Nagmamadali na akong makababa ng taxi na sinakyan ko papasok ng mall. Kanina pa naghihintay si Boking. Putok na din fuse nun. Lol
Tinawagan ko siya at tinanung kung san siya nag hihintay. Galing siya ng work at 9pm siya nag out. 930 ako nakarating. Lagot ako.
Pero since mabait ang bokbok ko di nya ako sinermunan. Hihi
Dumaan muna kami sa gadget store and bought a new galaxy tab 3 10.1 inches para may mapanoodan ako habang nakaduty dahil sumasakit mata ko sa maliit na screen ng phone ko kapag sobrang petiks sa work. Laki ng problema ko noh?
Pagkatapos ay nag start na kami mag grocery. Well, kaya kami nagkita nun gabing yun ay nagpapasama ako sa knya mag grocery hahaha! Naglalambing lang naman ako sa kanya at para makita ko na din siya. Ilang araw ko na miss ang ungas kasi.
"may ginawa ka bang listahan?" tanong niya. Nun sinabi kong Oo, tulak tulak nya ang trolley at hawak hawak ko ang listahan at sabay namin hinahanap ang kelangan ko. Naaliw lang ako sa amin. Para lang kami mag asawa na namimili tapos nakadaster daw ako malaki ang tiyan kasi buntis ganyan tapos may rollers sa buhok! LOL (at talagang nakadaster lang mag grocery?hahaha)
Kapag may di ako nakita ay siya ang aligaga maghanap. Masyado siyang apektado sa paghahanap ko, sabi ko relax ka lang makikita din natin yun. haha.
Tapos naisipan ko bumili ng JUICER. Dahil uso na ang juicing detox and diet ay nagturo ako ng bibilhin. May sale na JUICER kaya naman sinamantala ko na ang pagkakataon na bumili. Natawa lang ako dahil ang laki ng box. Buhat buhat ni BOK nun pauwi na kami nagmukhang kargador ang boylalu ko. Idagdag pa dun ang ilang plastic bags na puno ng grocery items na binili namin. Naglabasan tuloy ang ugat sa braso niya! LOL
I wonder kung may mas maugat pa siyang parte ng katawan! charot ulit!
Pero pernez ang cute nya tignan! parang binatang handang magsibak ng kahoy para sa aking bubot na katawan!
Pag uwi ay nagdinner lang kami ng inorder kong fave niyang ulam na adobong pusit. Gutom na gutom ang Ugok halos maubos ang isang bandehadong kanin kalurkei.
"aminin mo! isa ka bang karpintero? or isang pahinante? ang lakas mo kasi kumain ng rice! LOL" sabi ko.
"masahihin mo naman ako Mac..."
"ay nako ayoko nga! di naman ako marunong noh!"
"konti lang, himas himasin mo lang ganyan" pilit pa nya
"ay ayoko nga! nakakatamad! iba nalang himasin ko gusto mo?" at natawa siya sa joke ko.
Nakaupo siya sa silya sa may dining table nung tumayo ako at umupo sa kandungan niya paharap sa kanya. Nakatingala siya sa akin ng slight at ako ay nakatungo ng konti. I searched for his lips and gave him a quick kiss.
He hugged me so tight na parang nanggigigil. I squeezed him too. Narinig kong bumulong siya:
"kelan magiging tayo Mac? mag one month na tayo magkakilala...."
"darating din tayo dun. I wanna be sure when I commit myself to you"
Hinagkan kong muli ang mga labi niya para mawala agam agam niya. This time mas matagal. Isa ito sa pinaka sweet na kiss na natikman ko. Hinawakan ko pa ang face nya just to make sure di siya makakawala hehe. In return he squeezed my body tighter pakulong sa katawan niya.
Matagal tagal na din nga...siya lang ang pinatagal ko ng ganito. Gusto ko naman ng mahabang ligawan ng slight, ng mahabang kiligan...Ni wala pang nangyayaring sekswal sa pagitan namin. Kiss and make out lang lagi...Kawawa naman haha. Nauumay na kasi ako sa mabilisang pakikipag commit. Usually 2 or 3 dates gow na ako. Nagmamadali. Wala nang aral aral ng feelings. This time I wanna make it special.
Matapos ang halik ay nanatili siyang akap ako. May ilang minuto din siguro. Kulong kulong sa mga bisig niya mula sa aking pagkakakandong sa mga hita niya. It was so sweet of him naisip ko lang...maswerte ang magiging karelasyon niya.
Pero this time,I want to be sure na siya na nga....
I wanna make sure to have a good time knowing him more. This good soul hugging me right now.
I was bored last time and I BBM'd Gian who's also waiting for my invitation for a week now.
I've told him he can come over tonight. I don't have anything to do and decided to invite him. Me and Gian both knew what's coming.
Sex.
That's the only thing we have. I don't see him as someone I could love...I don't know what he feels. I never asked him. Maybe I'm afraid for what he might say. I don't wanna hurt him. So I better not ask. Its safer this way.
Maybe i invited him tonight so that I could see once again or prove to myself that I could...that I should...
Besides, he already have an idea what we are. Fuck mate. Taga kamot ng pangangati. Shit, thats sound so bad. LOL
When he arrived, after a short conversation I closed down the curtains and turned off the lights and left the bathroom lights on.
I was on top of him...kissing him...gently...i was trying to feel something when my lips touched his. The kiss intensified, deeply and harder. I felt he hugged me tighter. Almost squeezing my body...
In between these moments I was still analyzing what Gian means to me...I continued kissing him some more...
We paused and catched our breath to remove our clothing...i felt his naked body under mine...it was warm. I always love this kind of feeling, being with another man. Skin to skin. Naked body to another naked soul. Will always miss this kind of feeling....
He was sucking my nipples and I literally holding on to his hairs...when he went down there I moaned. It felt so good.... Gian is always good on this department. I have no match for him.
When its time for me to return the favor, I was ashamed of my performance haha. But I tried so hard...i did! So lame!
He asked me to positioned my self on top of his chest and have my manhood straight on his mouth...I remembered pounding his mouth so hard that he almost choked.
Our body became one. The room was filled with his moans and whispers...I was trying to enjoy the moment.....I don't know what happened, I suddenly felt, blank...
He noticed. He asked. I said, go on. Can you cum now?
He asked: what about you?
I answered: Don't mind me. You go ahead.
No. Lets cum together. I'll wait for you. Gian begging.
But I'm not in the mood anymore. I lost interest. I just want to get it over with and take a shower and sleep. I feel sorry for Gian. He don't deserved me. He's a fine man.
Gian tried to get me back in the mood again. I pretend.
I have no idea why this happened. One minute i was on fire and the next minute, I was bored. is this a start of the menopausal stage? nireregla pa naman ako a? LOL.
I lost the erection. Gian tried to wake him up. I said: stop it... I'll jerk you off and you can cum now...
He told me he cannot cum without holding a dick or something while jerking. Hmm, that's weird. Pinagbigyan ko siya...we're both lying on the bed naked on this dark and cold room...was jerking each other....till I've heard his soft moans...arching his body...i tried to move my hand faster....harder this time...I could feel his manhood almost exploding on my grip...his breathing became faster...and his moans louder...
"I'm cumming..."
Felt the warm liquids dripping down my hand. Gian kissed me. I cleaned my hands with the tissue on the floor. Entered the bath room and took a shower.
Gian followed after I'm done. I told him to get dressed.
Are you done? you wanna go now? I asked.
Yes.
I walked him to the door, and kissed him to the cheek.
I went straight to my bed and hugged my pillows and stared at the dark ceiling of my room.
Pagod na pagod siya kaya naman pinatulog ko muna siya sa kama ko. Hindi dahil sa kung anu pa man na iniisip nyo ok?
Galing pa kasi si JJ sa work maghapon pagkatapos ay tumulong siya sa pagluluto sa birthday party ng cousin niya at super late na natapos, kaya naman pagdating sa flat ko ay pagoda wave lotion na siya. Wala na siya ka-lakas-lakas mag perform, charrr!
I'm just watching him sleep on my bed, using my pillows.
First time nya makarating sa napaka-makalat kong kwarto. I invited him tutal naman nasa malapit lang yun party ng cousin niya. Para na din makapag solo kami. Ilang araw na din naman ang nakaraan mula nun una kami mag date.
Hiyang hiya siya kasi ang haggard lang daw ng itsura niya. Sabi ko lang. OO halata nga! char! haha. Pinahiram ko siya ng mga paborito kong pambahay. Yun durog durog at butas butas kong t-shirt. Nagmukha siyang yagit nun ma-make over na! LOL
Gustong gusto ko kapag niyayakap ako mula sa likod. I felt this kind of comfort. And this feeling na parang ayaw ako pakawalan nun katabi ko kahit sa pag tulog. ewan. nakakakilig. basta gusto ko ang spooning.
And JJ is a hugger. Buong magdamag siya nakayakap sa akin. He don't wanna let go of me. Sa maniwala kayo at sa hindi, walang nangyari sa amin. Pwde pala yun. kaya ko pala hehehe. Or dahil bagong bate ako nun previous na gabi? charrr!
Nakakatawa lang ang first kiss. Kakalapat palang ng lips ko sa lips nya, nakabuka na agad siya ng oa lang at nakalabas na dila. Ew! ayoko ng ganun! LOL
Told him to follow me. Very willing naman siya. I like his personality. Magaan. I guided him and naging instant kissing lesson tuloy ang naganap. Nun finally tingin ko alam na nya. Ayun na napudpod na mga labi namin ng wagas na wagas! hahaha
Dumating na nga sa punto na ako na tumatakas and he kept on chasing my lips.
Adik lang siya.
Char!
Masaya siya kasama. We enjoyed each other's company. Pero parang di pa din ako sure sa kanya, I don't know, parang may kulang pa rin. Yung kick ganyan! basta!
Hayz. Magulo ako, alam ko.
Anywayz, kinig and nood na lang tayo ng isa sa mga fave song ko :-)
Nagmamadali akong makasakay ng taxi. Late na naman ako. Nakakahiya sa knya. Bulong ko sa sarili ko, unang gabi palang sablay na ko agad.
Kabado, namamawis ang mga palad ko, ganyan ako kapag medyo tensyonado. Pero may halong excitement siyempre.
Halos dalawang taon din ang nakalipas bago ako muling nagkipag-date. An actual date. Hindi sa kama ko muna bago ko pa inalam ang pagkatao niya. This time, we wanna make it right. At the right place and right time. OO anglakas lang maka dalisay at wagas na wagas ng pagtrato namin sa isa't-isa. Charrr.
Napapangiti ako kapag naaalala ko ang masaya at minsan korni'ng usapan namin sa skype for two days. Ang kulit lang. hehehe.
Sabi ko sa mga kaibigan ko, this is it! Siya na ang matagal ko ng iniintay. Na sinuklian lang nila ng pagtawa at pag ookray! "yan ka na naman! Narinig na namin yan!"
Niyaya ko siyang mag meet na at magdate dito sa SushiMinto. A japanese restaurant na kakabukas palang last month. I've heard so much about the place. And I love sushis :-)
Kinse minutos akong late. Potaena. Inis na inis ako sa sarili ko. Andun na daw siya sa table sa taas. Pagpasok sa resto agad ko siya hinanap...pero instantly kahit first time palang, kahit nakatalikod siya mula sa akin, alam kong siya na yun. (oo kasi, siya lang naman ang walang kasama sa table, so malamang siya na nga yun! TOINK!)
Nilapitan ko siya mula sa likod at hinila ko ang upuan sa tapat niya...
Hi, JJ...sorry I'm late.
Nagtaas siya ng paningin at sinalubong din nya ng matamis na ngiti ang haggard kong itsura. LOL. Nakakatunaw ang smile niya. Sa webcam palang yun na ang agad kong napansin sa kanya noon.
Ok lang yun. Nice to finally meet you Maki...
He calls me maki, para daw siya lang tatawag nun sa akin. Like he owns me. Char. Iniscan ko siya ng mabilis. He's about 5'5 din, mejo chubby. Moreno. Nakaeyeglasses. Nerdy-looking-guy...yes! love it! Naka white shirt siya at decent jeans at topsider shoes na walang medyas.
Oo, alam ko iniisip nyo, talagang tinignan ko get up nya haha. Hindi kasi ako mahilig sa gwapo, basta maayos manamit. Maayos magdala ng sarili niya, turn on na sa kin yun.
Nag order na kami. Its sunday kaya naman its sushi madness sa restaurant sabi nun pinoy waiter. Its unlimited sushi hahaha. Naloka ako andami. Hindi pa namin nauubos yun isang plate may parating na agad na panibagong batch! Ke-sarap ng kain namin.
first plate
second plate namin
at ito yun third plate na request namin na pare pareho nalang, I love its crunchyness of the salmon kasi on this sushi
nagpapanggap akong marunong mag chopsticks!
Masarap siya kausap, nag eenjoy ako makinig sa knya. Tinititigan ko yun lips niya. May kasalukuyan siyang kinukwento nang walang ka abog abog sinabi ko: Ang cute mo.
Napatigil siya magsalita at biglang napahiya. Nangingiti na ewan haha. Kinilig daw siya. "mac, wag ka nga! patapusin mo na tong kwento ko kasi..." maktol pa niya.
"Bakit pala dito mo ko dinala?" tanong niya.
"Siyempre, gusto ko maganda naman ang place di ba? At saka parang special kasi dito...parang ikaw" naks! bumanat ako haha.
Maganda yun ambiance nun kainan. Mejo dim ang light, at may red lamps pa on the ceilings, buti nalang dito kami nagpunta, it kinda feels na we're on a romantic date. Everything else was great.
"E ano nga ba to?" he asked.
"what do you mean?"
"itong ginagawa natin ngayon?" sagot nya.
"e di nagde-date tayo. Anupaba? bakit mo tinatanung?"
"wala, para malinaw. Gusto ko lang i-confirm na date talaga to and not anything else" sabay ngiti niya.
"kelan ulit tayo magkikita Maki?" he asked again. And this time di ko na need manghula kung gusto ba niya ko. Im sure na. He wanna see me again. Its a great sign. Nasiyahan ako sa tinutungo ng date na ito. Dumating ako kanina na kabado at di sigurado kung magugustuhan nya ba ako or what.
"sana off ka din tuwing thursday or friday, para we could spend the day sa off ko..." sabi niya.
"oo nga e, lagi kasing sunday ang request offs ko. Pero we will see next month, mag sabi ako sa boss ko if mapapagbigyan niya ko na magpalit ng offs".
Pilit ko itinatago ang kilig na nararamdaman ko nun mga oras na yun. Masarap lang sa pakiramdam na alam mong pareho kayo ng gusto. Gusto ko din siya kasi makasama tuwing off ko. Gusto ko pa siya makilala ng higit pa.
Madami kaming nai-share sa isa't isa. Pamilya. Trabaho. Mga plano niya sa buhay. Mga past relationships namin. Mga hinahanap namin sa isang karelasyon, at masasabi kong we're on the same page.
Pagkatapos ng lampas dalawang oras at 3 malalaking plate na puno ng sushi, nagdecide na kami umuwi. Inalok ko siyang mag stay na ng gabi sa bahay ko, pero tumanggi siya kasi maaga pa siya mag pasok kinabukasan.
"ayaw mo talaga? ikaw din, unlimited kissing yun sa bahay ko" biro ko pa sa knya. Nakita kong parang natitigilan siya na parang gusto nya na ayaw nya. Nagtatalo isipin nya haha. Kahit na medyo totoo naman yun, wala akong nais gawin kanina pa kundi ang mahalikan siya. Pero maigi na din na next time nalang. Masyado pa rin naman maaga para dun. Ayaw kong mabigla siya. OO marangal na ko ngayon ate charo. Charrr!
"next time nalang talaga Maki. Maaga ako bukas. Malayo pa ako from the city alam mo naman hehe. Wag ka sana magtampo"
Isinakay ko siya ng bus pauwi. Nag paalaman at nagpasalamatan at nangako na muli pang magkikita soon.
Kinabukasan paggising ko isang text agad mula sa kanya ang nareceived ko. Napangiti ako. At excited akong nag reply sa knya.
Nun muli kaming mag chat sa skype kinagabihan, napag usapan namin yun dinner at kung ano ano ba impression namin sa isa't isa. nakakatawa kami, silly ng mga topic. pero nakaka kilig pa din malaman mga sagot niya.
"I like you Maki and I do hope you know that"
"naks naman. Ako din naman ganun din sa yo"
"kita tayo ulit JJ ha?"
"talaga? kelan?" tanong niya
"sa thursday night, napalitan na yun duty ko kaya naging off na ko hehe"
"talagang nagawan mo ng paraan ha?" sagot niya
"haha nagkataon kasi pagpasok ko kanina sa duty, pagcheck ko ng sked naiba na naman duties namin. nag adjust kasi kulang ng tao. Yun naging free ako sa thurday and friday".
"Wow talaga naman! Ok then. Kikita tayo sa thursday pero may condition ako Maki..."
"At ano naman kaya yun aber?" kinabahan ako
"can we move forward as exclusively dating? you know what I mean..."
"what's that mean?? bf na? lol" kunyari di ko na getz haha. Drama lang ganyan.
"we focus on each other...no more entertaining someone else ganyan..." paliwanag ni JJ.
"ah yun lang ba? walang problema sa akin yan, gusto mo pa tayo na ngayon e! LOL Para bakod-sarado na e! hahaha" patawa ko pa.
"waaaa! bilis naman nun! express.net ba ito?lol pero maki, seriously, wag natin itrial and error toh, kasi sayang yun chance e. I really like you. I missed you the whole day to day...and I think thats a good sign."
"really?na miss din naman kita e kahit tulog ako hahaha!"
"sumagot ka ba naman sa akin tanghali na! grabe ka maki!"
"told you adik ako sa tulog haha"
Ang bilis lang, nun last Sunday kami nag date, I can say, na masaya ang buong linggong ito para sa akin. Matagal na ko nag iintay na may dumating na guy. Si mister nice guy. At sana siya na nga. Pero its too early to tell pa, we're on our early stage and sana matagalan niya KOOOOO! ahahaha
Thurdays night siya dumating sa bahay ko and He's now asleep in my bed. Eto naghihilik. Pinipilit na niya ko matulog kanina, pero pinauna ko na siya. Pagod si mokong e.
So yun, good night na sa inyo muna. Have a great weekend guys.
I was inviting R.A to visit the Marine festival with me in the city, thought, it could be another way to spend time with him and he said: OK LANG. Its not a yes or its not a NO either I assumed. So I told him, OK then lets go there later since both of us are off!
"I don't have enough money left, let's wait for the payday"
"oh come on, you still owe me a dinner hehe!" --me
"its true. i don't have enough to go out this week."
"I'm bored today, I'll take care of it. Just come with me" I insisted
And then he signed out on Face book without giving me a confirmation! he did it again! Damn him! I tried to call his cellphone but he wont pick up.
OK, fine. He's avoiding me.
I won't bother him again. As in ever again! asar na asar ako!
Many days have passed and we haven't seen each other. A good thing, I must say. Fate was helping me to move on. (parang nag-break up?LOL)
But not last Friday morning! We have the same duty! I spotted him as soon as I entered the ICU. He was busy with his documentations. I carry on with my job and pretend I'm not noticing him. I told my partner that I don't wanna go near him (he knew I like R.A) that he should help me to avoid him haha. sabwatanito!
Everything works well until my partner got busy and I have no choice but to check the file of R.A's patient myself!
I quietly took and open the files while he was busy writing, he looked at me as soon as he felt my presence.
"uyyy, nag morning shift siya..." he said smiling. (you're on morning shift)
"oonga e..." (yeah) that's all I said to him. He's acting as if we're OK, hmmp! I still hold a grudge against him kaya. Pretending I was not interested in talking further and moved on to the next patient.
After a few minutes I was checking the medicines few meters away from him and he suddenly called me.
"mac...you think we'll have the salary tomorrow?"
"I'm not sure. Maybe". and I continued on my work. And why is he asking me about payday tomorrow? Is he going to invite me out finally tomorrow if salary is available?
Tse!
One time I was fixing the personal protective gown for the isolation patients when he jokingly pulled out its tie and I looked around and saw him silently laughing while walking away.
In my mind, I thought: Papansin siya huh. Tsk tsk tsk. (he's trying to get my attention since I'm not giving it to him on purpose) I smiled.
An evil smile!
I was bragging to my friends how successful my plan was on R.A! that finally he noticed it and he's the one making those efforts now for me to notice him this time. Yeah! Success!
On our second rounds around lunch time. I was on the phone and he was at the computer that we were so close and no one was around...I don't know what came to me and my emotions took over and I said the words that I have been keeping inside since last week!
"Hoy R.A! May atrasokasakin". --me. (hey R.A. You did something bad last time)
Damn! what happened to my plan????Shit! shit!
"Walakaya... (I don't think so)" he said while smiling innocently. He knows what I'm talking about.
"Of course you know what I'm talking about...You left me at the chat room and you're not answering my call!"
"I don't have phone credits, that's why..." he continued and went back to his patient. But I followed him. I'm not finish with my interrogations yet!LOL
He was checking his patient's I.V but I kept on going: "you don't need credits to answer my call!"
"really?" he's still playing stupid.
"yeah!"
"so tell me...why you're not answering my calls?"
He moved to another part of the bed. The patient was looking at us, maybe wondering what's the fuss all about haha. But I kept on following the moron (R.A).
"anokaba? nag tatrabahoakohehehe" he said while pushing me a little to back off. He was still laughing at my persistence.
I'll go where he'll go. He cannot escape me!
He squat at the side of the bed and I squat with him too while he was checking the patient's urine bag and measuring it. I looked around and saw my partner smiling at us. Maybe he thought I was weird hahaha!
"You're avoiding me aren't you? tell me...that's why you're not answering my call?"
"I did not hear your call that's why...and besides I told you I don't have enough money left. Let's wait for the payday..." he explained.
"I told you too that we don't need more money to go the festival! Its free!"
"If we have salary tomorrow, maybe....and besides, I think the festival's finished since yesterday!"
"No. its extended till end of the month. For us!". LOL. I continued on convincing him.
"really?" and he looked at his new female colleague and said:"you wanna come? the festival he said is extended..."
WTF????are you kidding me? I wanna scream that to his face! He wants to bring this new nurse with us? On our date?!
I just walked out on him and left the unit! F*ck him!
Hay...poor Mac, no one wants to love him...Charot!
Its been 2 days since our last date. I haven't heard from him since. I did my usual routine at work at the ICU when Gil noticed me and said: wow, look whose here! I did not expect to see him either on duty that afternoon.
And if Gil is here, it means R.A is on duty too! (Gil is R.A's preceptor)
OMG!
I looked around...looking for a familiar face, a face that I long to see....
there!
at the station, he looked surprised seeing me too. I cannot tell if that look was from being glad to see me or for fear that Oh-oh-he's-here-look!LOL. Our eyes met and we smiled to each other. I don't know...after our date, it just felt awkward talking or seeing him again.
I kinda missed him. I wanna run into him and give him a tight hug.
Nobody from his colleague at the ICU knew that we had our date last weekend. For them, I'm still getting nowhere on my quest to win his heart!LOL
I didn't stay longer than I used to, I finished up my work and went back upstairs to our unit. I didn't chat with him like I used too. I was trying to read his actions. I'm still guessing if he likes me or not.
I feel so insecure after I noticed his indifference. I wanna scream to his face and yell: what now! But I didn't!
di ko keri hahaha!
On my second rounds. Gil noticed that I'm quiet while doing my work, I'm not like that. We usually have this moment of fooling/joking around and talking some silly stuffs while I'm trying to get notice by R.A at work.
I already had my dinner, but Gil and R.A just about to have theirs. Gil asked me if I wanna eat with them. I said thanks, that they should go and eat for I have things to do. I was waiting for R.A to invite me too, but he was just quiet as if he did not know that I'm there. But I'm sure he knew that I am.
It hurts me that after we shared a great dinner and some time last Saturday, he was acting weird. So I thought to my self, OK, that's it! that's my sign! I should give up whatever hopes I had with him!
I finished up my rounds and my documentation after 30 minutes when they came back...I was at the faucet scrubbing my hands:
"Mac, ganyan ka di ka sumasabay sa min kumain ha!" Gil said (Mac, you really didn't join us for dinner huh!)
"Busog na nga kasi ako!hahaha" (I told you, I had dinner already)
I saw R.A passed by but I ignored him. Pretending that I did not see him.
"Mac..."
I looked around and saw him.
"Here...take this..." giving me a can of milk for patients on nasogastric tube for feeding!He was teasing me to have it for dinner instead. He was smiling like a small boy, trying to be funny with his super korny joke!
Tinignan ko siya ng matagal. Nakangiti lang siya ng parang engot...
"hmpf! ah ganun ha...you take it first!" I replied. I was smiling back at him. He was laughing when he left.
For a few seconds...that brief moment. Everything around us felt so quiet. As if we had our own world. I was looking at his eyes and he was looking at mine.
Yes. It was our moment.
I know. Mababaw ako!LOL
I was smiling on my way out. As if all the worries flew in the air. hay, shall I stop hoping or what?!
Two days before the new year, Egay asked me if I want to go with him at the supermarket, I already had plans to go even if he don't ask me, so I have no choice but to say yes, I don't wanna say no and then he would see me there, it'll just look stupid.
I was on my laptop when Darkguy sent a message :"what time you two will go? can I come?" Egay and him are flatmates. He must've told him.
Its unexpected, its the first time he asked me if he wanna come and if ever this would be the first time we will hang out to the mall. Except that there's the annoying Egay with us LOL! I said yes, I wonder how will it turn out. Would I enjoy his company? or would I be bored? or will I be floating on cloud 9?LOL!
Im just wearing shorts and rubber shoes, casual and fun!(may ganun!) At the van, I occupied the first row, Egay at the second at my back, and when Darkguy arrived he had no choice but to sit at the last row. Every row is for two person, I don't wanna sit beside Egay, that's why!LOL
"I wanna sit beside you, Mac. Moved!" Darkguy said after a few minutes. Before I could make a protest he's already standing and pushing me to move so that he could sit beside me. I cannot believe it! He wanna sit beside me and I'm a little worried Egay might get some clue between us.
"Mac, treat me to dinner ha?" he said while laughing and he held my hand. My eyes was wide open!
"Kapal mo!" and I shook his hand off me. "sige na treat mo koha.." He held it again and I took it off and he held it again. Gosh its electrifying! I was afraid Egay might think of something else between us and I wanna be careful and this Moron is so comfortable!
He kept on bugging me about treating him to dinner, we all just had our salaries that day, and I know he can treat me too to dinner LOL! there are times when he's not holding my hand he would touch my hairy legs and said :" are you a relative of the monkey clan?" Batukan ko nga !
If i know, he's enjoying holding my hand and legs! and me too!hahaha. At the mall, I bought a new oakley bag and I persuaded Egay to buy a new Caterpillarbag after I said many bad things about the bag he's currently using!
Egay had to fall in line at the money transfer booth and that made me and Darkguy alone. We continued on going to shop to shop, and it made me smile whenever he says: "this will look good on you". In fact he's too nice and fun that day. I'm glad I'm having this time with him. But I could sense trouble deep inside. I think I'm a masochist of first kind!
It felt like we're dating...it felt like we're just alone at the crowded mall..it felt like...cloud 9!LOL I was laughing when he asked me if I could take a picture of him at the Christmas snow display on the center of the mall! Parang bata!
When I agreed, and I prepared my phone's camera but he insisted on taking my picture first! whaaaat! this is your idea why i go first! I told him! so then he took my picture and I took his picture too. Finally I have a picture of him, a remembrance for me! We even took a picture of us together. Hay parang si Bea at John Lloyd lang! ako si Bea?!waaaaaaaaaaaaa! My fantasies was like flushed on the toilet bowl when we entered a shop for little kids...for his 9 months old daughter. It felt like I was slapped on both face. "this would look great on my baby" he said.
I smiled and put on a poker face. I asked him to go elsewhere. He would try some clothes on and would call me for opinions. I noticed when he tried on a shirt that there's a big improvement on his body, he's been working out 3 times a week, he really did go back to the gym afterall. I remembered when we're on my bed and he said "OK, I'll go back to the gym for you..." and I thought he just wanted to flatter me with words then.
Finally Egay came back and we went at the food court (haha kuripot!) I wanted to pay for his order but he refused and told me he's just joking when he's insisting on I treating him. In my mind: So you just wanna have a reason to hold my hand at the van?
Egay was at the counter when both of us are waiting for the food when he said that he's tired of dining at this restaurant and blah blah blah.
"I only eat there when I'm on a date" I said. I don't know it just came naturally!
"How come you never asked me for a date?" he answered.
"Huh?" I was speechless. I don't know how to answer it, I was surprised by the accusation on his question.
"So, who are you dating there? Can I see who he is?" he continued.
I said I don't have a pic at my phone. But he didn't believe me. He's insisting that I have one and that he wanna see him.
Good thing Egay came for the rescue. We ate and he never asked me again about it.
I run to the door as soon as I heard the doorbell. Its him. My Italian guy. He was wearing a dark jeans paired with his plain white shirt. He looked so fresh and “yummy”? where the hell did that thought came from? LOL
30 minutes earlier I was chatting with him at YM and he said “ I am coming to your house and you cook!”.waaaaaaaaaaa!!!! It was a mixture of excitement and worry at the same time! Of course I wanna see him after last week ‘s date, but our flat is such a mess! We haven’t clean a thing since we arrived here last July 1!LOL
I dont know how I was able to clean the house in just 10 minutes!haha I'm the flash!
“I don’t wanna go to work later” he added
“you really are coming to my house now?” I wanna be sure
“Do you want me to?” –italian guy
“well, its alright with me, since I am bored right now…” I answered
“just for that?!because you are bored?” he said
“hahaha! Why, what do you want me to say, that I missed you?!” I said suddenly
“yes…”
“why should I missed you, you didn’t missed me at all” now Im like a demanding girlfriend!LOL
“How do you know that I didn’t missed you?” he asked
“well, you don’t find time for me lately” waaaaa I cant believe Im sayingthese things!
“all the time,as soon as I have a second,Im always looking forward chatting with you, but you were always offline…and you know I always have problems with connections” he’s explaining!wow!haha
When I saw him standing outside my door, he don’t know how happy I was that moment.I’ve been waiting the whole week seeing him again, we chat online after we dated last week but seeing him again now is another thing.”so what’s for dinner?” he asked me with his cute smile, and I said nothing yet and that he should wait while I cook.He had to leave for an hour because he was needed at work and told me he will come back.
It’s a good thing because I still have more time to cook. I decided to make chicken afritada, it’s my first time doing the dish and I asked my sister online about it. Thank goodness and I made it right!Im beginning to love cooking huh!
As soon as he came back I prepared the table and we had the most simple and yet meaningful dinner together.It felt like he is my boyfriend while we’re having that moment except that he is not my boyfriend in real life!LOL
We sat on the sofa in front of the tv after dinner,I ate so much, wow my cooking is so good!LOL ( ako lang halos lumamon!)my housemate was inside the room the whole time maybe he’s asleep already.We just talked and had some good laughs together.
I feel bad for him, he looked so tired, and sleepless. He was denying it but its obvious.I told him to lay down and close his eyes.So he did. His head was on my lap under a pillow and he straightened up on the sofa. I was touching his hair slowly combing it with my hand and trying to relieve his tiredness, I hope it helped!haha.
I don’t know what spirit came to me and possessed my body and I slowly brought my lips down to his own lips…I kissed him!
And he kissed me back!tenderly!
Oh my lord…Its so sweet…he still kept his eyes closed. I wanted more, so I kissed him again, this time much longer. Im becoming delirious that moment… it was sweet and daring, the kiss was so good it felt like im kissing an angel…
And the kiss went deeper and deeper...and we wanted more...
Until my housemate came out and caught us!Ok…im just kidding LOL!
We have that moment for us alone, no interruptions and no commercial break…haha.i stopped kissing him when I run out of breath…and his eyes are still close…I watched his lovely face for a minute and maybe he got impatient for another kiss and he opened his left eye thinking I wont see him opened it haha!he looked so cute while doing that!like a small kid!
And we both laughed!He stayed for another two hours at my house and we just kissed and cuddled the whole time.until I said…im sleepy and he left after giving me one more sweet goodnight kiss.
The next day,it was Saturday,around 2pm I just woke up, my day off, I opened my facebook and there he was online, I asked him how was he?and he said he just stayed home and ate cookies because he haven't eat anything since last night.I felt guilty.I told him to go out and dine in somewhere,but he said maybe he would go...alone.
"OK,I will go with you." I don't know where that came from!haha
"Really?You will come with me?we will go to the souk(market) and eat somewhere.What time should I pick you up?" --Italian
"Do you know how to get here at my place?"
"No.But I will check the map!LOL"
I told him how to get to my location, I'm a little worried because he said last night he always get lost on the road since he only got here for about ten days only haha. He even told me he was going round and round the roads for about one and a half hour trying to figure out which way to go to his condominium building!
He called me on my cell and i swear he has the most cutest voice i ever heard!LOL (OK that's exagg!)
"OK,If ever I get lost again i will call you haha see you in an hour" --italian
I prepared for our date!date?!Is this a date?haha No, this is just a friendly date.I guess.
Its 3:30 pm I walked through to where he should pick me up,i told him to stop by a bakery near our street because he might have difficulty finding my building so i sacrificed a little bit and walked in the 45 degrees heat of the sun!aghh!
I stand near the bakery and look for an Italian guy, I'm a little nervous and excited at the same time.One minute, two minutes and exactly three minutes later I heard a "beep-beep" from a blue car and a nice smile from its driver and waving his hand on me...
Oh my...its him...i told myself.
I walked slowly into his car and opened the door and sat beside him, he was wearing his cutest smile and said "hi" to me.I shake his hands and said "did you got lost finding this place?" and he said no,he thought i might be at the corner of the road that's why he went there when i wasn't at the bakery at 3:30pm, yeah yeah I'm late for about ten minutes hahaha!
"So where are we going?"I asked him
'To the souk"
"Do you know how to get there?" me
"Maybe, we'll find it.I guess!" --I just laughed at his not so worried voice. he has this personality in him, that everything will be alright and his laughing and smiling is so contagious.I don't even feel nervous with his company.I felt that I've known him a long time ago,because he's so nice and friendly!And cuteeeee!!!!
We went at the souk,its my first time there, many Indians are selling anything, clothes, watches, scarf, figurines, Arabian arts, Lebanese products ,jewelries, perfumes, and many other great stuffs. We strolled through some restaurants and hang out place too, he said he's looking for a place where we could chill and have something to eat.
He's asking me what to eat I said just anything that is not so heavy since I'm still full. he chose this cafe' and i ordered a piece of cake and a shake, while he had coffee. We talked, he was laughing at my jokes and we basically talked about anything. I love his company,I'm sure he will be a great friend to me.
He said he is a shy guy, he wont go to a bar and pick up on someone he met there. We talked about anything,had an ex back home, Well, I don't know if they are still together or what,but I'm not expecting anything at this moment but just having a new friend.
He asked some personal stuffs about my life,like boyfriends, family, friends and about my work. "when is your day off usually" he asked, I said ''every Fridays and Saturdays"
"I have my offs every Saturday" he said after.
"how long you plan on staying here in this country?"--me
"I don't know,if i enjoy my life here I might stay for long.How about you "You think you can stay longer?" --italian
"Yeah i think so,I'm beginning to enjoy my stay here,I got new friends and a good job"
When I told him I wanted to move to Canada in the future and have my partner there and have a kid of our own he was laughing and told me I'm crazy!haha.
"Canada is so freakin' cold!" he added
"Have you been to the manila?" I said
"No,not yet, but now I think i might visit it..."he answered with a mysterious smile
"so where do you wanna go next?" he asked me after some time after he payed the bill.
"I don't know, you are the boss" I told him while laughing
"No,no, you are the boss,tell me where do you wanna go" he said
"OK i wanna see the water near the road..."--me. Its a place like Roxas boulevard in manila. Its a great place i only saw it when we pass by it going home from the mall.
He took me there and we just walked while talking.Other Filipinos are looking at us.Wondering or thinking " oh yun oh pumatolsa foreigner" LOL. he is so tall,he stands 6'2 against my 5'6 height!haha I'm only up to his chin when we're closer.
Its already dark and he said he will take me to the place where he works.
We cant come inside and give me a tour there since its a formal place haha and I'm wearing my old crappy jeans! We decided to have dinner somewhere and as we hit the road he realized we were lost! we just go with the flow and laughed at our ignorance on the roads and places here! We are two foreign gay guys who are not familiar with this country!take that!LOL
"Do you have any idea where are we right now"--I asked
"I don't have a single clue!" and we both laughed so hard!
After 30 minutes we found the right way where we supposed to eat, he took me to this Moroccan restaurant, the place is a little dark with only red light and lamps on tables, the music is a traditional Moroccan, i kinda thought its a romantic date after all!LOL or I'm just assuming, no, its just a friendly date!
We sat there and I let him ordered i don't know a thing about their menu!haha.He said its his first time there too.So we just made a wild guess which one to order and hoping it will be good.The cute waiter brought us a camel and a lamb dish.With bread that has a very spicy spread!Yuck!haha
We're just laughing at the food we ate,we don't like it,too much spices and sweets!We both swear we wont eat there again!
After that, I asked him to take me home because i need to prepare my stuff for my duty early in the morning even if i still don't want the night with him to end. He said he don't have anything to do at home I know if he has a choice he still wanted us to go somewhere and have a good night out.
We still had a hard time finding the right way towards my building, and a good thing because we had a little more time to talk. He asked me if I have no boyfriend left in the Philippines and I told him no more,but i like this someone I met at the bus haha."so are you two still chatting till now?" he asked,I don't know if its just my imagination or so that I sensed a little worry or jealousy from that question.
When we finally find the right building he stop at the side and wait for me to get out. i felt awkward a little bit,its goodbye time. What should i do?should i invite him to come for a while?what if he agreed to come upstairs?will i be in trouble that he might think its a sexual invitation?or should I kiss or hug him goodbye?
"So,goodbye for now,do you want to come up for a while?" I asked and damn!why my mouth said that!i don't wanna say that!LOL I don't want him to come up i still have a lot of things to do like ironing my clothes and cook my food for my breakfast at my duty the next day and I told that to him earlier(You see i cook my food at night because I'm too lazy to get up from bed too early haha)
"Should I park here?Is that alright?" he said smiling.And in my mind "oh no I'm in trouble!he wants to come up!" but he added in the end "oh, I know you still have a lot of things to do now,so maybe next time will be good"he added.*sigh* thank you Lord!haha
"yeah,so, goodnight..." i did the move to shake his hand instead of kissing him goodnight LOL good thing i had great control that time.
So that's it.I had great time with him, he is a great guy. The next morning he left me an offline message saying he had a great time and hope I had too and that he would see me next time.Lets see whats next!Ciao!
Pagod ako ngayon. Galing Makati may inasikaso, at dahil pagod ako wala ako sa mood mag isip,tingnan nyo Tagalog.Kasi nga tamad ako LOL! Mag-Taglish nalang muna ako.Pasensiya na muna sa mga international readers ko haha.Naks! feeling sikat e noh!!!At dahil tungkol sa katalandian ito e, pipilitin kong tapusin ang post na 'to!haha
Anyway,sumakay ako ng bus sa terminal ng Sta.Rosa kanina pa-LRT Buendia/Lawton at baba ako sa Filmore sa Makati, halos puno na,yun nasa dulong rows nalang ang bakante, naupo ako sa tatluhan dahil wala dun ang araw,para di mainit sa tabi ng window,feeling eksursyonista ako lagi e pag nasakay ng bus gusto laging tabi sa bintana!LOL
Nakapikit ako habang antay mapuno ang bonggang bus.Namalayan ko nalang na may tumabi sa pwesto ko,medyo nakadikit sakin kahit na dalawa palang kami sa tatluhang upuan, napadilat ako at nilingon siya ng pasimple,binuksan ang aking third eye sa parteng tenga LOL! hmmm, may mga bakante pa kaya sa kabila bakit dito 'to naupo,sa isip-isip ko.
Maliit na guy, siguro mga around 5'4, naka-shades, semi-kalbo, may hikaw, ganda ng bag ha infairness haha. Di ko siya masyado ma-analyze baka mahalata na nakatingin ako.Impression ko: 18 years old na estudyante na papasok sa school ngayon.
Nakumpleto na kami sa upuan,tatlo na,lalo siyang napadikit sa 'kin, ramdam ko yun katawan niya at yun braso nya.Ang sarap shit!haha.Sarap kaya feeling ng may makinis na mainit init na balat sa braso ko. Dinedma ko nalang, kasi masikip talaga kaya ganun. Ayoko mag ilusyon.Habang nasa expressway,napapansin ko lalo siya napapadikit sakin,parang sinasadya,natakot ako baka mandurukot pala si student.
Inilipat ko yun bag ko sa kabilang side palayo sa kanya.Pero di naman siya mukhang mandurukot haha.Inunat niya yun braso niya at ipinuwesto sa may hita niya,kaya bale,nasa pagitan ng legs ko at legs niya yun braso at kamay niya,as if waiting for a holding hands from me.Halos nakapatong na sa right legs ko.
Shit,ano to...napapaisip ako,gusto ba niya na ganun din ko ipwesto braso ko?Nakiramdam pa ko,pero talagang nakadikit siya sakin ng todo lalo yun braso niya..."tinitigasan na ko...putcha!"hahaha.Deadma lang ako kunyari,nainip siguro binago niya pwesto niya.Ako naman ang nahinayang baka nga gusto nya hawakan ko kamay nya.E di mega gaya ako sa pwesto ng kamay at braso niya kanina.
Aba..ginaya niya din ako,super dikit mga braso namin na parehong nasa gitna ng right legs ko at left legs nya.Di ko magawang hawakan kamay niya, magkatalalikuran mga palad namin...nahihiya ako,baka mapahiya ako e,at isa pa ang bata pa nito!!!Ang tagal pa namin nagpapakiramdaman,jusko inip na inip na ako sa next move nya!haha
Nagpapanic na ko malapit na kasi ako bumaba e siya Lawton pa!Di ko pa alam name niya or number at nasususpense na ako sa kakahantungan nitong kiskisan namin ng balat LOL! Its now or never,since magkadikit at magkatalikuran pa din kamay namin,nilapit ko yun little finger ko sa daliri niya,as if kinukulbit ko sya gently...ay shit gumanti ng galaw ng daliri....hanggang sa halos magkaholding hands na kami...
Nung bumaba yun katabi pa naming isang guy,tinignan ko siya ng maigi,di na pala siya minor,he's an adult na hehe maliit lang siya talaga and baby face ng konti.Nasa may Fimore na yun bus,pero di ako makadecide kung bababa na ba or what di ko pa siya nakakausap,sayang din to noh!LOL. Sabi ko "hi,Filmore na ba to?" kunyari di ko alam pero nakailan balik na ako dun haha."Di ko lang sure...parang..." sagot niya, hmmm halata ko na PLU din siya.Nice!
Napansin ko super dikit pa din kami kahit dalawa nalang kami sa tatluhang upuan, as if he's wrapping his arms around mine. Jusko bus affair ito!!!Tinido ko na ang pakikipag usap "ano name mo?"
"Tommy,ikaw?" sabi niya na super lapit sa mukha ko, shit I wanted to kiss him...
"Im Mac. May bf ka na?" di ko alam bakit natanung ko yun haha
"Wala.Ikaw?" balik tanung niya, sinabi ko wala din haha.sayang aalis na ako sa wednesday!hmmpf!pero di ko yun sinabi sa kanya agad.
"San ka pupunta?what time ka matatapos dun?" ako ulit talagang tanungan to the max na!habang hinawakan ko na ang kamay niya na parang jowa ko siya, saglit lang daw siya sa lawton sa office nila, sabi ko ako din, pero di ko muna siya niyaya nahiya ang lola nyo haha.Super lapit namin nung nag uusap kulang nalang maghalikan kami!
Nilabas ko celphone ko at inabot sa kanya,"paki-lagay ng number mo.."kinuha niya at tinayp yung number niya sa phonebook ko.
"miscall mo ko,malapit ka na bumaba" sabi niya.Nagpaalam na ko kasi LRT na e haha.
Sumakay ako ng jeep pabalik ng Filmore haha.Magkatext kami habang nasa daan ako.sabi niya kung alam ko na ba daw ang pupuntahan ko, inamin ko sa kanya na nag alibi lang ako.Napag alaman ko na manager siya sa isang store outlet sa mall at na 29 years old na siya at nakatira sa bayan malapit sa min!ang saya!
"dinidikitan na nga kita e..parang umiiwas ka naman.Di mo ba naamoy na gay din ako?haha" reply nya sa text
After 30 minutes nagtext siya ulit na tapos na daw siya sa lakad niya,ako naman nasa office pa ng agency ko.Niyaya niya ko na baka gusto ko kumain at gumala kami and to talk a little bit more na din.Nagkita kami sa MOA. Ayun ang ending e nagkaroon ako ng date ng di oras haha masarap siya kausap,nag enjoy ako.
Di ako makapaniwalang I picked up a guy sa bus!!!haha
Kwentuhan to the max kami,nabanggit ko na paalis na me sa wednesday pa-qatar,napansin ko na medyo nadisapppoint siya....ako din nadisappoint,mejo I want to know him more e.He seems to be a nice guy.Maaga pa, nag stroll kami sa mall kasi 4pm ako kelangan bumalik s agency.Gusto ko sana magsine ng mahalikan ko naman ang mokong na to!LOL! Bumili ako ng ilan item at siya din, bad infuence daw ako haha.
Naghiwalay na kami nung 4pm kasi matatagalan pa ako sa briefing sa pag alis ko.Till now magkatext pa kami habang sinusulat ko to.Sayang di humantong sa kama!Kidding!!!!!!!!!!!!
"Its my birthday on the 20th hehe wala lang...papansin lang LOL"
I found someone promising, hmmm...*wink-wink* It started on twitter, he talked to me a little... Then finally on May 13, he replied on my tweets, got my attention I left for a while to have my dinner then and I saw a message on my YM account,saying: "You never came back,I'm waiting for you at twitter..." Hmmm....demanding haha
I smiled, I saw someone willing to talk to me, really, really wanted to talk to me I got giddy and all haha, its been a while since I felt this funny stuffs He said he's been following my blog since November and that he's been trying to reach me for a while now. "I read almost everything, from the beginning. I'm more on the content of your blog"
I saw some of his updates on twitter while were chatting: "I'm chatting with my dream boy right now... pls bear with me friends,Im busy with him. Gustong gusto ko kasi siya makausap ever!" I know he's referring to me (ambisyosa ako di bah LOL) I don't know if its right to flirt with your readers?!haha
Its been 5 days now, everyday were chatting at YM from 8pm to 5am. We even extend our chats till 6 in the morning! he just don't wanna stop! I have to remind him that the sun is up and he needs to go home! He's working on a call center and I kept him company while he works It felt like I'm working too.LOL. Its a good thing he can chat with me while he work.
What I like about this guy is, he came to me so honest, no fuss at all He introduce himself, gave me his real name with surname included ha! which is so rare on chatting. he showed me his picture right away too... Even if I never asked any of them. He could easily talks about his past, his broken family, as if he wants to come clean and open with me. Im impressed.
You have a nice name, I told him "you'll be carrying my name once were married" he said And my eyes popped out of its socket and replied "Waaaaa I don't wanna be the bride!" LOL and he said "OK,fine, I'll wear the freakin' gown...just marry me!"
Maybe there's a reason why my surname on my visa was misspelled
For me to have more time with this guy?To get to know him more?
I don't know.I'm just too afraid to commit at this point in time.
I don't wanna be unfair at him.We both know I'm leaving soon.
"Don't be so pessimistic.Lets make the most out of this Mac, while it lasts.."
Out of nowhere..I don't know where it came from,I asked him
"Will you be my date on my birthday?"
"sure hehe.I will be your gift, I'll wrapped myself on a big box!"
Oh no..tomorrow at 3pm is the big day...my date with Jojo! Im looking forward to it the whole week and now that its here Im nervous.What if something might not turn out right or I say something stupid or he might think Im too aggressive (well Im really aggressive hehe but ofcourse i'd like lay low a little since its our first date)The biggest challenge is what am I going to wear!When it comes to dressing up thats a big deal for me.You see first impression is the best part.You have to look nice ofcourse.I dont want him to think Im a lousy dresser or something.
We'be been planning about this date too long and I hope we'll have a good time,i told him I wanna see keanu's new movie and he said he liked that movie too.We have a good time chatting since last week and its so much fun I just hope tomorrow will be like that.
I told my sister that JL and I are no more,and by the reaction of her face its seems that she's not surprised!haha.And I told her that I have a special visitor at the 25th,and she just asked who is it,I told her his name is Jojo.And that was it.And we just talk about what food to prepare at the christmass eve.I said I'd like to have carbonara but she wants spaghettie!I also suggested for a roasted chicken,crema-de-fruita cake which is my favorite.
We will meet at the terminal going to alabang and by then we will go straight to the mall and look for a fancy resto and head at the movies yehey!!!I'll tell you the details tomorrow ok!Ciao!
This may seem so sudden,but Im actually dating again,well not actually dating now,I mean this coming saturday and we even decided to be together at the 25th at enchanted kingdom!(a local amusement park in laguna) I have talked to this guy that I knew for a year now,we just became friends at the chatroom eversince,you know the usual hi and hello and how are you's kind of thing.And last night since im single and available haha I flirted a little and got so interested to get to know him more and he is such a nice guy,he's been to a serious relationship for a long time and the kind of guy I wanted, now we're constantly communicating through text and chat.Well,I hope this is a good start and we could have a good time this saturday.
When I got home today from the mall,i opened my pc and saw an offline messages,one from OJ my friend at london,and one from my ex,JL he said: "hello lang po ulit good afternoon" I just felt weird that he messaged me,but im planning not to reply I said to him last time we've talked that i wont bother him ever again.I made a decision and he made a decision too when im trying to fix things so its not my fault anymore that we're separated.So now Im moving on and now..im dating...
