Answered Prayers

I was about to sleep kahapon ng umaga when I received a call from my colleague and friend Philip. I tried to ignore the call, too sleepy to talk to anyone. Been to a 16hr shift and I wanna retire and enjoy the comfort of my bed. After the third ring, i picked up. Imbyerna lang ng slight!

"hello.."

" bro!!! congrats!!! Your promotion letter came today! you're promoted na!!!!" sabi nya

Napadilat ang singkit kong mata sa antok at napa nga nga ng slight ang napakakipot kong bibig nun marinig ang sinabi nya. Hindi dahil sa tinawag nya kong BRO kundi dahil sa balitang yun!

"Really??? totoo na ba toh? Pwera biro?? OMG!!! wait, i'll call the office landline, medyo panget ang signal mo" nanginingig ko pang hinagilap ang phone sa gilid at nag dial.

I called our office and si Boss ko ang nakasagot. I asked if the letter came na nga? He was happy to read the content of the letter out loud for me...rinig ko tawanan ng ibang staff sa likod nya.

"O? OK na?" pabiro nyang sabi after mabasa yun laman nun letter. "kelan ka magpapakain sa amin? treat ka naman!!!" kantiyaw pa nya.

After ng ilang minutong biruan at kantiyawan ay nagpaalam na ko. I wasn't sleepy anymore. Biglang tumaas energy ko. LOL!

Jusme! Hindi ako makapaniwalang andito na toh! Been waiting for this for more than a year mula nun magsubmit ako ng mga requirements!!! angtagal na nito. Hanggang sa napag iwanan na din ako ng ibang staff ng hospital. Andaming naging balakid. I thought hindi na matutuloy.

Grading system kasi kami dito, dito naka base ang salary and benefits ng isang empleyado. 3 grades up lang naman ang binigay sa kin. Lumundag ng bongga from my current grade! hihihih! Bonggels! tapos from 35 days annual leave, magiging 45 days na ito yearly! at ang transpo and housing allowance ko tumaas na dinnnnnn!!! yahoooooo!

God didn't disappoint me. He knows kelan ang right timing! For that I offered a prayer. 

Uu,nagdadasal ako, di lang halata! haha. Hindi na ako nag sisimba, matagal na ko nag stop. For like more than 5 years na ata, I have a personal relationship with God. Direct line. No other person but God alone. Mas ok sa akin yun. Thanked him for all of this. Asked for his forgiveness for almost doubting him. Nawalan na kasi ako ng pag asa na darating pa ito noon...Sabi nga ni Philip, magtiwala ka lang sa Kanya.

Ito din ang sagot sa mga suliranin na matagal na namin pinuproblema kaya sa ngayon ay alam kong magiging OK na ang lahat. One step at a time. Unti unti magagawa ko na. Kaya naman I called my Mom na nasa Dubai. Matagal na din nya iniintay ito. Habang kausap siya sa phone ay alam kong nakangiti siya at masaya for me. Kaya ko na siya pag retired-in sa pag a-abroad. At excited na siya!!!!

Hanggang dito na muna. Let's wait and see if magagawa ko mga pinaplano ko sa buhay. hehe. 

Have a meaningful  Holy week guys! Kami dito sa Dowha ay kanya kanya nalang pag observe ng mahal ng araw since bawal naman dito, kaya pasimple nalang kami magho-Holy week :-)

For You

Five messages to five random people:


I don't know what else to think. I'll just let you be and move on. Dead or alive. Thank you for the friendship though. Pero alin ba totoo talaga? LOL

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Just keep up the fight...don't lose faith in him. With God everything is possible. Miracles could happen you know... I know you will get better...We will all be supporting you all the way. Just hang in there. I may not tell you this, but I love you. We do.

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I pray to God to keep you safe, to give you good health, kasi we all know, you are his source of strength. I salute you for being so brave inspite of all whats going on around you. You are a great person. I didnt expect you to be this strong. I love you. Don't worry me and mom will always back you up :-)

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I saw your picture sa FB and nangangasim itsura mo dun hahaha! I miss you my baby...I hope I could be there to take care of you while SHE's busy. I know you understand all of this. Thank you for being so brave too. SHE needs you to be for HIM. I just wanna let you feel my love even though Im far. I wanna cry because I don't think you deserve to be in this situation. I wanna give you my tightest hug as possible...

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And my last is for you...a little more patience...don't you ever think that I forgot about you even for a minute...I don't have the luxury to forget you...you are always on my prayers... I know you've been through a lot and I wanna take care of you and carry your burdens and let you be comfortable. You deserved better than this. Don't worry...maybe...soon...this year...just hang in there. Don't you worry about me. I'm doing alright. I have loving friends who would look after me. I love you with all of my heart.

What About You?

These questions have been running and bugging me whenever they got a chance to, they just "popped out"! I tried to ignore it, but its so persistent, so guys, why don't you help me out? '

Am I the only one having this thoughts and actually do this? Lets compare answers! Game!

Do you honestly think, God created us? to be actually gay?

Yes or no?

I can't really answer this one. Honestly. How about you?

Do you even pray that God could give you a decent and loving guy to make you happy? or you're too ashamed to ask God about it when in fact they said in the bible that gays could burn in hell?

Yes or no?

I still pray. Do you?

Do you think you could still get married with a woman and have children? without the urge to get a guy and have sex with him?

Yes or no?

I could say yes. Why not. Its possible. How about you?

Do you still believe that maybe in the near future, gay could be totally accepted and respected in our country? and be married???

Yes or no?

Maybe in the year 2080? LOL. What do you think?


Are you afraid to get tested for HIV?
Yes or no?

Yes I am! are you that brave?

Do you apply powder on your face?

Yes or no?

I do! (pressed powder pa nga!hahaha). I have an oily face so, I apply frequently as discreetly as possible! LOL

Do you spit or swallow? I cannot believe I'm asking this haha!

Yes or no?

A big No-no-no! haha I just can't do it! I don't even like the guy coming inside my mouth what more to swallow it! *fainting*

Do you exchange saliva with your mate (not thru kissing ha!) like he's on top and he will drop a large portion of it on your waiting open mouth! haha

Yes or no?

For me, its no way! too gross! what about you?

Do you like to be given a bouquet of flowers from your boyfriend or suitor?

Yes or no?

I don't think so! You like the idea?

Do you have the guts to kiss your boyfriend in public?

Yes or no?

I can't!!! hahaha. kaya mo???

Do you kiss then suck d*ck then kiss and then rim and then kiss again?

Yes or no?

I'll leave that question for you to answer! hahaha

Good morning everyone! Have a great weekend!

Im A Believer

Its holy week, but on this part of the world...is not. LOL. I kinda miss the Easter atmosphere back home, when every one is on vacation, when my sis would make "sariwang lumpia" during this season, and the bible inspired movies shown on TV.

Here, its like a normal day. We go to work and go home and all. Some of my friends are doing the fasting, I was asked during dinner by my colleague :

"Mac, why are you eating meat when every one else is not?"

"I'm not a catholic" I simply answered her.

"What is your religion then?" her again

"I don't have a specific religion.." I laughed. "I don't go to church and listen to masses or lectures. But I do respect all of them. "

I explained to her that, since I'm a gay guy, some teachings are about, man and woman, that homosexuality is a sin blah-blah. So I stopped attending masses anymore. FYI: I used to attend some christian meetings too. I felt shame whenever I attended masses then loving another man when I get home. So I stopped.

"But do you believe in God?" she asked me again.

"Yes with all my heart. I just have a very very personal relationship with HIM. I pray every night, every chance I have, I praised him on every blessings I received. I talk to HIM on my own special way. Deep in my heart I know that he loves me, deep inside I know that he loves me back that what ever I am, as long as I do good, as long as I don't harm any one, as long as I am a loving and responsible person. He would accept me."

"Want some beef steak?" I asked her but she politely said "no, thanks".

Note: You should see the movie "Prayers for Bobby" such an excellent film, its one movie that made me realize that God loves us all. It answers all the doubts and questions in my mind.

The Red Apple and Edzel's Tut-tut!

I'm eating an apple right now which is leftover from new year's eve you know,they say if its new year's eve you gotta fill your dining table with different fruits that are rounded which symbolizes money all year round and I suddenly remember my childhood, my grade school days here in the province OMG. Why?because I used to bring apple and take note only one red apple at school and it was brought by my dad who was working at Saudi Arabia at that time [imagine my dad brought apple from there? don't we have apples for sale in this country?I will ask him later] and he came home for a month long vacation and apple and grapes was one of his take home or "pasalubong" to us.

Going back to my story,I was in grade 4 [that was 1988?I'm so old! Damn!] and I will keep the apple inside my bag and when its recess time,I will show it to my classmates and when they saw it, its like I'm the GOD, I clearly saw their envious and salivating looks, because at that time having that kind of food during recess was a status symbol LOL !Imagine just an apple! And I feel like super rich kid with that food while they eat guavas and banana-Que [yuck so poor... kidding!]

Going back with those years in my mind gave a smile on my face....I remember my classmate Edzel showed us his dick cause we teased him that he has a tiny dick.

"waaa! your dick is small..your dick is small!"

and then he stood at the table in front of us and dropped his shorts without underwear just to prove it to us!hahaha!

"is this small huh???! he said

I wonder if he still remember that! I just saw him the other day but we don't talk much.I think he has a big dick now!LOL! Maybe its a thing with grown ups..former grade school classmates...when you reached high school and went to different sections,we became estranged.

Whoa from apple to Edzels dick? Is there a connection?haha my mind's going a little bit further huh!

Date!Boyfriends!Happiness!

"Are you happy?"he said.And I replied "yes I am" and my battery turned low and die hehe .

Well guys my date went well if you may ask.I felt good today when i went out of the house to meet my date.No more wories,no nervousness and all I thought of is that we will be just fine and its all what happend! I changed my clothes twice and I sprayed my perfumes too many times that even my dog shaggy sneezed 3 times!

I saw him standing in the crowd when I arrived I was late due to heavy traffic and its funny that I kept on telling him last night that I hate latecomers! When we reached the mall.We went straight up to the cinema and look for the movie schedule we watched "The Day Earth Stood Still" starred keanu reeves and jenifer connely I dont like it by the way hehe.Lack special effects and the story was not too good.When its finished you will say to yourself "is it over yet?" or"what?its finished already?Just like that?"But before that we dined in at fastfood nearby (we dont have enough budget so we just settled there hehe) and we talked about anything,we laughed,we argued a bit and all.But I like it.I think I like him.No,I like him.

I asked him "are we boyfriends now?" and he said" yes,we're a couple" I just hugged and hold his hands and squeezed it some times through out the movie...when its so cold inside I feel like holding him forever,that time will stop right there and then and stay that way.But it never did,the lights turned on and people start standing...Oh well, the movie ended.But I wont let this night pass without kissing him,and when we reached this shaded hallway I pulled him closer to me and gave him a quickie!I mean a quick kiss!!!!At the back of the car going home I was hugging him closer to me thank God people at the back didnt noticed us hehe.Before separating we ate a light dinner at this chinese fastfood and I walk him through his side of the road untill he ride the jeep home.

"It seems its not enough..we chat at home at ym... till he said goodnight..."