Masseur Chronicle: Si Mohawk

Babala: Mahalay!



Dahil mag isa lang sa unit nun gabing iyon ay naisipan kong tawagan ang numero ng Spa na nakita ko nun nakaraang araw. Nakapaskil ang numero nila sa harap ng building nila kaya naman kinopya ko hihihi.

Nun makausap ang receptionist nila sa telepono ay naghanda na ako. Inimis ang room at naglabas lang ng konting amount sa wallet at saka itinago kasama ang mga valuables ko sa safety vault. Mabuti ng mag ingat noh.

Hindi din naman ako ganun ka worried dahil required na mag-log in at mag iiwan ng ID ang mga guests ko sa receptionist sa lobby at itinitawag nila sa akin kung papatuluyin na ba or hindi. May CCTV din sa lobby. Kaya mas OK.

Nakakaramdam na ako ng libog nun narinig ko na ang doorbell sa front door. Wishing na sana ay may itsura naman ang ipinadalang massuer. LOL

Pagbukas ko ng door napa mura ako ng bahagya sa isipin ko! taena! siya yun namataan kong guy nun kinopya ko yun numero ng spa nila na natipuhan ko mula sa malayo. Kapansin pansin kasi ang mohawk niyang hair at morenong comflexion.

Shet! shet! bet ko siya!



Pinatuloy ko siya at niyaya na sa room sa second floor. Loft type kasi ang unit na inuupahan ko at ang 2 room ay nasa taas.

Naghubad na ako at underwear lang ang iniwang saplot. Di naman ako atat e noh? chos! e bakit ba talaga naman kelangan maghubad di ba. Hihihi.

Naghanda na din siya at inilabas ang oil. Naghubad siya ng pang itaas at tanging sando lang at pants na uniform nila ang suot. Na disappoint ako ng slight mas gusto ko sana naka boxers siya gaya nun masahista ko dito sa dowha na super hot kapag naka boxers!

Hindi siya macho pero kapansin pansin pa din ang muscles niya sa arms mula sa suot na sando. Morenong moreno. Type na type ko ganun kulay. Pinoy na pinoy.

Dumapa na ako sa kama at nag umpisa na ang paghagod niya sa likod ko. Ipinatong niya ang towel mula sa waist ko. Nakaibabaw siya sa may puwitan ko. Masarap siya magmasahe infairness...sinusubukan ko mag focus sa pagrerelax at hindi sa erection na nararamdaman. LOL

Lalo na ko di mapakali nun sa may bandang butt cheeks ko na yun paghagod ng kamay niya...pinahubad na niya sa akin ang underwear ko dahil may nakatakip naman daw na towel. Pumayag na ko. Kaya naman mas lalo na ko nadimonyo. LOL

Masarap magpamasahe kaya naman tuwing may chance ay lagi ko itong pinapagawa. Buti nga sa pinas madaming ganitong services. Dito sa middle east ang limited lang.

Nasa may bandang hita ko na ang mga kamay niya...parang sadya nga niyang sinasagi ang yagbols ko mula sa pagkakadapa e nag eextend kasi ang dulo ng daliri. hihihi mapapaigtad na lang ako. Feeling ko style nila yun para lalo libugin ang client nila.

Tinapos niya hanggang binti at paa...wala siyang di dinaanan ng haplos. Hanggang sa sinabi niyang tumihaya naman daw ako. Sumunod naman ako at lalo ko siyang nabistahan ng maigi.

Hindi naman siya guwapo pero may dating. Dahil siguro nga sa astig niyang haistyle. Sakto lang ang tangkad niya. At yun nga moreno.

Hindi pa ko nakakatitkim ng ganitong itsura ng lalake. Yun parang tambay look. Para lalake na batak sa trabaho. HIndi produkto ng gym ang dating. Parang taga sibak ng kahoy. Parang lalake na kargador sa mga pier ang pagkakahulma ng muscle sa katawan. Hihihi. totoo! nakakalibog pala!

Natatanaw ko lang ang mga ganitong tipo ng katawan sa daan kapag napapadaan yun sinasakyan ko at bigla may susulpot na lalakeng walang shirt. Ganyan level. At now ko lang narealized, fantasy ko pala ito. LOL

Pinapanood ko siya sa paghagod sa katawan ko, kapag napapatingin siya ay kunyari ako nakapikit. At kapag nalingat at muli ko siya papanoodin. Usually nagfofocus ang mata ko sa katawan niya...sa didbdib...at magtatagal sa bandang pusod....wala siya masyado body hair na medyo naka disappoint sa akin.

Alam nyo naman ako mahilig sa mabuhok lalo na sa kili kili at sa pusod, higit sa lahat sa mabulbol. LOL

Hindi ko namalayan na kakaimagine ko sa knya ay matigas na pala si manoy ko sa ilalim ng towel. Nakatent na siya. Obvious na tirik na tirik na. Pero nagkunwari siya na di niya napapansin. Patuloy lang siya sa paghagod sa hita ko this time at may konting tease palagay ko.

Dahil nakatihaya ako at wala underwear mas madali niya nasasagi ang singit ko at lalo ako mapapaungol at lalo nag ulol ang aking katigasan.

Nun nasa may binti ko na ang paghagod niya ay nagsalita siya at nagtanung ng malumanay...

"sir gusto mo ng E.S"

Im kinda expecting it na. Dahil kung hindi siya magtatanung before the end of the session ay malulungkot ako at baka mag suicide. charot.

"magkano?" tanong ko

--sinabi niya presyo

Nagulat ako dahil mahal ang singil niya. Yun ilang nag service sa akin ay  hindi naman ganun kataas... lahat lahat kasama na dun masahe.

"mahal mo naman" sabi ko

"magkano po ba kaya nyo sir?"

--nagsabi ako ng amount " kunyaring tawad ko. LOL

"ang baba po sir..."

"hmmm...ano ba kasama dun sa sa presyo mo?"

"lahat lahat na po sir...kayo na bahala sa katawan ko.."

Napangiti ako...sa isip isip ko kelangan matikman ko tong mukhang kargador sa pier na katawan na ito. Minsan lang ito! Umay na ko sa mga mistiso at gym buff. Makaumay naman ako e noh? ganda lang? chos!

"sige na nga.Yan na huling tawad ko." last offer ko. At pumayag naman siya. Clap! Clap! Clap!

Tinakpan niya ang oil na ginamit at naghubad ng sando sa harapan ko. Nakatitig lang ako at pinapanood siya. Taena talaga. Mura ko sa isipan ko. Tumambad sa akin ang mamuscle niyang dibdib, makinis na makinis...bumaba ang tingin ko sa abs niya...tama nga ang hinala ko...halos may six pack siya....halos magtulo laway ko at mag waterfalls ang keps ko sa pagkasabik at libog.

LOL!

Halos mapasinghap ako nun dumako ang kamay niya sa pants niya at suot na boxers shorts na akmang ibababa na. Ito na ang inaantay kong tanawin.

Medyo naiilang pa siya nun dahan dahan niya ibaba ang mga saplot.

Kitang kita ko ang manipis niyang pubes. Ang half erected na pag aari na medyo mahaba..at ang lawlaw na balls...parang ubas...grrrrrr...

Di ko din naiwasan na di mapansin ang matitigas niyang hita at binti...lalo ako na-L. Shet. Para siyang nililok na kahoy sa harapan ko na nakatayo.

Lumapit siya sa nag iintay kong katawan. Sa nakahimlay na kayamanan na nag iintay sa knya. Charot.

Tingin ko straight siya. I dont know. Parang akward pa kasi siya. I kissed his neck. I didn't kiss his lips. Baka kasi straight nga ayaw ko naman mapahiya. If straight siya first time ko makakatikim ng diretsong lalake. "Lalakeng bayaran". Lalo ako nabaliw sa word. Kinky!

Inihiga ko siya sa kama at ako ang umibabaw sa katawan niya. Hinimas ko ang dibdib...ang mga braso...ang abs...para akong sumasamba sa poon...sa poon na nakahiga....Nazareno? ay wag yun!

Hinawakan ang kanyang pag aari....unti unti na itong tumitigas...ang lawlaw na bayag....ang sarap paglaruan sa mga kamay ko....akin lang ang katawang ito ngayong gabi...shet.

Umibabaw ako sa knya at gumanti naman siya ng himas sa likod ko at puwitan na parang iginigiya ang balakang ko na idiin pa niya ang pagkiskis ko sa ari ko sa ari niya...masarap dahil may oil pa ang buong katawan ko at nagpapadagdag ng libog ang dulas na hatid nun sa friction ng katawan namin.

Isinubo ko siya na nagpaigtad sa knya. Hindi ko din pinalampas ang dalawa niyang yagbols....habang walang tigil ang mga kamay ko sa paghaplos at pagdama sa buong katawan niya...lalo na ang mga hita niyang matitigas...taena...

walang tigil na pagmumura ko.

Fuck mo ko...maya maya ay sabi ko...pumayag siya at binigyan ko ng condom....

Nagtop din ako sa ilang boyfriends ko before at hindi ako lagi nagpapa bottom dahil masakit. Madalas kiskisan, which is one of my favorit din, hindi pa matrabaho at hindi messy. LOL

Pero matagal na ko curious kaya naman nagta-try ako lagi. Ilang beses na ko nag attempt...oo successful pero hindi ko mahanap ang sarap na sinasabi at nakikita ko sa iba.

Kay Darkguy pa lang ko totoong na enjoy ang anal sex noon. And that was like 5 years ago. (Read HERE)

Im still searching for that wonderful place mula noon na hatid ng anal sex. Lagi nang may pain e. Kaya lagi nang yun top ang nilalabasan at ako ay jinajakol nalang. LOL

Nilagyan ko ng lube ang matigas na matigas na niyang pag aari at naghanda na para upuan siya...hindi siya ganun kalakihan kaya siguro walang kagatol gatol na niyaya ko siya to fuck me. Sakto lang ang girth niya at haba.

Infainess hindi masyado masakit...ganito lang pala ang dapat na etits na papatulan ko. LOL ito palang ganito ang masarap, shet.

Sabi nga ng friend ko nun nag uusap kami mas ok daw ang hindi masyado malaki dahil yun ang masarap. at tama siya.

Naririnig ko nalang ang sarili ko na umuungol sa sarap. Gumigiling. Habang nakahawak ang kamay ni mohawk guy sa dibdib ko nilalamas...nilalaro ang nipples ko...

Finally...i found that place again...that great place of pleasure....taena tagal ko itong hinanap...si mohawk guy lang pala makakapag bigay sa akin nito...or i dont know...maybe he's just a fulfillment of that fantasy...

Hindi ko pa din tinatantanan ang didbdib niya at braso...hindi pa din tumitigil ang kamay ko sa pag lamas sa lahat ng madaanan ng mga daliri ko....gustong gusto ko katawan niya...

Sinasabayan niya ng pag jakol ang naninigas kong pag aari...mas lalo ako naulol sa libog...masarap...taena. Ayoko na matapos ang gabing yun.

Mas lalo ko pa binilisan ang pag giling at pag bayo sa sandata niya sa loob ko at siya din sa pagsalsal sa etits ko...hanggang sa nararamdaman ko ang nalalapit kong pagdating sa glorya.....

Napapalakas na ang ungol ko...

Malapit na ko...

Sige pa....

Mas lalo niyang binilisan ang paghagod sa pag aari ko....mas mabilis...mas malakas...

Hanggang sa hindi ko na mapigilan ang pagpulandit ng katas ko...

Ayan na..ahhhh....lalabasan na ko...ahhh....fuck...fuck...fuck!

At tumalsik lahat sa dibdib niya...sa leeg...at nakita ko na halos pumasok sa nakabuka niyang bibig ang ilan....

Taena ang hot lang niya tignan ng ganun! Napamura talaga ako.

Dumapa ako sa ibabaw niya habang humihingal. Niyakap niya ako.At natatawa.

"ginawa mo kong babae sir. Now lang nangyari sa akin tong ganito na nilabasan sa dibdib ko.Natikman ko pa tuloy yun tamod mo ng konti" biro niya.

Natawa ako.

"Sorry naman! Now lang din ako nilabasan ng ganito. Thank you. Ang sarap mo kasi e" pag amin ko sa knya. Dahil ito naman talaga ang kauna unahang beses na nag cum ako habang pinafuck. Masarap pala. LOL

Pinanood ko naman siya mag masturbate hanggang sa labasan....such a nice scene hihihi.

"Straight ka ba?:" di ko napigilang di itanung.

"opo sir. May girlfriend ako ngayon, di nga niya alam na nag fuck ako sa inyo now. Usually jakol jakol lang kami sa client sa spa. First time ko din ito na tumira."

Hindi ko alam if totoo sinasabi niya pero tumango nalang ako.

Nagshower na kami at nagbihis siya at nagpasamalat nun iniabot ko ang bayad. Sa isip ko sana next year pagbalik ko ng pinas ay makontak ko siyang muli.

Parausan

Walang ibang maririnig sa madilim na silid ko na nababalot ng pulang liwanag na nanggagaling sa lampara sa gilid ng kama kundi ang mga ungol...mga daing ng sarap na kasalukuyan namin nararanasan na dalawa.

Nakakapit ako ng mahigpit sa mga braso nya at madidiin na din ang bawat halik niya sa batok at balikat ko na may dulot na kuryente na agad na gumagapang sa buong pagkatao ko.

Parang kailan lang na ni ayaw niya ako halikan sa labi...hindi daw siya humahalik sa labi ng kapwa lalaki sabi nya.

Ngunit ngayon na nakakailan na siyang akyat sa bahay ko dito sa ikaanim na palapag ay nagugulat nalang ako kung gaano kaalab ang mga halik niya nun una itong dumantay sa mga sabik kong labi. Masarap. Matagal kong inasam na hagkan nya ko. Hindi ko iyon inaasahan. Hindi ko ipinilit. Kusa niyang ibinigay.

At ngayon nararanasan ko na ito mula sa knya, hinding hindi ko malilimutan kung gaano ito katamis.

Ibang sarap ang nararamdaman ko kapag siya ang kasama ko. Pinapalasap niya sa akin kung gaano kasarap ang pag niniig...

Sa knya ko una naramdaman ang unang sakit at unang sarap pagkatapos. Ilang ulit na namin ito ginagawa. Walang usapan. Walang anumang kasunduan. Basta automatic na. Kapag nagtanong siya kung pwde ba siya umakyat. Oo agad ang isasagot ko. Ilang minuto lang ay nasa doorstep ko na siya. Nakasando. maiksing short. Matipunong katawan. Nang aakit. Nakakalibog.

Nag aalab ang aming katawan at pawisan na pareho sa ibabaw ng aking kama...gaya ng dati ito ay isang gabi na naman na parang ayaw mo na matapos. Lahat ata halos ng posisyon ay ginawa namin at laging mag tatapos sa posisyong nasa ibabaw ko siya...

Pabilis na ng pabilis ang paghinga nya...mga galaw niya sa ibabaw ng aking katawan...parang alon sa dagat na bumabangga sa dalampasigan...nagngangalit ang mga muscles sa balakang at braso nya na gustong gustong ko hawakan....

Hanggang sa pareho kaming umabot sa sukdulan.

Hindi lilipas ang minuto na siya ay tatayo at magbibihis...agad agad...mag aayos ng sarili...


Sige una na ko ah....maaga pa duty ko bukas.


Kasabay ng paglapat ng pintuan ay ang pagdagsa ng sakit sa dibdib ko. Ganun lang yun.

Maiiwan ako na nakatingin sa pintuan na nilabasan niya. Parang walang nangyari. Ganun ganun lang na nagtapos. Magaling na mangingibig sa gabi...masarap na pag niniig. Pero bakit parang may kulang? Parang hindi ako kuntento?

Parausan.

Yun ang unang salita na agad na pumasok sa isipan ko. Ano ba naman nga mapapala ko sa kagaya niya na may asawa at mga anak na nasa Pilipinas. Ano nga ba aasahan ko sa knya na nagpapanggap na machong-macho?

Kasunod noon ay ang guilt na naramdaman ko, baka makarma ako. Niloloko namin niya ang misis niya na walang kaalam alam sa kalokohan ng asawa niya. Isa ako sa maaring ikasira ng pamilya nila. Ayoko mangyari yun.

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Lumipas ang ilang araw na di ko siya sinasagot sa mga messages niya. Mga mensahe na nagtatanong kung pwde paba siya umakyat muli sa flat ko sa 6th floor.

Gustong gusto ko sumagot ng Oo, aantayin kita. Pero pinilit ko maging matatag. Mahinahon at wag magpadala sa libog ng katawan. Isa nalang matitira sa akin. Self-respect. At yun ay plano ko i-keep.

Ayoko na e. Busy ako. Iba nalang ayain mo.

Yan ang reply ko sa knya. At knowing him, ma pride din siya kaya naman di na niya ko muli kinulit. Kapag nagkikita kami kahit na lampas dalawang taon na nakakalipas ay may panaka-naka pa din daloy ng alaala ng halik na hindi ko malilimutan mula sa knya.

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Nakakalungkot lang na hindi pa din pala siya nagbabago. Halatang halata naman na "sila" na ng housemate niya na si Eli. Halos sa iisang kwarto na nga rin daw sila nag-stay kahit may kanya kanya naman silang silid. Hindi mo sila makikita na di magkasama. How sweet! haha. Bakla din ako kaya kahit i-deny nila or itago at sabihin mag bestfriend lang sila ay halata ko pa din. LOL

Lampas dalawang taon na mula nun huli kami magkasama at wala na akong hard feelings or attachment sa knya. Nakakalungkot lang na till now niloloko pa din niya pamilya niya. At bilib din ako kay Eli na kaya niya yun gawin kahit alam niya na mali. Natawa pa nga ako nun makita sa FB na karga karga pa ni Eli un bunsong anak ni Darkguy nun bumisita siya sa bahay niya.

Kakaloka.

Yun lang.

LOL

Rejected

All signs leads to only one conclusion:

He's just not into me.

He's hiding on face book and if we're chatting, he would just leave, and won't take my calls every time I tried to talk to him. He's saying no indirectly on my invites to go out.

Yeah. I think R.A is rejecting me. I'm rejected. Lets say it all together now. Rejected.

Sa madaling sabi: Basted ang Mac...(insert hysteric cry...)

I wanna die.....

Chos!

So, I thought to myself. OK, fine, go on with your life and hang yourself when you can't take it anymore! hahaha.

Henywayz, due to stress, I've gained weight, slight :-) been eating too much lately. Been becoming emo lately too. Pero I know this shall pass too. All I need is a good porn! chos!

For 5 days, I've been avoiding R.A na, kung ayaw mo wag mo ang drama ko haha. Yes! Ampalaya ako! nuknukan ng pait!

Well, I'm trying to avoid him. Just being casual and polite towards him. I don't have a choice, I don't wanna be way too close with him and get hurt, right? So, I have to keep my distance and keep off the grass!LOL

Its funny seeing Darkguy and R.A and me on one ICU, working together...my past and my supposedly future! Toink!

(wala silang kamalay malay that Darkguy and me used to f*ck! take note: USED TO.)

My colleague told me that R.A asked him:

"galit sakin 'yang kasama mo noh? (refererring to me)"
(your partner hates me, isn't?)

O, di ba atleast kunyari affected siya!

Sigh, my love life sucks! Can someone just come along and save me? :-)

Jan na nga kayo makakanta nalang sa videoke ng I just need somebody to love ni justine bieber LOL

(Read related posts about R.A here)

So, We're Talking Now?

It was really awkward having him on one table...I think its a bad idea for coming here. I'm uncomfortable being with him. We didn't talk for about 5 months. We ignored each other for the longest time. We just stop talking for some reason I don't know!

And here we are now.

Sharing a table with 4 other guys.

Me and Darkguy!

On one table this close???!

Its a friend's birthday dinner. He invited me. Didn't know he would also invite Darkguy. I don't have any control who he wants to invite. Its too late to back out now, I already said yes before he called Darkguy to come.

I avoided his eyes. I avoided talking to him. I intentionally ignored him and spoke to the guy next to him. I could see he's looking at me from the corner of my eyes. He lose weight. He works out they said. I could see the development on his arms and chest (I only imagined it without his shirt on LOL!)

He came with Eli. A former crush of mine. I believe they are closer now. They dined out, stay at each other's flat from time to time. Should I be jealous? I shouldn't be. Maybe I just felt a little weird. I mean, I used to chase Eli before. And I used to f*ck Darkguy before. And now they are together?

Though not sure about it. I heard Darkguy's wife now pregnant with their second child. Maybe they are really just friends.

I think I still have a crush on Eli! Clayton, its just a crush OK? haha. No more. No less. And I don't know if he likes me now than before. I noticed some changes on him. Its like he is giving me some signs that he is now ready! LOL

But deadma nalang me. I love Clayton noh!

Darkguy was trying to reach out on me. He spoke to me directly and I have no choice but to look at him and listen. I don't want the other guest to feel the tension between us. It felt so weird looking at his eyes while he spoke to me.

I know he's just trying to cover the real situation between us. People would ask questions if they noticed we are not talking. Especially Egay. He is so persistent on knowing the truth. He knew something is going on. I won't give him that satisfaction! So I just go with the flow and pretend I'm Ok talking at Darkguy.

He opened the door for me when I went out.

As we all walk back to our building (we all live in one building) I walk side by side with Egay avoiding him. And vice versa.

I don't know if this event changes anything between us.

(click here to read more posts about Darkguy)

What's Goin On Mac?

The following are recent updates on my life so far. You could say "we don't care!" LOL, but I don't mind, I still wanna say them anyway, whether you like it or not! tse!

• Its been eight months now, and my dream before going here to work was to save money, I wanna buy a house and lot to a decent subdivision back in Laguna, so that I could have my own private place, where me and my future partner (which I hope, I could meet soon LOL) could live without interference from my family. But its such a shame that I don't have a single cent on my account yet!waaaaa! Its frustrating. The main reasons are these: I'm sending money to my mom, she has financial crisis at Dubai now. I also volunteered to shoulder the monthly electric bills at home. That's the least I could do to help them there. They could have the air con open all day!LOL. The last reason: I'm such a shopaholic! I need psychiatric help!nyaha! I felt guilty when I bought this expensive Bulgari eyeglasses last time which costs less than 20,000 pesos while my mom are trying to budget her money to lasts for a month. Even worst is, I'll be having my yearly vacation this July which is 4 months from now, so I need to start saving now or else I would be poor when I go home!
• I was into Eli for a few weeks, been happy every time we're talking and had the same schedule at work. Recently, I chat with him at Face book and had the courage to asked him on a date. I said: Hey Eli, what you doing later? he said: nothing, will stay home. Then I typed the words : would you like to have a date with me? I was so nervous when I pressed send. But i was too afraid to know what could be his answers, so before he could read it and reply, I immediately signed out of face book!LOL So till now I never know what his reply was and good thing that time FB was having troubles with their system. Now, we have this awkward feeling towards each other, as if we broke up or something, I'm avoiding him and he's avoiding me! haha
• I also found out that Eli used to bring food at Darkguy's flat! whaaaat! they're friends or what?!
• My night life was very active for the past weeks, we had fun going to club to club. Had some drinks and party hard all night!
• We received 5o% of our salary the other day, a gift from our bosses for passing the international standard of care for our beloved hospital. That's awesome!
• I cannot find a diesel skinny jeans here! I hate Doha stores!LOL
• Me and two girl friends decided to watch The Wolfman at the cinema,before it start I warned them not to scream or else. Turned out when the first scary scene came, my scream was the loudest!LOL
  
• I'm loving the pediatric ICU now, unlike before that my chest almost explode due to too much nervousness! I'm good at adult patient but with children? with neonates? waaaa! But now I could say I'm confident enough, so kids bring it on!
• My laziness escalated to the next level, I so hate washing dishes, so I had the idea of buying disposable plates, cups, and spoon and forks! O di ba tapon na lang ng tapon?!haha I'm not even cooking, I have my foods delivered every night from a nearby Filipino resto.
  
• I developed a good friendship with my senior Lebanese staff, he's 45 something and very kind, at first I was just joking around about liking his company, but damn, I somehow develop this fondness on him, I kinda consider him now as my dear old friend Greg. He brought me home, he bring me chocolates, even asked me to go drinking, but too afraid to say yes, my friends are scaring me that he might rape me LOL!
• and lastly, I don't know but do you believe that love could grow even if you two haven't met yet? I mean its an online relationship, we talk for hours, web cam, calling from the phone every now and then, for more than a year now. I suddenly realized it, just tonight, that I'm possibly in love with him....Its hidden somewhere in my heart that only now it made me aware of it, and I think he's the one I could come home to...this July. You made me happy tonight EDC...naks! tawa yan! LOL

I hope you're still awake after all that! So see you next time guys. Take care!

Something Else

It was past 10pm and my transpo is calling me already, I had a busy night at work and I'm not yet finished endorsing. So I was running at the lobby so that the driver won't leave me and come back after an hour! I wanna go home right away.

I spotted the van and I opened it, but surprised to see Darkguy inside already. I didn't know he was on duty too. I occupied the first seat. He was sitting at the back. Maybe he didn't know I'm on duty as well, I took a cab when I went to work earlier.

I have an issue with him the other day, that's why I'm not on a talking mood at him. He asked the driver about me, its funny instead of asking me, he asked the Nepali driver.

"How come I'm alone earlier when u picked me up but now, we have someone else?(referring to me)"

"He took the cab, he would be late, he said" the driver answered him. I didn't react. Pretend I was busy listening to my mp3 player.

Until I felt he's touching my shaved head. Rotating his hand over my skinhead. I took his hand off. Telling him, to stop it.

The 20minutes travel time from hospital to our accommodation was like an hour due to our silence. There's only the two of us inside that dark van. I moved out of the van first. I felt my backpack heavier, he put his hands on it. Papansin ha...

Until I felt his arms on my shoulders, he wanted to make "akbay" while we're walking towards the elevator, but I took them off, I don't want anyone seeing us like that!Waaaaa!

"why?" he said referring to my resistance for him to put his arms on my shoulders.

"just don't..." I just said and walked fast to the elevator.Pakipot ko noh?LOL!

Inside the elevator, he's almost hugging me, but I'm not contented with it, I want him to kiss me and have sex with me again!LOLLLLLLLLLLL

Its the first floor, he get off and it closes again.

I sighed.

I just reminded my self: he's married, its better this way.

Cloud 9

Two days before the new year, Egay asked me if I want to go with him at the supermarket, I already had plans to go even if he don't ask me, so I have no choice but to say yes, I don't wanna say no and then he would see me there, it'll just look stupid.

I was on my laptop when Darkguy sent a message :"what time you two will go? can I come?" Egay and him are flatmates. He must've told him.

Its unexpected, its the first time he asked me if he wanna come and if ever this would be the first time we will hang out to the mall. Except that there's the annoying Egay with us LOL! I said yes, I wonder how will it turn out. Would I enjoy his company? or would I be bored? or will I be floating on cloud 9?LOL!

Im just wearing shorts and rubber shoes, casual and fun!(may ganun!) At the van, I occupied the first row, Egay at the second at my back, and when Darkguy arrived he had no choice but to sit at the last row. Every row is for two person, I don't wanna sit beside Egay, that's why!LOL

"I wanna sit beside you, Mac. Moved!" Darkguy said after a few minutes. Before I could make a protest he's already standing and pushing me to move so that he could sit beside me. I cannot believe it! He wanna sit beside me and I'm a little worried Egay might get some clue between us.

"Mac, treat me to dinner ha?" he said while laughing and he held my hand. My eyes was wide open!

"Kapal mo!" and I shook his hand off me. "sige na treat mo ko ha.." He held it again and I took it off and he held it again. Gosh its electrifying! I was afraid Egay might think of something else between us and I wanna be careful and this Moron is so comfortable!

He kept on bugging me about treating him to dinner, we all just had our salaries that day, and I know he can treat me too to dinner LOL! there are times when he's not holding my hand he would touch my hairy legs and said :" are you a relative of the monkey clan?"

Batukan ko nga !

If i know, he's enjoying holding my hand and legs! and me too!hahaha. At the mall, I bought a new oakley bag and I persuaded Egay to buy a new Caterpillar bag after I said many bad things about the bag he's currently using!

Egay had to fall in line at the money transfer booth and that made me and Darkguy alone. We continued on going to shop to shop, and it made me smile whenever he says: "this will look good on you". In fact he's too nice and fun that day. I'm glad I'm having this time with him. But I could sense trouble deep inside. I think I'm a masochist of first kind!

It felt like we're dating...it felt like we're just alone at the crowded mall..it felt like...cloud 9!LOL I was laughing when he asked me if I could take a picture of him at the Christmas snow display on the center of the mall! Parang bata!

When I agreed, and I prepared my phone's camera but he insisted on taking my picture first! whaaaat! this is your idea why i go first! I told him! so then he took my picture and I took his picture too. Finally I have a picture of him, a remembrance for me! We even took a picture of us together. Hay parang si Bea at John Lloyd lang! ako si Bea?!waaaaaaaaaaaaa!

My fantasies was like flushed on the toilet bowl when we entered a shop for little kids...for his 9 months old daughter. It felt like I was slapped on both face. "this would look great on my baby" he said.

I smiled and put on a poker face. I asked him to go elsewhere. He would try some clothes on and would call me for opinions. I noticed when he tried on a shirt that there's a big improvement on his body, he's been working out 3 times a week, he really did go back to the gym afterall. I remembered when we're on my bed and he said "OK, I'll go back to the gym for you..." and I thought he just wanted to flatter me with words then.

Finally Egay came back and we went at the food court (haha kuripot!) I wanted to pay for his order but he refused and told me he's just joking when he's insisting on I treating him. In my mind: So you just wanna have a reason to hold my hand at the van?

Egay was at the counter when both of us are waiting for the food when he said that he's tired of dining at this restaurant and blah blah blah.

"I only eat there when I'm on a date" I said. I don't know it just came naturally!

"How come you never asked me for a date?" he answered.

"Huh?" I was speechless. I don't know how to answer it, I was surprised by the accusation on his question.

"So, who are you dating there? Can I see who he is?" he continued.

I said I don't have a pic at my phone. But he didn't believe me. He's insisting that I have one and that he wanna see him.

Good thing Egay came for the rescue. We ate and he never asked me again about it.

One Fine Night

I was in a hurry to go home after my 2 to 10pm duty tonight, I need to buy some food since I was like a poor homeless guy who have nothing to eat for the next day!haha. So after my service dropped me to my accommodation, I just took off my scrubsuit and run to the elevator, I need to hurry up because I'm not sure if the Filipino grocery on the next street is open till this time.

When I reached the ground floor and the elevator opened I was surprised to see Darkguy coming out from the other elevator beside mine! It obvious he's going somewhere, somewhere near, just like me. He looked surprised too. Its been a week since we last talked and see each other. We had different schedule and I was assigned to other ICU's all week long.

"Where are you going?" I hesitantly asked him while we walked out of the lobby. He's wearing a short and a jacket. Yun parang kapote ang tela!LOL (cheap ha!)

"I'm going to G-mart..." he said. Oh no! that's where exactly am heading! Is this a joke or what??!!

"You're stalking me, I'm going there too" --me

"KAPAL MO...asus, if I know you're meeting someone there" (did I sensed jealousy there?hehe)

"What?of course not!"

"Then why you have to put on perfume?" I laughed. I told him of course I need to put on a little, not so confident without it.

Its a long walk from our accommodation to the grocery store and I'm feeling a little awkward and shy...SHY?! I didn't know I'm shy!LOL

So, while were walking like lovers (except that we are not!) under the cold moonlight on the street of Doha, we're talking casually and taking our time to get to our destination. Technically, this is the longest conversation we had...yeah I know, we had sex, but we didn't talk much then. And if we're on our transportation service, its all nonsense and joking with his friends.

The weather here at Doha is so nice now, I'm loving the coldness and the street lights are amazing...Its such a perfect settings, romantic I must say, too bad he's not my boyfriend and he's married.

"what are you going to buy?" he asked

"cookies and cream ice cream hehe, I don't know, I'm craving for it since yesterday" I replied

"at this hour?! you're so childish" he accused but smiling

"paki mo ba..." I said (pa-chute ang potah!LOL)

When we're inside the grocery, I took my time to look around stuffs to buy, I'm expecting he'll go ahead first.

"I'll be at the vegetable store at the other store wait for me there, I'll be quick". --darkguy

After a while, we're both headin' back to our street. I must say we're having a nice conversation. A different side of him. I didn't know he could be this nice. When we're at the elevator again, I felt like suffocating again...its just me and him inside that small space. I imagined some movies I saw where they kissed and make out!LOL

Till he reached his floor and waved goodbye.

I sighed.

A Sweet Torture

Its totally unexpected.

I didn't see it coming. I didn't text or sent any messages for him for a long time.

I was so shocked when my boss assigned me at Darkguy's area! We have 5 ICU here and he is a nurse on one of them... So this is it, I cannot avoid him forever. Its been almost two months since we last had that intimate moment, and I was so successful forgetting him, well, ofcourse I owe some of the credits to Aldwin, who kept me company. Until we had that bitter separation.

My friend told me: goodluck!

She knew about my affair with him. I took a deep breath when I opened the door of the ICU and gather all my self confidence. I spotted him immediately. Wearing his bluish scrubsuit. I pretended I didnt see him or even aware that he's there. I started my rounds, reading charts and signing the medications. One by one, bed after bed, one nurse per patient...

I am uneasy, as I was walking toward his patient. I have to go there. I cannot skip it! I thought I was comfortable with him already. i thought i already broke the awkwardness between us, but what am I feeling right now, did I missed him?

A big fuckin' YES!

I went to his table he was sitting on its chair writing, I took the medication folder from the side and started flipping the pages and signed each meds assigned for me.

"You have been quiet for a while..." he said while still busy writing. I already knew what he was talking about. So he's waiting for my messages?my texts? he noticed I wasnt giving him some attention? hmmm, I was so kilig LOL!

"Been busy with lot of stuffs" I lazily said to him.

"Why did they assigned you here?"

"I dont know with my boss, infact Im not usually assigned here"

"Yeah I've been wondering too...why is that?" he asked, there was a hidden meaning to the question, so he thought I intentionally requested not to be assigned on this area?

"I dont know, Im not the one doing the assignment, you know!" I said. But he looked unconvinced. He made a face.
"Oh, i will talk to your boss and senior staffs to always assign you here!" he laughed.

"Har-har-har" I said and walked away.

The whole shift, our eyes whenever we are on far corner of the room made contact and we're both gonna look away. Damn!

Whenever he needs me, he wont say my name, he'll just say "therapist-therapist, pls put my patient on anothe ventilator mode" its starting to annoy me. He cant say my name! And he kept on asking me where the fridge key for the medications. I already told him I gave it to one nurse!

Even though we're talking, there is this awkwardness between us still, I cannot make it go away, I know he felt it too.

That's why I was so surprised when my colleague told me that Darkguy and 3 others are moving to my transpo!!!! WTF! what happened to their own transpo?!

This is torture!

It was unbelievable when I sat on our van to take us to work and saw him at the back. Its really him. I sighed. I have to see him more often than before. At first I was just quiet and listening to my mp3 songs. Until time after time, he started teasing me with some silly things, he was so talkative when he's with his friends, I'll just laughed with them, they're funny.

But when everyone else was gone and there's only two of us on the van (since we live on the same building) he was sitting at my back and he'll touch my skinhead and said "ang sarap himasin ng ulo mo" then he realized it sounds so awkward, he immediately corrected it and said instead" ang lambot..."

He dont usually sit beside me, his fave place is at the back, thats why when one nurse about to open the door of the van, and I realized (and maybe him too) that she would sit beside me, its like in a flash Darkguy was already sitting beside me, I dont understand why he have to move beside me! Its the first time he did that.

He would usually asked whats my schedule the next day. I dont wanna think of anything else with his actions. I am not going to fall for him...

Before we go to work he usually send messages on my messenger, nothing important, just nonsense...haha. He'll send again after work.

When there are others inside the van, he dont run out of words to say.

But when its time to go inside our flat's building and we have to walk a few meters towards the elevator, he was silent, we are both silent, both of us dont know what to say and it felt like eternity and wished I could fly to reach it in an instant...

Very awkward.

We entered the lift and I felt like suffocating...most of the time, its just the two of us inside...

Torture.

Whenever I see him, there's always a flashback of his lips and how he hungrily kissed me.

I cannot take it out of my mind! Oh dear Lord!

"Bye"

He said, when he reached his floor.

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Related post entries on Darkguy:
The Lucky One..or Not?
A Painful Start
Do You Wanna Do It Again Tonight?
No More, No More
Nice To See You

Ginataan And Selfishness

I was so excited that day to cook ginataang sugpo (prawns with coconut milk, one of my favorite Filipino food), its already planned to have the first half for dinner later and the other half for tomorrow. It smells so good and I cant wait for my rice to cook. I put it aside for a while and decided to cook adobo to bring at work tomorrow morning while waiting.


The doorbell rang, I was wondering who it might be, I'm not expecting anyone and besides, I look like shit! with too much spills from cooking and my face are on the highest level of oil production!LOL

When I opened it, there's no one! I looked at the stairway and there he was...came out from hiding: Egay! My annoying and feeling-close colleague at work! damn! What was he doing here???I asked my self. He was the last person I'm expecting to see or to be my visitor at this point in time!

"why?!' I lazily asked

"I wanna come in!" and he just bumped me and invited himself in. "oh that smells good...what are you cooking? i wanna eat dinner here, can I?"

"huh?!" that's all that I said haha

"Come-on, I'm so hungry, I'm your visitor you should entertain me!" he added. I found out that he just moved to my building! Meaning: he's just a few floors away from me!

I run to the kitchen because I could smell my adobo almost burning. He followed me. Then I realized he might see my prawns!

Oh nooooo!

I want them for myself! Not to share with this moron!hahahaha! I hid the casserole behind bottles of soysause and fish sauce and prayed he wont smell it or notice that separate casserole at the kitchen side!LOL

I tried to relax and let him watch my cooking. "that looks good Mac, I'm so hungry. Is it cooked already?lets eat! I'm starving!" he said. I tried to smile and pretend I'm not annoyed. So makapal-face,kairita!

When he came closer to my casserole of prawns I moved on its direction so that my back will hide them from him! LOL

Grabe, am so selfish!

I prepared the table and we had dinner together, my yummy dinner with ginataan that night was ruined because of him! I had adobo instead!

I have big riped bananas too, but its too big and I sliced it into two! sayang naman if di naman niya maubos di ba?LOL

When we finished I said: "OK, you can leave now, I have a lot of things to do"

"why you're throwing me out, I still wanna hang out and watch TV" he protested and he saw my laptop and he recognized a familiar name on one of the people I'm chatting: darkguy. I immediately pulled him away from the screen!

"you two are close? you didn't tell me that you guys are chatting" he added. I denied it, because apparently he moved to that vacant room where darkguy lives! They are flatmates now! And I'm very discreet about our affair and I don't want anyone to know about him especially this talkative and super-annoying-kapal-face-Egay!

"You need to get out now". I dragged him to the door and said bye and shut the door!LOL

A Quickie-Post!

Just came home from our VERY early Christmas party, many requested to have it earlier so that those who will be going back to manila to have their holiday vacation be included. We are in charged of the food (5 of us, new staffs) they have this tradition that every time a new comer arrives to the department, they have to do the "pakilala" wherein they have to feed all of the staff! I mean 40 of them!LOL

At least there's five of us, it didn't became that much, each of us contributed to a certain amount and so far they loved the foods!Thanks to my friend who did all the cooking!haha.

The party was awesome, its nice to have this kind of get-together. Had a lot of laugh.

This is just a quick recap of what had happen for the past week:

• Darkguy is back, and we talk all the time, I see him all the time. I think I'm beginning to have a big crush on him AGAIN.
• Aldwin left for UAE last weekend for 4 days vacation, without a word of goodbye. Our last night together was not so pleasant before he left.
• Been short for cash did some shopping (since i thought I'm gonna have much more extra money) and the next day my mom needed money ASAP and have to sent her all of what's left! so now am so poor! waaaaaaa!
• I'm gonna be on duty night shift on the 24th and 25th!huhu. But I'll be off on the new year's eve though.
  

I will tell you all of the details next time, so sleepy.

Ciao!

Nice To See You

I woke up early that day, kinda unusual for me. I always rushed to go downstairs (since I live in the 6th floor) whenever my service arrived to bring me to work. But that day was different. After I prepared all my stuffs, I decided to wait for my driver at the lobby of our accommodation, for a change.

I was walking and looking for a spot to stand so that I could easily see my service. Some employees are there too. I saw a familiar figure. The guy I used to kiss and get intimate with...

Darkguy.

I have no choice. He already saw me. It will look stupid to ignore him or hide. I approached him. I said hi and he smiled.

"so, we're both morning shift, who is your driver?" he said. I replied and we had a casual small talk.

"you found a new flat to move in, are you still planning to move out?" he continued. I told him last time he was in my flat that I wanted to move, he offered back then that their flat still have a vacant room, but i refused. It would be very easy for us to play around! I might not be able to refuse if were both so near to each other!!!!

We both felt awkward. There are few seconds of pause before anyone say a word. When its taking too long, we will both say something at the same time! damn!

We continued that small chat until my own service arrived first. Gosh, I was so uncomfortable walking towards the van, thinking that he might be still looking at my back. (feeling!!!)

Whew!that went well!

That was the first conversation we had after many weeks. After many things that had happen to us. Because I wondered how its going to be once we bump into each other. I don't want us avoiding each other since we have a small world here.

I'm not in love with him, but i won't deny that I looked at his lips. I remembered how it felt like on my own lips LOL!

At least, no more tension between us. Which what I wanted to be. We had sex alright. But we could still live on our own lives and work together after that, right?

Related posts entries:
The Lucky One or...Not?
A Painful Start
Do You Wanna Do It Again Tonight?
No More, No More

No More,No More

There was little light coming from the bathroom and the room was still dark, we're both on the bed and still naked. He was hugging me. This is the third time he shared my bed. I tried to kiss him, but he avoided my lips this time. I'm puzzled by his action, a while ago he was kissing me, responded to my kisses.

Why?whats wrong? I asked him.

"I haven't wash my mouth yet...and your mustache is a little painful on my lips..." he said

But I know he's lying. There's something more to it. So I guess he don't want kissing me after the sex, but during the sex its alright? WTF is that!!! Maybe in his mind he allowed a guy like me kissing him because he was delirious and so horny that time that its alright? but now that he is in his right mind he cant be kissed?

So I guess that's my cue. I said "OK, you can go now" he rose from the bed and went at the shower. I didn't move on the bed. I was still on it with my nakedness and wait for him to finish.In my mind, I made a decision that its gonna be the last time. This is my wake up call that I have had my fun, I have had my initiation that I wanted (LOL!) I experienced being a bottom, I felt the pain and the pleasure accompanied in it. So he's done! Out of my life. I can go back to my old conservative self now LOL!

Of course I've been thinking a lot for the past days, I am weighing things up. I know Im the loser on this set up. He is married. He's playing straight. On denial about his sexuality or maybe he's really straight, I don't know. Bottom line, he cant be mine. I'm just a sex machine whenever he needs and feels like using.

Reality check: I'm starting to like him. Signs and symptoms: I'm beginning to demand some more stuffs. Beginning to feel its not enough. Wanting to see him more often. But I don't love him...yet. I need to do something about this. So I came with this decision to avoid him now. I cannot afford to have another heartache this time.

I cannot afford to be used by his sexual desires. Whenever he want. I'm better than that. I'm a person deserving to be loved and to love. I have a lot of love to give. Just waiting for that someone to come by. I know he's looking for me too. Its just a matter of time. And when our paths are crossed I know it will be at the right time and right place.

I know I'm a hopeless romantic, but what can I do? That's me. I don't give up on love, yet. I know and I still believe in it. I have my own story, a happy ending. My book isn't finish yet, I still halfway through it, I still need my ending. My happy ever after. But is there a happy ever after? Or just in fairy tale?

Now I'm serious haha wow I cant believe I poured out my heart on you guys!Just wow!

Four days have passed and I didn't see him, I didn't talk to him. I even avoided sending instant messages or text him. Its a complete avoidance on my part. I know I'm doing the right thing here. I prayed that God give me strength and to move on with my life. I had fun at work with my friends, kept myself busy (with farmville LOL).

A buzz and an instant message appeared on my screen when i woke up one night, its from dark guy.

"hmmm, someone seems to be very busy lately..."

"I haven't felt your presence lately too..."

"it seems you have other company in there instead of me huh"

I don't know what to think when I read them. Was he jealous? Was he missing me?

I replied: been busy lately, and I'm cooking now

"I was on the night shift and my sex life was down..." he said

"so, what are you cooking now? You really know how to cook?hehe" he added

I knew he's just playing friendly and eventually he'll just say he needs a f@ck! It made me annoyed.

I typed these words instead : you know what, stop the friendly conversation, why don't you just go to the point? I'm not in the mood to have sex now, I'm sorry, you could mast*rb*te instead.

He replied: You're just playing hard to get!

And signed out.

It made me smile.hehe.

Success.

I'm gonna focus on work. Have fun here. If a special someone comes, well, I'm willing to get to know him, who knows he will complete my story.

Bye for now.

"Do You Wanna Do it Again Tonight?"

Its been 5 days since "that" happened between us, and he never failed to send messages to my messenger or my phone inviting me or flirting with me to do it all again. Which I declined. Part of me wanting to say yes, but I gathered all my strength to say no. We never cross path since then maybe its pure luck, I guess.

But not on one morning...

I went out of the building to wait for my driver to arrive to bring me to work and so as other employees, I saw a few outside too. Until one figure appeared on my left side. Wearing his uniform in full glory.Its him. Darkguy. I don't know what to do. He was a few inches away from me. He was talking to the other guy. I knew he saw me. I just looked away from him and prayed for my service to come right away.

I was relax again when I reached the hospital. Prayed so hard my boss wont assign me to Darkguy's area where he is on duty that day! I was so relieved when he didn't. Until before lunch, one of my senior staff who was assigned to the area where I don't want to go said : Mac, please cover my area for a while I need to go to the personnel department. And I was like "Oh nooooooooooooo!!!!"

I run out of good luck, one nurse called and they need me there. I had no choice but to go. Bahala na si batman.

I spotted him immediately as soon as I entered the room, he was busy. The nurse who called me was next to him good thing there's wall between them. But the nurse need one thing, which I have to get to the door next to Darkguy's .Shit! shit! shit! I walked passing over him. I knew he noticed me. I still didn't looked at him. It feels so awkward!

When I was fixing the machine and I was talking to the nurse who called me, he then appeared. Talking to the nurse I was talking to. Shit! I wanna kill him. He was teasing me by appearing in front of me.He knew I'm avoiding him and that I'm not comfortable. I turned my back instead and pretended busy with the machine.

But goodness, he look so hot and sexy. I suddenly missed the kiss. The feeling of his body towards mine.

Past 2:00 pm I received a text from him " do you wanna do it again tonight?"

Damn!!!

I replied :"I will wait for you later" I don't know what was I thinking!

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6:00 pm: He texted what time should he come. I said maybe 9pm since I was watching star trek on TV. I wanna finish it. He then said "can we make it at 8:30?" I said OK. Then he asked if I have porn, I said yes but all are man to man hehe. He replied "that will be alright, its my first time to see that thing". In my mind, hmm not for long I can convert him to the other side, I know he is curious and I know deep inside him he wants this, he just wanna be normal and "straight".

"Can we meet at 7pm instead since we're going to watch videos its nice to be early....and besides I have duty early in the morning tomorrow."
Oh my! Its not obvious he was not excited at all!LOL

After a quick shower I was picking my clothes when he sent a message on my messenger saying if I'm ready for him to come. He was so in a hurry to see me! "haba ng hair ko!"

When I opened the door its like deja vu. He was holding red roses and smiling at me...kidding!!! hehe. He was just smiling and wearing a sexy tight fitting sleeveless shirt and that shorts was the killer! it was tight and short-short and his d*ck was so visible on it...bakat na bakat LOL he's really teasing me...and it worked. I was on fire!

Its like our first time, he sat on my bed and we talked for a while and I played the m2m porn on my laptop. We both lay on my bed while he watch, I stroked his lips and his neck and his chest. He put his arms on my shoulders. It felt like I was his. Like we're together, as in together-together!

He look different that moment. I can feel it. Extra caring, extra-sweet, extra-horny...LOL! I kissed him while i was on top. He was hugging me too tight as if he would lose me if he ain't. His fingers are caressing, running lightly on my sides, on my back, on my legs while i was still wearing my clothes on...

I kissed him hungrily, he would kissed me back too as if he's competing with my kisses and my tongue...he just soooo different now...we're like an animal...so intensed...so electrifying...I never been this excited! I don't wanna let go of his mouth as if we don't have tomorrow...

I took off his clothes and he took mine...

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This is Laguardia of MTRCB and this part is censored!

LOL!!!

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Anyway, after more than two hours (tagal nun a!) we were both naked and breathless. He was hugging me and giving me light touches and kisses. Hmmm, now he learned his lessons hehe. It was so powerful. I never experienced it before. I like this moment, everything was so good and romantic in the same way. This doesn't feel like just sex, but it was lovemaking.

The bed almost give up. I feel bad for it.haha

I turned on the light when he was picking up his clothes on the floor. He tried to hide and used the sofa to hid his nakedness.

Before me, was his dark colored skin and firm body...

"Oh, why are you shy?"

He was covering his manhood with his undies on his hands. He looked so cute...and childish.

I laughed.

I know I'm not doing the right thing here. I know you're judging me. But how can be something so bad feel so good????

*sigh*

I kissed him goodbye and left.

A Painful Start

This is a continuation of "The Lucky One..Or Not"

I run to the bathroom and took a quick shower! I only have 20 minutes till he comes. I'm so excited for what about to happen tonight...Its been a while since I did a one night stand like this. The last one was 8 or 9 years ago. After countless casual sex I said then that its enough, its time to get serious. A step which I didn't regret, I got to know and experience the beauty of having serious relationships which left some good and bittersweet memories that I will treasure for a long time.

My phone rang. Its him. Mr.darkguy. I sprayed perfume on my balls and run out to the door LOL! I opened it and asked him to come in, I don't know what to say at first. He was wearing a black sexy sando and shorts. He looked delicious. Ayayay!!!

When we reached my messy room, he sat on my bed and I was lost for words for a few minutes. I still cant believe we are about to do this. We talked about anything at first, casual conversations.

me: I wanna turn off the lights, is that alright with you? (but i opened the lights on the bathroom, so that it will give some shed of lights on the room)

When I came back he was already lying on my bed, waiting. I sat beside him and started stroking his forehead, his hair, his cheek. I lowered my head and put my lips on his. I tasted the sweetness of it. I want more. I tried to open his mouth by my own, but it remained close.

I said "why?whats wrong?"

darkguy: I'm not used to guy's kissing my lips...

me: open a little bit...

Which he did, literally! I kissed his neck, his earlobes...I felt that it tickled him...I tried to do more but he avoided my tongue. I kissed his nipples and his chest...

until I noticed something:

me: wait a second, so you'll gonna be like a statue there?!!!

darkguy: sorry...

He kissed my neck this time and my nipples but his mouth was still hesitant to kiss me full time. I cant blame him, its his first time doing this.

I know I'm doing all the work here, but I said to myself, OK, just now. Only now I will let this happen. Its my first time having sex with a straight (?) married guy. This is sooo against my rule which is to date only gay guys. But, as they say, there's always a first time to everything. But come to think of it, technically, I know he isn't straight although he is not admitting it, but i can feel it in my bones, he is gay,well, maybe around 40% hehe.

I mean he wanna do it with me, with the same guy, if he is so straight he could have chosen a woman instead. And that no matter how horny he was, he wont share my bed.

I did everything to his dark sexy body, he was moaning with pleasure. I went on top of him and rub my manhood to his. It was a great sensation. I was moaning too. His body was perfect for my body. I'm not used to the slapping though haha.I felt like a porn star!

darkguy: can I f@ck you?

me: I'm not sure I can do it...its my first time

darkguy: I will be gentle

I wanna laugh, I remembered that line before from somewhere! So gasgas na!haha But I don't know if he was hypnotizing me or what or in my mind I just like to experience it too, the questions that arises on my mind over and over again: why bottoms likes to be f@ck? was it really that good? does it feel better than topping which I always do?

me: you are so damn lucky that I will let you do me mister!

I was so nervous, I know it will be painful and he is a beginner too!Oh my Gosh! what does he know about doing this thing! he only knows the VA-J-J!!!!

I felt the coldness of the lube on my @$...his finger...I bit my lips...its a bit painful...then I felt much pain whats came in next. I wanna scream. I wanna push him back. I want to back out!LOL

He stopped. He knew I'm in great pain. He said I should relax. But his d*ck is so thick! for heaven's sake! We shifted positions. He was in front of me. He tried it again. Its still the same pain. I ignored the pain and tried to look and feel the pleasure that every bottom guy feels....but I cannot find it!!!

Where the hell is the pleasure????? hello any body there?LOL

But in fairness, maybe he didn't noticed but he was kissing me torridly, hungrily this time. I wanna smile. So my pain made him forget that he is not use to kissing guys huh!

After a couple of attempts, its still painful and he felt bad for me.

darkguy: I will stop now, I don't wanna hurt you anymore...

Wow, nakaramdam din!LOL but honestly I appreciated that. In my mind I need practice so I said I'm gonna buy a couple of banana and shove it to my ass tomorrow LOLLLLLLLLLL!!!

I again went on top of him and applied a huge amount of lube and rubbed my d*ck to his, this is my favorite position, did I tell you guys that?haha I called it "kiskisan".When he was about to shoot he asked me to do the hand job instead.

He finished. He was breathless. I'm dead tired too. Actually I didn't have much erection due to pain. I didn't come. He didn't bother to make me come. In my mind, Savour the moment darkguy, this is your first and last.

me: hey, didn't you know, after the sex you have to hug and kiss your mate?

He laughed and hugged me tighter and longer. We were talking and laughing for a while on that position. He asked me if I have a boyfriend, I said none. He added if I have one back in manila, I said before but not now. He wanna see them, I allowed him to see picture of my ex's. I can sensed that he was curious about my life about my gay life or maybe I'm mistaken. I don't know.

When we cleaned up I walked him to the door and said our goodbyes. I was surprised seeing a message from him after an hour saying "what now?" I don't know what he meant. He didn't elaborate. He was asking, if I was satisfied, I said no. And he was explaining like if I allowed him to do these and that I will have fun eventually, as if he was guilty and wanted to make up for it.

darkguy:so you don't like me? you don't want to do it again?

me: I will think about it. Honestly I didn't enjoy it. You don't know how to do it well.

darkguy: okay if you don't wanna do it again, its alright...

And besides, I don't wanna be a home wrecker if you know what I mean, once is enough, at least natikman ko ang crush ko hehe.

When I went to bed, his smell was still on my pillows and linen...

The Lucky One... Or Not?

An instant message hit my screen asking how am I doing and if I don't have work. I said none, and the usual stuffs. He is not a constant chat mate of mine. But we have a common online friend. That friend sent to him my YM I.D and added me. So now he is on my list. I see him at work. And I have to admit he is a hottie. Dark and sexy. I love those eyes...

So I was surprised that he is on a chatting mood now, unlike from our previous chat that only lasted for a few exchanges of messages. Let me give him a nickname: darkguy. Jonget a! pero hayaan na!la na ako sa mood mag isip.As the chatting continues he asked:

darkguy: what is your interest?

me: I'm an Internet addict and I love to eat and watch movies.

darkguy: it doesn't show on your body that you love to eat. you go out most of the time?

me: not really.I just love to eat out with my friends.

darkguy: who's with you?

Hmmmm, I'm a little curious why there's a sudden interest from him on what I do. Its not like him. I found it strange but I'm a little excited! What is he up to!

me: friends. sometimes my date. (he didn't know I'm dating an Italian guy recently since he is not a reader of my blog nor a close friend)

darkguy: who are you dating? (kiliggg ako!LOL)

me: secret!what about you, what's your interest?

darkguy: anything....sex!hahaha

me: whaaaat! well, you look like a womanizer to me!
be careful that your wife wont catch you OK!ha ha

darkguy: it depends

me: really?

darkguy: yeah, many. but I refused. many would like to share my bed, both men and women hehe.But honestly most of them are gays.

He told me that a married gay guy even asked him to show his body on cam and he showed a little. Just a tease.

darkguy: asked me to show him my dick. I showed it to him just for a sec.

me: me too!me too! (I joked around)

darkguy: me too? you wanna see it too on cam? why just on cam ,when you can go here at my room and see it live now....

Oh! Oh! now he is really up to something! he is flirting with me!Oh my gosh!!!

darkguy: I'm open to anything as long as you're discreet.

darkguy: yeah, I can give you anything especially if I'm horny...now that my wife is not here...

I knew it! he is bisexual!!!But I don't know what to say to him!I can sense it that he will be topping me. I'm not ready to be a bottom guy on bed!yet!

darkguy: that's why, if you like doing it, I will be a willing guy...

me: so, you gonna do it all the way?everything?

darkguy: yeah, whatever my partner wants me to do...I will satisfy him like I do it on my wife...

I'm a little doubtful, I mean he is straight, although I can feel it that he is bisexual, what if he will be like a king in bed, meaning: the typical straight guy who would just sit and let the gay guy do all the work!I don't want that.

darkguy: This would be my first time doing it with a guy, if you like it, i wanna try it...

So I'm the guinea pig huh...I said to myself. But dear lord I'm shivering in front of my computer! Am I dreaming? The guy I'm lusting is talking to me about having sex with him!!!I asked myself: will I let him do me? I'm a virgin for Pete's sake! (well, my ass is!LOL)

me: Did you ever have sex with anyone here?

darkguy: nope. just all with my left hand! they're asking me, but i refused. I don't know them and they are far from here. So if ever you agree. You will be the first one...

So I'm the lucky one huh!hehe. Shit! I have a hard time deciding! But will I let this opportunity to pass?

me: can I see you on web cam?

darkguy: hmmm, OK wait.

He showed the "package" to me! Now, I don't wanna think anymore, I want him.Tonight!LOL

darkguy: so, you wanna try me? I will go to your flat. You can do anything on my body.

me: okay..

Shit! Shit! Shit!

darkguy: wait for me. I will take a quick shower...

---to be continued

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A Painful Start
Do You Wanna Do It Again Tonight?
No More, No More
Nice To See You
A Quickie Post
Ginataan and Selfishness
A Sweet Torture
One Fine Night
Cloud Nine
Something Else
What's Goin On Mac?