July 25, 2010
A Promise To You
I was talking to him at the phone last Friday, he called me late night, and we were just flirting and making some cheesy talks toward each other. I enjoyed talking to him, it was like I was just talking to an old friend. Swak na swak kaming dalawa. The chemistry is undeniably present. We threw joke towards each other most of the time, making the atmosphere between us very light. I like him. Really like him.
But I was unsure what to do next, I just broke up from a relationship a few days ago haha, it would be too soon to enter a new one! But I know deep inside that I want this guy, Clayton. I want to keep him. Call it selfishness. I can see and feel that he would be a good boyfriend.
I was totally honest with him about my last relationship. About my job abroad. He even reads my blog. He's making plans of how its going to be when I get back to the middle east. He asked if he could send me gifts on holidays and special occasions etc, it made me smile. No one does that to me. As if he's ready to have this long distance relationship with me already...
Let's have sex tomorrow...I said casually. When? what time? he asked.
"So, are we what? Are we boyfriends now?" I was thankful he asked that question after a while, I wanted to ask him that myself but I was hesitant to, I don't want those words to come from me. I don't want him to think that he is my rebound guy. You guys might think. But to me he is not, I don't know why, but I just don't have any regrets or pain anymore about my previous relationship at all! Was it bad?LOL!
"Yes sir..." it just came out naturally from my mouth.
"Really Mac? I do have a new boyfriend now?" I felt the excitement from his voice. Atat? joke!
I was happy when we ended the call. I know I'm doing the right thing. I could see a happy gay relationship with him.
We've met last Saturday again, this time, officially, as a couple. "So, you're really my boyfriend now?" he asked again as if I changed my mind overnight. I was so excited seeing him again, I felt like I was also 21 years old haha. Feeling????! We had our snacks...we had some casual cheesy moment at the dining area and we could care less about what people thinks! Keber!
"why you're so cute today? What did you do huh???" I teased him and pinched his cheeks after I gave him a long kiss when we entered the motel room. I don't know but he suddenly became very cute to my eyes!haha
"Are we going to eat or are we going to fuck first tell me? haha" he joked around!
"Libog mo!!! come here and give me a hug..." he sat in front of me and I hugged him tightly and I kissed him tenderly till it became so passionate and it took longer than planned....
"Mac, promise me...we will make this work please...."
"I promise..." and took his lips again and again...
Bit his earlobes...traced the skin of his neck with my tongue...
And back to his lips again....hungrily
As if I'm running out of time...as if its our last night
When in fact we still have 11 hours to spare haha!!!