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I don't wanna be your friend.

Friends Again

I was silently watching him sleep and snore on my bed

hugging my pillows

I was on my couch beside the bed in front of my laptop

He is contagious I felt sleepy too, but stopped myself from joining him, it might lead to something i will regret later!

he's just lying there a minute ago and talking to me

In just a short moment...

there...snoring....

Just like the sound of a truck that wont start its engine!LOL

Its not Darkguy. But its Aldwin.

Wait! Wait! before you react and say I'm so slutty, well, we didn't have sex OK! We're just...friends!LOL

Anyway, as I was saying, as I watched him sleep, I remembered what had happen in the past month...we had a misunderstanding and we didn't talk the whole December (remember this entry?click here) I erased all traces of him on my network , on my phonebook, on my messenger, on my facebook etc. I was mad at him and no plans of remembering him at all.

But what I hate about myself is, I'm too kind!LOL...Am not kidding, when I get mad on someone, next day or two, my anger will just banish to thin air! true! of course I still remember what happened, but the feeling of hate or anger is no longer there. I don't know, maybe its weird.

I continued on my life here, new year came, I received a text message greeting me on that day, and I didn't know who it came from, I said "Hey,thanks. You too have a happy new year. But wait, you forgot to put on your name, are you wowie?" and I don't receive a reply. It made me curious. I let it passed, but when I'm erasing messages I run on it again and was so curious who it was from. But my instinct was telling me. It could be Aldwin. Besides he's the only who is not listed on my phone list that greeted me this holiday.

Its him when I asked. He asked if I'm still mad at him, and Isaid not anymore and its all in the past and its the new year. So that's it, we saw each other last week and we watched Avatar at the cinema here at Doha. We didn't talked about what happened last month that led to our bitter separation, or point fingers whose fault it is, we just go on and continued what we had from that point.

A week after, its my day off, he texted me and here he is. On my room. We had lunch at 3:00 o'clock in the afternoon after we ordered bulalo and sinigang na hipon. Its a non stop conversation and laughter and I can say, there is good chemistry between us...and I pray that we won't have to get through another misunderstanding. I need him. I don't have a friend like him here. It gets lonely at times, you know...even though I have many friends at work, but having him is much different...

we are the same...

gay...both alone here in Doha.

So I think we need each other.

"I thought you're going to watch that cartoon for only 20minutes and you'll take a shower?" he suddenly asked that brought me back to my body from wandering elsewhere haha.

"ooops, sorry got carried away, but I thought we're not going out? and just stay here and watch Fame" (haha soo gay!LOL)

I took a shower and when I came out the moron was busy watching my collection of broke straight boys video! and after sometime, we're both staring on my laptop and watching porn!!!!

We even talked about our own penises!LOL

His phone rang and he needed to go home immediately, someone interested to rent his flat.

"I will jerk off when I get home haha!" he said before I closed the door.

In my mind: kala mo ikaw lang ha!ako din noh!LOL

Another Goodbye

For all those times you were with me
For all the good laughs and fun moments
For all the foods especially the pizzas!hehe
For the times you brought me to the supermarket

For all the great pleasures!LOL!!!
For all the great chats we had
For making my boring days a little exciting
For all of this,Thank you.

As we come to the part where we realized
That its not working out...
That its not possible for us...
That everything will be better if we remain...
Just friends.

I remembered the song with lyrics like:
"When i tell you goodbye,it doesn't mean forever..."
Ewwwwwww,so cheesy!

I will surely miss you
I will surely be sad...and depressed
Well, for an hour maybe!LOL
Take care Mr.Italian Guy.

Anyway!To raise my spirit high
I bought a new phone! The Nokia N97
Now, I'm so much into it! my new toy!hehe
kinakarir ko talaga ang manual!