January 14, 2010
Is it just me or what but I think day and time passes by so quickly! I go to work, have fun, go home, eat, then hang out a while then sleep again and start again to the same routine and before I knew it, I've been here 6months already!
Waaaaa, another 6months and I'll be going home for the first time! I cant wait! I know I don't have to wait very very long. Even on my day off, it felt like a whole day is not enough for the things I wanted to do.
For all I know, I'll be old and weak, gray hair, wrinkles, erectile dysfunction...(LOL) etc. in the coming days...sometimes I wonder if we could be forever young... to live forever, I want to be this way, I mean my age now, 30, for ever, its just so right...haha I know I'm not making sense.
But that's not how life is, if only Edward Cullen is around and make me his Bella!kidding! I mean if he could make me a vampire, so that I could live forever young...why not!
Quick time, means getting old too...and getting old means being alone and lonely...maybe this post is what its all about...I'm afraid of being alone when I grow old.
Mom told me, you really wanna be gay? Being gay means you could be alone when you grow old, no wife, no children, are you willing to go through all that?
So I'm hoping someone will come along and know me, love me, share my life with, and we could grow old, not alone, but...together.
Until we could both have problems who's topping and bottoming, since...for sure there will be erectile problems!LOLLLLLLLLLLLLL! But I cant imagine myself being so old like 80 with my gay partner and be still soooo horny!haha.