March 2, 2009

Disappointed


"I like you Mac"
"I like you too.You will be a great friend.." (ek ek ko lang)
"Hell no!I don't wanna be just your friend!I want more than that!"

I smiled while reading his reply at YM.I smiled so big that you could see the gray matter inside my brain!LOL! I just know him two nights ago,at a chat room.Where else! After endless chatting he called me and we had a great time talking,his voice is so nice and sweet.I already knew I like this guy,let me give him a name:LJAS.That's his initials.He looks great too we exchange facebooks accounts that night.He said Im cute and I was like "oh,stop it..im not...(*blushing) and added "hilahin ko titi mo jan e! haha kidding! I didn't said that!You know me.

He wanted to see me this week but i declined.Maybe next week when I go to makati.He has a great job I googled his name and so surprised with so much things about him!I felt so little compared to what he accomplished! I mean,who am I compared to this person?Im just a "promdi" who works at a hospital and currently bumming!BEAT THAT!haha

At the middle of our conversation I told him that I was planning to leave the country,that my visa are currently being processed.I wanna be honest with him and I noticed that it bothered him. "So if ever you'll leave me soon..." and I told him "yeah,in the coming month(s)" I added " I may have a few months so lets make the most out of it,and if ever are u willing to have a long distance relationship?" me myself are not convinced that if ever it will work.

But who knows!Maybe,maybe not.But still worth the try I thought to myself.He said "why not,I never done it before maybe I can do it!" and I was like relieved that he is optimistic.But still its too early to tell!We haven't met in person yet for God's Sake and I was thinking long distance relationships already!haha.This is what I hate about myself,I always thinks ahead.Thinking about whats next even if I haven't accomplished the first work yet!Which leaves me disappointed in the end.I wanna change this attitude.

He works for a US base magazine and he' s so busy.That is what bothering me.I missed him.He said when he got a second to talk to me that he misses me and that he'll make it out with me once everything with work is OK.Hayyy,its been two days now and he's still busy.Maybe he just realized that he don't want someone who will leave in the first place.I just have to stop expecting that he's into me after all.

No text.No call.Nothing.haha I sounded like a demanding boyfriend!Stop!Stop!Mac!

Another disappointment.Another one down.I just wish he could be honest with me.I just thought he's worth getting to know with.Or maybe I thought he's a best candidate to be my bf.I erased him at my list already.There's no good keeping his account.But I'm OK its not that I have break up or something haha.

"Nag iinarte lang ako.SEB ANYONE? LOL"

12 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am really confused. Eh paano na yung JR ba yun? hayz buhey.


P.S I don't allow any comments in my blog anymore. hehe sinagot ko na dito yung tanong mo sa twit-twit


-MC♥

Bleeding Angel said...

i wish u all the best mac...

Kenji said...

I feel bad for ya... But thank goodness it didn't go further than what already transpired. But yes, keep searching! Who know,s we all might get lucky someday!

Ohh and btw... thanks again for visiting my blog! :D

StarFish said...

i don't think you're being demanding, you were expecting him to get back at you with a phone call, a text, but you just haven't gotten anything and it's been two days... if i say i'll call you back, i will call you back no matter how busy i am... its just common courtesy, oh and long-distance ummm... no comment on that lol...

have a great week!

*hugs...
~ViN

Pao Pielago said...

red flag alert. don't expect too much mac until you finally meet and get to know the guy really well. you don't have to feel obliged. me myself, ive been psyching myself up for an LDR but im still not confident about it.

marami dyan. seb lang nang seb...hehe. joke! keep safe! :)

Glen Delfin said...

sana may gumaganyan din sakin...

Mac Callister said...

@MC- hmmm about JR,how can i answer this,we still talks,but i found that we cnt be together due to his busy schedule...i intentionally distance myself from him,it just wont work out.unless he do something about his schedule.

waaaa bakit ayw mo na magpa comment????may nagbitchy ba sau?

Mac Callister said...

@bleeding angel -thanks.kaw din. :-)

@kenji --yah i know.hehe.i just have to be patient and dotn expect next time i guess.

@starfish -i know,maybe he is not as nice as what i really think he is afterall

@pao -ewan ko ba lagi nalang ako expect agad thats what i hate about my self but im trying to get rid of that na hehe

@glen delfin --asus atleast tahimik ang buhay mo di gaya ko haha complicated!

flamindevil said...

marami pa dyan mac.career muna bago love,ayt?

RONRIC said...

ayan ayan.. love love din pala problema mo... comment lang ako.. aun..

Mac Callister said...

@flamindevil--hay naku mabuti pa nga lang!

@ron ric- i guess im human after all hahaha.tnx for being here dude

Jonathan said...

I've gone through something similar myself recently. I met someone who did like me and told me but also that they're attached. That felt like someone had driven an icepick through my chest! I went down for a little while but I've bounced back. There's someone out there for both you and I Mac, we'll find them eventually. PS thanks for leaving the kind comments at my blog the other day, they're greatly appreciated xxx