Hindi ko lang alam if love ba talaga yun or iniisip ko lang na inlove na talaga ako.
Pero kayo ba?
Parang pwde talaga e! LOL
Kulet ko lang noh?
Araw araw mo ka chat...nag skype pa kayo lagi...pag nasa work andiyan na magtext pa kayo or BBM or kahit sa Whatsapp pa yan...Andami nyo nang alam sa isa't isa...lahat napag usapan nyo na ultimo personal na mga bagay.
Hanggang sa tawagan level na kayo...overseas call pa kapag magkalayo kayo.
Hindi ka na mapakali kapag di siya agad nagrereply sa mga messages mo...nagseselos ka na kapag may nabasa ka'ng tweet nya about other guys....feeling mo may commitment na kayo sa isa't isa.
Posible ba? Naranasan nyo na ba toh? Or ako lang ang may ganitong thoughts?
Marahil lang ba ito na nasa malayo ako at malungkot sa gitnang silangan at nag hahanap ng atensyon at pagmamahal mula sa same sex? kaya ba mas prone ako mabiktima ng love through the wire? hahaha
Or sadya lang madali akong mapaibig kahit anong paraan at sistema pa galing?chos!
Tingin mo posible kang ma-inlove online? is it a ridiculous idea? or sounds desperate?
Lumipas na din ang valentine's day! Sa wakas! ampalaya? LOL. Third year in a row na wala ako balentayms! kaya naman parang ordinaryong araw na nga lang sa akin. Kundi pa dahil sa mga post sa FB or sa Twitter halos wala naman ako paki na e.
Itinulog ko lang ang katorse ng Pebrero kaya ayun lipas na pag gising ko! Kapag lagi nalang ganun e masasanay ka na din pala! ahaha! Hindi na issue. Hindi na big deal.
Pero don't get me wrong, masaya ako para sa mga may partner diyan sa tabi tabi. Ituloy lang ang pagmamahalan :-)
Someone sent me the link of this video, a story of long distance relationship, na alam naman nating lahat na beterano na ko diyan haha halos ayaw ko na nga maniwala e...pero somehow napangiti ako ng dalawang to.
A Filipino blog reader from UK, added me on my instant messenger account and started chatting with me months ago, telling me how he loves my writing, that he read it from the beginning up to the latest!
I was overwhelmed when someone does that (its not a first time though, yabang haha) for a blogger like me, it was humbling, imagine, someone, somewhere out there, paused, and literally stopped their lives and sat in front of the computer and read your entries for many hours?!
Isn't that amazing?!
Anyway, as our conversation got deeper, I learned that he is working there as a hospital staff too, and that he and his partner for I think 5 years now are planning to tie the knot!
Seriously????
It was my reaction when he told me that. Wedding? In our country? It was very bold of them to do that, right?
He cleared to me that it's not a wedding, but rather a commitment ceremony in front of their families and friends and about 5o other guest.
A commitment vow...
Oh my God!
When it all sinked in, my reaction was, wow!!!!
My mouth was wide open and imagined it on my mind and I was feeling like screaming: That's so romantic!
I've never seen anything like that in the Philippines. This reader of mine, got me so interested in their lives that we chat for a long time that night. I'm a sucker for everything romantic!LOL.
I asked him too much, like details, about their families, I mean its not easy to have both parents approval for a gay ceremony like that in our country right? especially, in front of many friends and guest.
I salute them. I gave them too many credits for being bold and for just following their hearts no matter what people say.
He just told me, he is proud of what they have and that's why they want all close to them witness it. On that special day.
I was really happy for them. It was a long distance relationship too, and I could really relate to their story, for many years, they stayed faithful and loving towards each other even they are many miles apart and only spend time together every 6 months or year. Its amazing. It got me more inspired that if others could manage to do it, why can't I?
And to top it all up, they are going to tell to the whole world, in front of families, how they love each other, a commitment to be together, and a promise to be there for each other. After a month, when I catched him online, he told me the ceremony was a success!
Hayyy, I wish I could do that too...
Imagine, a commitment vows...hay...kahit wala wedding pwde na din!
But I know, its so impossible right now, when my dad still a little indifferent about my sexuality, and you have to add my uncles and aunts grrrrrrrrrrrrr! and Clayton's too! His older gay brother disowned by his dad when he found out he is gay!
So I say to my baby: Clay, you gotta hide it better than your brother! LOL
I went home from work and feeling so horny, I wanna speak and see EDC online, and we'll do a show together but he has no Internet connection yet. I was frustrated. It's been many months since I last had sex LOL! I felt like I'm a wolf and my saliva is drooling for too much anticipation for something I want haha!
EDC suggested that he could buy the Smart bro prepaid Kit and a new web cam at the county, but it will take him 2 or 3 hours to get it since he lives in the lay back country side!!
3 hours!
I'm so horny nah ano bah! Toinks!
So, I said, OK payn wat eber, go mahal and buy!
After 3 hours he texted me and said he is good to go. And damn, the camera's clear as a crystal haha. I love it.
"EDC, strip down hurry up...shit I love your boxers..." I said as soon as he opened his cam and started teasing me by spreading his legs and stroking.
"Babe, just slow down, ok, di naman halatang atat ka noh?" he said scratching his head.
According to something we read before about surviving LDR is this:
Even the most connected, loving couples need some extra skills to overcome the possible damage to the relationship imposed by long distance separation. To begin with, sex between them is gone as they have known it in the past. Without sex, and without the other partner looking over their shoulder, long distance relationships often meet a quick end as either or both parties find new sexual partners.
EDC was still reluctant at first, it is his first time he told me. But not for me LOL! After a few minutes I am able to persuade him to do it, and yeah I am not disappointed. He gave me a show I will never forget! Toinks!
I could almost explode but I said I wanna see him to finish...I wan't to see that fountain LOL!
ahhh...ohhh... he is almost there he said. OK, me too, lets do it baby....
ohh...
I'm about to see it...
I'm waiting for it....i wanna shoot with him
just waiting at the right moment...
then his camera hanged!
WTF! its freeze! Shit! Shit! Shit!
When his camera moves again he came already! I saw all of it on his tummy!
waaaaaaaaaah!
I said OK EDC, just tease me while I stroke mine again...and suddenly the view from his cam became dark as hell!
"Mahal, there is a power interruption...walang kuryente..." he said.
TAENA!
That's all I could said and stroke my d*ck like a mad man and came.
Threw the tissue at the floor! (nagdabog! padyak padyak on the floor!)
You were in a lot of pain and heartache. A long distance relationship, a love faded away...
I just read one entry and didn't realized I was becoming impatient when will you write another entry...
I felt your pain, I wanna comfort you...
I wanna say hush, everything will be alright...
You moved on, we became online friends, we talked a lot. Its been a year, I was happy. I saw the changes on your blog, the sad blogger no more.
Someone made you happy. I felt your happiness. I was jealous.
Your topic are mostly about HIM and how you love him, I wished and hoped he'll never make you cry. There was this feeling of pain in my chest and a thought: why didn't you wait for me. You'll be happy with me instead of him.
But you were happy...I felt it.
I kept it inside. Secretly, I had this plan of stealing you from him. But I'm such an angel that I couldn't do it...Toinks!
I didn't say anything, I supported you and wished you two well.
You faced a big challenge last year and you held on, you strive...I was so proud of you
I prayed that God will help you and guide you. But maybe He has another plan for you. You lost your job and you'll be separated from your LOVE once again...it would be another long distance relationship...History repeating itself.
I know you're scared, I felt it...I wanna comfort you once again and give you my shoulder ...
(teka putulin ko abot ko sau LOL!)
When you're home and he's out there far from you, I called you many times and hoped by calling (I could steal you from him...kidding!) that I could lighten' your gloomy feelings...
You're sad...you're hurt...you felt betrayed...the love you once have abandoned you....
I felt your pain...I wanna kill HIM for you.
(gamitin ko tsani, bunutin ko isa isa buhok niya sa ilong!LOL)
I was worried for you, I didn't realized I have this great feeling inside of me that wanted to protect you. I wanna carry you to a safe place where I could shelter you from harm and pain...
You're trying to fix your heart and slowly picking up the pieces together.
Life is far more exciting and fun than waste it on sulking and feeling sorry...look around, life is beautiful...
You're up and ready again... I felt it...once again, I am happy, my bleeding angel.
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Hep hep hep! this is not a love revelation of some kind ha! I'm just concern about him! that's all. Charrrr! haha
