Best Person In The World

Kinda late but I still wanna greet you, mom. A Happy Mother's day. Even though you can't read this and I cannot tell you how much I love you in person, I know deep inside you, you could feel that we do love you Mom, very much :-)

Mom, I do wish you happiness. I'm missing you terribly, you don't know how much I wanted to see you. I called you on the phone most of the time and you would say you're fine. But, I know you are not. I know you are under a lot of stress lately, the current situation you are in Dubai right now, God knows I wanna do the best I could to help you carry that burden but I don't have the power to do so...its not in my power to do so...

I just hope and pray that every thing's gonna be alright soon....

I planned for this June vacation for both of us...I wanted to give you a great beach vacation, a grand dinner for your return and a reunion for all of us after two years...

I died when you said its not possible for you to come home. You deserved a break from all of this...

I cried when you said, you have to wait for another 6 months or a year to go home. You are tired. I know. I want you to come home with me, to see your one and only grand son, I know you miss him...

I wanna scream when I asked you what's the best thing we could do and you said: I don't know, son. We don't have the solution at hand.

I am really sorry Mom. I wish I could. Sometimes I think, i don't deserve to be happy or even to laugh real hard while you're there. A feeling of guilt.

Just hang in there.

God has his own way. I just know it.

I feel so helpless when all I want for her is to be at home, on her couch and watching her grandson play while having her cup of coffee...

Konting panahon nalang Nanay.

Marami kang sakripisyo na ginawa sa'min magkapatid at utang namin ang buhay namin sa 'yo. (yan naiiyak na ko huhuhu)

I love you Mom. Happy Mother's day. You're the best Mom in the world.

Matchmaker In The Making!

I opened my phone and read the text messages, one came from my mom. She's asking about my email address. She said she will give it to someone, I thought its about work or some paper work that she needs to send me, that's why without any question, I keyed in my ad and sent it to her.

After a while, my phone rang. Its her.

Mom:" Your email address is weird. Where did you get that?!"

Me:" I'm creative, you know!"

Mom: "I asked about your email, because I have one student at our ballroom class and he wants to know you..."

I got confused what she meant at first. "Wait, wait, slow down, what do you mean mother?!"

Mom: "well, he's gay and I talked about you, and he said he wanted to know you, and I promised him I will give him your email, and he said, he wants to chat with you some time".

I was in a shock! Is this really my mom I'm talking to???? I mean we never talk about my sexuality ever. As in for me, what you see is what you get with regards to my folks. But I'm pretty sure they knew already, but this is the first time, my mom, in reality showed me how she already embraced my true personality.

I suddenly wanna cry...

and laugh too! Imagine, my mom is hooking me up with some gay guy at Dubai!!!hahahaha. I composed my self and answered her on the phone. "so what about this gay guy? how old is he?"

Mom: "He's 34 and very much single. He's also looking for some special guy"

Me:" OK mom, you have my blessings, give him my email ad!" LOL

I suddenly felt very light and happy. I love my mom! Soon she'll be joining me here at Doha, hope I could get her a job and a nice place to stay. If not, she have to bear the thought of going back to my Dad back home! too bad for her! *Toinks!*

Note: Mom and Dad are not on good terms. In my mom's mind, they're separated already, but dad still on denial.