February 8, 2011
Its Cold Outside
Its past midnight here and its really cold outside. I am sitting in my couch and listening to the sound of silence. Its really quiet tonight.
I didn't realize that I'm that lonely till now. Its been two months since I broke up with my last boyfriend. I didn't have time to mourn on that another failed relationship, I was so damn busy that I didn't have time to get the feeling of regret of losing him.
Next thing I knew, I already moved on and there's no pain left to remember. I couldn't even care to think. Being too f*ckin' busy was one hell of a great way to move on! LOL
And yeah, another failed relationship. I know.
Hay, what else is new right? If you were a follower of my blog you might have been thinking..."Mac really sucks on having a relationship longer than 4 months!" How many guys I've dated and broke up in the end. This blog is my witness on all of that.
Maybe its me. Yeah, I think maybe its me.
Did I give too much that I suffocated them? Or they just didn't love me like the way I thought they did?
All I wanna do is to love someone...
To give love and to experience love. I want to have that feeling of being cared for. That feeling of being significant. I want to live again.
I missed those hugs and kisses and sweet words and romance...
Many times I loved. Being loved...and ends up disappointed. Hurt. And lost. Whats keeping "it" to find me. I've been waiting and ready for a long time...
But no matter how many times I get down and hurt by this thing called love, I would never give up on LOVE. Its one of the greatest feelings in the world. Do you agree? hehehe.
Damn, this cold weather's making me lonely.
Goodnight everyone... :-(