Si Kit (Part 1)

Nag iisa ako sa unit ko nung maisipan ko siyang hanapin sa contacts ko kung di ko pa siya nabubura or what. OO habit ko kasi magbura or mag block lalo't inis ako sa tao. LOL

I searched for his name.

KIT.

Aba andun pa pala!

In fairness di ko pa pala siya burado sa wechat. Nagsend ako ng message:

Kamusta ka na?

Ganun lang kabilis ako nagdecide na kausapin na siya after few months of ignoring him. Nagulat din ako at ganun din siya kabilis nag reply. So i guess this is the right moment.

Hi! Ok naman. Puyat, OT kasi these past few days. Ikaw?

Nandito sa condo. Pahinga lang. Daan ka dito. (napangiti ako sa sinabi ko. Agad agad?)

Weh...totoo ba yan? Invited ako? san ba yan?

Oo. Meet tayo. Tayong dalawa lang. Pero dont tell anyone muna ha.

(meaning mga atribida kong friends. haha.)

Hahaha. Loko ka talaga! Kakauwi ko lang. Kelan mo ko gusto pumunta diyan?

(Mas lalong lumapad ngiti ko!)

Sige pwede ako dumaan diyan bago pumasok sa work mamaya gabi.

Dito ka na matulog para makahipo ako. LOL

(napatawa na ako sa sinabi ko this time)

E di humipo ka mamaya. Hahayaan naman kitang humipo e! hehehe. Sige na mac sleep muna ako para di naman akong masyadong mukhang haggard pag nakita mo ko mamaya.

Finally after 2 years magkikita din kami ni KIT. Its about time. Tagal na din nitong landian na ito. Kelangan na i-step-up at gawing totoo! LOL

Namublema ako ng slight kasi dumating si mudra at si sisterette sa condo para pumasyal at dalawin ako! kainis kaya pa naman ako nag rent ng unit ng magawa ko lahat ng kabalastugan ko malayo sa radar ng pamilya ko sa laguna! LOL

Ikinain ko sila sa Shangri-la plaza ng dinner sa Cravings na di naman ako natuwa dahil hindi tender yun meat ng dishes nila! nahirapan kami kainin. Bagsak ang score ng restaurant na ito sa akin tseh yun place lang nagsalba sa kanila kasi cute.

At wala pala balak umuwi ang mag ina! Matutulog daw sila sa condo at bukas na uuwi! jusko pano kami ni KIT mamaya! grrrr! Haist, pero keri na nga. tutal hindi naman daw mag sleep over si KIT dahil may pasok siya. So most probably e 30 minutes lang siya mag stay at makikipag kwentuhan. Pwde na madami na ko magagawa sa katawan niya in 30 mins! charot!

9pm ay nasa condo na kami. Maaga nag sleep sina mudra at ipinaalam ko na may inaatay pa kong bisita later. natulog na sila ng nun mga 10.

Nagmessage si KIT. Traffic daw. Malelate ng slight. 12am ang shift niya. So dapat andito na siya sa unit ko ng mga bago mag 11pm. Kaso naligaw siya ng slight, lumampas! nakarating siya mga 1120pm na huhu.

Panic na ko, ano yun hi-hello lang mangyayari sa amin tonight then alis na siya? nooooooooooo!

Tumawag ang receptionist na nasa baba daw si mister KIT. Ang lakas ng tibok ng puso ko nun! this is it na! Kabado ako habang inaantay siya umakyat sa floor ko. Nun tumunog ang doorbell halos mapalundag ako sa gulat! eeeeeeeeeeh! ito na siya. Pano pag di nya ko type? pano pag di ko siya type pala? pano naaaaaaaa....

Isang malalim ng buntung hininga pinakawalan ko at binuksan ang pintuan. Isang nakangiting KIT ang bumungad sa akin. Kilalang kilala ko na siya. Saulado ko facial features niya sa tagal na namin magka chat sa dami na ng napagpalitan namin ng pictures ng isa't isa. Hindi ko maikakaila na ito na si KIT. Lalo na ang maliliit niyang mata na parang butas lang ng alkansiya. Charot.

Naka black na polo shirt, maong pants at rubber shoes. Hmm. Pasado. Hindi naman baduy. After ko siya mapasadahan ng mabilis na pag scan mula ulo hanggang paa. Hihihi.

Pinapasok ko siya. Medyo awkward pa sa umpisa pero nun tumagal e kompotable na kami mag usap sa living room. Natural na madaldal si mokong. Di nauubusan ng kwento. Nag enjoy ako bilang isa din akong madaldal na tao haha. I could talk to him the whole day, naisip ko.

Dinampot niya phone nya. I asked sino tetext niya. Manager daw niya. Magpapaalam daw siya na di nalang papasok tonight.

Napatalon sa galak ang puso ko. Yes! nag bunga ang pagpapa charming ko. LOL at isa lang ibig sabihin nun. He still wants to be with me.

Hindi pa daw nasagot ang manager. Pero keri na daw yun, papayag daw yun at wala ng magagawa. Mabuti siyang empleyado noh?

Saka siya nagtaas ng paa sa lamisita. I held his hand. Nagpaubaya siya. Masaya ako nun gabing yun. May kislap ang mga mata ko. Charot.

We catched up on the things na namiss namin sa ilang buwan na pagtitiisan naming di mag usap. Tapos may tinanung ako sa mga pasts niya at ilang flings na pinaggagawa niya. Sinabi ko na nagseselos ako. Inusisi ko siya ng todo. Parang gf lang ang peg ko.

Hindi daw sila nag kiss. Sabi ko, mabuti naman. Sinabi ko din na bawal na siya lumandi sa iba. LOL

Nakahiga siya sa sofa nun bumalik ako after mag cr. I hugged him and he hugged me back. I searched for his lip...nun una tinatantiya ko pa if magpapahalik siya. Pero when he saw na im going to kiss him, he closed his eyes and wait.

I was on top of him

Lumapat ang mga labi ko sa labi niya...nun una im just feeling its warmth...then its softness...masarap. Masarap halikan ang taong gusto mo....hindi ko matiis na ganito lang....i searched for his tongue inside...and he met mine...hinawakan ko ang ulo niya para di siya makawala sa mga halik ko...lumalim na ng lumalim ang halikan namin hanggang halos kapusin na kami ng hangin.

A minute of kissing...nakakalula...Halos mamula at mamaga ang mga labi namin nun mag bitaw. Natawa kami after. Puro laway kasi yun paligid ng lips namin pati yun baba namin. LOL

Muli na naman kaming nag kiss ng maalab...parang walang katapusan....parang walang lalabas mula sa second floor at makikita kami...deadma na sa pwde makahuli. All we care was each other's lips...

Nun magsawa ay nahiga lang kami sa sofa ng magkayakap... ang sarap lang makipag cuddle sa malamig na living room ko... ayaw ko kumawala mula sa mga yakap niya. Ganun lang kami for the longest time habang nanonod ng TV haha. Ito yun isa sa mga moment na binabalik balikan ko ngayong nakabalik na ako dito sa middle east.

Hanggang ngayon yun moment naming yun sa living room sa condo ang naaalala ko. Its the sweetest thing so far :-)

Talagang hindi ka na pumasok ha. Lagot ka pagbalik mo sa office bukas. Panggi-guilty ko pa sa knya. Tumawa lang siya at sinabing kayang kaya naman niya manager niya haha.

Alas dos na ng umaga makaramdam kami ng gutom, nakakapagod kaya makipag halikan ng walang humpay! charot. Kaya naman bumaba kami at pumunta sa shakey's na malapit lang sa condominium. 24 hrs silang bukas e. Ito ang aming unang official date. Hihihi.

Bumalik kami sa unit ko at niyaya ko siya sa room ko para matulog...




to be continued...


bleh.

Gabi Ng Nakaraan

Heto nga, nakahiga na siya sa kama ko. Nakatagilid. Kita ang makinis na legs. Kita ko ang kurba ng balakang.

Nilibugan ako...

chos!

Naisipan ko nalang mag browse ng blogs. Inabot din ako ng ilang oras. Tuwing maalimpungatan siya sa pagtulog nakikita kong naiinis siya. Parang gusto mahiga na ko at mag sex na kami! LOL (inisip ko lang yun, di ko sure haha)

Finally, naisipan kong matulog na din. Nakatihaya ako sa kama. Mulagat. Nakatitig sa kisameng madilim. Masikip. Single bed lang kasi yun. Pero that's the idea e, yun masikip. Alam na!!! Nakatagilid pa din siya sa kin. Nakailang ikot ikot ako sa kama. Di ako mapakali. Kelangan akitin ko to'ng gagong to! LOL

Nilakasan ko ang loob ko at tumagilid din ako paharap sa knya.

Iniyakap ko yun kamay ko sa tagiliran nya.

Nakiramdam ako.

Walang reaksyon.

Dinikit ko pa lalo ang katawan ko sa likod nya. Wala pa din reaksyon.


Deadma.


Nilagyan ko ng unan ang sa may parte ng etits ko kasi kakahiya naman na maramdaman nya na matigas na matigas na yun "ano" ko. haha! Baka isipin nya pervert ako!


Dikit na dikit na ko sa knya.

Hmm, napangiti ako. Napayag si mokong. Nun last uwi ko, Dati dati kung itulak tulak nya ko e. Iniyakap ko pa ng mabuti ang braso ko sa katawan nya.

Iginapang ko pa ang aking mga kamay...

may hinahanap...

madali ko naman natagpuan.

Ang malambot nyang kamay.


Inihulma ko ang aking mga daliri sa knyang mga daliri...

Naramdaman kong pinisil nya at hinigpitan ang pagkakawak sa mga daliri kong nagpilit mangahas...

Sa kakaibang saya ko nakalimutan ko na ang maka-mundo kong balak. Napalitan nalang ng pagkalma ng kalooban. Ng excitement ng puso.



Hanggang sa makatulog na kami pareho sa ganu'ng posisyon.




--excerpt from my post: A Good Night Sleep (July,2011)

Back On Track

After 5 days I could say I'm done with my dramatic moments! haha. No more loneliness. No more homesickness. As soon I started working, being with my crazy colleague, being busy again, I am definitely back on track!

It just sucks that I am back on doing the laundry. Ironing of my clothes. Doing the dishes. Cooking. Cleaning the house all by myself. The price of being alone or independent.

It just good to know that at the end of the month I will get paid once again! Yahoo! I missed pay day!haha.

Vacation in the Philippines was a whole lot of fun, but only for a month or two, if I stay for like more than 3 months, that would be boring, if you are used to working and being busy most of the time, your body would be screaming back to work, plus I spent all of my money, it will suck big time to have a long vacation if you don't have much money to spend anymore! LOL

Clayton and I are good. We talk online almost everyday, phone calls once in a while. He never missed to send me a text message everyday. I am loving him more and more.

I love you baby ko, please bear with my moods and my horny-ness LOL :-)

A Few Days More

6 days...

6 days left and I'm leaving again...

I want to stop the time, I don't want August 4 to come...yet.

32 days...a month of vacation, and is passing by so quickly...damn!

(When I think of how much money I spent, napapa iling nalang ako! haha)

Its giving me sleepless nights...

I tried to ignore it, but I'm really sad.

I thought I would be unaffected anymore since its my second time.

But I was wrong. So wrong.

Now, I'm showing a strong unaffected face towards my family.

Noticed my sister and dad becoming extra attentive to me. Great feeling though.

I am preparing everything, documents, stuffs to bring (yun mga sineyaping ko!haha)

All those "pabilin" and pasalubong for my friends at Doha.

And I'm also preparing my heart...I will be leaving a loving soul...

My baby-baby...hehe. I call him that. Parang tanga lang di ba?LOL

I never got the chance to tell Clayton that I love him yet...

Maybe this Saturday when we check-in again! yahoooo!

Or maybe on our last dinner ever this coming Monday...

We made a promise that we'll make it till next year when I come home again

...and the next coming year

...and up till the next. :-)

The Countdown Begins...

Siyet... ten days to go and I will be coming back home to my beloved country! I cant believe it, time is indeed really fast! It also marks my first year in Doha and whew! I made it, a year with a million miles away from home.

July 1 is the day I will see my family again, my taklesang-sister, my cute nephew/godson, and of course, my father (hay naku pwde bang wag na siya isali! bad koh!)

ohhhh, I miss our house, my room, and my dog shaggy, she just died last month huhuhu. But I won't cry anymore. I'm done mourning her death already.

(wiping tears...LOL)

You may ask, what about EDC? well, I cannot answer that now, we are having some issue (actually, we never run out of issues LOL) so, if you guys are confused, well, me too! haha.

Anyway, my bags are pack and ready to go, just waiting for the days to pass by. My suitcase is full of "pasalubongs" (give aways) to my loved-ones. I hope they will like it. I enjoyed buying them though, its fun! you know, shopping-shopping eklavuh!

yun nga lang nabutas bulsa ko! huhu

I have so many plans, so many things I wanna do, and eat! especially...jan-ra-ran...PORK!

Baboy! Baboy! gusto ko ng baboy! LOL!

Babuyan tayo! Nyahaha!

That's all for now. See yah later guys! have a great week!

Guess What!

Finally, the long wait and the suspense was over! My boss allowed me to have my first vacation!!!!

yessssssssssss!!!!

jumping jumping...

kumandi-kandirit...

clap clap...LOL

My gawd, after 5 attempts, he finally said yes, and I will be coming home this July! Now i do believe in horoscope and astrology! haha it all came true wow!

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My birthday is on the 2oth of May, two days from now, and I'm planning to celebrate it on Qube, a club here in Doha or we could have dinner and watch movies after, I don't know, I still have to decide till tomorrow. What do you think should I do?

I'm also requesting to my friends to have them hire some hunky gay guy to be my

"BIRTHDAY SEX" hahaha!



This is my fave video lately...

Anyway, me and EDC broke up today, we thought, we could be much happier if we just stay friends.

So that's it for now! See yah!

Present Stressful Events

I felt fully charged today after sleeping for almost 12 hours straight! Its been a while since I last slept like that. I wanna beat my friend's record of sleeping for 16 hours but I just cant!haha. Even if I had enough believe me I'm still sleepy right now! Well, anyway, its my day off today, I need this rest because tomorrow is my big debut duty at the Accident and Emergency room!(ER) waaaaaaaaa!

This is my punishment for being late at work often they said, and being too lazy to do overtime work!LOL We are actually at the general hospital, but my contract is for the special hospital that is on its finishing touches and would open this September, at the Cardiac Center. It is first of its kind here.

I'm nervous, I'm excited, and clueless if I'm going to make it!haha. ICU's are always been my fave area on the hospital, and the least are the operating rooms (OR) and wards. Been having duties at the ER before way back home, but gosh, in this hospital now in Doha, its soooooo different. Very demanding. All new protocols. I'm not on my safe zone anymore.

Its like divisoria! too much people and you never know who or what kind of people will come carrying their complaints! Like last time last year, many of the staffs are exposed to H1N1 because at first you would never knew what they're having until tested or seen by doctors. Sigh.

And what I'm worried about is, all the staffs are new to me, I would be like a wallflower in that chair with no one to talk to! haha. So i have to make new friends right away.

The only thing Im excited about this new experience is the cute ER gay guys...whew!Tons of them! I like! I like! toinks!

Another issue that's been bothering me lately is my first yearly vacation, I'm supposed to have it this July, for some reasons, many of my senior staff from other countries just listed their names on the same month! meaning Boss cannot allow too many staffs having leaves in a month. Since I'm a junior staff, my boss will grant their request first! I hate them! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

What will happen to our Boracay adventure? Been planning to have our honeymoon there! EDC is already working out his body to flaunt out on the beach!LOL

Its so annoying when your mind already set on one thing, its hard to accept any other options huhu.

And besides I cannot bear the thought that I will have to wait more more months to be with my love... I'm dying to hug and kiss and make love to EDC...

(I'm gonna grab his d*ck and kiss him hungrily the moment I see him!LOL)

He sent me a recording of his voice singing Love Me Tender, too bad I wasn't able upload it here, damn blogspot! He joined many singing contest before and as usual he didn't win! LOL! Joke lang mahal!

What Have Just Happened?!

I came home from a night shift, and EDC text me good morning, today marked our 2oth day as boyfriends, yeah, a long distance relationship. So far we are surviving, sms, calls, chats, and web cams. Too many plans are made, we were both excited this coming July where we could be united when I get my yearly vacation.

As usual we did chat, usual how are you's and I love you's, I told him I'm having tortang talong for breakfast, until sweet conversation turned sour!and spicy too!LOL. I was surprised that I had so much to say, and him as well, we are definitely fighting. My angel that was so gentle became a lion, we threw hurtful words towards each other.

"you don't love me the way I love you" I said

"nah, you don't love me the way I love you!' he snapped.

"you don't appreciate the things that I do. OK. I'm done..." he continued

" you don't have the initiative to do normal bf usually does..." ---me

"because you cant wait for me to do it!"--EDC

I wont go into details other things we said. We are both convinced that its not working. He said we have completely different views about relationship. I said, because you don't wanna meet halfway. I'm trying to reach him but he was so confined with his own ideas of things. He don't wanna give my ideas a try.

"You're childish Mac, grow up. You're expecting too much" He said. I cant believe he said that! That moron! I was hurt. In respond I typed these words to get back at him:

"Yeah maybe this really is a mistake. We just don't click." yeah I knew it hurt him so bad.
One thing for sure at that moment, I was totally turned off and about to say the magic words: Its over. I'm just waiting for the right time.

"So its over?" he asked. I felt his insecurity in that question. Should I say it now? My mind's saying 'yes, do it'. I typed these: Maybe it should be better if we stay friends. He said if that's what I want, its OK with him.

"I would miss you, you take good care of yourself 'ayt?" my parting words. There was a pause in him I thought he's already gone on the other end. Until he sent another message:

"I asked you if you are sure about this (our relationship) from the very start. You said you are. I also asked you we would encounter many trials, and you said, you can do it, you are very sure...but how come you're the one giving up?"

Those words almost killed me. I felt like he became a kid, a kid being ignored, a kid being so hopeless...I just wanna come where he was and hug him...

Until he sent me a draft of his blog entry that he wasn't able to finish yet. I almost cried when I read them. It felt so sincere and loving. I sighed....

"Let's just think this through, maybe you're not ready for this yet..." I composed my self and said. "I will always be here, loving you. I will be loving you on this far side of the world until you're ready..."

"You made me cry...I am ready Mac, but please try to understand that Im slowly building up myself again, picking up the pieces, I dont wanna feel the pain anymore, if I would have that kind of pain again, like what's happening between us now, I might not able to stand it..." he said.

I told him that we should think, and enough with the fighting already.

He typed :"So, we're over, right?

"tell me what do you want?"--me

A pause again.

"I want you to be with me, you're the only one I have left...you're the only I trust, you're the only one I dreamed of..." he said.

Juice ko di ko kinaya yun...!bumigay ako mga 'neng...LOL. mahal ko siya waaah!

I told him we should relax first and have a breather and think all through what has been said, that we would talk soon.

"Is this our last chat? Will I ever talk to you again?" him

"No, i love you so much that it aches..."me

"I love you so much that I dont care even if its aches..."

This was our exact conversation in tagalog before we said goodbye, sorry to my foreign readers hehe.

"Di ko tuloy natapos tong tortang talong ko...kaw kasi! (now I wasn't able to finish my breakfast, its your fault!)" I said instead, enough of the dramatics already.

"Gago ka Mac! Wag mo ko iiwan, mahal na mahal kita! (Damn you Mac! Dont ever leave me, I love you so much)" he replied, I knew the tension was over and I smiled with his words typical SIGA attitude of him. "Im sorry for all my shortcoming"

"I love you too, umayos ka kasi!" --me

"Kakagatin kita diyan e! mag sorry ka din ngayon na!"--him

"ok sorry na."-- me

"Galing sa ilong! Yun sincere naman, isa...dalawa..." he jokingly threatened me if I dont apologize hehe. "tatapukin kita jan, mag sorry ka din sakin"

"mahal na mahal kita, wag ka na nga magdrama at mag inarte diyan, tama na ang emote, puyat ka lang kaya ka ganyan..."he continued.

"Hindi ako maarte noh, kasi manhid ka"--me

"Kasi nga na pe-preempt mo yun mga balak ko, nawawala diskarte ko"--EDC

"E bilisan mo noh!"-- me

"mag antay ka kasi, ikaw din dami aali-aligid sakin.."--EDC

"Aba subukan mo lang tsi-tsinelasin kita diyan gusto mo???"--me

Sigh, I dont know why I love him inspite of this...Up to now I dont know what just happened, I was so sure I wanna break up with him earlier and turned out we're still together afterall! haha.


I just laughed so loud in my room. Maybe I am really crazy! Nyahaha!

What's Goin On Mac?

The following are recent updates on my life so far. You could say "we don't care!" LOL, but I don't mind, I still wanna say them anyway, whether you like it or not! tse!

• Its been eight months now, and my dream before going here to work was to save money, I wanna buy a house and lot to a decent subdivision back in Laguna, so that I could have my own private place, where me and my future partner (which I hope, I could meet soon LOL) could live without interference from my family. But its such a shame that I don't have a single cent on my account yet!waaaaa! Its frustrating. The main reasons are these: I'm sending money to my mom, she has financial crisis at Dubai now. I also volunteered to shoulder the monthly electric bills at home. That's the least I could do to help them there. They could have the air con open all day!LOL. The last reason: I'm such a shopaholic! I need psychiatric help!nyaha! I felt guilty when I bought this expensive Bulgari eyeglasses last time which costs less than 20,000 pesos while my mom are trying to budget her money to lasts for a month. Even worst is, I'll be having my yearly vacation this July which is 4 months from now, so I need to start saving now or else I would be poor when I go home!
• I was into Eli for a few weeks, been happy every time we're talking and had the same schedule at work. Recently, I chat with him at Face book and had the courage to asked him on a date. I said: Hey Eli, what you doing later? he said: nothing, will stay home. Then I typed the words : would you like to have a date with me? I was so nervous when I pressed send. But i was too afraid to know what could be his answers, so before he could read it and reply, I immediately signed out of face book!LOL So till now I never know what his reply was and good thing that time FB was having troubles with their system. Now, we have this awkward feeling towards each other, as if we broke up or something, I'm avoiding him and he's avoiding me! haha
• I also found out that Eli used to bring food at Darkguy's flat! whaaaat! they're friends or what?!
• My night life was very active for the past weeks, we had fun going to club to club. Had some drinks and party hard all night!
• We received 5o% of our salary the other day, a gift from our bosses for passing the international standard of care for our beloved hospital. That's awesome!
• I cannot find a diesel skinny jeans here! I hate Doha stores!LOL
• Me and two girl friends decided to watch The Wolfman at the cinema,before it start I warned them not to scream or else. Turned out when the first scary scene came, my scream was the loudest!LOL
  
• I'm loving the pediatric ICU now, unlike before that my chest almost explode due to too much nervousness! I'm good at adult patient but with children? with neonates? waaaa! But now I could say I'm confident enough, so kids bring it on!
• My laziness escalated to the next level, I so hate washing dishes, so I had the idea of buying disposable plates, cups, and spoon and forks! O di ba tapon na lang ng tapon?!haha I'm not even cooking, I have my foods delivered every night from a nearby Filipino resto.
  
• I developed a good friendship with my senior Lebanese staff, he's 45 something and very kind, at first I was just joking around about liking his company, but damn, I somehow develop this fondness on him, I kinda consider him now as my dear old friend Greg. He brought me home, he bring me chocolates, even asked me to go drinking, but too afraid to say yes, my friends are scaring me that he might rape me LOL!
• and lastly, I don't know but do you believe that love could grow even if you two haven't met yet? I mean its an online relationship, we talk for hours, web cam, calling from the phone every now and then, for more than a year now. I suddenly realized it, just tonight, that I'm possibly in love with him....Its hidden somewhere in my heart that only now it made me aware of it, and I think he's the one I could come home to...this July. You made me happy tonight EDC...naks! tawa yan! LOL

I hope you're still awake after all that! So see you next time guys. Take care!