Where Are You Now?

One moment in our lives, we met a lot of people, some of them made us special (or not) in their own way...but life goes on and for some reasons, we have to separate and go on our own way...

I wonder where you are now...Miss P.

She's my favorite teacher when I was in grade 6, she's the only teacher who showed me care and love. Gosh, its been 13 years since I last saw her. She's an old maid. I wonder if she's married hehe. Is she still teaching? or is she with our creator? How I wish I could see her one more time.

I wonder where you are now...Jas.

She's my best friend when I was in high school, she used to call me Tom-bong, because I have this great admiration for Tom Cruise at the time hehe. And we listen to this uber-jologs song: OCEAN DEEP! waaa shoot me now, I know!LOL. After our graduation in high school she moved in to their province in the Visayas region.

I wonder where you are now...Sasha.

We had this crazy chemistry during college days, we called ourselves best friend for life! We are inseparable, we did everything together. We're like family. But i don't know what happened after our big fight after college, last thing i heard, she's in Dubai. Sometimes, i thought, why friends have to go this way, I mean can't we just forgive each other...do we have to let pride take over and let the friendship go to waste? I missed her though...

I wonder where you are now...Jeff.

He was my first eyeball and my first sex partner! It was the time where I have to laugh like crazy every time he licked my neck and my nipple: why, It's ticklish! Price of being a virgin! No intercourse though, I'm not ready at that time. But I remembered how foolish I had been with him, after the boom-boom-pow, I texted him asking what are we now that something happened already, because in my mind, we had an intimate moment right? so automatically he will take responsibility! feeling like a virgin lady who could be pregnant and that he has to marry me!LOL

He told me its just sex. Nothing else. It played in my mind over and over again. Its just sex. I realized one thing that time, that sex could be this so meaningless to other people. I was hurt... I was so naive.

I wonder where you are now....Mark.

He was my third boyfriend. I loved him so dearly with all my heart. I think he's one of those relationships that really made a mark on me (cause his name is Mark?!LOL) I made a mistake and he punished me when I asked for a second chance, he accepted it but made my life miserable...my soul was crying inside when he was spending the night with me but made me feel like a stranger, he didn't bother kissing me...

Texting someone else when he knew i could see it, he made love to me but treated me like I'm a whore...he will visit just to have sex with me and leave. I cried every time he does that. After sometime, he just vanished without a word till now... though I'm over him, but I could still remember the pain it caused me. Wishing I would never feel that again.

I wonder where you are now...Rom.

Many of us have fallen in love with our best friend. Its a classic story for most of us. I am no exemption...he used to hold my hand and forced me when he wanted me to accompany him somewhere when I'm too lazy to...he used to asked my opinion on things he's unsure of...he used to asked me to join him at the shower when its only the two of us at their house...I remembered how I tried to stop my feelings for growing more and more deeper...

I remembered how it made me jealous when he tried to court some girl at school, and I remembered it clearly how I tried to discourage him that she's not worth it. We used to hang out till very late at night after school and talk about anything but not our own feelings. I know, I could feel it, he has something for me too. But he knew it was not right. He wanted to be a good son as what his mother told him to.

He's the first person I loved.

:-)

Looking back on those years made me smile and made me sad at the same time. There are some regrets and most specially there are lessons learned. We grow older and we gained more knowledge on how we could run our lives and those people around us. No matter where they are now, no matter what they do, I hope they are all doing good and happy.

Carefree

We're the dickheads!haha.

Last wednesday we're finally able to go out and to party after almost 4 months of non stop-working ! I can't believe its that long since we last go out on a gimik. There's a pinoy band playing all types of music that night, we're kinda excited because, every time we go to this club, they featured DJs or house music, we don't wanna dance to that! we want lady gaga's! Toinks!

I had a hard time choosing what to wear. I changed twice undecided which one! (arte lang hehe). It took me an hour to prepare! Pero la naman nabago sa itsura ko, ganun pa din! LOL! I envy those people who could prepare themselves in an instant, like in 15 minutes they are ready to go!

We came in so early, (excited???!) I was with my 4 girlfriends and 2 boy friends, we need to bring 2 guys because, you know with my kind of beauty on that place, we need protection, who wish to take me by force! LOL!!!

Few people are there, the band has not started playing yet, so we decided to eat first, all are starving, we ordered 24 pieces chicken wings and fish fillet, imagine, we had dinner there! Ginawang hapunan ang pulutan!

Anyway, we loved the band, and I had a great crush to the long haired drummer! We danced the night away! Gosh I missed that feeling of being crazy, carefree and tipsy!

di ko alam kung anong dance step yan! at salamat sa sponsor ko:ZARA at CELIO, pinaganda nyo ko nung gabing yan!LOL

Every dance, I tried to forget my worries about my mom...

Every song, I tried to ignore about the worries about my future...

Every beat, i tried to push away my insecurities and fear about my love life...

All of that in just one night...I felt liberated.

When you're an OFW, you need to relax once in a while, we deserved to have a little fun you know...

When I was at the comfort room alone, in front of the mirror removing the food that got stucked on my braces, and suddenly he entered...

The cute drummer!!!

I had a funny reaction when I saw him, my eyes was wide open the minute our eyes met!

And he saw that reaction!

Sooo0 kakahiya! Taena! Its so obvious that I have a crush on him!

To my surprised, he looked at me directly from the mirror, and licked his lips, started pulling his shirt up, exposing sexy abs and pinkish nipple...I can't move...I was into him...he unbuckled his belt and showed me his long, hard dick....

OK fine, I just made that up! LOL!

The point is, he knew that i like him. Nyahehe. anlaki ng issue di bah!

The club started closing up, and we still don't wanna go! Its so bitin! it felt like we've been there for just an hour when in fact we spent almost 5 hours na!

We decided to stop to a nearby coffee bean and spent another 2 hrs there talking and chatting and cam whoring! Gosh, I love my friends! It was a lot of fun doing this! We promised to do this gimik night again!

Father.Son.BF.

Clayton's dad arrived to Manila yesterday, after many years of working abroad, he finally decided to quit and stay for good. His dad don't want him to be gay. So my baby-baby is hiding inside his big closet full of skeletons with pink ribbons on the head! Nyahaha!

I told him to go home early and meet his dad. But Clayton said he'll be very late to have a grand entrance!

Anong kaeklatan yun? artista?!

When I'm about to sleep, I texted him:

Iidlip muna ko, i-kumusta mo nalang ako sa "Papa" natin...hehe. Goodnight.

(Goodnight, I'll take a nap, Clay...send my greetings to "our" DAD)

OK, kamusta ka din daw. Mahalin mo daw ako ng todo-todo sabi nya! LOL

(OK, he said hi too. He said, you should love me more than enough!LOL)

Napailing nalang ako... bumanat na naman si Tanga hehe

It made me smile though.

And told myself, Damn, I love this crazy bastard!

Makatulog na nga! :-)