June 27, 2009

Like A Stone


In a few days, I'll be at Qatar, well that is, if I don't encounter any problem prior to my flight!LOL. So I'm thinking positive now.

In a few days, I'll be on a new environment, a place where I don't know anyone...culture and language so unknown to me..

In a few days, I'll be waking up on a totally different room and house....no annoying sister, no stubborn 5 year old nephew and no alcoholic father too LOL!

In a few days, I'll be on the hospital laboratory and halls once again. A familiar scent that I'm so used to...

In a few days, I'll be around death again...people are surviving and some are dying...a fact that I have accepted long time ago...

In a few days, I have to put up a strong face when someone dies and prevent myself from being affected...a front that took me a long time to master...

I remembered the first time someone died on my hand...My first week on my job (what is an RT?). I was resuscitating this old woman, a patient on one of our ward that was so loved by her children...she suffered a heart attack and I was called together with a team of nurses and did the code blue...but its her time...the doctor pronounced the time of death..

Suddenly this woman rushed unto me crying, grabbed my arm and begged "please don't stop..keep on resuscitating her...don't stop please...please" the other kids are hysterical...just like in the movies, only that this is real, you could feel their emotions, their anguish, their loss...

She went at her lifeless mother lying on the bed and she started compressing her chest just like what she saw me doing ,as if she could revive her dead mother. I stand still, there's nothing we or I could do...I excused my self and went at the bathroom, there, I let the tears that I was holding back while ago to flow freely...It really affected me....

My first death.I was so affected.

Time goes by, sometimes everyday, weekly, someone dies on our duty and I began to be emotionless, unaffected, playing tough, playing professional. Like a stone.

That's why whenever I see a patient survived death and came out of the ICU, where I spent most of my duty, it gives me so much happiness knowing I was part of his/her wellness.

There was this rich patient that survived her near death experience from a fatal car accident and gave our team 5oo pesos each after a month of being discharged. She's so thankful to us. She considered us her "heroes".

Hmm, I wonder why only 5oo?Kidding!!!!!!!!

24 comments:

Doc Mike said...

good luck on your new career!

Mac Callister said...

@doc mike--thank you doc!hehe

JIMG29 said...

Deliverance is the word for the day. Think about it and you'd feel spiritually at ease. And yes Mac, you're a hero!

Chronicler said...

Mac, good luck on ur new adventure but you've gotta promise me something....please keep on blogging.....

Mac Callister said...

@JIMG--hehe you think so?thanks my friend!takecare you there too.

@chronicler--hey you!thanks!yeah I hope so,I promise to blog whenever im free and have lots of time.

Ming Meows said...

sana makasunod ako..

stainedheart said...

o ano? lalayas ka na? hehehe iniwan ko na number ko, basta text2 nlng.. and ill just keep in touch with you pag andyan na rin ako..

basta "be strong..hold one...for my love will keep you warm" bwahahahaha. kanta ni marco sison.

basta ingat nlng, kalbo..

Anonymous said...

kung si jacko pa sana ang narevive nyo baka $5,000 ang naibigay sa inyo, hehehe!

goodluck mac, ingat sa baboy! ingat sa swine flu, heheheh! dont worry, paglapag mo ng qatar wala ng swine flu doon, wala kasing baboy doon eh...

MrCens
Dubai, UAE

Mac Callister said...

@ming meows--haha oo antayin kita

@stainedheart--oo i saved your number kalbo din!LOL

@mrcens--haha gaga!salamat!

Turismoboi said...

good luck mamizz kita!

cb :: 林偉文 said...

good luck! :D

LhanDz said...

ingat parati and good luck!

Mac Callister said...

@turismo--talaga lang ha!haha

@cb--thanks!

@lhandz--salamat,ikaw din jan take care

marvin said...

uy! malapit na alis mo! ingat na lang sa biyahe. and say hello to celibacy! lols! :-p

MC said...

Bon Voyage MAC :]

Makikibalita na lang ako tungkol sa life mo sa Qatar. For sure marami kang kwento pagpunta mo don.

RT pala ang magiging work mo,akala ko magbibilang ka ng buhangin sa disyerto. bwahaha joke ;)

gillboard said...

ngayong paalis ka, di dapat death death ang iniisip mo... hehehe...

have a safe trip... and enjoy Qatar!!!

Rwetha said...

goodluck sa iyo...
di bale pagdating mo dun, di lang 500.. :D

dencios said...

huy magiingat ka ha!

Summer said...

Hahaha..Love this line of your post.
Hmm, I wonder why only 5oo?Kidding!!!!!!!! lol.=D Anyways, good luck on your new world.=D

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Rachel said...

Goodluck to your career. May God bless you always.

joyo said...

gudluck po... carry yan...

Chris said...

happy journey in Qatar ya..

Mac Callister said...

@marvin--haha sinabi mo pa!huhu

@MC-- buti nga di ako naging taga sala ng buhangin dun e LOL

@gillboard--salamat

@rwetha--magdilang anghel ka sana!hehe

@dencios--haha oo pag may time ako puntahan kita tapos lasingin kita LOL

@summer--nnaliitan nga daw e LOL!

@rachel--thank you po

@joyo--yeah ajah!!!

@chris--thank you my friend!

Jeremy said...

Safe Trip!