take a look:

• I stay up late all night chatting with other gays out there and looking for a possible date! (atat na atat!) example:"nasl?are you free tom?lets meet!dali payag na!!"
  
• Too defensive and bitter whenever being asked about love life! example:I don't need a bf right now.I can date and do anything I want!hmpf!"
  
• Almost begged my friends to go out so that I wont get stucked at home!And always on the go once invited! (nanginginig pa sa pag OO!)
  
• My phone is so quiet that the only one texting me is my network and saying "from globe:may pang -gas ka na! or From globe:baka ikaw na susunod na manalo ng 100,000 sali na!" di ba ang ganda?!
• Since no sex life,I spend a lot of times browsing those gay porn sites and wank along the way!LOL
• Most of the time, solo flight when going to the malls,events and parties.
• Sleeping all day and awake at night.What a boring life!haha
• Spending most weekends at home.Updated to all the TV shows and gossips and spending a lot of time watching DVD just to keep myself busy.
  
• Desperate to find a copy of any romance book!haha.I finally decided to read "New Moon" but no luck its always out of stock!Waaa!
• Todo emote sa mga love songs whenever hearing one at the radio!