My Virgin Boy

Two weeks ago...

Malapit na mag alas dos ng hapon pagtingin ko sa aking relo, nagmamadali na akong mag imis ng gamit ko sa changing room namin sa office para umuwi. May biglaan kasi akong meet up hihihi. Nakilala ko siya online at jusme sa katapat na building lang ng hospital na pinag wowork-an ko siya nagtatrabaho.

O di ba? honglafet!

Nag endorsed lang ako sa sunod na shift and gumora na ako palabas ng office namin. Usapan namin ay sa tapat ng emergency room kami mi-meet. Awkward nga lang dahil naka scrubsuit pa ako pero keribels na.

Nasa tapat na ako ng ER pero wala akong makitang Jojo. I was about to dial his number pero nauna na tumunog ang phone ko dahil tumatawag na pala siya. Asan na ba daw ako. Sabi ko ay nasa labas na ako at hinahanap siya. Nasa tapat daw siya. Sa may parking areas. Natawa ako kasi bakit siya andun.

Maya maya ay may natanaw akong kumakaway sa akin. I waved back. At yun na, Nag lakad na siya palapit sa akin.

Pinagmamasdan ko siya habang papalapit. Lalake naman maglakad. Walang hampas ng balakang. charrr. Matangkad siya, mga 5'9 siguro. Maputi. Naka aviator shades. Naka long sleeve shirt with tie and black slacks. Halatang galing sa opisina.

Hmmm...pwede! Although nakita ko na ang picture niya online iba pa din siyempre sa personal. May mga tao lang kasing photogenic di ba.

Nag offer siya ng kamay for a hand shake na tinanggap ko naman. Im Jojo. Nakangiti niyang pakilala sa akin.

Usapan namin ay magmeet lang kami saglit habang inaantay ko ang transport service ko na parating na in about 15minutes. Pero sa halip ay sinuggest niya na sasama nalang siya sa flat ko and magkwentuhan.

E siyempre di naman tau mga bata para isipin na kwentuhan lang talaga ang gagawin sa bahay di ba. Andami pwde maganap. AT mahina pa naman ako sa tukso. Lorde pls guide me. Charot!

Pinara ko nalang ang taxi na dumaan sa harapan namin at nagpahatid sa flat ko. Along the way ay kwentuhan kami. Masarap siya kausap. Spontaneous. Ayaw na ayaw ko pa naman ng ka meet up na umaasa nalang sa tanong ko para lang may mapag usapan. Ang boring ng ganung tao. Walang kwenta ang ganun.

Sa bahay ay naghain ako na ginataang hipon with kalabasa na hindi ko niluto. Asa pa kayo. LOL. Take out ko yun mula sa pinoy restaurant dito sa Dowha na masarap magluto the other day. Ininit ko lang at sabay na kami nag lunch ng nakakakamay habang tuloy pa din sa kwentuhan tungkol sa mga buhay buhay naming dalawa.

Ang cowboy lang. Ito gusto ko. Walang arteh.

"alam mo ba Mac na first time ko ginawa toh" sabi niya

"ang alin?"

"itong makipag meet"

"you mean ever? di ka pa nakipag eyeball sa buong buhay mo?" di ako makapaniwalang tanong ko. Feeling ko pa nga ineechos niya ako.

"oo totoo. Mamatay man. Ngayon ko lang ginawa ito, nanginginig pa nga ko kanina habang papalapit sa u sa may ER sa nerbiyos..." natatawa niyang pag amin.

"wow! bakit? ano nakain mo at sinubukan mo na this time?"

"wala lang. out of the blue. Parang sige na nga. tuloy ko na ang pag meet sayo ganyan". dagdag niya. "alam mo bang kahapon ko lang ginawa yun acct ko na yun online. Narinig ko lang sa kasamahan ko and sinubukan kong i-download. Tapos ayun, nagkataon na nag reply ka sa akin. Tuloy tuloy na. buti pala dinawnload ko kundi di kita mamimeet".

"weh? lakas makabola a!" kunyari di ako kinilig. LOL

Napag alaman ko din na never pa pala siya nagka boyfriend or anything na may kinalaman sa pakikipag relasyon sa kapwa lalake. Late bloomer daw siya. At iisa lang daw ang naging girlfriend niya at iyon ay nun first year college pa.

Kaloka. 32 years old na siya. Samantalang ako 22 palang haliparot na ng nayon. Potah.

LOL!!!

"So ibig sabihin Virgin ka pa sa lahat ng parte at anggulo?LOL" nanlalakeng matang tanong ko.

"oo naman, turuan mo ko magkiss? hehehe" ganting biro niya.

Naloka na naman ako sa knya. Ultimo pala pagkiss wala siya karanasan. Grabe may tao palang ganun. hihihi. Andami niya lang na-missed na pagkakataon sa buhay niya haha. Angsarap kaya manlalake!

Natuwa at na excite ako with this guy. Buti nalang I like him. Tuturuan ko siya humalik ng wagas na wagas at lahat lahat na! Minsan lang ata ako makatikim ng ganitong putahi noh. Charot!

Gusto ko siya. Kanina ko pa na confirmed sa sarili ko yan. Nun una kasi di ako sure if magugustuhan niya ako at nagiging polite at nice lang siya sa meet up naming ito. Pero this time tingin ko mutual naman.

He works sa admin sa isang company ng sasakyan na yun nga katapat na katapat lang ng hospital na pinagdu-duty-han ko. At magkalapit lang kami ng bahay, malapit lang. O di ba andaming swak na swak sa amin.

Nanonood lang kami ng TV patrol sa habang nakasandal siya sa headboard ng kama ko. Tinabihan ko siya.

"pwde umakap?" nahihiya pa niyang tanong. Niyakap ko siya at sinubsob niya mukha niya sa may leeg ko. "bango mo naman..." aniya.

Inilapit ko ang lips ko sa lips niya. Titignan ko if totoong di nga siya marunong humalik. Mahahalata ko if he's faking it.

At yun na nga. Hindi nga marunong. Para siyang susupsop ng sabay ng sinigang. LOL. Natatawa pa ako nun inumpisahan ko siyang intruct-kan ng first step at kung kelan niya dapat ilalabas ang dila niya. Ako kasi ayaw na ayaw ko ng nauuna maglabas ng dila kahalikan ko. Gusto ko ako magdidikta kung kelan lalalim ang halik. So much for being in control? LOL

After a few minutes e we're enjoying biting each other's lips. hihihi. Panay na din ang himas niya sa boobs ko. Boobs talaga? lol.

"mahal na ata kita..." bigla niyang nasabi after ng mainit na halikan.

Muntik na ko masamid! ganito ba ang mga virgin talaga? LOL. Para lang siyang teenager. aliw. Panay ang squeezed niya sa katawan ko payakap sa kanya na halatang may panggigil.

Kunyari nalang di ko narinig ang sinabi niya. I dont wanna spoil our moment. Masaya siya kasama and gusto ko ginagawa namin. At ayaw ko ito masira.

Hindi kami nagsex dahil feeling ko hindi pa ito ang tamang oras. Or maybe wala ako sa mood dahil puyat ako ilang araw na kasi akong morning shift.

Nun una dry humping lang ginagawa niya sa ibabaw ko. Pero di siya nakatiis itinaas ang shirt ko. At hinubad din niya shirt niya. He wanted to feel daw my skin under his skin. Pinabayaan ko lang. Pero may erection ako kahit wala ako balak siya pagbigyan na mag sex kami.

Pinagbigyan ko lang siya. Para kasi siyang bata na now lang naregaluhan ng new toy. naaaliw lang ako pagmasdan siya.

"ang sarap mo bhe..." muntik na naman akong masamid sa pagtawag niya sa akin ng bhe.



Dahil tigas na tigas na din ako i pulled down my pants and his kaya halos mapasinghap siya sa sarap nun hubo't hubad na kami and the sensation ng dalawang etits namin na magkalapat. On instinct alam na niya kung paano gumiling sa ibabaw ko para mas lalo madama ang kahubdan ng aming mga pagkalalaki.

L na L na siya at naaliw ako sa itsura niya na parang tortured na tortured. Alam kasi niyang ayaw ko mag sex kami. Sabi ko kasi some other time. haha ang cruel ko lang noh? what to do. ayaw ko naman ng forced sex. Hihihi.

Alas diyes na ata yun ng gabi at pinapauwi ko na siya. Pero imbes na tumayo ay lalo pa siya sisiksik sa katawan ko at aakap ng mahigpit. I find it really sweet.

"anu ka ba kelangan mo na umuwi. Puyat na ako, maaga pa ko bukas.." pagtataboy ko pa sa knya

"e....dito nalang ako tutulog. Bukas nalang ako ng umaga uuwi..." tanggi niya.

"nako hindi pwde, hindi ako sanay ng may katabi matulog haha. kelangan ko matulog ng maayos" sabi ko pa dahil yun naman ang totoo.

"bukas promise. kikita tayo ulet, sige na tayo ka na..."

Napilitan siyang tumayo after ko hilahin sa kama na natatawa. Kulit lang niya at ang tigas ng ulo kakaloka. Pero definitely magkikita pa din kami. I really like him...

My virgin boy.

Hihihi.

Sa Ating Pag Iisa

Usapan na namin na darating siya nun araw na yun ng linggo. Kaya naman hindi na ko nagulat nun tinatanung nya ko sa BBM if gising na ba ako at pwde na siya pumunta sa flat ko.

Alam namin pareho kung bakit kami magkikita. Sex. Yung dapat na one night stand ay masusundan ng pangalawang beses ngayon. Two night stand na ba tawag dito? LOL

Pero this time, tamang tama lang ang oras. Hapon na siya dumating. Hindi kagaya nun last week na may ginawa kaming kababalaghan, tanghaling tapat! Kaloka.

Nun oras na maisara at mai-lock ko ang pintuan ng kwarto ko agad ko na naramdaman ang pagyakap nya mula sa likuran ko...na miss daw niya ko. Tinapik ko lang ang braso nya at sinabing: libog lang yan. Tawanan kami.

Napansin ko ang bitbit nyang plastic bags. May kalahating pakwan, isang litro ng coke, at snacku. Para daw sa akin.

Agad siyang naupo sa gilid ng kama ko at nagpalit ng pang bahay na damit. Dito siya mag stay hanggang kinabukasan. Pareho kaming walang pasok. At home na siya sa kwarto ko, kaya natatawa ako.

Habang nasa harap ako ng computer at nagbabasa ng kung ano, muli kong naramdaman ang mga yakap niya mula sa likod ko. Hinalikan nya pisngi ko.

"Ano yang binabasa mo?" tanong nya. Sinagot ko lang ng wala to. In fairness naman sa knya. Pansin ko na sweet siyang tao. Thoughtful din siya sa BBM tuwing mag memessage siya sa kin, may na-miss daw nya ko, see you soon daw, at kung kumain na ba daw ako minsan.

Gusto ko yung pagiging HUGGER nya...parang gusto nya lagi lumingkis sa akin haha. Ahas ka ba? charot!

Masasabi kong masuwerte magiging kasintahan ni Gian. Pero hindi ako yun. Ewan ko ba, ala kasi ako napi feel na excitement, or kilig kapag kasama ko siya. Wala yung hinahanap ko na sparks. Tagal ko nag antay na may dumating na guy, pero ngayon na heto sa tabi ko at nagpapakita ng interes sa akin ay bakit wala akong maisukli sa knya?

Dahil ba sa nag umpisa kami sa one night stand?

Pero binibigyan ko ng chance ang sarili ko na magustuhan siya. Heto nga at nasa bahay ko siyang muli ngayon.

Nag order kami ng bulalo at fried chicken at masaya namin itong pinagsaluhan. Madami kaming napag usapan habang kumakain. Madami siyang na i-share sa akin tungkol sa personal niyang buhay. Nag work pala siya sa isang local airline sa pinas noon bilang cabin crew at madami pang iba. Pang maalaala mo kaya nga daw ang buhay niya sa dami ng drama.

"Napapasarap ang kain ko Mac, pag kasalo kita..." sabi niya

"bolero!" sabay bato ko ng tissue sa mukha nya haha

Para na rin kami nag dinner date, nag enjoy ako. Sabay namin nilinis ang table na pinagkainan namin. Mabuti nalang lahat ng gamit ko puro disposable! mula sa plato, kutsara at baso! OO hindi ako environment-friendly! Tamad kasi ako maghugas! kundi, siya maghuhugas! chos!

Binuksan ko ang aking red lamp sa side table at pumuwesto kami sa kama habang nanonood ng ASAP sa computer ko...malamig sa loob ng room ko. Namaluktot kami sa kumot. Naramdaman ko na naman ang muling pagkayap ni Gian sa akin. Hinalikan nya ang leeg ko. Idinantay niya ang hita nya sa akin, saktong tumama sa pagkalalaki ko. Sinadya niyang dun mismo idantay. Sakto.

Agad kong naramdaman ang pagtigas nito. Inilayo ko ang hita niya. Sabi ko maganda ang palabas maya maya na yan. LOL!

Pero inaakit niya ko. Tag libog na naman si gago. Kamay na niya nakapatong sa pagkalalaki ko sa ilalim ng kumot. He's licking my neck...di na ko nakatiis nagtama ang labi namin at sinibasib ko na siya ng halik. Mas matagal this time. May pagmamadali pero andun yun sarap ng halik.

Mas gusto ko makipag halikan ng matagal. Labi sa labi. Feeling ko andun ang true essence ng dalawang soul na nagkakasundo...andun ang passion.

Hanggang sa bumaba ang halik niya sa didbdib ko...halinhinan niya itong sinamba...pababa sa puson ko at hanggang sa tuluyan na niyang ilantad ang aking pagkalalaki...agad niya itong isinubo at nilaro...napapaigtad ako tuwing isasagad niya ito sa knyang bibig...hindi ko mapigilan ang mapadaing sa sarap...

Napapasabunot nalang ako sa mga buhok niya sa paghanap ng suporta. Magaling si Gian sa larangan na ito ng pakikipagtalik. Wala akong binatbat sa knya. At hindi ko kaya yun baka magkanda suka suka ako! LOL

This time masasabi kong na enjoy ko ang pakikipag niig sa knya. Mas naramdaman ko ang sarap. Mas andun ang satisfaction kumpara nun unang gabi namin. Kaya naman bago matapos ang gabi ay masaya kami nahiga at natulog.

Kulet nya, pichur-pichur naman daw kami, so yun pinagbigyan ko naman

Kinuha ko ang wax earplugs ko at isinaksak sa tenga ko! Kelangan ko makatulog ngayong gabi sabi ko sa knya! haha. Last time kasi super sabog ako sa puyat dahil sa pag hihilik niya.

Mahilig pa naman si Gian matulog ng nakadantay ang mga hita sa akin, naka akap mula sa likuran ko. Mahilig makipag-spooning. At kapag nakaganun siya sa akin, nakatapat lagi ang mukha niya sa batok ko or sa may tenga ko, pano naman ako makakatulog nun di ba? LOL

Infairness naman epektib ang dinugas ko pamasak sa tenga sa MRI room ng ospital at nakatulog aketch. Ginising ko Gian nung alas siyete na ng umaga. Pero umisa pa muna kami bago siya umiwi! Alam nyo na, with the morning erection and all. Ayun, nag amoy clorox na naman sa buong kwarto.

Nothing More To Say

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In time...yes...maybe in time.

Isang Taon

Isang taon na pala ko'ng single....damn, that's a long time.

Isang taon na pala akong tigang...tagtuyot...tag araaaaaaaw!

Oo ako ang walang nakaka-sex!!! Oo, ako na ang loser! nyahaha!

Pero come to think of it (uy ingles yun!) I don't feel that bad at all...I don't know, parang wala lang...teka, baka naman menopausal stage na to?LOL

Naku wag naman sana...kasi di pa nga ko dinadatnan, kala ko delayed lang ako this month...echos!!!!



*sorry sa walang kwentang post haha...sabog pa ko..galing ng night shift lagi*

A Good Night Sleep

"Mac, san ako matutulog?" tanong ni Brian nun silipin nya yun room at wala na yun kutson na nilatag ko last year nun dito din siya natulog. Bakasyon ko din yun. Hinatid nya ko sa airport with my family.

"Wala na yun e, sira na. At saka may daga dyan sa sahig akong nakita. Mamaya gapangan ka pa, gusto mo???!" depensa ko. Muntik na ko mapatawa sa inimbento kong daga. Hindi na siya umimik at tuluyan ng pumasok sa kwarto para matulog.

Nasa mall ako kanina para magpa-facial treatment nun tumawag siya at sinabing on the way na daw siya to visit me bago ako lumipad pabalik ng middle east. Saturday ngayon at sa wednesday na flight ko. Nagtatampo ako sa knya kasi tagal ko ng inaantay na bisitahin nya ko. Ngayon lang naisipan ng hayop. LOL

Sinagot ko na din facial nya, pagkatapos, kumain kami ng dinner. Nun una medyo naiilang pa kami, halos wala mapag usapan, pero eventually, naging at ease na ulit kami sa isa't isa kaya nagkukulitan na ulet.

Pahapyaw nyang nabanggit na nakipag break na siya sa current bf nya. Kunyari di ko narinig. Tuloy lang ako sa pag kwento. Sa isip isip ko, this is getting better and better. At least kung mag sex man kami di kami magi-guilty! (sabi ng dimonyo sa isip ko sabay ngiti!LOL)

Pagdating sa bahay, malugod naman siya kinamusta ng pamilya ko. Bakit daw ngayon lang siya ulet dumalaw blah-blah-blah.

"See love na love pa din ako ni Tatay at ni ate..." bulong nya nun nanonood kami ng TV.

"Oo nah! ikaw na!"

me and brian at enchanted kingdom

More than three years na nun mag break up kami ni Brian. Siya ang pinakamatagal kong nakarelasyon. 19 years old palang ata siya nun haha. Pero nanatili kaming magkaibigan sa kabila ng lahat. At siya lang din ang nakasundo ng sister ko ever.

Heto nga, nakahiga na siya sa kama ko. Nakatagilid. Kita ang makinis na legs. Kita ko ang kurba ng balakang.

Nilibugan ako...

chos!

Naisipan ko nalang mag browse ng blogs. Inabot din ako ng ilang oras. Tuwing maalimpungatan siya sa pagtulog nakikita kong naiinis siya. Parang gusto mahiga na ko at mag sex na kami! LOL (inisip ko lang yun, di ko sure haha)

Finally, naisipan kong matulog na din. Nakatihaya ako sa kama. Mulagat. Nakatitig sa kisameng madilim. Masikip. Single bed lang kasi yun. Pero that's the idea e, yun masikip. Alam na!!! Nakatagilid pa din siya sa kin. Nakailang ikot ikot ako sa kama. Di ako mapakali. Kelangan akitin ko to'ng gagong to! LOL

Nilakasan ko ang loob ko at tumagilid din ako paharap sa knya.

Iniyakap ko yun kamay ko sa tagiliran nya.

Nakiramdam ako.

Walang reaksyon.

Dinikit ko pa lalo ang katawan ko sa likod nya. Wala pa din reaksyon.


Deadma.


Nilagyan ko ng unan ang sa may parte ng etits ko kasi kakahiya naman na maramdaman nya na matigas na matigas na yun "ano" ko. haha! Baka isipin nya pervert ako!


Dikit na dikit na ko sa knya.

Hmm, napangiti ako. Napayag si mokong. Nun last uwi ko, Dati dati kung itulak tulak nya ko e. Iniyakap ko pa ng mabuti ang braso ko sa katawan nya.

Iginapang ko pa ang aking mga kamay...

may hinahanap...

madali ko naman natagpuan.

Ang malambot nyang kamay.


Inihulma ko ang aking mga daliri sa knyang mga daliri...

Naramdaman kong pinisil nya at hinigpitan ang pagkakawak sa mga daliri kong nagpilit mangahas...

Sa kakaibang saya ko nakalimutan ko na ang maka-mundo kong balak. Napalitan nalang ng pagkalma ng kalooban. Ng excitement ng puso.



Hanggang sa makatulog na kami pareho sa ganu'ng posisyon.





(Click HERE for all related posts about Brian)

A Date With R.A

It was 3 in the afternoon and I checked my phone for the 3rd time if R.A left any messages, but none, I'm afraid he might cancel our date later today. Last night I've told him thru text that we're gonna see each other at 5 in the afternoon, but no reply, all night I've waited...I tried to go back to sleep but could not.

Eventually, di ako nakatiis...I sent an sms message:

"Why are you not replying my messages?"

I told my self, if he still not gonna reply, I'll consider it cancelled. Fortunately after a few minutes my phone vibrates:

"Sorry, I just woke up..."

I made a deep sigh of relief. I typed in and sent him a reply:

"I'll meet you at 5pm at the lobby and we'll go to the Villagio (a special mall here in Doha where the ceilings take your breath away, with its majestic representation of the blue sky outside. an a fake river at the heart of the mall.)".

"OK" his final text.

I ate my late lunch and think of something not too casual to wear for our first date, I don't wanna look overdressed or too casual, if he ever considers this a date after all! We'll, I do! LOL

I changed clothes 3 times and decided to go with my v-shaped Armani black shirt and topman faded gray skinny jean. I matched it with a black dog tag necklace from river island. I checked my self once again on the mirror and... danced with excitement!LOL

I waited for him at the lobby of our building, I was 10 minutes earlier. Atat lang? then I heard someone approaching, making annoying sound as he walk...and when I finally saw who it was...its Egay! my colleague!

"oh Mac! you're going somewhere??" he said

"yeah. at the villagio"

"with whom?" he noticed that I'm waiting for someone.

"secret..."

"you slut! who is it this time ha?" he insisted on knowing who it is.

"just go and do your own thing OK!"

"No. I'll stay and wait who you're going out with!"

Then R.A appeared and I saw Egay's wide smile as he tried to leave us. For sure he would broadcast it to our department tomorrow! grrrrr!

R.A was wearing almost identical clothes with mine! both black and faded jeans and we're both wearing the same dog tag hahaha! good thing I didn't wear my nerdy eyeglasses!

Inside the cab, I wanna hold his hand and give him light kisses on his lips..but I didn't. Or else he would jump out of the car or the driver might hit the break instantly!

I content my self with playing innocently and accidentally touching his arms and hands...at pasimple simpleng pag akbay...masaya na ko dun...hehehe.

I also found out he likes Kenny Rogers and Dolly Parton! Yuckyyyy! asar talo siya sakin!

He did much of the talking, I just listen and laugh most of the time. He loves to share his stories. I think he's an old fashioned guy. We ate at T.G.I Friday's and had back ribs and steaks and chicken wings and shrimps and salmon. It was a nice dinner though. I love talking to him. He looks too childish with his eyeglasses and braces whenever he remembered something funny and laughed.

Then the pinoy waitress approached me and said:

"sir, please don't get mad if I ask you something..."

For a brief moment, I was speechless and nervous for what she might ask! Could it be she noticed that we're extra sweet to each other and wanna know if we are actually a couple????

"what is it?" I then asked.

"Can I see your wristwatch? Can I ask where you got it?"

Oh. That's my first reaction haha. I thought it was something else. I told her its from Toywatch and left us.

R.A don't wanna see a movie at the Imax, he said he don't like the films being shown. I was disappointed of course. I wanna spend more time with him, and my evil plan involved touching his hands on the dark corners of the cinema! LOL

We've just entered the amusement park and checked out their amazing rides. We've sat at the bench where we could talk a little. I sat so close to him and put my arms at the back of the bench almost on top of his broad shoulders...from time to time I was touching his shoulders sending him intimate carnal signals hahaha!

On our way out of the mall I saw my friend's Ric and his wife Reen and their closeted gay friend Al whom they are talking about! Oh Lord, he's cute!LOL

Ric was teasing me that me and Al look great together without knowing that R.A is my date! and placed us beside each other as they took us home. I was in the middle of Al and R.A! hahaha. Al was so nice and actually "gay".

When we got to our building towards the lift, I asked R.A if he wants to come up at my unit and spend some more time. He said "I think, I'll pass". I just smiled and said goodnight...

Now I was left confused and disappointed, I thought I'd get laid tonight!LOL. Maybe he found my invitation too fast? Kidding aside, I really like R.A, if I wanna be with someone, I want it to be him... insert bruno mars' song GRENADE:

I'll catch a grenade for yah...throw my hand on a blade for yah...I'd jump in front of a train for yah...you know I'd do anything for yah...I would go thru all this pain...take a bullet straight thru my brain...yes, I would die for yah baby...But you won't do the same...

Yeah, thanks Bruno...I don't know if he would do the same.

I still don't know whether he's just looking for a friend or what. I never ask him directly what his feelings about me, so I don't want to conclude yet. nakikiramdam palang ako kumbaga. Let's just wait and see...It's just our first date anyway.

I called up Ric after a few minutes and asked about Al!!! LOL

What You Don't Know

This year, I've decided to be more personal on my blog entries (di pa pala personal yun mga kahalaya'ng pinagsusulat ko dati?!), I wanna share more of ME to my readers...I wanna bare my soul...

So now I enumerated some things you don't know about me (some would say, who cares?!kever blog ko to noh!):

• Since I'm so single-ness, sex-less and "waiting", I have to do the deed on my own! and I cannot do it without watching porn! I'm a certified porn addict LOL. I love Latinos, and dark guys f*cking! and with lots of hairs down there too! That's too hot for me! My external hard drive are full already, I gotta buy a new one with a bigger storage capacity! :-) and by the way, I use tissue to wipe it.

• I fantasize Rocco Nacino, Mike Tan, Paulo Avelino and Rayver Cruz make out with each other over and over! hahaha ang babata nila! My pagka-Pedo ako?!LOL

• I lost 9 kilos after I followed this 3-day diet that my friend gave me, from 64 kilos I am now 55!!! I was so shocked too that I lost that much! I discovered that rice is the enemy too! LOL

• I have sweaty hands. Its too awkward when I'm holding hands with someone. (lalo na pag HHWW! ewwww!) I'm treating it with what my derma suggested. ah-ah not the one on your mind! I'm not pee-ing on my hands noh! yucky!

• I own 2 eyeglasses ( i have a 300 and 275 grade), a cheap one for my everyday use at home and a thick nerdy-look bvlgari eye wear for going out and I do wear super dark brown colored contact lenses while at work.

• I have 7 different colored scrub-suits for work that I bought from pinas! Everyday different scrubs, Oh di ba hongtohray!!!

• I don't know how to play basketball!!! Well, I guess most gay guys don't! I don't know if I'm right though. Actually I don't have any sports at all! hahaha

• I love watching scary and gory movies. I loved the Walking Dead series too. I am a TV show addict, seen too many of them to mention.

• I still wear the ring that me and ex-bf bought till now (bond-ring) not because I still have feelings for him but because it a pretty nice ring! LOL

• I have my head shaved every week. As in every week!! No skip! Been skinhead for about 8 years now.

• I was sexually abused by a gay cousin who owns a beauty parlor next to our house. I didn't tell my parents about it. Kinda liked it too back then though. bata pa malibog na?LOL

• I don't like dinuguan and bopis and kilawin...but I love to eat adobo'ng atay and balunbalunan!

• My brother in law has a body as hot as hell! Sometimes I cannot stop but to look at it secretly! LOL

• I'm a lazy bastard! If you could only see my room, you wont believe that its mine! I'm so freakin lazy to clean up!

• I don't use toothpick to remove the food trapped between my teeth and braces, I use the 1 ml tuberculin syringe! My friends have to close their eyes once I start using it after we eat!

• Till now, I still remember how it felt like to be loved by my ex-bf Jason. If I could turn back time, I would do anything not to break his heart. But till now, no one ever loved me like the way he did 6 years ago...it was intense and romantic. I am hopeless romantic!

• Most of my ex-boyfriends are chubby! I don't know, Im not a chaser naman!haha. Nagkakataon lang...madali kasi akong ma-inlove kapag pinakitaan na ko ng ka-sweetan! Chos!

• When I do blog hopping, it annoys me when the blogger set the music to play automatically on their page. I would immediately turn it off! Sorry guys!

• Biggest mistake ever? was when I committed my self to a past relationship that I even changed my principle just for him! Now I regret it big time!

• It will take me 2 or 3 changing of clothes before I could finally decide which one to wear!

• Last year, I have sets of blogger whom I have a big crush on! hahaha. Landi mode lang! sina: (1.)iurico, (2.)dencio, (3.)darc d., (5.) felipe, (6.) jepoy, (7.)desole' boy, (8.) kuri and (9.) ceiboh.

This year kaya? sana mas madami pa na dumating! ahahay! harot!!! That's all folks! dami din pala! Sorry for a lame entry! bye-bye!

A Time To Kill...

I am still hoping and bugging my boss to grant my request to have my first yearly vacation this coming July...I have been talking to him, begging, and almost kiss his ass everyday to allow me to leave!LOL Today his answer was promising unlike the other day that he's saying: "We will see..." now I got: "OK, I will consider it..." hehehe.

I wanna go home *sigh*. Been planning a lot of things on that 30 days of vacation. They are:

1. Of course, I wanna see my sis and my cute nephew who by the way I'm wishing won't grow like me!Toinks! I want him to be straight. But damn, there's signs and symptoms!

2. I wanna see my EDC...kiss him, hug him, and f*ck him!LOL

3. Need to do a lot of shopping, stores here sucks! Mas up to date pa din tayo dun! especially the shoes!

4. Will go to Boracay for 3 days and 2 nights! yahooooo! Don't care if its rainy season by the time I get there! At least mura ng konti hehe. I haven't tried having sex in the water or in the sand! definitely gonna try that! Nyahaha!

Anyway, been so horny this past few days, can't believe been wanking everyday! And recently I tried something so shameful huhu so shameful that I cant believe I did it! No, I wont tell you what its about! I'm such a pervert!LOL

I wanna forget about it! Erase! Erase!

(But been considering doing it again!Toinks! sarap eeeeeeeh!)

Lastly, my solo days on my flat is almost over, after a year whew! two Filipino guys, they are nurses, moving on the two vacant rooms of the house. They're nice though, I just hope we all get along well.

OK peeps, bye for now. Wish me luck on my coming vacation, if my boss wont grant it, I will have him assassinated! Kiddingggggggggggggggg!

Something Else

It was past 10pm and my transpo is calling me already, I had a busy night at work and I'm not yet finished endorsing. So I was running at the lobby so that the driver won't leave me and come back after an hour! I wanna go home right away.

I spotted the van and I opened it, but surprised to see Darkguy inside already. I didn't know he was on duty too. I occupied the first seat. He was sitting at the back. Maybe he didn't know I'm on duty as well, I took a cab when I went to work earlier.

I have an issue with him the other day, that's why I'm not on a talking mood at him. He asked the driver about me, its funny instead of asking me, he asked the Nepali driver.

"How come I'm alone earlier when u picked me up but now, we have someone else?(referring to me)"

"He took the cab, he would be late, he said" the driver answered him. I didn't react. Pretend I was busy listening to my mp3 player.

Until I felt he's touching my shaved head. Rotating his hand over my skinhead. I took his hand off. Telling him, to stop it.

The 20minutes travel time from hospital to our accommodation was like an hour due to our silence. There's only the two of us inside that dark van. I moved out of the van first. I felt my backpack heavier, he put his hands on it. Papansin ha...

Until I felt his arms on my shoulders, he wanted to make "akbay" while we're walking towards the elevator, but I took them off, I don't want anyone seeing us like that!Waaaaa!

"why?" he said referring to my resistance for him to put his arms on my shoulders.

"just don't..." I just said and walked fast to the elevator.Pakipot ko noh?LOL!

Inside the elevator, he's almost hugging me, but I'm not contented with it, I want him to kiss me and have sex with me again!LOLLLLLLLLLLL

Its the first floor, he get off and it closes again.

I sighed.

I just reminded my self: he's married, its better this way.

Passageway

I saw my younger cousin today, he's 10 years old, and wearing a...skirt!!!
to my surprised! hehe but he seems so proud of it ,and told me "tuli na ko!"
"oh...that's why. I thought to myself. He's circumcised now".
I remember my circumcision days, I have mine right after grade six.
But i didn't wore skirts or "daster"
I wore a gown!LOL!

Its a tradition here in the Philippines that every male kid during the summer, before he reached 12 years old that he should undergo the procedure of circumcision or "tuli" other parents do it on their children while they are still babies or else, you will be teased "supot" or uncut, and its a shameful thing if others found out about it.Only in the Philippines hehe.Its like every man's passageway to adulthood, that you are no longer a kid "makakabuntis na" said by my folks.

On my case, I was turning 12 that time and I knew it was coming! I'm kinda nervous about it. I heard that they are injecting the large needle of anaesthesia right in the hole of my penis! at the urethra!I imagined it and scared the hell out of me!LOL. I told that to my father when were alone at the house and he told me that its a lie!That its not done that way, not in the urethra where urine comes out and semen too (which i later found out of course!haha)

(Wanna see uncut erected penis?click here.Check out male sex anatomy here)

He told me that the needle was injected at the outer skin only of the penis, that my friends are just scaring me. Maybe he thought that I'm still confused, so to my shock, father pulled down his shorts and underwear in front of me and showed me his d*ck!!!!!!!!waaaaaa! it was horrible!!!!!!!!!!My eyes are wide opened that I thought it was needed to be sewed to make it close!he gave me a demonstration and where it will be cut and all!I have nightmares for so many nights!

When I looked back I cant help but laughing my ass off! Dad looks like that father of that guy at the movie American Pie where he overdid everything!haha. Anyway, going back to my circumcision story, aside from the needle scare, there's one major-major problem that I realized later....I already have pubic hair!Waaaaa!Its too soon!

One time I was at the bathroom and I touched something around my genitals, I didn't realized it at first, until I examined it, but it was really pubic hairs! I felt like crying..this is bad, i told to myself and embarrassing too!!!!Imagine, what will the doctor think of me? that Im too old for circumcision? that I should have done it earlier!I didn't tell anyone of this, they might laughed at me for centuries!

I thought of a brilliant plan. I'll shave it. I found myself in front of the mirror on the floor my legs wide open and shaving LOL! I also discovered there are hairs growing directly at my crotch areas haha in other words "my bulb*l sa betl*g ko" hahaha! When Im done with it, I'm not happy at all..its too obvious that I shaved it huhu if Brazilian wax was available at that time I could have resort to that!LOL!

When I have my judgement day, the doctor asked me to strip and lie down on the bed, I felt like my face turned into violet! I just closed my eyes and ignored his "mysterious smile" when he sees my "bazooka" LOL!

(They said circumsicion is more hygienic and lower the risk of STD.Read here)
(Read history of circumcision here)

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Lets talk about penis.When did you have your circumcision?haha
Are you from "pukpok" or with a doctor?
Do you mind if your sex partner is uncut or not?

Awards Night

Two bloggers gave me this award, actually this is the first on my blogging career!(career talaga haha) and I'm such a lazy person when it comes to replying to tags haha,but since I'm in a writing mood I wont ignore this award guys hehe.So Ron of "In My Own Words" and Chronicler of "The Daily Grind" here it is.

I love blogging because:

Envy

I got envious of everyone who blogs, I mean it seems like fun, all those comments, all those visitors, made me do it! Everyone else are doing it and I said to my self, ”I can do that too! I’ll blog like them haha and now I'm so enjoying it! those friends and bloggers I got to know here. So worth it!


Bum

Because I got tired of my usual days,as a professional bum, and I think blogging will make me busy so here I am!

Attention Seeker Me

Since blogging can be seen all through out the world,being the attention starved person that I am, made me happy if people actually reads my nonsense and everytime I look at my sitemeter made me sooo feel like famous already LOL!(ambisyosa!)

Overly Interested

I have this character of wanting to know other people’s lives, you know the natural “gossip guy” in other words tsismoso at usisero haha.Made me so interested what other people like me are doing, how do they handle relationships, are they like me, something like that. And I wanted them to know about me too.

Sex

Well I use this blog to look for sex. Kidding!haha

So in the tradition that comes with this nenok I mean Neno Award, I am giving them to a couple of fellow bloggers so brace yourselves!haha!

I give this friendship award to:

Starfish of Oh,The Wondrous Things That Comes --A good friend,who stays up with me chatting and doing nonsense,and he will send me a blue eyed blonde enclosed in an envelop soon!

Bleeding angel of My Bleeding Angel--since you've become one nice friend to me even though you dont chat with me anymore hmmpf!

Rik32miles of Animal Factory --to the veterinarian friend from England haha.(bakit nga ba yan title ng blog mo?hayop ka ba ha?LOL) You're such an adorable gay crazy person!

Kenji of Pilgrimage of a Dreamer--such a nice person,even though he's from Canada and have a big difference in our race he takes time to read my entries huhu gonna make me cry LOL!

Herbs of An Artist Orgasm--my ever-always-first-to-comment on my posts reader haha so ayan may award ka and since i cant think of anyone else anymore LOL(kaw lang taga pinas jan haha kelan ba tayo mag show sa YM?haha)

Anyway,here are the rules for this meaningful award:

The aims of this award:
• As a dedication for those who love blogging activity and love to encourage friendships through blogging.

• To seek the reasons why we all love blogging!

• Put the award in one post as soon as you receive it

• Don’t forget to mention the person who gives you the award.

• Answer the award’s question by writing the reason why you love blogging.

• Tag and distribute the award to as many people as you like.

• Don’t forget to notify the award receivers and put their links in your post.

I wanna do my own version of this awards thing with my own twist and rules,let me think of something and I'll ask RR to create a great design on it hehe.