Hindi ko lang alam if love ba talaga yun or iniisip ko lang na inlove na talaga ako.
Pero kayo ba?
Parang pwde talaga e! LOL
Kulet ko lang noh?
Araw araw mo ka chat...nag skype pa kayo lagi...pag nasa work andiyan na magtext pa kayo or BBM or kahit sa Whatsapp pa yan...Andami nyo nang alam sa isa't isa...lahat napag usapan nyo na ultimo personal na mga bagay.
Hanggang sa tawagan level na kayo...overseas call pa kapag magkalayo kayo.
Hindi ka na mapakali kapag di siya agad nagrereply sa mga messages mo...nagseselos ka na kapag may nabasa ka'ng tweet nya about other guys....feeling mo may commitment na kayo sa isa't isa.
Posible ba? Naranasan nyo na ba toh? Or ako lang ang may ganitong thoughts?
Marahil lang ba ito na nasa malayo ako at malungkot sa gitnang silangan at nag hahanap ng atensyon at pagmamahal mula sa same sex? kaya ba mas prone ako mabiktima ng love through the wire? hahaha
Or sadya lang madali akong mapaibig kahit anong paraan at sistema pa galing?chos!
Tingin mo posible kang ma-inlove online? is it a ridiculous idea? or sounds desperate?
I was inviting R.A to visit the Marine festival with me in the city, thought, it could be another way to spend time with him and he said: OK LANG. Its not a yes or its not a NO either I assumed. So I told him, OK then lets go there later since both of us are off!
"I don't have enough money left, let's wait for the payday"
"oh come on, you still owe me a dinner hehe!" --me
"its true. i don't have enough to go out this week."
"I'm bored today, I'll take care of it. Just come with me" I insisted
And then he signed out on Face book without giving me a confirmation! he did it again! Damn him! I tried to call his cellphone but he wont pick up.
OK, fine. He's avoiding me.
I won't bother him again. As in ever again! asar na asar ako!
Many days have passed and we haven't seen each other. A good thing, I must say. Fate was helping me to move on. (parang nag-break up?LOL)
But not last Friday morning! We have the same duty! I spotted him as soon as I entered the ICU. He was busy with his documentations. I carry on with my job and pretend I'm not noticing him. I told my partner that I don't wanna go near him (he knew I like R.A) that he should help me to avoid him haha. sabwatanito!
Everything works well until my partner got busy and I have no choice but to check the file of R.A's patient myself!
I quietly took and open the files while he was busy writing, he looked at me as soon as he felt my presence.
"uyyy, nag morning shift siya..." he said smiling. (you're on morning shift)
"oonga e..." (yeah) that's all I said to him. He's acting as if we're OK, hmmp! I still hold a grudge against him kaya. Pretending I was not interested in talking further and moved on to the next patient.
After a few minutes I was checking the medicines few meters away from him and he suddenly called me.
"mac...you think we'll have the salary tomorrow?"
"I'm not sure. Maybe". and I continued on my work. And why is he asking me about payday tomorrow? Is he going to invite me out finally tomorrow if salary is available?
Tse!
One time I was fixing the personal protective gown for the isolation patients when he jokingly pulled out its tie and I looked around and saw him silently laughing while walking away.
In my mind, I thought: Papansin siya huh. Tsk tsk tsk. (he's trying to get my attention since I'm not giving it to him on purpose) I smiled.
An evil smile!
I was bragging to my friends how successful my plan was on R.A! that finally he noticed it and he's the one making those efforts now for me to notice him this time. Yeah! Success!
On our second rounds around lunch time. I was on the phone and he was at the computer that we were so close and no one was around...I don't know what came to me and my emotions took over and I said the words that I have been keeping inside since last week!
"Hoy R.A! May atrasokasakin". --me. (hey R.A. You did something bad last time)
Damn! what happened to my plan????Shit! shit!
"Walakaya... (I don't think so)" he said while smiling innocently. He knows what I'm talking about.
"Of course you know what I'm talking about...You left me at the chat room and you're not answering my call!"
"I don't have phone credits, that's why..." he continued and went back to his patient. But I followed him. I'm not finish with my interrogations yet!LOL
He was checking his patient's I.V but I kept on going: "you don't need credits to answer my call!"
"really?" he's still playing stupid.
"yeah!"
"so tell me...why you're not answering my calls?"
He moved to another part of the bed. The patient was looking at us, maybe wondering what's the fuss all about haha. But I kept on following the moron (R.A).
"anokaba? nag tatrabahoakohehehe" he said while pushing me a little to back off. He was still laughing at my persistence.
I'll go where he'll go. He cannot escape me!
He squat at the side of the bed and I squat with him too while he was checking the patient's urine bag and measuring it. I looked around and saw my partner smiling at us. Maybe he thought I was weird hahaha!
"You're avoiding me aren't you? tell me...that's why you're not answering my call?"
"I did not hear your call that's why...and besides I told you I don't have enough money left. Let's wait for the payday..." he explained.
"I told you too that we don't need more money to go the festival! Its free!"
"If we have salary tomorrow, maybe....and besides, I think the festival's finished since yesterday!"
"No. its extended till end of the month. For us!". LOL. I continued on convincing him.
"really?" and he looked at his new female colleague and said:"you wanna come? the festival he said is extended..."
WTF????are you kidding me? I wanna scream that to his face! He wants to bring this new nurse with us? On our date?!
I just walked out on him and left the unit! F*ck him!
Hay...poor Mac, no one wants to love him...Charot!
I read from another blog that his friend was on this bar and staring at this guy he liked and later approached him and next thing you know they're flirting with each other already.I envy those guys hehe.I mean I'm not that courageous and confident about my self to approached a guy I like at a bar or somewhere where gays and bi's hang out,its just not my style and it doesn't suits me.I don't know about you,maybe some or many of you are like that.Good for you.
My way is the Internet haha.The gay sites and chat rooms.And only 10 percent are from friends referral.That's my market place.My sari sari store.Its like I'm pushing this cart and I just stop by a certain section and I choose which item to pick! I'm confident at that.I just message or let the guy notice me at the net that I think looks nice and looking for a dating buddy or someone to get to know more...if he replies"good" if not,I just go to the next section and choose again!
I have a different style,I know,but this saves me some hardships and disappointment.I don't go for guys that are out of my league or too beautiful for me.I'm careful at that.I choose guys that I think are at my level,the average looking guys.Sometimes those that are not good looking are the ones more trustworthy and might make you happy.And they tend to be the one looking as what you too are looking for.A happy and serious relationship.And I proved that to be true.
Because I believe,cute guys are for cute guys,and no cute guys will settle for an average looking guy.And those average looking guy who wants cute guys are just looking in the dark!But its their life let them be.But of course I'm not generalizing,I've been with a cute boyfriend before and we did just fine.But this is my way and I have been happy in my relationships so far.I literally follow the song "humanap ka ng panget at ibigin mong tunay" haha I just changed it to "humanap ka ng di masyadong panget at ibigin mo ng tunay"LOL
I just have some issues to settle with my self that's why I always broke up with my boyfriends before.Or maybe I don't find what I want in them yet...
I was thinking,If you are single,a single gay guy or bisexual or whatever gays call themselves now where's the right place to look for your partner or someone that can we call our boyfriend?Well atleast that is for those looking for love.Here are some of where you can find them:
At the mall --or any public place.well this is obviously one good way,if you like that guy and you seems confident enough about yourself why not approach the guy and introduce yourself.Well for me i never done this haha,This is for the cute one's who have the guts and what it takes not to be rejected.Well ofcourse be sure that this guy is gay/bi too,if not galingan nyo umilag kapag sinapak kayo!hahaha.Or do a gimik like you accidentally bumped into him"Oh im sorry i didnt see you!by the way whats ur name?"haha thats is a lame pick up line I guess just come uo with something original or funny.
Coffee shop -- this is a place where gays usually hang out!They love starbucks!
Gay events -- just like the gay parade that just held.Or some gay bloggers party if you are a blogger or a fan of a blog.
Gay club/bars --this is self explanatory.If you are a party animal,this is the right place,but be careful with the hookers and call boys always act with caution hehe baka mapatay ka kapag may tinake home ka!Always stay at the place that are public like the coffee shop or a cozy resto if you have an acquantance.
At work -- well if you noticed someone that you might suspect or think that he is gay that likes you or you like,why not befriend him,who knows you might get there.There's nothing wrong in trying,you will never know what will happen if you dont try right?Well there's some disadavantages of a co-worker though.You will see him regurlarly and sometimes its annoying!haha
Bathroom -- personally i dont recommend this!its so cheap haha.What will happen if a friend ask you "oh guys where did you meet?" and you will say "ah,at this mall's bathroom!"haha.They might think he's a call boy or something!
Chatroom -- this is my forte haha!There's lot of gay chatroom or website out there,who is a base of all like us,some are looking for friends,relationships and ofcourse the hook-ups.You just have to know what are you looking for.Some pretend that they are looking for relationship but in reality they just want sex.
A little tip: try guys4men.com for instance,browse the guy's profile out there,read whats in there,some guys put real stuff there about themselves,that they are also loooking for their mr.right.if you like what you saw,message them,let them know you're interested and if they answer,great.And if not move to the next guy.Try to asses your self,how you look,then look for guys that you might think at your level.I mean if you are average looking or not given the cuteness dont message guys that are out of your league you know what I mean,because for sure you will only get snobbed!
Or try the chatrooms,some guys they advertise the "serious relationships ads" or "looking for sensible chat ads"messaged them.It doesnt mean that because they post that ads means that its a realtionship at an instant,ofcourse there is a process,first you chat,friendly chat at first,exchange pictures(put your nicest pic) then if you have a good time chatting,you'll exchange mobile numbers then you will set a date and then just see what will happen if there is a sparks.
Well i hope this stuff helps!This is just my opinion Im no proffesional you know,so dont criticise me like this or like that.haha.Anyway goodnight!
This may seem so sudden,but Im actually dating again,well not actually dating now,I mean this coming saturday and we even decided to be together at the 25th at enchanted kingdom!(a local amusement park in laguna) I have talked to this guy that I knew for a year now,we just became friends at the chatroom eversince,you know the usual hi and hello and how are you's kind of thing.And last night since im single and available haha I flirted a little and got so interested to get to know him more and he is such a nice guy,he's been to a serious relationship for a long time and the kind of guy I wanted, now we're constantly communicating through text and chat.Well,I hope this is a good start and we could have a good time this saturday.
When I got home today from the mall,i opened my pc and saw an offline messages,one from OJ my friend at london,and one from my ex,JL he said: "hello lang po ulit good afternoon" I just felt weird that he messaged me,but im planning not to reply I said to him last time we've talked that i wont bother him ever again.I made a decision and he made a decision too when im trying to fix things so its not my fault anymore that we're separated.So now Im moving on and now..im dating...
Its been three weeks now since me and my boyfriend broke up, I told to myself that its high time for me to take it cool, I mean have time to myself being alone for a while because I met Jaireh two months after me and Brian broke up, I wanna be alone for a long time I said to myself.
But here I am again on the gay chatrooms and websites chatting till my brains out..and before I knew it I was exchanging YM i.d and my cel numbers to guys that I enjoyed chatting at, that they wanna know me more,they said.And I was enjoying it,the constant chatting and texting, I cant even remember Jaireh..am a bad person?
I just hurt my last bf and now Im flirting with another one?and its not just one theres 3 of them! I mean not flirting literally..you know just cyber and text flirting,I only went on dates to those guys that I've been talking for about a week or two,to know if Im really sure to meet that person.
I havent met them yet,I only met one, and he's a fantastic guy, the date was fun,our conversation was spontaneous which is what I'm looking for in a partner,after our date we kept on communicating, I still need more time if I wanna ask the big question "can u be my partner?"hehe. Because I find it still early for that I wanna take my time, I dont wanna rush things like what happend between me and Jaireh before.
And I still kinda waiting for him to be a little thoughtful..its important for me...for me if you are not a little of that,it means you are not that concern for me.When I say thoughtful,its like texting me with what you doing,telling me you're not gonna be able to text me because you have to be away for a couple of hours,or that you will text me later so that I wont wait..something like that, little things that really matters.And if the guy cant be like that,well, I'll rather find another.
