I guess a former friend was right when he told me, don't talk too much online with your boyfriend or else you will end up fighting. That's what exactly happened to me and EDC last night. We were so excited to chat again after the other day. During a few minutes it was fine, until everything turned out...sour...and ugly....
(check out his blog here)
Its about something I want, and its something he won't try. I won't go into details what we fought about, but its something shallow and petty!LOL
"If you're that disappointed, why don't you break up with me then huh?" he said provoking me. I was about to, I was so mad and hurt. It was our second argument and its the second time he hurt me with words I can't take.
He said his piece, and I shared mine too.
I was so sure I will break up with him again this time. For me twice is enough, I said to my self. The tension was so high that I couldn't take it anymore, to think this is just online argument, what if we're facing each other right now? Would it be much worst?
It's so bad that I cried. No one made me cry. I don't know. Words cut so deep this time.
I don't know what happened but it seems like an angel passed by and scattered "love confetti" in the air. His next words caught me by surprise....
"Fine! I will do it even if I don't like to! "
Huh? I thought he typed in a wrong sentence.
"Gago ka Mac, alam mo kasing mahal kita, kaya iniipit mo ko...if ever you would be the first (referring to what I want)!!!" he added.
("Damn you Mac, you knew that I love you and i would agree eventually, that's why you're pressuring me")
I didn't expect he would give in, after all the arguments and harsh words...it may sound that I'm demanding to you guys, but its not, so don't get me wrong. I just can't share it to you haha.
Those words sounded so rude and sweet at the same time.
Actually its very sweet!!!
I was caught off guard. This guy is unpredictable.
Oh I love him.
"Did you know you made me cry?" I told him when everything was fine.
"Please Mac, don't cry, hush...I'm sorry to cause you pain, I didn't mean to..." he continued
(Tawa naman ilong ko, palakpak pa tenga sa narinig haha, kaya naman sinamantala ko na lalo pag da-drama!LOL)
He said many things to cheer me up and yes he did.
"You were asking me to break up with you earlier, did you know I was about to, what would you do if I actually agreed to your challenge and broke up with you?" I asked.
"Susuyuin kita ulit... Mahal kita e Mac..."
("I'll persuade you again to take me back, because I love you Mac...")
Awwww!!! ganda ko!!!LOL
I wanna get closer to him now.
Get much closer to a point where I can't take no more...
That feeling when you're hugging someone and you literally wanna buried yourself deep inside him...
and synchronize your heartbeats and his breathings with yours....