March 29, 2011

Are You Kidding Me????


I was inviting R.A to visit the Marine festival with me in the city, thought, it could be another way to spend time with him and he said: OK LANG. Its not a yes or its not a NO either I assumed. So I told him, OK then lets go there later since both of us are off!

"I don't have enough money left, let's wait for the payday"

"oh come on, you still owe me a dinner hehe!" --me

"its true. i don't have enough to go out this week."

"I'm bored today, I'll take care of it. Just come with me" I insisted

And then he signed out on Face book without giving me a confirmation! he did it again! Damn him! I tried to call his cellphone but he wont pick up.

OK, fine. He's avoiding me.

I won't bother him again. As in ever again! asar na asar ako!

Magpapa-miss ako! tignan natin kundi nya ako hanapin!tse!

Many days have passed and we haven't seen each other. A good thing, I must say. Fate was helping me to move on. (parang nag-break up?LOL)

But not last Friday morning! We have the same duty! I spotted him as soon as I entered the ICU. He was busy with his documentations. I carry on with my job and pretend I'm not noticing him. I told my partner that I don't wanna go near him (he knew I like R.A) that he should help me to avoid him haha. sabwatan ito!

Everything works well until my partner got busy and I have no choice but to check the file of R.A's patient myself!

I quietly took and open the files while he was busy writing, he looked at me as soon as he felt my presence.

"uyyy, nag morning shift siya..." he said smiling.
(you're on morning shift)

"oo nga e..." (yeah) that's all I said to him. He's acting as if we're OK, hmmp! I still hold a grudge against him kaya. Pretending I was not interested in talking further and moved on to the next patient.

After a few minutes I was checking the medicines few meters away from him and he suddenly called me.

"mac...you think we'll have the salary tomorrow?"

"I'm not sure. Maybe". and I continued on my work. And why is he asking me about payday tomorrow? Is he going to invite me out finally tomorrow if salary is available?

Tse!

One time I was fixing the personal protective gown for the isolation patients when he jokingly pulled out its tie and I looked around and saw him silently laughing while walking away.

In my mind, I thought: Papansin siya huh. Tsk tsk tsk. (he's trying to get my attention since I'm not giving it to him on purpose) I smiled.

An evil smile!

I was bragging to my friends how successful my plan was on R.A! that finally he noticed it and he's the one making those efforts now for me to notice him this time. Yeah! Success!

On our second rounds around lunch time. I was on the phone and he was at the computer that we were so close and no one was around...I don't know what came to me and my emotions took over and I said the words that I have been keeping inside since last week!

"Hoy R.A! May atraso ka sakin". --me.
(hey R.A. You did something bad last time)

Damn! what happened to my plan????Shit! shit!

"Wala kaya... (I don't think so)" he said while smiling innocently. He knows what I'm talking about.

"Of course you know what I'm talking about...You left me at the chat room and you're not answering my call!"

"I don't have phone credits, that's why..." he continued and went back to his patient. But I followed him. I'm not finish with my interrogations yet!LOL

He was checking his patient's I.V but I kept on going: "you don't need credits to answer my call!"

"really?" he's still playing stupid.

"yeah!"

"so tell me...why you're not answering my calls?"

He moved to another part of the bed. The patient was looking at us, maybe wondering what's the fuss all about haha. But I kept on following the moron (R.A).

"ano ka ba? nag tatrabaho ako hehehe" he said while pushing me a little to back off. He was still laughing at my persistence.

I'll go where he'll go. He cannot escape me!

He squat at the side of the bed and I squat with him too while he was checking the patient's urine bag and measuring it. I looked around and saw my partner smiling at us. Maybe he thought I was weird hahaha!

"You're avoiding me aren't you? tell me...that's why you're not answering my call?"

"I did not hear your call that's why...and besides I told you I don't have enough money left. Let's wait for the payday..." he explained.

"I told you too that we don't need more money to go the festival! Its free!"

"If we have salary tomorrow, maybe....and besides, I think the festival's finished since yesterday!"

"No. its extended till end of the month. For us!". LOL. I continued on convincing him.

"really?" and he looked at his new female colleague and said:"you wanna come? the festival he said is extended..."

WTF????are you kidding me? I wanna scream that to his face! He wants to bring this new nurse with us? On our date?!

I just walked out on him and left the unit! F*ck him!

Hay...poor Mac, no one wants to love him...Charot!

March 26, 2011

Transformer!LOL

Natawa naman ako dito! My friend shared a link and saw this funny video. Business as usual! Hanep!

March 22, 2011

Should I Give Up?


Its been 2 days since our last date. I haven't heard from him since. I did my usual routine at work at the ICU when Gil noticed me and said: wow, look whose here! I did not expect to see him either on duty that afternoon.

And if Gil is here, it means R.A is on duty too! (Gil is R.A's preceptor)

OMG!

I looked around...looking for a familiar face, a face that I long to see....

there!

at the station, he looked surprised seeing me too. I cannot tell if that look was from being glad to see me or for fear that Oh-oh-he's-here-look!LOL. Our eyes met and we smiled to each other. I don't know...after our date, it just felt awkward talking or seeing him again.

I kinda missed him. I wanna run into him and give him a tight hug.

Nobody from his colleague at the ICU knew that we had our date last weekend. For them, I'm still getting nowhere on my quest to win his heart!LOL

I didn't stay longer than I used to, I finished up my work and went back upstairs to our unit. I didn't chat with him like I used too. I was trying to read his actions. I'm still guessing if he likes me or not.

I feel so insecure after I noticed his indifference. I wanna scream to his face and yell: what now! But I didn't!

di ko keri hahaha!

On my second rounds. Gil noticed that I'm quiet while doing my work, I'm not like that. We usually have this moment of fooling/joking around and talking some silly stuffs while I'm trying to get notice by R.A at work.

I already had my dinner, but Gil and R.A just about to have theirs. Gil asked me if I wanna eat with them. I said thanks, that they should go and eat for I have things to do. I was waiting for R.A to invite me too, but he was just quiet as if he did not know that I'm there. But I'm sure he knew that I am.

It hurts me that after we shared a great dinner and some time last Saturday, he was acting weird. So I thought to my self, OK, that's it! that's my sign! I should give up whatever hopes I had with him!

I finished up my rounds and my documentation after 30 minutes when they came back...I was at the faucet scrubbing my hands:

"Mac, ganyan ka di ka sumasabay sa min kumain ha!" Gil said
(Mac, you really didn't join us for dinner huh!)

"Busog na nga kasi ako!hahaha"
(I told you, I had dinner already)

I saw R.A passed by but I ignored him. Pretending that I did not see him.

"Mac..."

I looked around and saw him.

"Here...take this..." giving me a can of milk for patients on nasogastric tube for feeding!He was teasing me to have it for dinner instead. He was smiling like a small boy, trying to be funny with his super korny joke!

Tinignan ko siya ng matagal. Nakangiti lang siya ng parang engot...

"hmpf! ah ganun ha...you take it first!" I replied. I was smiling back at him. He was laughing when he left.

For a few seconds...that brief moment. Everything around us felt so quiet. As if we had our own world. I was looking at his eyes and he was looking at mine.

Yes. It was our moment.

I know. Mababaw ako!LOL

I was smiling on my way out. As if all the worries flew in the air.
hay, shall I stop hoping or what?!

Taena ka R.A! Ginugulo mo ko!LOL


*****

Dahil jan kakanta ako ng:Chasing Pavements!hahaha




(related post about R.A. click HERE)