For You

Five messages to five random people:


I don't know what else to think. I'll just let you be and move on. Dead or alive. Thank you for the friendship though. Pero alin ba totoo talaga? LOL

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Just keep up the fight...don't lose faith in him. With God everything is possible. Miracles could happen you know... I know you will get better...We will all be supporting you all the way. Just hang in there. I may not tell you this, but I love you. We do.

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I pray to God to keep you safe, to give you good health, kasi we all know, you are his source of strength. I salute you for being so brave inspite of all whats going on around you. You are a great person. I didnt expect you to be this strong. I love you. Don't worry me and mom will always back you up :-)

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I saw your picture sa FB and nangangasim itsura mo dun hahaha! I miss you my baby...I hope I could be there to take care of you while SHE's busy. I know you understand all of this. Thank you for being so brave too. SHE needs you to be for HIM. I just wanna let you feel my love even though Im far. I wanna cry because I don't think you deserve to be in this situation. I wanna give you my tightest hug as possible...

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And my last is for you...a little more patience...don't you ever think that I forgot about you even for a minute...I don't have the luxury to forget you...you are always on my prayers... I know you've been through a lot and I wanna take care of you and carry your burdens and let you be comfortable. You deserved better than this. Don't worry...maybe...soon...this year...just hang in there. Don't you worry about me. I'm doing alright. I have loving friends who would look after me. I love you with all of my heart.

Im A Believer

Its holy week, but on this part of the world...is not. LOL. I kinda miss the Easter atmosphere back home, when every one is on vacation, when my sis would make "sariwang lumpia" during this season, and the bible inspired movies shown on TV.

Here, its like a normal day. We go to work and go home and all. Some of my friends are doing the fasting, I was asked during dinner by my colleague :

"Mac, why are you eating meat when every one else is not?"

"I'm not a catholic" I simply answered her.

"What is your religion then?" her again

"I don't have a specific religion.." I laughed. "I don't go to church and listen to masses or lectures. But I do respect all of them. "

I explained to her that, since I'm a gay guy, some teachings are about, man and woman, that homosexuality is a sin blah-blah. So I stopped attending masses anymore. FYI: I used to attend some christian meetings too. I felt shame whenever I attended masses then loving another man when I get home. So I stopped.

"But do you believe in God?" she asked me again.

"Yes with all my heart. I just have a very very personal relationship with HIM. I pray every night, every chance I have, I praised him on every blessings I received. I talk to HIM on my own special way. Deep in my heart I know that he loves me, deep inside I know that he loves me back that what ever I am, as long as I do good, as long as I don't harm any one, as long as I am a loving and responsible person. He would accept me."

"Want some beef steak?" I asked her but she politely said "no, thanks".

Note: You should see the movie "Prayers for Bobby" such an excellent film, its one movie that made me realize that God loves us all. It answers all the doubts and questions in my mind.