Tigang

I was doing my rounds one afternoon at the ICU. I immediately spotted him. Orville, 28 years old, A private nurse to a patient in coma, machine dependent. He was pleasant to talk with, a nice guy though. He smells good too.

The next time I saw him, he was telling me how he missed going out with friends, like gimmicks and also dating girls...he said, its too difficult to get a date here in Doha, unlike in Manila. I agreed and laughed.

He continued talking to me and to my surprised he told me he also misses having sex! That its been quite a while since he had his last! His term was "tigang na tigang na nga ko e...", I laughed harder... you know me, if you talk about sex, I'm always interested LOL!

On my third time seeing him, he asked me if I knew someone available to hook up him with. He mentioned my single girl colleague, he saw her one time, asked me if she is looking for a date too. I told him, no way she will date him hahaha!

"If you know someone, please refer me to her! I'm single you know! Would you like to add me to your face book account? " He said and smiled at me. He gave me his real name and said, "did you get it? OK?" he added. But I forgot all about it when I got home.

When I saw him again was at the hallway, he was at the vendo machine I called him, "pssst, Orville!" he saw me and smiled! "How are you? We are now on a private room, my patient getting better now..."

"I know someone , a single girl to hook you up with! I mentioned you to her and she seems interested in meeting you!" I said. I was referring to a nurse named Elly 35 years old and been looking for the right guy since like forever LOL!

baka maging old maid ang lola nyo kaya help ko na!

"What's your number? I will give it to her right now!", I excitedly said. I gave the number to Elly immediately and she asked me some details how this guy looks. Some heads up, I said, he looks fine to me, decent, looks young, and smells really good!

But as soon as Orville got my number on the other hand, was bugging me how Elly looks, and what ifs..is-she-like-this...is-she-like-that-blah-blah. I told him he better meet Elly, or text her immediately.

After that I went home and didn't know what happens next!

Yesterday, I saw a missed call from Orville on my phone, its been 2 days since I last saw him. When I finally got the chance to see his patient during my rounds, I secretly asked him what happened between him and Elly.

Secret...

Please tell me now!grrrr! I wanna know!

Nah! You're a kill-joy! anywayz, I called her last night.

Wait, were you calling me last night too, why?

Nah, you're not picking up...(he made a face)

I was asleep, moron! and I smiled. He's getting cuter every time I see him haha. I asked for his face book account once again to give it to Elly, but he said he needs to make a new one.

Fuck! You're married! Admit it!

Of course not!

So why you need to make a new one when you already have an existing FB account?

After some time talking about him and Elly, his next words caught me offguard:

"lets go out some time...I haven't been going out, lets have coffee or something..."

And I was like, whoa! What is this? Waaaaaaaaaaaaa!

I was so kiligggg naman siyet! (got giddy) *Faint!*

Toinks!

I tried to composed my self and replied:" you don't have day offs, how could you go out?

I could have a day off whenever I want to noh.

Really, so you will asked the other guy to go on a 24 hr duty just to have your off?haha

Absolutely! and he laughed.

Treat me for a coffee, come on...

No payday yet. You treat me for coffee instead!

Haha! You're the one getting a pay of thousands of thousands here, you treat me for coffee. He teased.

No I'm not! Anyway, need to go, I have a bleep.

I run away from him with a sweet smile on my face. Clayton will kill me for this!LOL. Baby, I just wanna share this OK, I'm not doing anything bad. Be calm? Don't panic!!

Please help me analyze this guy. He easily gave his FB account to me earlier, but when he found out I will give it to Elly later, he refused to do so.

Why?

And why he wanted me to go out with him all of a sudden and not with Elly???

Is it me he really likes? Feeling! Or he thought I could be his easy sex partner?!

But my gaydar's not working properly! I think he's damn straight!

Oh my gosh, this post's so lame!

Love Limits...

What's the boarder line between love and money?

I was asked one time by a straight colleague, when he found out that my boyfriend is in Manila, that I obviously sends money to him. For his maintenance and to keep him from looking to other guys. I mean that's absurd!

I don't have a problem treating my special someone over dinner or dates, or giving gifts on special occasions, but asking or borrowing money is a different thing!

Clayton came from an average family, having a small business, and he is earning more than enough from his job. I know I'm safe with him!

Money is not easy to find these days. It was hard-earned. Not given to you easily. Money is a very sensitive issue to me now. Many gay people have been fooled by love...took advantage of their love...

I learned my lesson some time ago. I've been used. Borrowed money from me and never paid me back. Now I realized I'm stupid for trusting. At least its over now, before its too late. He took advantage of my millions LOL!

Nakakadala na magtiwala kasi...

I told myself, I'm gonna have this rule: I won't involve money on any relationship I'm going to have next time. Money changes everything.

"But what if, if... your boyfriend now, the one you really love....is in a very difficult financial crisis, lets say, a family member being very sick, or an accident at the hospital now, their resources have run out or something and you're the only one who could help him...would you're rule still applies?" my straight colleague have asked me.

Honestly, I wasn't able to answer that.

It took me a long time to answer.

Well, maybe if its really a matter of life and death I would gladly help. But not to shoulder everything...I guess.

I saw a grin on his face as if telling me: "See, you still gonna give!"