Si Boy Dubai (Part II)

Babala: Sobrang Halay!

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Tinagalan ni Emm ang pagtitig sa ngayon ay hubad na katawan na ni BD...dinama niya ang mabalahibo nitong dibdib binaybay ng mga daliri niya pababa sa pusod na nagpabilis ng paghinga ni BD

Nakasuot pa ang pang ibabang damit niya isinilid ni Emm ang daliri niya sa may garter ng brief nito at mula dun ay nilaro ng dulo ng daliri niya ang naninigas na ulo ng pag aari ni BD.

Muling dumapo ang mga labi niya sa labi ni BD at hinalikan niyang muli ng maalab. Nakaibabaw si Emm muli sa lalakeng first time niya nakatagpo at sabik na sabik na siyang matikman ito.

Unti unti ipinasok ni BD ang mga palad niya sa loob ng shorts ni Emm dumapo ang mga ito sa puwitan niya at pinisil ng mariin na may panggigil. Hanggang sa dahan dahan niyang hinubad ang mga ito mula kay Emm.

Gumanti si Emm at siya naman ang nag alis ng mga saplot sa katawan ni B.D.

Naglapat ang kanilang mga kahubdan at idiniin ni Emm ang kanyang naninigas na pag aari sa nag iintay na pag aari din ni B.D.

Napaungol silang dalawa sa sarap na nararamdaman mula sa pag didiin ng etits ng isa't isa. Dahil sa kakaibang sensation ay nararamdaman ni Emm ang pagsalubong ng pag ayuda niya mula alaga ni D.B.

Kakaiba ang feeling ng pag kiskisan ng mga ari nila sa isa't isa. Mainit init. Nakakakiliti ang pubic hair nila. Lalo na kapag napapadaiti ang balls nila. Grabe ang ungol ni Boy Dubai. Libog na libog siya. Kasabay ng digmaang nagaganap sa ibabang parte ng katawan nila ay ang mas madidiin na palitan nila ng halik.

Halos magdugo ang ibabang labi nila sa diin at maririing pagkagat kagat nilang dalawa. Bumaba ang mga labi ni B.D sa leeg at collar bone niya. At muling babalik sa likod ng tenga niya. Hindi kaya ni Emm ang sensation na ginagawa niya sa mga ito Itinitutulak niya si Boy Dubai palayo. Kiliting kiliti siya.

Gumanti siya ng mga halik at kagat sa shoulders at chest ni BD. He sucked his nipples. Magkabilaan. Bumaba ang mga halik niya sa tiyan. Pababa sa pusod at nilaro laro ang maninipis na balahibo doon.

Dumampi ang labi niya sa may singit ni BD...pababa sa may hita nito...sadya niya muna iniwasan ang naninigas nitong pag aari...He wants him to beg to suck on it soon...

Sinubo nya ang magkabilang bayag ni BD na nag paangat sa puwitan nito sa sarap. Hindi din nakaligtas sa pandinig niya ang ungol nito. Hawak hawak niya ang kanyang ulo na idinidiin sa kanyang maselang bahagi.

"subo mo ko..." narinig niyang ungol ni Boy Dubai... sa halip na sumunod nilaro ng dila niya ang shaft ng etits nito...sinubo subo mula sa side...lalong naulol si mokong. Sa isip isip niya.

"chupain mo ko Emm.."

Sinubo niya ng biglaan mula ulo hanggang sa kalahati ng kahabaan ng pag aari nito... napasinghap si BD.

Nilaro niya ng dila niya ang ulo...ang tagiliran...walang kasawaan. Halinhinan pati mga bayag nito....in between aakyat siya sa may ulunan nito and would search for his lips and they would kiss like there's no tomorrow.

They flipped places and bago pa niya namalayan naihiga na siya ni BD at nasa ilalim na siya. Parang mauubusan si BD sa paghalik sa knya. Sa leeg. Sa nipple niya. Napaungol at napahawak si Emm sa ulo ni BD nun kagat kagatin nito ang nipple niya.

Ginantihan siya ni BD ng mga pangtotorture niya kanina. Now he's the one begging! LOL at di naman siya binigo nito. Halos mauusan siya ng ulirat sa sarap na ipinapadanas sa knya ni Boy Dubai.

"Fuck kita...may condom ka?" bulong ni BD sa kanya. Tumayo si Emm at kinuha ang stash niya ng kapote at mga pampadulas at sari sari niyang sex toy. LOL natawa si BD sa nakita.

"Wag ka manghusga. masarap toh noh" sabi pa niya. Nagtawanan sila.

Inilabas ni Emm ang kanyang lidocane gel na kinuha niya sa hospital. wag daw kayo maingay sabi niya. LOL. Hindi kasi niya maenjoy ang anal sex ng wala nito. Nagtataka nga siya dahil hindi naman siya virgin pero everytime na gagawin niya ito ay lagi nang it feels like first time. O di ba? may retro. chos.

Nakahiga si Boy Dubai at dahan dahan inupuan ni Emm ang naghuhumindig na kargada ni BD. Hindi ito masyadong mahaba at malaki, which is mas gusto nya. Mas maeenjoy mo kasi kapag sakto lang ang laki at taba.

Napapikit si BD nun maipasok lahat niya ang kabuuan nito "wag ka muna gagalaw please'. bulong ni Emm saka hinalikan ng matagal ang labi ni DB habang inaantay niya marelax ang muscle down there. LOL

Nun mawala ang pain ay napangiti si Emm...its showtime!

Dahan dahan siyang umindayog sa ibabaw ng lalakeng gusto niya. Napapaungol na si BD sa sarap. Nilamas nito ang magkabila niyang dibdib. Saka hinawakan ang magkabila niyang balakang. As if iginigiya siya nito sa sa pag galaw niya. Sinasalubong nito ang kanyang pag galaw. Lalo tuloy napapadiin ang pagkalalaki nito sa loob niya.

Halos sabay na sila umuungol...Iniisip ni Emm na baka naririnig na sila sa kabilang kwarto. Andun pa naman ang mga housemates niya.

Umiba sila ng position. Nakaupo si BD at siya ay parang nakakalong sa mga hita nito. Mas lalong naging accessible ang mga labi nila sa isa't isa. Siya pa din ang gumagalaw sa ibaba nito. Nun mangalay ay ihiniga siya nito sa kama, siya naman ay isinabit niya ang magkabila niyang mga paa sa balikat ni Boy dubai.

Halos mapatili siya nun mag umpisang umayuda papasok sa knya ang ari ng lalakeng kaniig niya. Humawak siya sa may balakang at puwitan nito na parang iginigiya na idiin pa nito ang paggalaw.

"taena Emm ang sarap..."

Hinila niya patayo ng kama si BD at humarap siya sa salamin sa tokador. Sumunod sa knya ang lalake na dali na getz ang gusto niyang mangyari.

Tumuwad si Emm at itinutok nito ang kargada at nag umpisa gumalaw. Kitang kita nila ang mga sarili nila mula sa salamin. Matagal na gustong i-try ito ni Emm, hindi nga lang niya magawa dahil hindi niya matolerate ng matagal ang anal sex.

Pero mula nun madiskubre niya ang lidocaine gel na ito ay na aappreciate na niya ang act na ito. hihihi.

Pinatagilid siya nito para mas lalo nila makita ang mga sarili nila sa salamin. Promise mas nakakadagdag pala talaga ng libog kapag nakikita nyo sarili nyo sa salamin.

Nakakaloka kumadyot si BD, iniikot ikot pa niya ang balakang niya. Para siyang ulol na ulol sa pag diin. Lalo silang nabaliw pareho. Pero nakakangalay, kaya naman nagyaya na si Emm na bumalik sila sa kama. This time nasa ibabaw niya muli si BD, nakapulupot ang mga legs niya sa balakang nito. Paminsan minsan ay inaabot nito ang lips niya at hahalikan siya ng mariin...

"malapit na ko labasan babe..."

"Sige iputok mo sa loob..." sagot ni Emm

Bumilis ng bumilis ang pag galaw ng balakang nilang dalawa...sinasalubong niya ito ng mariin din pagbayo...pawisan na silang pareho. Ngayon lang pinawisan si Emm ng ganito...now lang niya ginawa ang ganito ka intense na sex.

"lalabasan na ko...ahhh....ayan na....ipuputok ko na...taena..."

Ramdam na ramdam niya ang paninigas ng katawan ni BD...tanda na nilabasan na nga ito... ilang minuto na sumubsob sa may leeg niya ang mukha ni Boy Dubai. Pareho silang hinihingal.

Pumuwesto ito sa may tagiliran niya at saka siya niromansa habang nagjajakol siya para siya naman ang labasan.

Maya maya ay nanigas na din ang knyang mga binti at bumilis ang pag bayo sa pag aari niya hanggang sa labasan siya....

Humilata sila sa kama na pawis na pawis. Natatawa sila nun magkatinginan. "Grabe lang ha"...

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Babala: HINDI NA MAHALAY ANG PART NA ITO. 

LOL


"im hungry..." bulong ni Emm.

"halika, kain tayo sa jollibee..."

"sige, bihis na tayo. Nag shower lang sila ng mabilisan at saka gumayak na.

"napanood mo na ang Fault in Our stars?" tanong niya kay BD

"hindi pa tagal ko na gusto panoodin yun ala lang makasama. Bakit gusto mo ba? sige tara! last full show tayo!" excited na aya ni BD sa knya.

"e kala ko gutom tayo?" natatawa niyang tanong

"magdala nalang sa loob ng sinehan!" bilis na sagot ng kausap niya.

11:30 pm ang last full show nung gabing yun, wala pang alas onse nun dumating sila kaya naman nagka time pa sila kumain. KFC ang napili dahil wala jollibee dun.

Si BD ang umorder at ang nagbayad dahil siya na ang bumili ng tickets nila. Fair enough. Masaya sila sa loob ng sinehan. Nagkakasundo sila at nagkakatinginan kapag naka focus ang camera sa mukha at lips ni Augustus Waters.

Sabay kasi silang kinikilig. LOL

Pinagtatawanan siya ni BD dahil nakita nitong umiiyak nun matapos ang movie.

Hindi pa agad umuwi si Boy Dubai, sa halip ay sumama itong muli sa flat niya. Agad na humilata sa kama niya kahit sinabi niyang late na masyado at kelangan pa niya mamilantsa ng isusuot na uniform para sa work niya kinabukasan.

"o bakit ang sarap ng higa mo diyan sa bed ko?" aniya

"round 2 pa tayo di ba?" sabay kindat nito sa knya na natatawa.

"round 2 ka jan. Saka na noh! may ilang araw ka pa naman dito. Don't worry bago ka bumalik ng dubai iisa pa tayo" sagot niya.

"hindi lang iisa...dadalawa pa tayo noh" assurance pa nito sa knya na tinawanan niya ng malakas.

Nun matapos mamilantsa ay tumabi siya kay DB sa kama at yumakap ito sa knya ng mahigpit. Gusto niya kayakap ang lalakeng ito. He's sweet. Ramdam pati nila ang chemistry ng isa't isa.

Ngunit batid ni Emm na in about 3 days ay aalis na ito at babalik sa work niya dun. Monthly ang magiging pagkikita nila. napag alaman din niya na may GF ito sa Dubai.

"buntis siya. kaya uuwi na siya sa pinas this coming JULY..." nakwento ni BD na parang kaswal na kaswal lang.

"hala! e di mag papakasal na kayo?" sabi ni Emm na nagulat sa revelation na iyon.

"hindi a. bakit kami papakasal?"

"aba natural, buntis pala e!"

"hindi a. at saka malay ko ba if akin nga yun." mariin nitong sagot sa kanya. Nagulat siya dahil parang lumalabas na hindi faithful ang GF niya? kaloka lang if ganun. Pero gayunpaman ay wala na siya paki dun. Dahil para kay Emm, ito ay isang panandaliang pag lilibang lamang.

"add kita sa FB ha? tanong ni Emm na agad naman inaccept nito.

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Habang nakaduty ng 2-10pm ay ka chat pa din niya si BD sa phone.

"pa out ka na?" anito.

"oo alas diyes"

"kumain ka naba?" tanong ni BD

"hindi pa, nag bread lang ako kanina mga 6pm"

"tara kain tayo sa Jollibee pag out mo sa work" aya ni BD

Nagulat si Emm, napangiti at medyo may kilig. Di na siya magdedeny pa. Umoo siya at sinabing magkita nalang sila dun sa place at magpapahatid na lamang siya sa driver niya.

Naka scrub pa siya nun dumating sa Jollibee branch na pinag usapan nila. Naka shorts at sneakers si BD nun magkita sila.

"anong gusto mo kainin?" tanong nito.

Iniorder siya nito at naghanap na sila ng table.

"naks nanlilibre ha." biro niya kay DB.

"ok lang, ako naman nagyaya e..."

Masaya silang nagkukuwentuhan habang kumakain. Sumama pa nga mag grocery sa supermarket nearby sa bahay niya si DB. Masarap siya kasama. Naisip ni Emm, or pwde din naman na naiinip lang ito at wala mrahil maaya kasama mag dinner kaya siya inimbitahan.

Hanggang sa dumating ang araw ng flight ni DB pabalik ng dubai. Hindi na sila nakapag make love pa ulit after nun first encounter nila. Hindi na kasi pumayag si Emm dahil pagod siya sa work kaya he passed muna.

Nag send ng message sa Wechat si BD na nagpapasalamat.

"see you next time Emm. Thank you ulet".

Sardinas Boy

Nakaupo ako gilid ng kama ko at nasa harap ng laptop, may pinapanood na documentary nun lumapit siya sa bandang likuran ko. He started to touch my shoulder and to my back...medyo nakiliti ako...mamasahihin daw nya ako. It was noon, we just had our lunch which my sister prepared for us.

That's sometime in January 2013.

Masarap siya mag-massage. Masarap ang bawat hagod ng mga kamay niya sa likuran ko. Napapa ungol ako ng mahina, iniiwasan marinig nun mga tao sa labas. Hindi pa naman naka-lock ang pinto ng bedroom. Hindi naman kami mag boyfriend kaya walang rason para mag isip ako ng anu mang sekswal.

Makalipas ang ilang minuto mas lumapit pa siya sa akin. Ramdam ko ang hininga nya sa bandang batok ko. Dini-dimonyo ata ako nitong ungas na toh a naisip ko.

"sarap naman ng masahe mo..nakaka turn on tuloy..." biro ko pa sa knya.

"talaga? e di tinitigasan ka na?" tukso pa niya.

"slight..." sabi ko.

Automatic na nilandas ng mga kamay niyang nagmamasahe sa likod ko kanina ang path pababa sa may pag aari ko...hinihimas himas na niya. Wala na me nasabi agad. Lalo itong nanigas sa pagkaka hawak nya. Hinimas nya lalo ang ulo habang nasa loob pa din ito ng shorts ko.

"ayan, tigas na tigas na toh a..." narinig ko nalang na sabi nya habang nakapuwesto pa din siya sa likuran ko.

"ikaw kasi e...gustong gusto tuloy nya..." bulong ko pa.

Nararamdaman ko din ang pag subsob nya sa mga batok at leeg ko...halos yakap na niya ko mula sa likod habang hawak pa din ang ang pag aari ko. Aamin ko gusto ko ang mga ginagawa niyang pagte-take advantage sa bubot kong katawan. Charot. Maka-take advantage naman daw ako e noh. hahaha.

Namalayan ko na lang na ipinasok na nya ang kamay nya sa loob ng shorts at brief ko. Diretso sa nag hihintay na katigasan sa loob at sa balls ko. Napasinghap ako sa mainit na palad nya na dumakma sa hubad na laman sa loob. Pigil na pigil ko ang ungol. Nasasarapan ako ateh charo.

"bawal ilabas ha, hanggang loob lang siya ng brief haha" sabi ko nalang. Baka kasi ano pa mangyari.

"bakit? bawal makita?" tanong nya.

"oo. hanggang hawak ka lang" dagdag ko pa. Wala lang. Sinabi ko lang yun haha. I always wanted in control kasi. Maisipan ko lang na bawal itong ganito, itong ganun, dapat sundin yun. LOL

"daya naman!" reklamo nya

Ako naman ang humawak sa naninigas din niyang ari. Nagulat ako kasi ang taba nito. "parang malaki toh a shet!" bulalas ko.

Lalo ko pang dinama ng maigi sa mga palad ko ang pagkalalaki niya sa loob ng shorts. Hanggang sa di ako makuntento at ipinasok ko na din sa loob ang sabik kong palad. Mataba talaga....malaki ang ulo. Mushroom na mushroom! hihihi

"patingin...ibaba mo shorts mo" utos ko sa knya na natatawa.

"ayoko nga, ikaw nga ayaw mo ilabas yung sa 'yo e!" pagmamatigas nya. kaya naman lumapit ako at hinila pababa ang underwear nya na wala na siyang nagawa haha.

Tumambad sa akin ang may di kahabaang pag aari nya pero grabe sa taba! Nakakatakot ito sa taba. Kapag inupuan ko yun for sure duduguin ako! LOL! (T.M.I!!!)

"bakit ganyan kalaki yan????" bulalas ko

"hindi naman a... OA ka mac!!!"

"malaki talaga! hongtaba niyan! grabe ka! magdiet ka na nga ng mabawasan ang girth niyan. Buti may napayag na magpa-fuck sa yo ever!!! Dahil ako never mo matitikman now pa na nakita ko na yang manoy mo!" irap ko pa.

"kaya mo toh..." pangungulit pa nya.

"nooooo". sabay iwas ko sa knya na natatawa. Ayoko talaga. Manigas siya kahit isubo di ko gagawin sa etits nyang yun! baka magkanda duwal duwal at mapunit pa ang kissable kong lips! at makipot kong mouth! charrr

"mas malaki pa yan sa nakasex kong may asawa sa Dowha noh! kala ko yun na ang Sardinas Boy ko, pero tinalo mo siya!!!!Ikaw na ang title holder! hahaha"

Mataba talaga na parang sa sardinas tapos yun head ang laki parang sa mushroom hihihi.

Tawa siya ng tawa habang sinasabi ko yun. Muli niya akong niyakap na may panggigil. Gustong gusto ko kapag malapit yun katawan niya sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung ano sasabihin ko sa knya. I want to keep him. Pero paano na yung paniniwala ko sa di nag wowork na long distance relationship. Ayoko na ng LDR at vocal din siya na ayaw nya.

Kaya naman kinimkim ko nalang yun mga saloobin na gusto ko sabihin sa knya. Gustong gusto ko siya. At somehow nagwi-wish ako na sana kumbinsihin nya akong maniwala muli sa LDR...pero nabigo ako. Wala akong narinig na kahit ano.

Alam kong pareho kami ng nararamdaman. Alam kong in-synch ang gusto namin sabihin sa isa't isa. Pero nanatiling tikom ang mga bibig namin sa pag tatapat ng mga feelings na ito.

Umalis ako ng Pinas na dala dala ang mga alaala nun umagang magkayakap kami at maligayang magkasama the whole night at yun nag iisang moment kung saan madalian ko hinalikan ang mga labi niya bago pa siya makapag react nun hapong iyon na agad din naman niya ginantihan ng kapwa nag aalab na halik.


Kaya nyo ba hulaan kung sino siya? may premyo na external hard drive din. Charot! hahaha

Morning Wood

I decided to share to you the guys that I've met and made my vacation last December 2012 memorable. ito ang aking December Boys series (oh diba parang teleserye lang! hehehe).

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Babala: Mahalay.

December Boys II: Si Dee

Tagal umalis ng dalawang bisita ko nun gabing yun. Gusto ko na sila itaboy pauwi. May inaasahan akong darating. Usapan na kasi namin ni Dee na magkikita kami that night. Ilang gabi ng napostponed ang much awaited na pag stay nya sa condo na nirentahan ko dahil lagi akong may bisita or lagi may nakikitulog with me.

Sa kabuuan ng stay ko sa Shaw Residenza ay halos hindi ako nawawalan ng bisitang bloggers and readers. Nakakataba lang ng puso na madaming gusto ako makachikahan. Kala nila kasi keganda ko! LOL

Matagal ko na ka chat si Dee maski nun nasa Dowha pa ko, nurse siya at ang cute nya lang at tisoy na tisoy pa...medyo nagkakalandian na kami sexually haha kaya naman matagal na ko naglalaway kanya. Nakailan send na siya ng pictures ng pututoy niya pati video na may lumalabas na kung ano ay catched na catched ng camera hihihi. May apartment siya sa Makati .

Nun finally umalis na ang dalawa kong natitirang bisita ay nag send na ko sa knya ng message sa Whatsapp na pwde na siya pumunta. Alas dose na yun ng hatinggabi. Kaso walang reply. Hanggang sa nagpasya na ko mahiga ng bigo.

Hanggang sa magising ako sa isang tawag sa cellphone ko. Ala Una Y medya ng umaga. Si Dee. Nakatulog na daw siya sa pag iintay sa akin na papuntahin siya. Tinatanung niya kung pupunta pa ba daw siya. Sabi ko kung may masasakyan kapa ay okay lang sa akin. Magta-taxi daw siya. Sinabi ko sa knya ang name ng building at ang unit number ko.

Na-excite ako! Buti nalang nakaligo na ko! hihihi! Tagal ko na siyang gusto makita. Pero nagtataka ako sa sarili ko nun bakasyon kong yun nun December, wala ako sa mood makipagsex. Promise. Sabi ng friends ko, menopause na daw ako. Pwera biro.

Hanggang sa maka-received ako ng tawag sa receptionist.

"Sir, Mister Dee is here for you..."

"Ok. Let him in.." sagot ko.

Sa isip isip ko, ano kaya nasa isipan ng receptionist nun makita si Dee at that time of the night haha. Baka akala niya callboy or masahista ko si Dee! hihihih! kung alam lang niya! Asindero siya sa bandang Mindanao!

Nun makarinig ako ng doorbell medyo nagpanic ako! kabado! Bumaba ako ng hagdan at sinilip siya sa peephole. Si Dee na nga. Shet.

Pinagbuksan ko siya ng pinto at nasilayan ko ang matagal ko ng nakikita sa mga pictures lamang. Naka black siyang shirt at naka black din na cargo shorts at naka tsinelas. Matangkad. Nasa 5'8 ata. Maputi nga talaga siya. Cute. Mabango. Nakangiti siya ng pagkatamis tamis at agad akong kinamayan!

"Nice to meet you Mac! kamusta ka na?" maengganyo niyang bati sa akin. Hindi na ko nailang sa knya. Kasi alam ko sushalero tong ungas na toh e. He's friendly and madaldal kasi. Nag kwentuhan lang kami ng saglit sa living room and niyaya ko na siya sa naghihintay kong bedroom.

Iniisip ko nun una pano gagawin ko pag nag initiate siya na gusto nya may mangyari sa amin. Ayoko pa naman makipagsex ngayon. Menopause nga di ba?! LOL

Nakabukas ang bintana sa bedroom ko at pumapasok ang liwanag na galing sa buwan nun pinatay ko na ang ilaw...nasa 18th floor ang unit ko kaya naman kay ganda pagmasdan ng view sa labas. May munting siwang ng liwanag na nanggagaling sa bahagyang nakasaradong banyo sa dulo. Tamang tama lamang ang ganitong liwanag sa isip isip ko.

Ayoko kasi ng lights on at ayaw ko din naman ng sobrang dilim. Yun sakto lang. Yun may nakikita pa din ako kahit papano...teka bakit ko nga ba iniisip toh e ayaw ko nga pala magsex kami. LOL

Sinumbatan nya ko na naghanda daw siya ng dinner for me then i cancelled it too late na dahil may biglaan lakad with friends sa makati. Sayang lang daw preparation nya. I apologized kasi di ko naman alam na may ganun pala siyang plano. haha. Kala ko sex lang talaga!

Masarap kakwentuhan si Dee. Kung saan saan napunta ang usapan naming dalawa mula sa buhay buhay namin, sa mga travels niya, sa mga boylet ko, sa mga bloggers etc...Nakahiga kami habang parehong nakatingin sa madilim na kisame. Para lang kami nagdedate sa isip ko. kaibahan lang ay nasa loob kami ng kwarto ko...Actually nag enjoy ako kausap siya. Ilang oras yata kami daldal ng daldal at nagtatawanan.

Halos mag aalas singko na ata yun nun magpasya kami matulog na. Nakayakap ako sa knya at hindi naman siya tumanggi. Hawak ko ang kamay niya. Holding hands kami. Sarap lang.

Amoy na amoy ko ang mabango niyang batok at leeg...masaya ako na kasama at kayakap ko siya hanggang sa makatulog na kami.

Nagising ako ng bahagya nun may araw na...mag aalas syete na ata yun ng umaga na niyayakap ako ni Dee mula sa likod ko. Siya naman ang yumakap sa akin this time. Pero may napansin ako. Ramdam ko ang hard on niya sa bandang likod ko...ramdam ko din na idinidiin niya ito ng bahagya para mapansin ko.

Matigas na matigas...

Alam na alam ko itsura nito. Ilang beses ko ng nakita sa mga pictures...memoryado ko na nga ata bawat ugat  e hehe.

Nakakaturn on. Shet. Nililibugan siya. Sino ba ang hindi. Its early in the morning. hehe. Morning wood. Sinalubong ko ng kapwa diin din nun sadya niyang ikiskis sa likuran ko ang pag aari niya. Humarap ako sa kanya. Kusang bumaba ang kamay ko pahawak sa naninigas niyang pagkalalaki...

Galit na galit na. Sabi ko sa knya.

Natawa siya. OO nga e.

Saglit lang.

Tumayo ako para mag toothbrush. At muling bumalik sa kama. This time sa ibabaw niya. Idiniin ko din ang hard on ko sa hard on nya. Napaungol kaming pareho...

Hinalikan ko ang leeg niya...earlobes na nagpa ungol lalo sa knya...sinubukan nya pigilan ang ginagawa ko sa sobrang kiliti pero ikinulong ko ang dalawa niyang kamay sa mga kamay ko sa may ulunan niya. Para ko siyang bihag...para akong....

Rapist!

Charrr!

Natawa ako sa naisip ko. Pero kung titignan nga naman para ko siyang nilalafa! Nilalafa? aswang! TOINK!

Pero keribels na. Masarap naman siya kaya gora na! and besides, willing victim naman si Dee e! hehe. Kinis niya... gigil na gigil ako...hindi ako nagsawa pagsuck sa magkabila niyang pinkish na nipples. sinusubukan nya ko sabunutan kaso semikalbo ako kaya sa kilay ko nalang siya humawak. charot.

Halos mabaliw na siya nun bumaba ang mga labi ko sa may pusod niya...sadya ko siyang binitin...gusto ko magsawa sa katawan niya ng matagal...

Hanggang sa buksan ko ang button ng cargo shorts nya...tumambad sa akin ang nagngangalit niyang pag aari sa loob ng brief niya...hinawakan ko ito ng may panggigigil...madiin... para akong naglalamas ng masa ng pandesal hahaha.

galit na galit...tigas na tigas na siya...nakikita ko na nabasa na ng precum niya ang underwear nya...sinubo ko ito ng nasa loob ng saplot niya...napaigtad siya...

lumalabas na sa loob ng garter ng brief ang ulo ng etits niya. Tinukso tukso ko ito ng dila ko...hanggang sa ilabas ko na si manoy ng tuluyan sa pinagtataguan niya...agad ko itong isinubo ng buong buo...LOL

OO. ako na hayok. charrrr

Halos mabaliw na si Dee sa ginagawa ko. Hindi na siya mapakali....lalo ko pang pinagbuti ang pagsamba sa knya.

Gustong gusto ko lang yun nasa pagitan ako ng legs niya, nakabukaka...nagpapaubaya...nasa gitna ng katawan niya...habang nakataas ang mga kamay niya sa headboard ng kama...ang sexy lang tignan...

At napakawalangya niya, di niya sinabi na lalabasan na siya! sambot na sambot tuloy ng bibig ko lahat ng shumod niya!!!! napa ewwwww ako ng slight! haha. first ko makatikim ng shumod! Mainit init...slimy...mejo may alat ng slight. LOL. Pero since nasambot ko na, no choice na para magprotesta. Hinayaan ko nalang na na mailabas niya lahat.

Saka ako tumakbo sa banyo para idura sa baso at ilagay sa fridge. mamaya ko iinumin. lagyan ko ng sugar later. charot!

Nagtoothbrush ako at nag gargle ng listerine at muling nahiga sa tabi ni Dee. Yumakap ako ng mahigpit sa knya at hinalik halikan siya ng slight. hehe.

Nakaisa pa kami bago siya tuluyan umuwi nun mga 9am na ata hahaha. Ang libog lang ng lokong yun! Till now magka Whatsapp pa din kami at kinokontrata ko na siya ulit sa November haha payag naman si Mokong!



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December Boys I

Naked Soul

I was bored last time and I BBM'd Gian who's also waiting for my invitation for a week now.

I've told him he can come over tonight. I don't have anything to do and decided to invite him. Me and Gian both knew what's coming.

Sex.

That's the only thing we have. I don't see him as someone I could love...I don't know what he feels. I never asked him. Maybe I'm afraid for what he might say. I don't wanna hurt him. So I better not ask. Its safer this way.

Maybe i invited him tonight so that I could see once again or prove to myself that I could...that I should...

Besides, he already have an idea what we are. Fuck mate. Taga kamot ng pangangati. Shit, thats sound so bad. LOL

When he arrived, after a short conversation I closed down the curtains and turned off the lights and left the bathroom lights on.

I was on top of him...kissing him...gently...i was trying to feel something when my lips touched his. The kiss intensified, deeply and harder. I felt he hugged me tighter. Almost squeezing my body...

In between these moments I was still analyzing what Gian means to me...I continued kissing him some more...

We paused and catched our breath to remove our clothing...i felt his naked body under mine...it was warm. I always love this kind of feeling, being with another man. Skin to skin. Naked body to another naked soul. Will always miss this kind of feeling....

He was sucking my nipples and I literally holding on to his hairs...when he went down there I moaned. It felt so good.... Gian is always good on this department. I have no match for him.

When its time for me to return the favor, I was ashamed of my performance haha. But I tried so hard...i did! So lame!

He asked me to positioned my self on top of his chest and have my manhood straight on his mouth...I remembered pounding his mouth so hard that he almost choked.

Our body became one. The room was filled with his moans and whispers...I was trying to enjoy the moment.....I don't know what happened, I suddenly felt, blank...

He noticed. He asked. I said, go on. Can you cum now?

He asked: what about you?

I answered: Don't mind me. You go ahead.

No. Lets cum together. I'll wait for you. Gian begging.

But I'm not in the mood anymore. I lost interest. I just want to get it over with and take a shower and sleep. I feel sorry for Gian. He don't deserved me. He's a fine man.

Gian tried to get me back in the mood again. I pretend.

I have no idea why this happened. One minute i was on fire and the next minute, I was bored. is this a start of the menopausal stage? nireregla pa naman ako a? LOL.

I lost the erection. Gian tried to wake him up. I said: stop it... I'll jerk you off and you can cum now...

He told me he cannot cum without holding a dick or something while jerking. Hmm, that's weird. Pinagbigyan ko siya...we're both lying on the bed naked on this dark and cold room...was jerking each other....till I've heard his soft moans...arching his body...i tried to move my hand faster....harder this time...I could feel his manhood almost exploding on my grip...his breathing became faster...and his moans louder...

"I'm cumming..."

Felt the warm liquids dripping down my hand. Gian kissed me. I cleaned my hands with the tissue on the floor. Entered the bath room and took a shower.

Gian followed after I'm done. I told him to get dressed.

Are you done? you wanna go now? I asked.

Yes.

I walked him to the door, and kissed him to the cheek.

I went straight to my bed and hugged my pillows and stared at the dark ceiling of my room.

Galugad

Yung tipong hahalikan ka...yung torrid...nakakalunod na halik...nakakaubos ng hangin...

Halik na pababa...

Pababa sa leeg...

Sa dibdib...

Sa pusod...

Mapapaigtad ka kapag nasa singit mo na ang mainit init niyang mga labi.

Mapanukso, yun paligid muna ang didilaan niya...isusubo niya itlog mo, at yun pagdila niya sa ilalim nito ang muling magpapaungol sa iyo ng malakas.

Hanggang sa bigla siyang dadako sa pagkalalaki mo...bigla niyang isusubo lahat lahat....sagad...

Mapapahawak ka sa buhok nya bilang paghanap ng makakapitan...

Wala siyang pinalampas na parte ng maseselang bahagi ng katawan mo.

Ultimo butas ng pagkatao mo didilaan niya...

Sarap na sarap ka...halos mag deliryo ka na sa sarap...

Hanggang sa huminto siya...

Umakyat muli pataas...

Pataas at muling humalik sa mga labi mo!

Yes!

Sarap!

From pwet to your lips!

Toink!

Afternoon Delight

The kiss escalated to something else and we were both on fire that afternoon...i was catching on my breath...it was a great kiss or I just missed it?! He started to go down on my chest...sucked them...before I knew it...he's pulling my pants down. And he's on junior! LOL

I was so shy of my body that I started to hid them with my fingers and tried to put on my pants again.

"Wait Gian, I need to close the curtains..."

I'm not really fit and it sucks that we're doing this on broad day light! LOL

"No, I don't mind. Just stay here and let me kiss you again."

I didn't listen and stood up. I am not a fan of morning or afternoon sex. I find it unromantic. I like my sex to be dark and romantic...with red lights or candles... But I have no choice Gian arrived early today and he's hot as hell!

So I picked up my darkest curtain that's available on my cabinet and pulled a chair and stood on it to reach the curtain rod on my window. As I stood there, I felt him on my back and stroking my legs and my half erected penis...it was so good that I moaned with pleasure...I cannot concentrate on what I am doing on the rod! He pulled down my pants again while I am still standing on the chair and started touching my penis.

He positioned himself in front of me and started sucking me...I was lost right that moment...I grabbed the curtain rod so tight for support...Oh Lord...I have never been sucked while standing on a chair and in front of my window before...it was hot!

Good thing I did not fall! LOL

Gian was a great lover, he never missed a spot! he even licked my armpitt! Napagod ata ako kaka-ungol shet!

I'm ashamed to admit that I'm not as good as him. But damn he's a performer! LOL

"Do you have a condom?"

"Yes I have..."

"How come you have a condom?"

"Boy scout ako. Laging handa! I bought them before you arrived. I run to the supermarket like a mad man!"

We both laughed!



and the rest was history...

Bleh!



After the hot sex we we're hugging each other and kissing once again. This time its slower...we're taking our time...

We slept on a spooning position. He held my hand as if he don't wanna missed them.

Three hours have passed and the alarm clock rang and I watched him get dressed. I have work later and he needs to go. "do you really have to go to work Mac?" he asked.

Yes I need to.

I walked him to the door and said good bye.

The next day, he's still keeping in touch with me. BBM-ing me like how am I doing and if I had my dinner already, and I miss you, hope to see you soon kind of stuffs... I am not expecting those. I thought its just a one night stand errr one afternoon stand! LOL

I don't mind actually. I'm single. He's single. I might as well give this a shot. Who knows, he might be a great guy to be with, but its still too early. Let's say I'm just enjoying what's on my plate right now. No expectations or whatsoever.

Itchy-nest

Long time ago, lets say about hmmm, year 2005...there was a slutty-all-the-time-horny-gay-guy around the province of Laguna who pick up guys over the internet. He get to hook up with different guys every week and take them to a nearest motel room. Its like a sexual revolution. A hunger.

That quest for the ultimate pleasure last for more than a year before he actually realized...he needs a good man to love him.

And that guy was ME.

That's the time when I was just discovering who I am. Fresh from admitting to myself, that the charade, and the pretending I'm a straight-guy drama have to stop. It was liberating indeed. Finally admitting and accepting who you are. Believe me. Denying who you are...very stressful.

Going back to what I'm saying. Back in 2005, I was like insatiable. Sex was driving me crazy that I need to get laid all the time! Kahit sino na lang. SEB dito- SEB doon.

I am a changed man now. Pagka-tino-tino ko ngayon. Pagka-hinhin ko na now. Charot!

Henywayz, I met this guy named Vincent. He's also from Laguna. He's tall and moreno looking. Medyo nabaduyan ako sa get up niya. Parang poorita sabi ko. Bad!!!

Pero keribels na. Mas mahalaga e he knows how to suck my dick. And he's as horny as I am. That's what matters then.

I like tall and lean guys...I always imagine them to have big dicks. Ewan ko ba! and I was right about him. When he stripped down his pants, leaving his body with just his white briefs...I almost gasps as soon as the outline of his manhood became visible. I swear, its big. Like 8 inches long!

The biggest so far from all the guys that I bed with. Balbon din siya. Hairs from his chest goes down to his sexy navel and ends inside his underwear. Para akong dinidemonyo sa libog nun sa pag iimagine kung ano itsura nun loob ng brief. I love hairy guys...Mas mab*lb0l mas trip ko! Haroooot! LOL

The kiss was a turn off...his breath was awful. It was really bad. I wanna back out but its too late. Whenever he tried to kiss me, I swear, I was like dying. I don't wanna offend him that's why I just pretend that I'm a bad kisser so that he could stop kissing me na!

His lips went down to my throat, to my neck and I almost screamed with pleasures when he sucked my earlobes...In my mind, di bale, I'll just get a very good shower after this and get rid of his saliva!

Oh, wag kayo maduwal! LOL

He sucked my d*ck pretty good. I moaned and was arching my body with every sucked he did through my balls...

His hard and long d*ck feels really good on my hands...warm. Thick. I was amazed actually. I don't know how to put it all inside my mouth! chos!

I tried though.

After two hours we're both running out of breath and rest for a bit and I immediately took a shower and get dressed. Just said a short thank you and headed out of the door. I didn't make any effort to contact him again.

Its just sex anyway. I'm gonna get a new guy next time I thought.

Days passed by and I was goin on with my usual routine when I noticed something. I was feverish. Irritable. And the itching started.

Inside my genitals...

At first, I ignored it. Thought its nothing. Guys scratch their balls right?LOL. But as days goes on it became worst. The itchiness inside my genitals wont stop. It felt like something was there.

I also noticed some brownish dots and stains on my underwear. Lots and lots of them. Kala ko libag! Nandiri pa nga ko sa sarili ko sabi ko ang tubal ko naman! LOL

When I was scratching down there again...my fingers came across and touched something...something rough. Like a dead cells. I pulled it out...

I checked it out...examined what am holding...and to my surprised!

It has legs and looked like a small crab! and Its jumping too!

Until I realized what it was!!!



I have crabs!!!




OMG!

Pubic lice! Its STD!!!

and those small dots are their eggs! kadiri! my pubes are their breeding ground!

Taena! Napamura talaga ako nun ma-realized ko kung ano yun at pano ako nagkaroon nun! I felt shame. I felt bad. Didn't know what to do. I was scared. I don't have any idea how to get rid of those things inside my pubic hairs! Lago-lago pa naman dun! LOL

Good thing about working at the hospital is you have access to its services. I have friends on every department. Specially resident doctors. I discreetly approached doctor Mike at the ER back then.

Minura nya ko nun matapos ko sabihin sa knya problema ko. He advised and referred me to a specialist. I refused. Nahihiya ako e. I asked him to give me anything.

He prescribed me a medicated shampoo that I could buy at any mercury branches. Its for head lice he said. He said that I should try it first and if it fails I have no other choice but to go to a specialist to have it treated. It costs me 500 pesos at the time.

Natawa pa nga ako nun binibili ko yun, kasi nakatingin sakin ng weird yun attendant sa mercury kasi skinhead ang buhok ko and yet nabili ako ng shampoo for kuto! haha.

As soon as I got the shampoo. I locked myself inside the bathroom and sat on the bowl and poured water on my pubic hairs and wore a condom on my penis and plastered it with a micropore to protect its head from getting irritations from the strong chemicals that I'm about to use. #takot!

I poured the shampoo on it and prayed it'll work. The instructions said let it stick there for about 15 minutes before I rinse it water.

And thank GOD!!! After 3 days of treating it, the irritations, the itching...and the eggs goes away. Minura ko si Vincent thru text for giving me STD! Fuck him.

After that...I slowed down on having sex every week. Ginawa ko nalang twice a month! LOL

Naging Gago Ka Na Ba?

Naranasan mo na bang iyakan ang isang tao sa takot na iiwan ka na niya? Alam mo ba kung gaano kasakit yun ganun pakiramdam?

Naranasan mo na bang magsisi at humiling sa diyos na ibalik niya yun pagmamahal na nawala sa yo?

Marahil yun iba... at marahil, marami din sa atin, hindi pa...



Hindi pa ako umiyak sa mga naging boyfriend ko ...

Pero si Brian noon...

Nun magkarelasyon pa kami...

Halos mahulog ang puso ko nun makita ko ang mga luha na tuloy-tuloy na tumulo sa mga mata nya nun araw na yun. Siyam na buwan tumagal ang relasyon namin 3 years ago.

Gaya ng dati, sa bahay namin ng spend ng weekend nya si Brian. Biyernes ng gabi darating siya dito sa amin sa Laguna. Ganito ang set up namin for the past months mula nun maging magboyfriend kami at mula nun ipakilala ko siya sa family ko. Kapag hindi siya dumarating ng Biyernes, magtataka ang tatay ko, magtatanung ang sister.

Baka inaway mo na naman! yan ang madalas paratang nila sa akin.

Mahal ko siya at mahal nya ako.

Matagal ko ipinagdasal na magkaroon nang ka-partner na mamahalin ako. Nagpaka faithful ako sa kanya.

Hindi ako nagtaksil. Hindi ako nanlalake....lalong hindi ako nambabae...charot! Takot ako sa karma. Naniniwala kasi ako na kapag may ginawa kang kabalbalan sa iba, nanloko ka ng kapwa mo...asahan mo, kung hindi man ngayon, darating ang araw...lolokohin ka din...pagtataksilan ka din...ng doble-doble'ng sakit na ibinigay mo sa taong ginawan mo ng di maganda.

Nasa living room kami ng bahay namin. Kami lang ang tao sa bahay. Pabalik na siya ng Manila nun kasi lunes na kinabukasan, nag aaral pa siya ng Nursing. Masaya ang kwentuhan hanggang sa gaya ng ibang couple, may pinagtalunan kami.

Nauwi sa away. Dominante ako..ayaw ko nagpapatalo sa diskusyunan....submissive si Brian. Pero matigas ang ulo niya. Mainitin ang ulo ko.

Proud ako. Mayabang. Madalas gusto ko nate-test ang boyfriend ko kung mahal ba niya ako. At kapag alam kong mahal na mahal nila ako, adik ako. Gusto ko lagi ko nakikita yun extent ng pagmamahal na yun.

Gago ako.

Masarap sa pakiramdam kapag kaya nila gawin ang lahat para sa akin. Oo mali. Pero dati dun ko ibinabatay ang extent ng pagmamahal na ibibigay ko din in return.

Sigurista ako. Gusto ko makita ko muna na mahal mo ko bago ko ibigay sayo ang sarili ko. Pero kahit ganun ako dati at ewan ko lang kung pati ngayon, masasabi ko...nagmahal ako ng todo.

Mahal na mahal ko siya.

Nun mainit na ang pagtatalo namin...at hindi masunod ang gusto ko. Naghamon ako ng hiwalayan...

Nasabi ko na ba na mayabang nga ako?

Oo, ayun mayabang ko siyang hinamon...matiim kong inabangan ang isasagot ni Brian...kung ano magiging reaksyon nya sa mga katagang binitawan ko.

Natigilan siya.

"Mac, wag naman..."

"E ayaw mo di ba? o e di panindigan mo yan..." sagot ko sa knya, blanko ang ekspresyon ng mukha ko.

"hindi ko kaya..." namumula na mga mata niya nun.

Gusto ko ngumiti. Pero pinigilan ko. Tagumpay. Sabi ng isip ko. Narinig ko ang mga inaasahan kong kataga.

Pero dahil masyado nga akong obsessed...pinanindigan ko na ang lahat...gusto ko magmakaawa siya. Gusto ko sabihin niya sa kin kung gano niya ako kamahal.

Nakahiga ako sa sofa nun...nakaupo sa may paanan ko si Brian. Tahimik. Hindi nakibo. Nagpretend ako'ng nanonood ng TV.

"Mac...ano na...?" sinagi nya ang binti ko.

"Umuwi ka na. Lakad umalis ka na."

"Ayaw ko umalis na galit ka...wag ka naman ganyan oh..."

"Tapos na tayo. Lakad na. Ingat ka nalang, wag mo kalimutan isara ang pinto paglabas mo".

Tumitig siya sa akin. Kitang kita ko kung gaano unti unti tumulo ang mga luha niya. Tuloy-tuloy.Parang talon. Namumula na ilong niya.

"Wag mo ko iyakan. Baka pumasok si Tatay dito. Umayos ka nga!" mahinahon at madiin kong sabi.


Oo alam ko sasabihin nyo, walangya ako!
Yeah I'm not proud of it.


"Umalis ka na". yan ang huli kong sinabi.

Suminga siya sa panyo niya at sinubukan patigilin ang pag iyak. Nagpapahid pa siya ng luha nun tumayo at saka tumingin sa akin. Lumabas na siya. Narinig ko ang pagsara ng pinto.

Nakaramdam ako ng matinding guilt. Sumobra ata ako. Pero nakalimutan ko sabihin sa inyo na ma-pride ako'ng tao. Gago nga ako nun e!

Getz nyo na ba?

Ilan minuto pa. Nag-aabang na ng jeep si Brian. Narinig ko ang boses ng tatay ko. Naririnig kong nag uusap sila saglit. Sa ilang buwan na nag stay si Brian sa amin, naging malapit na siya sa sis ko at sa tatay ko.

"Bakit hindi mo man lang ihinahatid ng sakay yun tao sa labas ha?" sabi ni tatay sa kin. "bakit parang naiyak yun? nag away ba kayo?" dagdag pa niya.

"basta". yun lang ang tugon ko.

"Ke-bait-bait nun batang yun, inaaway mo. wala na nga tumagal na kaibigan sa iyo e..." sabi pa nya saka lumabas sa may likod bahay.

Para naman akong natauhan bigla. Nagpanic ako. Pano kapag hindi na siya magmakaawa ulit? pano kung hindi na niya ako kulitin makipagbalikan sa knya? pano kung magsawa na siya sa pag-ugali kong imposible?

Mga tanong na kinatatakutan ko ang maaring maging sagot.

Wag kang gago Mac. Hiyaw ng isipan ko.

Nagpasya ako. Tumayo ako at tumakbo sa labas. Humihiling na sana hindi pa siya nakakasakay ng jeep.

"Brian! halika dito!" sigaw ko.

Pumasok siya sa bahay muli. Hinila ko papasok. Sa likod ng pintuan. Hinawakan ko ang mukha niya ng mga palad ko.

Hinalikan ko mga labi nya at sinabing "sorry...sorry... wag ka muna umalis..." saka ko siya muling siniil ng halik.

Hindi ko pinapakawalan ang mukha niya sa dalawa kong palad. Hinahalikan ko siya na parang wala ng bukas.

Gumanti siya ng halik. Mariin. Hinila ko siya papasok ng kwarto. Nasa labas lang si tatay. Magkalapat pa din ang mga labi namin. Dahan dahan ko siya hinubaran... inihiga sa kama...at saka dali-dali kong inalis ang lahat ng suot ko...saka muli siyang sinibasib ng halik...parang ayokong mawaglit sa katawan niya...gusto ko sa akin lang siya. Akin lang.

Para kaming nag aapoy pareho.

Para akong nadedemonyo.

Para akong mauubusan.

Mariin ang lahat ng haplos ko...nag iiwan ng marka sa maputi niyang balat.

Napapaungol si Brian sa pagkagat ko sa mapupula niyang dibdib. Napahawak siya sa ulo ko...naghahanap ng makakapitan...para siyang sasabog sa sarap....

Para akong rapist na nagmamadali...hayok...bigla ko siya itinagilid at pumuwesto ako sa may likuran niya...dahan-dahan...habang walang tigil sa pag niniig ang mga labi namin na tila uhaw. Halos magdugo ang mga labi niya sa diin ng bawat kagat at sipsip ko...

Napaungol siya nun lubusan ko na siyang mapasok...umuulos...naging mabilis ang bawat galaw ko....nagmamadali...

Sunibasib ko ng halik ang batok nya...mga tenga niya...habang madiin kong hawak ang kaliwa niyang dibdib mula sa likod....mapusok kami pareho nang sandaling yun. walang nagpapatalo...

Malalalim na ang bawat haplos...bawat ungos ko...bawat halik...nagmamadali...parang wala ng bukas...

Hanggang sa matapos ang digmaan ng aming mga katawan...saka ko siya niyakap ng mahigpit mula sa likod at isunubsob ang pagod at hinihingal kong mukha sa batok niya.

"mahal na mahal kita..." bulong ko bago tuluyan nakatulog na magkayakap.


Pagkalipas ng ilan buwan pa, naghiwalay kami ni Brian. Hindi na namin naayos this time. Malaki ang pagsisisi ko sa pagmamahal na pinabayaan at pinagsawalang bahala. Sa nakalipas na tatlong taon, nanatili kaming magkaibigan at sa bawat bakasyon ko sa Pilipinas. Lagi siyang andun. Nag-i-spend ng ilang araw makasama ako bago muling bumalik sa disyerto.




Listen to this amazing song. Been my favorite for a long time na...

Rejected

All signs leads to only one conclusion:

He's just not into me.

He's hiding on face book and if we're chatting, he would just leave, and won't take my calls every time I tried to talk to him. He's saying no indirectly on my invites to go out.

Yeah. I think R.A is rejecting me. I'm rejected. Lets say it all together now. Rejected.

Sa madaling sabi: Basted ang Mac...(insert hysteric cry...)

I wanna die.....

Chos!

So, I thought to myself. OK, fine, go on with your life and hang yourself when you can't take it anymore! hahaha.

Henywayz, due to stress, I've gained weight, slight :-) been eating too much lately. Been becoming emo lately too. Pero I know this shall pass too. All I need is a good porn! chos!

For 5 days, I've been avoiding R.A na, kung ayaw mo wag mo ang drama ko haha. Yes! Ampalaya ako! nuknukan ng pait!

Well, I'm trying to avoid him. Just being casual and polite towards him. I don't have a choice, I don't wanna be way too close with him and get hurt, right? So, I have to keep my distance and keep off the grass!LOL

Its funny seeing Darkguy and R.A and me on one ICU, working together...my past and my supposedly future! Toink!

(wala silang kamalay malay that Darkguy and me used to f*ck! take note: USED TO.)

My colleague told me that R.A asked him:

"galit sakin 'yang kasama mo noh? (refererring to me)"
(your partner hates me, isn't?)

O, di ba atleast kunyari affected siya!

Sigh, my love life sucks! Can someone just come along and save me? :-)

Jan na nga kayo makakanta nalang sa videoke ng I just need somebody to love ni justine bieber LOL

(Read related posts about R.A here)

A Promise To You

I was talking to him at the phone last Friday, he called me late night, and we were just flirting and making some cheesy talks toward each other. I enjoyed talking to him, it was like I was just talking to an old friend. Swak na swak kaming dalawa. The chemistry is undeniably present. We threw joke towards each other most of the time, making the atmosphere between us very light. I like him. Really like him.

But I was unsure what to do next, I just broke up from a relationship a few days ago haha, it would be too soon to enter a new one! But I know deep inside that I want this guy, Clayton. I want to keep him. Call it selfishness. I can see and feel that he would be a good boyfriend.

I was totally honest with him about my last relationship. About my job abroad. He even reads my blog. He's making plans of how its going to be when I get back to the middle east. He asked if he could send me gifts on holidays and special occasions etc, it made me smile. No one does that to me. As if he's ready to have this long distance relationship with me already...

Let's have sex tomorrow...I said casually. When? what time? he asked.

"So, are we what? Are we boyfriends now?" I was thankful he asked that question after a while, I wanted to ask him that myself but I was hesitant to, I don't want those words to come from me. I don't want him to think that he is my rebound guy. You guys might think. But to me he is not, I don't know why, but I just don't have any regrets or pain anymore about my previous relationship at all! Was it bad?LOL!

"Yes sir..." it just came out naturally from my mouth.

"Really Mac? I do have a new boyfriend now?" I felt the excitement from his voice. Atat? joke!

I was happy when we ended the call. I know I'm doing the right thing. I could see a happy gay relationship with him.

We've met last Saturday again, this time, officially, as a couple. "So, you're really my boyfriend now?" he asked again as if I changed my mind overnight. I was so excited seeing him again, I felt like I was also 21 years old haha. Feeling????! We had our snacks...we had some casual cheesy moment at the dining area and we could care less about what people thinks! Keber!

"why you're so cute today? What did you do huh???" I teased him and pinched his cheeks after I gave him a long kiss when we entered the motel room. I don't know but he suddenly became very cute to my eyes!haha

"Are we going to eat or are we going to fuck first tell me? haha" he joked around!

"Libog mo!!! come here and give me a hug..." he sat in front of me and I hugged him tightly and I kissed him tenderly till it became so passionate and it took longer than planned....

"Mac, promise me...we will make this work please...."

"I promise..." and took his lips again and again...

Bit his earlobes...traced the skin of his neck with my tongue...

And back to his lips again....hungrily

As if I'm running out of time...as if its our last night

When in fact we still have 11 hours to spare haha!!!

No More,No More

There was little light coming from the bathroom and the room was still dark, we're both on the bed and still naked. He was hugging me. This is the third time he shared my bed. I tried to kiss him, but he avoided my lips this time. I'm puzzled by his action, a while ago he was kissing me, responded to my kisses.

Why?whats wrong? I asked him.

"I haven't wash my mouth yet...and your mustache is a little painful on my lips..." he said

But I know he's lying. There's something more to it. So I guess he don't want kissing me after the sex, but during the sex its alright? WTF is that!!! Maybe in his mind he allowed a guy like me kissing him because he was delirious and so horny that time that its alright? but now that he is in his right mind he cant be kissed?

So I guess that's my cue. I said "OK, you can go now" he rose from the bed and went at the shower. I didn't move on the bed. I was still on it with my nakedness and wait for him to finish.In my mind, I made a decision that its gonna be the last time. This is my wake up call that I have had my fun, I have had my initiation that I wanted (LOL!) I experienced being a bottom, I felt the pain and the pleasure accompanied in it. So he's done! Out of my life. I can go back to my old conservative self now LOL!

Of course I've been thinking a lot for the past days, I am weighing things up. I know Im the loser on this set up. He is married. He's playing straight. On denial about his sexuality or maybe he's really straight, I don't know. Bottom line, he cant be mine. I'm just a sex machine whenever he needs and feels like using.

Reality check: I'm starting to like him. Signs and symptoms: I'm beginning to demand some more stuffs. Beginning to feel its not enough. Wanting to see him more often. But I don't love him...yet. I need to do something about this. So I came with this decision to avoid him now. I cannot afford to have another heartache this time.

I cannot afford to be used by his sexual desires. Whenever he want. I'm better than that. I'm a person deserving to be loved and to love. I have a lot of love to give. Just waiting for that someone to come by. I know he's looking for me too. Its just a matter of time. And when our paths are crossed I know it will be at the right time and right place.

I know I'm a hopeless romantic, but what can I do? That's me. I don't give up on love, yet. I know and I still believe in it. I have my own story, a happy ending. My book isn't finish yet, I still halfway through it, I still need my ending. My happy ever after. But is there a happy ever after? Or just in fairy tale?

Now I'm serious haha wow I cant believe I poured out my heart on you guys!Just wow!

Four days have passed and I didn't see him, I didn't talk to him. I even avoided sending instant messages or text him. Its a complete avoidance on my part. I know I'm doing the right thing here. I prayed that God give me strength and to move on with my life. I had fun at work with my friends, kept myself busy (with farmville LOL).

A buzz and an instant message appeared on my screen when i woke up one night, its from dark guy.

"hmmm, someone seems to be very busy lately..."

"I haven't felt your presence lately too..."

"it seems you have other company in there instead of me huh"

I don't know what to think when I read them. Was he jealous? Was he missing me?

I replied: been busy lately, and I'm cooking now

"I was on the night shift and my sex life was down..." he said

"so, what are you cooking now? You really know how to cook?hehe" he added

I knew he's just playing friendly and eventually he'll just say he needs a f@ck! It made me annoyed.

I typed these words instead : you know what, stop the friendly conversation, why don't you just go to the point? I'm not in the mood to have sex now, I'm sorry, you could mast*rb*te instead.

He replied: You're just playing hard to get!

And signed out.

It made me smile.hehe.

Success.

I'm gonna focus on work. Have fun here. If a special someone comes, well, I'm willing to get to know him, who knows he will complete my story.

Bye for now.

"Do You Wanna Do it Again Tonight?"

Its been 5 days since "that" happened between us, and he never failed to send messages to my messenger or my phone inviting me or flirting with me to do it all again. Which I declined. Part of me wanting to say yes, but I gathered all my strength to say no. We never cross path since then maybe its pure luck, I guess.

But not on one morning...

I went out of the building to wait for my driver to arrive to bring me to work and so as other employees, I saw a few outside too. Until one figure appeared on my left side. Wearing his uniform in full glory.Its him. Darkguy. I don't know what to do. He was a few inches away from me. He was talking to the other guy. I knew he saw me. I just looked away from him and prayed for my service to come right away.

I was relax again when I reached the hospital. Prayed so hard my boss wont assign me to Darkguy's area where he is on duty that day! I was so relieved when he didn't. Until before lunch, one of my senior staff who was assigned to the area where I don't want to go said : Mac, please cover my area for a while I need to go to the personnel department. And I was like "Oh nooooooooooooo!!!!"

I run out of good luck, one nurse called and they need me there. I had no choice but to go. Bahala na si batman.

I spotted him immediately as soon as I entered the room, he was busy. The nurse who called me was next to him good thing there's wall between them. But the nurse need one thing, which I have to get to the door next to Darkguy's .Shit! shit! shit! I walked passing over him. I knew he noticed me. I still didn't looked at him. It feels so awkward!

When I was fixing the machine and I was talking to the nurse who called me, he then appeared. Talking to the nurse I was talking to. Shit! I wanna kill him. He was teasing me by appearing in front of me.He knew I'm avoiding him and that I'm not comfortable. I turned my back instead and pretended busy with the machine.

But goodness, he look so hot and sexy. I suddenly missed the kiss. The feeling of his body towards mine.

Past 2:00 pm I received a text from him " do you wanna do it again tonight?"

Damn!!!

I replied :"I will wait for you later" I don't know what was I thinking!

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6:00 pm: He texted what time should he come. I said maybe 9pm since I was watching star trek on TV. I wanna finish it. He then said "can we make it at 8:30?" I said OK. Then he asked if I have porn, I said yes but all are man to man hehe. He replied "that will be alright, its my first time to see that thing". In my mind, hmm not for long I can convert him to the other side, I know he is curious and I know deep inside him he wants this, he just wanna be normal and "straight".

"Can we meet at 7pm instead since we're going to watch videos its nice to be early....and besides I have duty early in the morning tomorrow."
Oh my! Its not obvious he was not excited at all!LOL

After a quick shower I was picking my clothes when he sent a message on my messenger saying if I'm ready for him to come. He was so in a hurry to see me! "haba ng hair ko!"

When I opened the door its like deja vu. He was holding red roses and smiling at me...kidding!!! hehe. He was just smiling and wearing a sexy tight fitting sleeveless shirt and that shorts was the killer! it was tight and short-short and his d*ck was so visible on it...bakat na bakat LOL he's really teasing me...and it worked. I was on fire!

Its like our first time, he sat on my bed and we talked for a while and I played the m2m porn on my laptop. We both lay on my bed while he watch, I stroked his lips and his neck and his chest. He put his arms on my shoulders. It felt like I was his. Like we're together, as in together-together!

He look different that moment. I can feel it. Extra caring, extra-sweet, extra-horny...LOL! I kissed him while i was on top. He was hugging me too tight as if he would lose me if he ain't. His fingers are caressing, running lightly on my sides, on my back, on my legs while i was still wearing my clothes on...

I kissed him hungrily, he would kissed me back too as if he's competing with my kisses and my tongue...he just soooo different now...we're like an animal...so intensed...so electrifying...I never been this excited! I don't wanna let go of his mouth as if we don't have tomorrow...

I took off his clothes and he took mine...

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This is Laguardia of MTRCB and this part is censored!

LOL!!!

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Anyway, after more than two hours (tagal nun a!) we were both naked and breathless. He was hugging me and giving me light touches and kisses. Hmmm, now he learned his lessons hehe. It was so powerful. I never experienced it before. I like this moment, everything was so good and romantic in the same way. This doesn't feel like just sex, but it was lovemaking.

The bed almost give up. I feel bad for it.haha

I turned on the light when he was picking up his clothes on the floor. He tried to hide and used the sofa to hid his nakedness.

Before me, was his dark colored skin and firm body...

"Oh, why are you shy?"

He was covering his manhood with his undies on his hands. He looked so cute...and childish.

I laughed.

I know I'm not doing the right thing here. I know you're judging me. But how can be something so bad feel so good????

*sigh*

I kissed him goodbye and left.

A Painful Start

This is a continuation of "The Lucky One..Or Not"

I run to the bathroom and took a quick shower! I only have 20 minutes till he comes. I'm so excited for what about to happen tonight...Its been a while since I did a one night stand like this. The last one was 8 or 9 years ago. After countless casual sex I said then that its enough, its time to get serious. A step which I didn't regret, I got to know and experience the beauty of having serious relationships which left some good and bittersweet memories that I will treasure for a long time.

My phone rang. Its him. Mr.darkguy. I sprayed perfume on my balls and run out to the door LOL! I opened it and asked him to come in, I don't know what to say at first. He was wearing a black sexy sando and shorts. He looked delicious. Ayayay!!!

When we reached my messy room, he sat on my bed and I was lost for words for a few minutes. I still cant believe we are about to do this. We talked about anything at first, casual conversations.

me: I wanna turn off the lights, is that alright with you? (but i opened the lights on the bathroom, so that it will give some shed of lights on the room)

When I came back he was already lying on my bed, waiting. I sat beside him and started stroking his forehead, his hair, his cheek. I lowered my head and put my lips on his. I tasted the sweetness of it. I want more. I tried to open his mouth by my own, but it remained close.

I said "why?whats wrong?"

darkguy: I'm not used to guy's kissing my lips...

me: open a little bit...

Which he did, literally! I kissed his neck, his earlobes...I felt that it tickled him...I tried to do more but he avoided my tongue. I kissed his nipples and his chest...

until I noticed something:

me: wait a second, so you'll gonna be like a statue there?!!!

darkguy: sorry...

He kissed my neck this time and my nipples but his mouth was still hesitant to kiss me full time. I cant blame him, its his first time doing this.

I know I'm doing all the work here, but I said to myself, OK, just now. Only now I will let this happen. Its my first time having sex with a straight (?) married guy. This is sooo against my rule which is to date only gay guys. But, as they say, there's always a first time to everything. But come to think of it, technically, I know he isn't straight although he is not admitting it, but i can feel it in my bones, he is gay,well, maybe around 40% hehe.

I mean he wanna do it with me, with the same guy, if he is so straight he could have chosen a woman instead. And that no matter how horny he was, he wont share my bed.

I did everything to his dark sexy body, he was moaning with pleasure. I went on top of him and rub my manhood to his. It was a great sensation. I was moaning too. His body was perfect for my body. I'm not used to the slapping though haha.I felt like a porn star!

darkguy: can I f@ck you?

me: I'm not sure I can do it...its my first time

darkguy: I will be gentle

I wanna laugh, I remembered that line before from somewhere! So gasgas na!haha But I don't know if he was hypnotizing me or what or in my mind I just like to experience it too, the questions that arises on my mind over and over again: why bottoms likes to be f@ck? was it really that good? does it feel better than topping which I always do?

me: you are so damn lucky that I will let you do me mister!

I was so nervous, I know it will be painful and he is a beginner too!Oh my Gosh! what does he know about doing this thing! he only knows the VA-J-J!!!!

I felt the coldness of the lube on my @$...his finger...I bit my lips...its a bit painful...then I felt much pain whats came in next. I wanna scream. I wanna push him back. I want to back out!LOL

He stopped. He knew I'm in great pain. He said I should relax. But his d*ck is so thick! for heaven's sake! We shifted positions. He was in front of me. He tried it again. Its still the same pain. I ignored the pain and tried to look and feel the pleasure that every bottom guy feels....but I cannot find it!!!

Where the hell is the pleasure????? hello any body there?LOL

But in fairness, maybe he didn't noticed but he was kissing me torridly, hungrily this time. I wanna smile. So my pain made him forget that he is not use to kissing guys huh!

After a couple of attempts, its still painful and he felt bad for me.

darkguy: I will stop now, I don't wanna hurt you anymore...

Wow, nakaramdam din!LOL but honestly I appreciated that. In my mind I need practice so I said I'm gonna buy a couple of banana and shove it to my ass tomorrow LOLLLLLLLLLL!!!

I again went on top of him and applied a huge amount of lube and rubbed my d*ck to his, this is my favorite position, did I tell you guys that?haha I called it "kiskisan".When he was about to shoot he asked me to do the hand job instead.

He finished. He was breathless. I'm dead tired too. Actually I didn't have much erection due to pain. I didn't come. He didn't bother to make me come. In my mind, Savour the moment darkguy, this is your first and last.

me: hey, didn't you know, after the sex you have to hug and kiss your mate?

He laughed and hugged me tighter and longer. We were talking and laughing for a while on that position. He asked me if I have a boyfriend, I said none. He added if I have one back in manila, I said before but not now. He wanna see them, I allowed him to see picture of my ex's. I can sensed that he was curious about my life about my gay life or maybe I'm mistaken. I don't know.

When we cleaned up I walked him to the door and said our goodbyes. I was surprised seeing a message from him after an hour saying "what now?" I don't know what he meant. He didn't elaborate. He was asking, if I was satisfied, I said no. And he was explaining like if I allowed him to do these and that I will have fun eventually, as if he was guilty and wanted to make up for it.

darkguy:so you don't like me? you don't want to do it again?

me: I will think about it. Honestly I didn't enjoy it. You don't know how to do it well.

darkguy: okay if you don't wanna do it again, its alright...

And besides, I don't wanna be a home wrecker if you know what I mean, once is enough, at least natikman ko ang crush ko hehe.

When I went to bed, his smell was still on my pillows and linen...

The Lucky One... Or Not?

An instant message hit my screen asking how am I doing and if I don't have work. I said none, and the usual stuffs. He is not a constant chat mate of mine. But we have a common online friend. That friend sent to him my YM I.D and added me. So now he is on my list. I see him at work. And I have to admit he is a hottie. Dark and sexy. I love those eyes...

So I was surprised that he is on a chatting mood now, unlike from our previous chat that only lasted for a few exchanges of messages. Let me give him a nickname: darkguy. Jonget a! pero hayaan na!la na ako sa mood mag isip.As the chatting continues he asked:

darkguy: what is your interest?

me: I'm an Internet addict and I love to eat and watch movies.

darkguy: it doesn't show on your body that you love to eat. you go out most of the time?

me: not really.I just love to eat out with my friends.

darkguy: who's with you?

Hmmmm, I'm a little curious why there's a sudden interest from him on what I do. Its not like him. I found it strange but I'm a little excited! What is he up to!

me: friends. sometimes my date. (he didn't know I'm dating an Italian guy recently since he is not a reader of my blog nor a close friend)

darkguy: who are you dating? (kiliggg ako!LOL)

me: secret!what about you, what's your interest?

darkguy: anything....sex!hahaha

me: whaaaat! well, you look like a womanizer to me!
be careful that your wife wont catch you OK!ha ha

darkguy: it depends

me: really?

darkguy: yeah, many. but I refused. many would like to share my bed, both men and women hehe.But honestly most of them are gays.

He told me that a married gay guy even asked him to show his body on cam and he showed a little. Just a tease.

darkguy: asked me to show him my dick. I showed it to him just for a sec.

me: me too!me too! (I joked around)

darkguy: me too? you wanna see it too on cam? why just on cam ,when you can go here at my room and see it live now....

Oh! Oh! now he is really up to something! he is flirting with me!Oh my gosh!!!

darkguy: I'm open to anything as long as you're discreet.

darkguy: yeah, I can give you anything especially if I'm horny...now that my wife is not here...

I knew it! he is bisexual!!!But I don't know what to say to him!I can sense it that he will be topping me. I'm not ready to be a bottom guy on bed!yet!

darkguy: that's why, if you like doing it, I will be a willing guy...

me: so, you gonna do it all the way?everything?

darkguy: yeah, whatever my partner wants me to do...I will satisfy him like I do it on my wife...

I'm a little doubtful, I mean he is straight, although I can feel it that he is bisexual, what if he will be like a king in bed, meaning: the typical straight guy who would just sit and let the gay guy do all the work!I don't want that.

darkguy: This would be my first time doing it with a guy, if you like it, i wanna try it...

So I'm the guinea pig huh...I said to myself. But dear lord I'm shivering in front of my computer! Am I dreaming? The guy I'm lusting is talking to me about having sex with him!!!I asked myself: will I let him do me? I'm a virgin for Pete's sake! (well, my ass is!LOL)

me: Did you ever have sex with anyone here?

darkguy: nope. just all with my left hand! they're asking me, but i refused. I don't know them and they are far from here. So if ever you agree. You will be the first one...

So I'm the lucky one huh!hehe. Shit! I have a hard time deciding! But will I let this opportunity to pass?

me: can I see you on web cam?

darkguy: hmmm, OK wait.

He showed the "package" to me! Now, I don't wanna think anymore, I want him.Tonight!LOL

darkguy: so, you wanna try me? I will go to your flat. You can do anything on my body.

me: okay..

Shit! Shit! Shit!

darkguy: wait for me. I will take a quick shower...

---to be continued

Related entries about Darkguy:
A Painful Start
Do You Wanna Do It Again Tonight?
No More, No More
Nice To See You
A Quickie Post
Ginataan and Selfishness
A Sweet Torture
One Fine Night
Cloud Nine
Something Else
What's Goin On Mac?