New Year New Post. Bleh

Hi everyone!

Happy New Year na din :-)

Sorry ulit now lang nakapag update. Busy. Tinatamad. You know. LOL

Nakalimutin ko din pala mag post ng ika 7th year anniversary ng blog ko  nun August 2015, kainis na talaga ang katamaran.

Malapit na pala ulit bakasyon ko sa Pinas. Kaya eto excited na ako ulit, kita kits tayo diyan this January mga beks. Miss ko na kasi bahay ko kaya uwi ulit. Hindi pa din kasi tapos bahay ko may mga anik anik pa akong idadagdag, ayun, kaya more gastos, wala tuloy akong gala somewhere kaya bahay lang muna....At mas masaya kasi kasama ko si boyfs if walang maging problema.

Speaking of boyfs, we just celebrated our 18th monthsary last January 4, konting kembot pa maitatawid din ang ika second aniv namin. Record to mga beks!!! mukhang si boyfs na nga ang the one! LOL

Aba bakit naman hindi e siya lang tumagal sa akin ng taon haha alam nyo naman na 9 months lang ata pinaka matagal na relasyon ko sa buong 13 years kong pamamakla! LOL

Ang bait ni boyfs wala akong masabi. Kaya naniniwala talaga akong ang dapat na ka partner natin e yun ka opposite ng ugali natin. Kasi speaking thru my own experience, if kapareho ng ugali ko nako away lagi, hindi kami magkasundo.

Kaya kung madaldal ka ang partner mo dapat e un tahimik yun mapapanisan ng laway pag wala kumausap! charot!

O siya, yun na muna at ako e naka duty pa, next time ulit.

Sisterly

I only have one sibling, and that is my sister, I'm just a year older than her and I could still remember very clearly how we were when we're young.

We are like cats and dogs. We fight all the time. Literally. I don't remember a time that we never get jealous of anything. So my parents have to get me something if they gave anything for my sister or else...it would be chaos in the house!LOL

So if she received a doll, they have to give me a doll too!

Kidding!!!

Of course, i would love to have a car or a gun during those times...ano bah!!! (hawi ng bangs!chos!)

When we're fighting, it was like a wrestling match. I would pull her hair and dragged her accross the living room while she screams for help! Ibabalibag ko pa ulo nya saan-saan sa gigil ko!

And if she has the advantage over me, she would use a wet towel and lashed it on my face! and it would leave a reddish mark on my face and I would cry so hard till my mom comes! LOL

Fighting over who would wash the dishes was also a classic one! Sometimes it would take a whole day who would surrender to wash them till my mom arrives and beat us both! hahaha

Those memories makes me smile. We came a long way. Me and her. We are both adults now and she is married to a great guy and having a cute 7 year old boy and another one on the way.

Our relationship somehow changed and we became matured and responsible. I came OUT on her first and accepted me wholeheartedly.

Whenever I'm on vacation back home, she never fails to make my stay worthwhile. She prepared and cooked my favorite foods. Pag nag request ako ng kakainin, later on, andun na yun sa lamesa. She's making sure I'm comfortable and contented.

Especially my last vacation this year...we are closer than ever. Most of the time we go out together. Just the two of us. And always reminding me how to be careful in choosing someone to date and who to fall inlove with.

"Ayoko masaksak ka sa motel tanga ka!" her famous line whenever I go out alone and meet someone or go on a date.

Sometimes I felt that she's the one older. Because, she thinks much wiser than me. Last year when I had my first vacation and its my flight back to the middle east when she hugged me I felt really awkward because Im not really the hugging type of person when it comes to family members.

But this year, when I'm about to leave and say my good byes to them again, my body automatically approached her and hugged her really tight this time. I never felt awkward at all...

We are really different now. And we are both grown ups who loves each other. And besides, I know she will be there for me no matter what.

And I know she would take care of me when I'm old and...alone.

The Sleep Over

this is the actual beach where we went

I heard the familiar sound of our doorbell, but unlike before, I didn't rush out to open it, I knew who it was...I took my time and I opened the door and there he was again standing on my front door for the 6th time?was it 7?10?crap I lost count!haha.

"pizza delivery sir!" he was wearing his cutest smile while holding the box of pizza he promised me to make.

"wow you really made me a pizza!!!" I'm so excited, finally i will be able to taste the works of this crazy guy that I adore.Its was so good I ate 8 slices and kept the other two for my friends to try it the next day hehe. (mang iinggit lang ako na iginawa ako ni Eros ng pizza hehe)

He took me for a ride and we went to the night market because I told him I needed to buy the longganisa haha, I don't know what has gotten into me that I'm craving for that Pinoy food for the past week! I know what you all thinkin', I'm not pregnant morons!

But to no avail, I cant find it. And for the 8th or nth time travelling together in the street of Doha, he said the famous words "OK, we are officially lost" haha and I will reply it with "what else is new?!just drive and we will find the right way soon,hopefully. LOL" and we will just both laugh about it.

Its my day off that day and its our plan that I will be spending it at his place. Its 1:00 in the morning, he parked at his spot and he guided me to his condo, its my second time here. I checked my pocket to see if I brought my pepper spray in case he do something. Kidding!!! of course I will be a willing victim LOL!!!

He offered me vodka but I refused, I don't want to drink "gasoline" I told him. I went to his bed and lie there and wait for him to join me. Oh wag muna kayo mag isip ng advance di pa kami magsesex!LOL.

We talked and have some nice laughs through the night, we watched some stuffs over the net.Its 4am when we finally decided to go to sleep. Its cold in the room and I was already inside the comforter hugging the big pillow on my side."so you going to hug that freaking pillow over me?" he said teasing.

"i cant sleep without hugging a pillow"

"you can hug me." he said protesting

"no, you're too big to hug!" I continued teasing

He hugged me from the back while I was hugging the pillow at my front! that looks like a threesome to me!

He started kissing me from my nape and towards the side of my lips and I willingly respond, his hands are traveling everywhere, on my arms, on my chest, on my belly and finally down to the land down under and to my tree of life LOLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!

I cannot control the urge to moan and I faced him and this time I responded to his every kiss and every touch. He undressed me and...

--OK, THIS PART IS CENSORED !--

(he will kill me if he find out that I'm sharing every details of it.)

Anyway moving along, haha. The next morning we went to the beach and we stroll and have some pictures together. It was a lovely day and we came back at the city past 4 in the afternoon, he bought some food at the groceries and I cooked rice and we shared a simple and heavy dinner hehe. Did I mentioned that he is too lazy to cook at home?!I mean WTF!

He slept on my side while I was watching "trueblood" on my laptop, I let him take that time to rest I know he is tired and not having enough sleep this past few weeks. I was struggling to understand what I'm watching because the crazy bastard was snoring like a dinosaur!LOL

I woke him up at ten and drove me back home. I have work the next morning.

Ciao!
(see i learned one Italian word already!)

Your Dad is Not Like My Dad

Hmmm, as I watched TV today, I realized its father's day...but I don't know, I just don't feel like it haha. My sister teased me during lunch and whispered while our father was in the bathroom "greet your fave father, its father day!" and i just made a face "yuck!" and went on eating.

We're still a little pissed at him, because last night he was so drunk even though we told him to stop drinking already, every once in a while he's complaining of dizziness and after I checked his blood pressure,its a little high. The meds are a little expensive too. Doctor said, stop alcohol. Guess what? he's super drunk last night he barely made it to the bathroom to puke!

I know this may look like TOO MUCH INFO alert haha but I don't care this is my blog I'll write anything I feel like writing LOL!

As I've said on my past posts that we have an Internet shop, business is good so far. We are not rich but we have enough to support all our needs. We also have a jeep for hire being driven by my uncle and the boundary goes off to my dad alone. Its alright since he was the one who bought it through his money from years of working abroad. But the bad thing about it ,my uncle drives the jeep from 5am to 10pm everyday to earn decent money (like he would earn a thousand and half of it will go to boundaries to my dad) and once he give the P5oo boundary to my ever great father, it will go straight to gambling! Like mahjong, monte and baklay!!!

Like every night!!! If someone dies, for sure my dad will be there to gamble!

My uncle feels bad about it. I mean he worked hard for that money and in just one night that money will be wasted for nothing!

Anyway moving on, yesterday it was my parents wedding anniversary but we don't celebrate it, since my mom and dad are separated but my dad can't dissolve that in his brain! In his own world they are fine and that nothing is wrong. Even though the facts are all in front his face. My mom didn't care at all about this day, so this week, we had too many expenses, my mom haven't send money yet, it will be delayed, she said,we have to pay electric bills ,Internet connections, maid salary, groceries, my nephew's tuition and I did a little shopping for my stuffs.Ooops! (you know the one's I will bring to Qatar LOL).

So that's the situation. But my ever great dad didn't see that. Its their wedding anniversary. He will celebrate it. What he did? He took money from our safe and spend it with his alcoholic friends and they celebrated it to their hearts content!!!

You see, that's why I don't feel like greeting my dad a "happy father's day".

I'm thankful he sent me to this world, but that's about it. Everything else is courtesy of my mom. So to my mom HAPPY MOTHERS DAY AND FATHERS DAY TOO TO YOU!!!!

Hahaha sorry peeps for this. Since every one else was talking about how great their dad is and that this is a special occasion but this is the other side of that. Not every one is as happy as they are. I'm alright, this is something I'm used to already, we ignored our father most of the time. Like just being civil and all.

Not So"Gay" Life Afterall

Who says being gay is simple and all fun? I mean straight guys and girls dont know much.We live a life that is happy and a mixture of struggles and hardships.Sometimes I just wish Im straight and get married and have children so that my life could be less complicated. But what can I do?I tried to be straight for 20 years of my life.But felt unhappy.I thought life could be much easier if I just stop denying who I really is and accept the fact that I'm "gay". Well, let me tell you this...Being gay is not so simple after all..

• A gay man have to stop himself from loving a straight guy. If they can't help it, most of the time they are being abused.You know, financially and emotionally.This I cant allow to myself, but I don't wanna judge others.Maybe they just "love".
• I have to fight to my family especially my dad's acceptance that I'm not the Junior or the only son he wanted me to be.He have to live with it, that he have "two girls" LOL!
  
• When I was a kid I have to pretend that I like airplanes, cars, and balls..when in fact I'm dying to play my sister's Barbie!LOL!!!
• I have to like basketball too and cheer for the team "Ginebra" when I was watching PBA ( Philippine Basketball Association) with my dad.
  
• I have to suppress my erection whenever I'm watching a sexy guy on TV or "beta max" when I was 12 years old haha.
  
• I have to stop myself from looking at guys d*cks at the public restroom on the urinals.I mean, this is the hardest ever!I have to gather all my will power and call all saints to do this!LOL ( saint-Rupaul pls guide me!)
• I have to stop myself from screaming "aayyyyyyyyy" like a lady every time I watch a horror or thriller movies at the cinemas with my straight friends whenever there's a scary scene.
• I have to stop myself from ravaging a straight male friend who is sleeping over at my house!
• I have to be goodlooking/gym-fit for other gay men to like me.
• I have to be numb and insensitive whenever a gay man dump me or rejected me.
• I have to stay up late and chat to gay channels to get a hook-up or dates (others go to bath houses, gay bars and comfort rooms <-- yuckie to LOL!

• I cant even kiss or hold the hand of the one I love in public.
  
• I have to suck c*ck( I'm not really fond of sucking I get tired easily haha). I have to lick and rim someone' s else ass and kiss his lips after!hahahaha! nakikita ko mata ni umleo na nanlalaki sa sindak while reading this!!!
• People expect gay men to be successful most of the time.
• I have a hard time explaining to my friends that I'm into "gays" and not straight dudes instead haha.Because you see their misconception was, if you're gay, it is expected that you like straight guys too."Ano ka tomboy?" I remembered my sister asked me that haha
  
• I have to prove to my family that Im not like any other gay men, that became so slutty and f*cks around.
  
• I have to show to the world that I dont need to buy or send gifts to someone to be my boyfriend.
• Have to be so carefull in choosing someone to introduce to your family,you know they get to be so over protective that they thought the guy might be a gold digger or something.
  
• I have to be so manly so that I wont be discriminated at work or anywhere.
• I have to get use to the fact that straight men usually get so affected/too conscious whenever they knew someone gay was around them. I mean there's always the indifference, i dont know about you guys, but i've seen this. What are they thinking?we would take advantage of them just like that?!so kapal ha!LOL
• I cant even marry the one I love. (What?go to Canada?hehe)
  
• Have to convince myself that God will accept me in heaven when I die...Even if Im gay,I live a life that I know according to what is right...except for loving a man.
  
• I have to prepare my self that someday soon..one possiblity that...I will be old and...ALONE.
  

All I Want Is You!

Being in a gay relationship is kinda difficult,I've been there many times,as I have many failed relationship before.But what's the best thing about having to experience a lot heartache and trouble inside a relationship is that you learn from it.You learned some lessons along the way.So what do I really want in a realtionship anyway?What shall I look for?What shall I do or us to make it work and last?I made some list here go take a look :

• Someone who will text me frequently.Like to tell me he just woke up or about to sleep,or how his day was.Or to ask me what im doing.Its nice to hear that he is thinking of you by just texting you with this simple and small things.That kinda make him a bit thoughtful.
• Its nice to have a boyfriend who can be dragged to watch your much awaited movie.or to a sale nearby,or to a friend's birthday party and all.
  
• I avoid guys who are too sensitive.They usually get mad or get too affected with things that are not regularly have to take too seriously.
• Someone who gets jealous to some silly things (like hugging your dog!)and not make a big deal ouf of it.
• Someone who will do small things like putting a friendster account just for the two of you.Or get mad if you didnt changed your single status to in a relationship.
  
• Im too hot-tempered.i have to lessen it if i cant avoid it,I should try to be patient.
• You should have an agreement that you'll try to adjust to each others attitude,this things doesn't go overnight you know.It takes time especially if you got used to this for a long time.
  
• I want a guy who constantly asking small info about me.Being him curious about little things makes me think he's really that interested and into me.Like what is my fave color? Kidding!!!haha.
• Its annoying if his constantly talking about his ex.
  
• And if we are a couple we should not let a day passes without talking it over if we have a fight on something.Avoiding the issue or not talking about it make it more difficult and will only make matters worst like if you ignoring each other for a long time.Or if you feel like you're not yet ready to talk to him,just take a walk and relax and or tell him give you more time and space.(like a year perhaps thats enought time to think haha)
  
• And my favorite of all,just tell your partner that "breakup" is not an option to this realtionship hehe.No matter what.Its one of my mistakes before.So now Im making it my rule no-to-breakup.Unless I dont love him anymore its an excemption ofcourse!
• Dont make promisses you cant keep,depending on the reason maybe I'll reconsider hehe.(like if he promise to buy me a car and take it back)
  
• Each one should tell any whereabouts,or plans to your partner.i dont like him to tell me about it when he's already doing it!Like going out with friends for a weekend.Duh!Its too inconsiderate.(like if he's having sex with your bestfriend just tell it in advance ok?hehe)
  
• I want someone who can easily accept his fault and shortcommings.And apologize for it.(babe,I accidentally shaved your left eyebrow,Im sorry)
  
• I want someone who can tell me"baby its wrong!" or "baby you're grabbing it too tight!"haha.I dont want someone who just agrees with me all the time.Having a petty fight is fun once in a while you know!
• Someone who can sit with me at the couch and hug each other on a cold night while watching a romantic movie.
• Its nice to be introduced to your friends and families,even as just friends to those closeted bf.
• Someone who have the time to visit you at home or suprised you when you are at home when you least expect him to be.("O my god this is a suprise meet my wife..")haha
  
• I dont like the silent type guys.They just bored me to death!I like my guy to be outspoken,makes me laugh,makes me horny,makes me confident about my self,makes me relax about who i am.
• I want someone who has ambitions.Someone who thinks of the future.(like what shall i wear tomorow babe?)
  
• Someone who dont cheat ofcourse.
• Someone who is a neat and nice dresser(ayoko ng baduy)
• Shoes and watch are the first thing i noticed to a guy next to his looks hehe.
• I stop chatting or visiting a gay sites when im in a relaltionship and hope my partner too.Its one of the cause of some fights and jelousy and it might be tempting to flirt to any gay out there.
  
• Someone who can make sacrifices for you.(like if you need a heart transplant!)

And these are all the things I will do and hope my bf will do in the future.It has to be both ways.It takes two to tango,right?