February 8, 2011

Its Cold Outside


Its past midnight here and its really cold outside. I am sitting in my couch and listening to the sound of silence. Its really quiet tonight.

I didn't realize that I'm that lonely till now. Its been two months since I broke up with my last boyfriend. I didn't have time to mourn on that another failed relationship, I was so damn busy that I didn't have time to get the feeling of regret of losing him.

Next thing I knew, I already moved on and there's no pain left to remember. I couldn't even care to think. Being too f*ckin' busy was one hell of a great way to move on! LOL

And yeah, another failed relationship. I know.

Hay, what else is new right? If you were a follower of my blog you might have been thinking..."Mac really sucks on having a relationship longer than 4 months!" How many guys I've dated and broke up in the end. This blog is my witness on all of that.

Maybe its me. Yeah, I think maybe its me.

Did I give too much that I suffocated them? Or they just didn't love me like the way I thought they did?

All I wanna do is to love someone...

To give love and to experience love. I want to have that feeling of being cared for. That feeling of being significant. I want to live again.

I missed those hugs and kisses and sweet words and romance...

Many times I loved. Being loved...and ends up disappointed. Hurt. And lost. Whats keeping "it" to find me. I've been waiting and ready for a long time...

But no matter how many times I get down and hurt by this thing called love, I would never give up on LOVE. Its one of the greatest feelings in the world. Do you agree? hehehe.

Damn, this cold weather's making me lonely.

Goodnight everyone... :-(

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

keep holding on...

Mac Callister said...

thank you anonymous... :-)

Ming Meows said...

ayan na, umeemo. malapit na kasi ang valentines.

Mac Callister said...

@ming--hahaha baka nga!!!

c - e - i - b - o - h said...

haay naku,, dala nga lang yan ng panahon kasi malapit na valentine's day... kung malamig sa labas mac, wag kang lumabas.. char!!!

nu kb?? tandaan mu,, it pays to wait...

Sean said...

Mahirap ang ldr. Karirin na kasi yung mga paminta diyan. Update mo kami ha?

KikomaxXx said...

tama... pero nga lang sa mga single lonely kami ngayon.. wahehhe...

Nimmy said...

oo nga Mac. halos puro work related ang mga posts mo. hihi

mahirap talaga ang LDR. try mo dyan maghanap ng partner. wooohoooo. :D

KUMAGCOW said...

sabi ko nga nuon pa... ay ewan hahah

anyway, kaya mo yan ikaw pa, sa dami ba naman nyan pa sasaan pa at makakakita ka rin ng bago... its a cycle hehe

Mac Callister said...

@ceiboh0-- oo nga no!tama ka di nalang ako lalabas ng bahay!tse!

@sean--haha oo nga e,sana may dumating...at sana bilisan nya!LOl

@kiko--pati ikaw single and lonely?hahaha bagay tayo!choz!

@nimmy--inggit nga ko sa inyo e,pa share mo sakin si leo! LOL!

@kumagcow--ayaw mo kasi sakin e!hehehe*landi*

Nishiboy said...

hay. when you've figured all of this out, i-explain mo din sakin.

Mac Callister said...

@nishi--haha tulungan mo kasi ako!

Virex said...

andyan lang yung para sayo.. kung inde nag work yung mga past relationships mo, ibig sabihin, inde yun ang para sayo.. and the good part about breaking up, is that you learn something new.. something na makakatulong sa iyo sa paghanap ng tao na para sa iyo..

Mac Callister said...

@virex--yun na nga lang din sinasabi ko sa sarili koe, pero hindi! gsuto ko ulit ng jowa!LOL