Its been 2 days since our last date. I haven't heard from him since. I did my usual routine at work at the ICU when Gil noticed me and said: wow, look whose here! I did not expect to see him either on duty that afternoon.
And if Gil is here, it means R.A is on duty too! (Gil is R.A's preceptor)
I looked around...looking for a familiar face, a face that I long to see....
at the station, he looked surprised seeing me too. I cannot tell if that look was from being glad to see me or for fear that Oh-oh-he's-here-look!LOL. Our eyes met and we smiled to each other. I don't know...after our date, it just felt awkward talking or seeing him again.
I kinda missed him. I wanna run into him and give him a tight hug.
Nobody from his colleague at the ICU knew that we had our date last weekend. For them, I'm still getting nowhere on my quest to win his heart!LOL
I didn't stay longer than I used to, I finished up my work and went back upstairs to our unit. I didn't chat with him like I used too. I was trying to read his actions. I'm still guessing if he likes me or not.
I feel so insecure after I noticed his indifference. I wanna scream to his face and yell: what now! But I didn't!
di ko keri hahaha!
On my second rounds. Gil noticed that I'm quiet while doing my work, I'm not like that. We usually have this moment of fooling/joking around and talking some silly stuffs while I'm trying to get notice by R.A at work.
I already had my dinner, but Gil and R.A just about to have theirs. Gil asked me if I wanna eat with them. I said thanks, that they should go and eat for I have things to do. I was waiting for R.A to invite me too, but he was just quiet as if he did not know that I'm there. But I'm sure he knew that I am.
It hurts me that after we shared a great dinner and some time last Saturday, he was acting weird. So I thought to my self, OK, that's it! that's my sign! I should give up whatever hopes I had with him!
I finished up my rounds and my documentation after 30 minutes when they came back...I was at the faucet scrubbing my hands:
"Mac, ganyan ka di ka sumasabay sa min kumain ha!" Gil said
(Mac, you really didn't join us for dinner huh!)
"Busog na nga kasi ako!hahaha"
(I told you, I had dinner already)
I saw R.A passed by but I ignored him. Pretending that I did not see him.
I looked around and saw him.
"Here...take this..." giving me a can of milk for patients on nasogastric tube for feeding!He was teasing me to have it for dinner instead. He was smiling like a small boy, trying to be funny with his super korny joke!
Tinignan ko siya ng matagal. Nakangiti lang siya ng parang engot...
"hmpf! ah ganun ha...you take it first!" I replied. I was smiling back at him. He was laughing when he left.
For a few seconds...that brief moment. Everything around us felt so quiet. As if we had our own world. I was looking at his eyes and he was looking at mine.
Yes. It was our moment.
I know. Mababaw ako!LOL
I was smiling on my way out. As if all the worries flew in the air.
hay, shall I stop hoping or what?!
Taena ka R.A! Ginugulo mo ko!LOL
*****Dahil jan kakanta ako ng:Chasing Pavements!hahaha
(related post about R.A. click HERE)