"Mac, san ako matutulog?" tanong ni Brian nun silipin nya yun room at wala na yun kutson na nilatag ko last year nun dito din siya natulog. Bakasyon ko din yun. Hinatid nya ko sa airport with my family.
"Wala na yun e, sira na. At saka may daga dyan sa sahig akong nakita. Mamaya gapangan ka pa, gusto mo???!" depensa ko. Muntik na ko mapatawa sa inimbento kong daga. Hindi na siya umimik at tuluyan ng pumasok sa kwarto para matulog.
Nasa mall ako kanina para magpa-facial treatment nun tumawag siya at sinabing on the way na daw siya to visit me bago ako lumipad pabalik ng middle east. Saturday ngayon at sa wednesday na flight ko. Nagtatampo ako sa knya kasi tagal ko ng inaantay na bisitahin nya ko. Ngayon lang naisipan ng hayop. LOL
Sinagot ko na din facial nya, pagkatapos, kumain kami ng dinner. Nun una medyo naiilang pa kami, halos wala mapag usapan, pero eventually, naging at ease na ulit kami sa isa't isa kaya nagkukulitan na ulet.
Pahapyaw nyang nabanggit na nakipag break na siya sa current bf nya. Kunyari di ko narinig. Tuloy lang ako sa pag kwento. Sa isip isip ko, this is getting better and better. At least kung mag sex man kami di kami magi-guilty! (sabi ng dimonyo sa isip ko sabay ngiti!LOL)
Pagdating sa bahay, malugod naman siya kinamusta ng pamilya ko. Bakit daw ngayon lang siya ulet dumalaw blah-blah-blah.
"See love na love pa din ako ni Tatay at ni ate..." bulong nya nun nanonood kami ng TV.
"Oo nah! ikaw na!"
me and brian at enchanted kingdom
More than three years na nun mag break up kami ni Brian. Siya ang pinakamatagal kong nakarelasyon. 19 years old palang ata siya nun haha. Pero nanatili kaming magkaibigan sa kabila ng lahat. At siya lang din ang nakasundo ng sister ko ever.
Heto nga, nakahiga na siya sa kama ko. Nakatagilid. Kita ang
makinis na legs. Kita ko ang kurba ng balakang.
Nilibugan ako...
chos!
Naisipan
ko nalang mag browse ng blogs. Inabot din ako ng ilang oras. Tuwing
maalimpungatan siya sa pagtulog nakikita kong naiinis siya. Parang gusto
mahiga na ko at mag sex na kami! LOL (inisip ko lang yun, di ko sure
haha)
Finally, naisipan kong matulog na din. Nakatihaya ako sa
kama. Mulagat. Nakatitig sa kisameng madilim. Masikip. Single bed lang kasi yun. Pero that's the idea e, yun
masikip. Alam na!!! Nakatagilid pa din siya sa kin. Nakailang ikot ikot ako sa
kama. Di ako mapakali. Kelangan akitin ko to'ng gagong to! LOL
Nilakasan
ko ang loob ko at tumagilid din ako paharap sa knya.
Iniyakap ko yun
kamay ko sa tagiliran nya.
Nakiramdam ako.
Walang reaksyon.
Dinikit ko pa lalo ang
katawan ko sa likod nya. Wala pa din reaksyon.
Deadma.
Nilagyan ko ng
unan ang sa may parte ng etits ko kasi kakahiya naman na maramdaman nya na
matigas na matigas na yun "ano" ko. haha! Baka isipin nya pervert ako!
Dikit na dikit na ko sa knya.
Hmm,
napangiti ako. Napayag si mokong. Nun last uwi ko, Dati dati kung itulak tulak nya ko e.
Iniyakap ko pa ng mabuti ang braso ko sa katawan nya.
Iginapang
ko pa ang aking mga kamay...
may hinahanap...
madali ko naman natagpuan.
Ang malambot nyang kamay.
Inihulma ko ang aking mga daliri sa knyang mga
daliri...
Naramdaman kong pinisil nya at hinigpitan ang pagkakawak sa mga daliri kong nagpilit mangahas...
Sa
kakaibang saya ko nakalimutan ko na ang maka-mundo kong balak.
Napalitan nalang ng pagkalma ng kalooban. Ng excitement ng puso.
Hanggang sa makatulog na kami pareho sa ganu'ng posisyon.
The next day, he was different, no more messages, no more chats, I was sad. In my mind, so just because he didn't get what he wanted last night, not interested in knowing me anymore?
I was hurt.
I waited the whole day. I was impatient and contacted him first during the night! (i hate my self!) I asked him how he was and why he's not talking to me. He said he's busy and that we're not boyfriends to be constantly communicating...we're just friends, he repeated.
Ouch!
I thought we have something...I thought last night's great moments together will be a start of something...I was wrong...
So what if I gave in to our body's needs? would it make a difference? or should I be thankful that I refused to the lust we're feeling last night?
I told my self "OK fine, he's not the only gay guy in the world.
Two days after, he called asking where am I and whats my schedule, i told him I have duty from 2pm to 10pm.
"I'll see you in your house after ten, lets eat bulalo" he said. In my mind aba demanding ang mokong!haha.Bulalo ko gusto mo kainin? but I only thought of that!LOL. But I agreed. Maybe its better if we're really just friends. Which is what I really need.
I have an extra energy that day, too excited to come home. He texted me that he was on the way and be on my flat after ten minutes. I called the resto's number and ordered bulalo,but not available anymore so we had nilagang baka instead. I was too happy to see him when I opened the door.
We were talking that as if nothing ever happened between us, I suddenly relaxed and enjoyed our dinner. We had fun. He stayed for at least two hours, until he said he have to leave already, I suggested he stayed and leave in the morning instead. But he insisted on going home. I was disappointed I thought he will stay through the night, I wasn't expecting anything sexual... (but i have stolen lubes from work!LOL)
Saturday, it was my off till the next day, I was at home the whole time, I got bored when I suddenly invited him to go out and watch 2012 after seeing a local website that its already showing. I was surprised when he agreed. Agreed too fast. I mean i thought he would refuse and that I need to ask another friend to come.
"where and what time we go?" he asked.
I answered him and told me that he will wait on my building's lobby. 30minutes later he texted me saying he wont be able to come because he was doing something important. I asked him "why" and he explained, I replied
OK :-(
I was surprised when he sent the next message, "alright, I will meet you at 8!"
Haha I think its the sad face that made him changed his mind! We came in very late for the movie time, so we decided to buy the next ticket which was at 10:30pm time. We have 2hours to spare, he was hungry so we dined in at the food court, we're just talking there and appreciating many eye candies hehe. He was laughing at my jokes and stories.
He bought me ice cream and we're like children enjoying our cups of that sweet food! We entered this home store at the mall and we looked around and bought some stuffs and he promised that he will help me with cleaning my house since my house looks like shit! I told you guys I don't clean that much, I'm not use to cleaning the house. I told him I saw his former room at UAE (since he was originally working there before moving here) and that I love what he did on it.
He even said he will decorate my room for it to look nice and relaxing. "But will you really clean my house? and do the vacuuming?" I asked. "alright, alright, I will do it..." he said.
yessss!!! I said while laughing
The movie 2012 was awesome, great special effects. But failed to make me cry unlike those moments from independence day or Armageddon when they have that touching moments.
"Will you come with me when "new moon" opens?" I asked him after.
"definitely" --Aldwin
Its 1am when we reached home. I invited him to stay since its very late and he told me he forgot to bring his keys and I promised him he don't have to share my bed, that there's an extra room for him. He agreed.
"would you like me to prepare your bed at the other room? I asked.
"there's no need, I can sleep at your bed" he said
We slept together for the second time, this time no hugging, no kissing, its just plain sleep over of two gay friends. But damn, i cant sleep!haha I wanted to hug him and him to hug me.
Sigh.
He woke me up next morning and I walked him to my door and he left.
"Would you like to have dinner with me sometime? maybe on the 26th, is that OK with you?"
That's what he asked after some time of chatting through messenger, honestly, I like talking to him even though I haven't met him yet, well, I saw his picture already. I was able to know him when he sent me a message telling me how he likes my blog that he almost finished it from the beginning. I was flattered of course. We chat whenever we have a chance.
His name: Aldwin
I agreed on that date, since its my day off and its not bad meeting new friends. I was very vocal about having a new friend. I told him I don't have a bi or gay friend in my life, my friends are straight, male and female. It would make a big difference having someone like me. He agreed since he is new here in Doha, barely a month with no new friends yet, he told me later that he's the only Filipino on their company. Technically he is alone.
I was excited. Even if its 2 weeks to go. I was at work one morning when I decided to text him, we exchanged many messages, when later I told him me and other two friends will dine in at a resto and go to the mall after. Which he will go for late lunch too. He asked if we could meet there, I was hesitant. Its too soon, I thought I still have 2 weeks to meet him!
I'm having butterflies on my stomach! I don't know what to type in on my cellphone keypads. Yes or no? Finally I said: OK, I'll find a way when we're at the mall. My friends are already annoyed at me since I was on my phone almost the whole time while we're eating texting him. But my friends enjoyed the foods and the chats and it took them a long time before deciding to go malling!
Aldwin had to go back at their office! So there, meeting:cancelled! I was sad.
I told him we could catch up later or grab a coffee somewhere since he lives a few blocks from my building. When I came home around 8 in the evening, he invited me to have a dinner instead at a nearby fast food. I changed to casual clothes and hit the street, its a walking distance from my flat.
He came in earlier than me. Then I saw him, wearing his jeans and eyeglasses. Hmmm, pwede!!! He's a jolly person I could tell, and no pretensions, no "arte" whatsoever. I like him...as a friend, LOL! Its too early to think about anything romantic and besides I don't know what's in his mind yet. Our meeting was very nice, I enjoyed it. We're talking about anything for more than an hour.
I thought: I like this guy, he could be a very good boyfriend...
But I immediately erased that thought. I don't want to rush in and hurt in the process. Its better to be friends for the meantime, and if its meant to be, and escalated to something deeper, why not. But now, I got to hold my emotions and enjoy the new friendship with him.
"its still early, can we go to your flat and continue our conversation?" he asked.
Next thing I knew we were walking on the familiar street towards my flat. I was embarrassed because I'm not a neat person when it comes to my house!ahaha. I'm messy and lazy cleaning up! We watched TV and laughing and having a great time. We didn"t notice that its getting very late. Its 12am. He have work at 8am, I asked him: What time you'll go home?
No response. I knew he don't want to end the night so soon. I could sense it. Me too. I don't want him to leave yet. Sexual tensions are building up. I'm fighting it. I made a promise to myself that sex will be the last thing on my mind. I'm sick and tired of having sex first before knowing a guy or him knowing me first.
Hindi akopakipot ha! LOL
He was sitting on my couch and I decided to sit on its armchair, it surprised me when he lay his arms on my legs for comfort while watching TV, I allowed him, until he put my arms around his shoulders. I kissed his hair. I hugged him tighter this time. I don't want that moment to end. Its magical.
I whispered to his ear, I don't want you to go...
Ok, I'll stay...
But you have work in the morning?
I'll go at 6.
Ok.
Next thing I knew, I was changing the pillow cases on my bed! waaaaa!!! Am I doing the right thing here???? For sure something will happen!
I told him : no sex OK? we'll just sleep together.
"of course" he said. Then he took off his shirt and left his boxer shorts.
I panicked deep inside, if he will sleep shirtless that would be dangerous for me, I will feel his skin next to mine and I will explode with hornyness!LOL. I offered him a shirt, he refused, said he cannot sleep with it. I sighed.
When I came back from the bathroom he's already sleeping. I went to my side of the bed. I don't know what possessed me but I hugged him from his back. He acknowledge it, he came closer.I tried to sleep and keep my hard dick away from his back and butt!LOL prayed that it would stop pulsating!haha
I heard him snoring a little. I felt his bare skin on my arms. It felt good. I stopped myself from biting his earlobes. I slept after a while. I took my arms from him and decided to shift on my side, he followed and this time he was the one hugging me from my back. I missed this. Someone hugging me. Cuddling me...when was the last time someone hugged me this close while sleeping? a year ago? with Brian...
But I was surprised when he started giving me light touches on my shoulders, seducing me...he started moving his hips against mine. My eyes wide open! Oh no...this is it! Will I do it with him...but he promised no sex...
He took my hand and put inside his boxers, I felt his manhood...
"please s@ck it..." he whispered. I said no....he begged "please..."
I faced him and his lips gently moved closer to mine, I kissed him, slowly he kissed me back, then hungrily...I moaned with pleasure...
I like kissing, maybe liked it more than the actual sex itself...
We are both on fire, but I'm still undecided if I want to continue this... I promised myself not to be this easy on sex...been very casual about sex with darkguy before...
I promised my self that the next time I'll do it, it have to be with someone I love, someone who loves me...
I gathered all my self control and said : we cant do this, we are friends.
And with those words, as if I threw a cold drum of water on him and he stopped.
"yes we are friends" he said
I kissed his lips gently and hugged him until we slept.
Its 6am he rose from my bed, I didn't move a muscle wait for him to wash up and dressed up. He lay his head on my tummy and wait for me to respond. I hugged him. But didn't kiss him I knew I have a killer breath that time LOL!
I walked him to the door and as I was putting the keys he moved very close from my back and started touching me wildly, I was immediately on fire, I put my hand inside his pants and touched his manhood, he pulled down my shorts from my back and touching me...we almost did it.
He stopped and said: we are friends.... damn! i said im my mind
I heard the familiar sound of our doorbell, but unlike before, I didn't rush out to open it, I knew who it was...I took my time and I opened the door and there he was again standing on my front door for the 6th time?was it 7?10?crap I lost count!haha.
"pizza delivery sir!" he was wearing his cutest smile while holding the box of pizza he promised me to make.
"wow you really made me a pizza!!!" I'm so excited, finally i will be able to taste the works of this crazy guy that I adore.Its was so good I ate 8 slices and kept the other two for my friends to try it the next day hehe. (mang iinggit lang ako na iginawa ako ni Eros ng pizza hehe)
He took me for a ride and we went to the night market because I told him I needed to buy the longganisa haha, I don't know what has gotten into me that I'm craving for that Pinoy food for the past week! I know what you all thinkin', I'm not pregnant morons!
But to no avail, I cant find it. And for the 8th or nth time travelling together in the street of Doha, he said the famous words "OK, we are officially lost" haha and I will reply it with "what else is new?!just drive and we will find the right way soon,hopefully. LOL" and we will just both laugh about it.
Its my day off that day and its our plan that I will be spending it at his place. Its 1:00 in the morning, he parked at his spot and he guided me to his condo, its my second time here. I checked my pocket to see if I brought my pepper spray in case he do something. Kidding!!! of course I will be a willing victim LOL!!!
He offered me vodka but I refused, I don't want to drink "gasoline" I told him. I went to his bed and lie there and wait for him to join me. Oh wag muna kayo mag isip ng advance di pa kami magsesex!LOL.
We talked and have some nice laughs through the night, we watched some stuffs over the net.Its 4am when we finally decided to go to sleep. Its cold in the room and I was already inside the comforter hugging the big pillow on my side."so you going to hug that freaking pillow over me?" he said teasing.
"i cant sleep without hugging a pillow"
"you can hug me." he said protesting
"no, you're too big to hug!" I continued teasing
He hugged me from the back while I was hugging the pillow at my front! that looks like a threesome to me!
He started kissing me from my nape and towards the side of my lips and I willingly respond, his hands are traveling everywhere, on my arms, on my chest, on my belly and finally down to the land down under and to my tree of life LOLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!
I cannot control the urge to moan and I faced him and this time I responded to his every kiss and every touch. He undressed me and...
--OK, THIS PART IS CENSORED !--
(he will kill me if he find out that I'm sharing every details of it.)
Anyway moving along, haha. The next morning we went to the beach and we stroll and have some pictures together. It was a lovely day and we came back at the city past 4 in the afternoon, he bought some food at the groceries and I cooked rice and we shared a simple and heavy dinner hehe. Did I mentioned that he is too lazy to cook at home?!I mean WTF!
He slept on my side while I was watching "trueblood" on my laptop, I let him take that time to rest I know he is tired and not having enough sleep this past few weeks. I was struggling to understand what I'm watching because the crazy bastard was snoring like a dinosaur!LOL
I woke him up at ten and drove me back home. I have work the next morning.
"Will you be hurt if you learned that I had sex,and date and stuff?Reason I asked is because, I was like..I guess wondering, how would you react to your own medicine,a theoretical taste of your medicine...." -- RR
This is part 2 of my post entitled "Lets get Wet"
Everyone has left already and only 6 of us remained at the resort,me,Nick,Berna with her 2 niece and Sasha.After singing endlessly with a videoke everyone decided to call it a night and headed to bed after taking a shower,he even borrowed my towel.The maid prepared us the guest room,Sasha instructed her that Berna and her nieces will sleep on the mattress and me will have the big bed of the same room and Nick on the other hand will be staying at a small room with a small bed.
Berna was on a teasing mood and said "you better sleep in our room it will be fun!" and next thing I knew Nick occupied the bed that was intended for me!I said "hey you moron, that's my bed!Move out!" but he didn't, pretending he's sleeping already! And since I like the idea of him beside me,didn't put much effort on kicking him out.I said,hey get your own blanket that's mine,but he said"we don't need too much linen this is big enough for us".
Its been 6 years since we started this chasing game,of this flirting game.He would volunteer his pad every time I have trouble going home if its so late when the group went out.But always cancelled at the last minute so this is the first time we'll be actually on each other's company for the whole night,but of course with Berna and company at the distant floor.
"I prepared my place, in case you don't want to sleep here at Sasha's,I know how so demanding you are!" he said when the lights are off."So you didn't plan on sleeping here in the first place?" i asked."yeah,I thought we'll be going home and you will be sleeping at my place tonight in case we stay so late here" he added.
We cant sleep yet so one hour was spent on laughing because Berna was still in an energetic and happy talking mood.We talked about anything. Its fun, its like were on a camping trip haha.Nick would put his one leg across mine while talking at Berna who's at the floor.After a while,everyone was quiet.I positioned my self at the end of the bed and my back facing him,and so is he.There's a space between us in the middle.
I cant sleep.I was listening and wondering what this guy will do now,will he initiate the first move?shall I initiate it first?shall i touch his body?or would he touch me?If he touch me how would I react?shall I keep on pretending to be asleep?My mind was battling between right and wrong,whether if that would be a good thing or what?what if he dont wanna be touched?that I'm only imagining things between us?
Would I be cheating on RR?Even if he's not my bf yet and we haven't seen each other in person yet?Is this cheating already?ahh,my head are exploding!I decided to wait instead and pretend to be sleeping.Nick finally rolled over to my side,so close at my back,i could feel his breathing at my head,he's taller by the way,around 5'10",working as a clinical instructor, a mestizo guy.
He stayed at that position for a while,its so good to have him so close like that,I'm having a hard on and I pressed the pillow on it that's been lying on my side.I decided to turn around to see what he's gonna do and he started moving...going to the other direction this time,and his back in front of me again! haha. What the hell is this??? I said to myself!
This was our exact position that night looks likeI swear!
Then he moved on closer to me again.Were both supine and so close.I don't want to do anything, that's what I decided. At least it wont start from me, I don't wanna be that aggressive,I thought to myself.And maybe that's what he's thinking too! haha so the whole night was spent with nothing ever happened and me shifting positions and he following and moving and back and on and on!
I'm glad nothing happened.Maybe its for the best. We are better off as friends.Many people will be affected if this sex thing will go on.And I don't wanna ruin everything between us, that I'm proud of myself, I never thought that I have so much self control, I've always been so "maniac" about having sex!haha being the aggressive one, look what happened between me and Perry before!(click here)
In the morning,I was the first one to wake,but still lying on the bed and i took off the blanket and exposing my whole body...I'm in a teasing mood haha.My tight shorts are like exposing all of my legs that looks indecent enough and I was like scratching my crotch and I caught his eyes staring!But I ignored it and I've been smiling secretly...
The first sleep over was followed by another and another..and the next one was different, when we were lying there together, as usual I cant sleep when his with me, I felt him moved closer to me, our shoulders touched..and I was electrified..Oh my god it feels so good!!!So I pretend to be asleep..then his legs lie on mine…”Ang sarap shettt” hehe.And after that…I fell asleep!!!!!Damn!hehe.
We went to breakfast together,we were talking about anything and it felt good,as if we were partners in real life hehe. Then he’s sched changed to morning shift( 6am-2pm), so no more sleep over..I missed him, his smell, I don’t know I like his sweet sweaty like smell hehe. After 2 weeks he’s in the 2-10pm shift again and asked me again he will sleep at the lab.. I was told that he never sleeps at our lab whenever I was not the duty therapist. and it made me happy. It means he likes to be with me hehe.(*kiligg) this time I asked Brenda to help me moved this big box of supply to our sleeping area of Perry, so that it will become smaller, so he have no choice but to sleep really closer to me since the big sleeping area before is now become so small!!!Haha we were laughing at our brilliant plan!!!Now I can feel his body really closer to mine and Im excited! When he came and noticed the big big box at our area he just ignored it and just lie there..i can see how small our sleeping area has become when he was lying there OH MY GOD…We immediately prepared our meds which is due at 12am to give to our patients..it took us an hour..and now I can go to sleep and wait for any calls..wishing that there will never be cardio-pulmonary arrest case tonight!
Then I went to my very little space of our bed, I asked Perry to move a little bit because I cant fit in the space he left me (I told to myself “its ur idea to have it small now suffer”haha) and he moved so little,so I have no choice but to shrink myself in I went on side lying position and I was facing him..he was lying on his back ..and I was very close to his body and I can feel the air he’s breathing out..it was heaven!Then I lie my arms in his stomach as if im hugging him…as if his my boyfriend…and no movement…nothing at all..no reaction or something, I don’t know if he’s just pretending not to feel my arms in him..so I got aggressive..i move my head closer to his head..and my hands moved down his navel..I can feel his skin..it was smooth and with so very thin hairs…there’s still no movement from him…then I moved my hand again down…I wanna feel him…his genitals…haha I was so horny that time!!!And I was so curious if its big and if he’s really gay as I suspected!And when Im about to slip my hand inside his pants he suddenly moved and went on sidelying position so now Im facing his back!haha. I was silently embarrassed at that time OMG what have I done???How can I face him again? But at the back of my head I was a little amused hehe..did he just gave me the wrong signs or he just got scared at the last minute?haha
I was called at the ICU and when I got back at the lab he was gone he went home early than usual, I told Brenda what happened and she was laughing she cant believed that I really did it! From then on, I started to avoid Perry, I cant face him haha and I think he did too, he never called at our lab and never sleeps again.. and now after 5months he texted me, it was a forwarded message, a comedy quotes, I thought it was a wrong send message,but he texted again the next day,it was nothing special but it’s a good sign..and I missed him.
me and brian at enchanted kingdom
