October 6, 2010

Where Are You Now?


One moment in our lives, we met a lot of people, some of them made us special (or not) in their own way...but life goes on and for some reasons, we have to separate and go on our own way...

I wonder where you are now...Miss P.

She's my favorite teacher when I was in grade 6, she's the only teacher who showed me care and love. Gosh, its been 13 years since I last saw her. She's an old maid. I wonder if she's married hehe. Is she still teaching? or is she with our creator? How I wish I could see her one more time.

I wonder where you are now...Jas.

She's my best friend when I was in high school, she used to call me Tom-bong, because I have this great admiration for Tom Cruise at the time hehe. And we listen to this uber-jologs song: OCEAN DEEP! waaa shoot me now, I know!LOL. After our graduation in high school she moved in to their province in the Visayas region.

I wonder where you are now...Sasha.

We had this crazy chemistry during college days, we called ourselves best friend for life! We are inseparable, we did everything together. We're like family. But i don't know what happened after our big fight after college, last thing i heard, she's in Dubai. Sometimes, i thought, why friends have to go this way, I mean can't we just forgive each other...do we have to let pride take over and let the friendship go to waste? I missed her though...

I wonder where you are now...Jeff.

He was my first eyeball and my first sex partner! It was the time where I have to laugh like crazy every time he licked my neck and my nipple: why, It's ticklish! Price of being a virgin! No intercourse though, I'm not ready at that time. But I remembered how foolish I had been with him, after the boom-boom-pow, I texted him asking what are we now that something happened already, because in my mind, we had an intimate moment right? so automatically he will take responsibility! feeling like a virgin lady who could be pregnant and that he has to marry me!LOL

He told me its just sex. Nothing else. It played in my mind over and over again. Its just sex. I realized one thing that time, that sex could be this so meaningless to other people. I was hurt... I was so naive.

I wonder where you are now....Mark.

He was my third boyfriend. I loved him so dearly with all my heart. I think he's one of those relationships that really made a mark on me (cause his name is Mark?!LOL) I made a mistake and he punished me when I asked for a second chance, he accepted it but made my life miserable...my soul was crying inside when he was spending the night with me but made me feel like a stranger, he didn't bother kissing me...

Texting someone else when he knew i could see it, he made love to me but treated me like I'm a whore...he will visit just to have sex with me and leave. I cried every time he does that. After sometime, he just vanished without a word till now... though I'm over him, but I could still remember the pain it caused me. Wishing I would never feel that again.

I wonder where you are now...Rom.

Many of us have fallen in love with our best friend. Its a classic story for most of us. I am no exemption...he used to hold my hand and forced me when he wanted me to accompany him somewhere when I'm too lazy to...he used to asked my opinion on things he's unsure of...he used to asked me to join him at the shower when its only the two of us at their house...I remembered how I tried to stop my feelings for growing more and more deeper...

I remembered how it made me jealous when he tried to court some girl at school, and I remembered it clearly how I tried to discourage him that she's not worth it. We used to hang out till very late at night after school and talk about anything but not our own feelings. I know, I could feel it, he has something for me too. But he knew it was not right. He wanted to be a good son as what his mother told him to.

He's the first person I loved.

:-)

Looking back on those years made me smile and made me sad at the same time. There are some regrets and most specially there are lessons learned. We grow older and we gained more knowledge on how we could run our lives and those people around us. No matter where they are now, no matter what they do, I hope they are all doing good and happy.

17 comments:

Mike said...

ohhh memories...

mark mark mark. bakit lagi na lang mark. lol!

Mac Callister said...

@mike--kahit san kasi may mark!ewan ko ba

Louie said...

Mark is a very generic name. Hehe. Anyhoo, your post reminds me of the song Where Are You Now by Honor Society.

Napaka-reminiscing ng post ah. Mukhang miss mo na talaga Pinas ah. :)

EsTeFaN said...

Hello Mac.

Hi.Thank you for visiting my blog Sex and the Province..I have new but fast growing blog http://filipinom2m.blogspot.com .I linked your blog there,i hope you will also link mine.tnx

Phunk Factor said...

All I can say is...Rock on, Mac!!! ;)

Ron, Mark, Jeff, Sasha, Miss P....and countless ppl more...have taught u something great or small...nvrtheless valuable!! So don't let it waste....give the rest ur wisdom! :D

StarFish said...

whoever it is that you're looking for is probably hiding cuz you did something real awful! LOL! kidding! lol hahaaa.....

i didn't put number 11 on that list to quit your job cuz i know you'd not want to quit if sex was permitted in a work place... LMAO! dork!

KUMAGCOW said...

Tayo nang mag reminisce at maglagay ng mga EX sa post hehehh XD joke lang ah hehe

orally said...

Memries, o di ba parang si Barbra Streissand lang.
Ako din may Mark moments.
Cheers to friendship and love!

Soltero said...

Hanglandi, pati first EB namimiss bwhahaha..

and oh, I like Ocean Deep too! bwahhaha :P

Ming Meows said...

akala ko magpopost ka ng video of the same blog title.

where are you know...naku maraming nagtatanong sa akin nyan. mga dating sebs ko ;p

Mac Callister said...

@luie--i was actually inspired by a song kaya ko napost yan

@estefan--i love you blog and the sex stories hehe.i will linked you blog too

@phunk--i have learned a lot from them,made me i think a bettr person for handling my emotions...

Mac Callister said...

@starfish--hehehe shut up!

@kumagcow--e wala lang,naalala ko lang and naisip ko kamusta na kaya sila hehe

@orally--kinakanta ko nga yan habang sinusulat to e!LOL

@soltero--oy di naman namimiss,baka mamaya mamisinterpret ng iba!naalala lang kumbaga!

@ming--ikaw na ang hinahanap hanap!

Virex said...

^^,

and look where you are right now.. baka hinahanap ka din nila, paramdam ka sa kanila..

Mac Callister said...

@virex--hahha ewan ko ilan lang sa kanila gusto ko makita ulit!

PABLONG PABLING said...

mahaba pala ang hair mo

glentot said...

Ocean Deep! It's now playing in my head hindi ko na maalis ahaha.

Mac Callister said...

@pabling--oo hanggang edsa haba!LOL

@glentot--bakit?kasi kinanta mo pagkabasa mo?hahaha goodluck!