Mac-Boys Series: Jeff

This will be a series about boys and real experiences as they gave me lessons and memories to complete me as a person to what I am now.Once in awhile I will continue to share stories about them so watch out for every story of heartache and joy of "Mac-Boys Series".(naks!parang Bud Brothers lang!LOL)


Year 2001, just graduated from college, and text mates was so cool that time, the more, the better, I remember using my nokia 5110 haha my gosh its so big and bulky, only 20 messages can be stored at the inbox!Imagine that!

Meet Jeff, 23 years old that time,a physical therapist, he was a constant text mate and we decided to meet. I'm so excited because he was my first eyeball.In my mind we are good match since we are both therapist. My first on everything...He went all the way to Laguna from Pasay just to meet me.I took him home!(landi noh?!) My parents were both working abroad that time and my sister was out, so the house was all ours!

I was sweating with anticipation, I knew what was coming.This is my initiation. I just don't know how to start it. I left everything to him, since I'm a virgin! We ate dinner and watched tv for a while, I wanted to force him to do it already LOL! "Aren't you sleepy yet?" I asked him "not yet,I like this program" he said.

My manhood was throbbing like crazy inside my pants and he wanted to watch TV instead?! When finally the time came to go inside my room, i felt like having a convulsion with excitement,(as in nanginginig ako!) we're lying on the bed together, close, he moved much closer, i could feel his hairy legs over mine, my gosh, it's ticklish...i love the feeling of someone's skin on me...

That's just the legs mind you!haha. I stayed still, waiting...maybe he got impatient with my mannequin-like-status, he moved on top of me and started kissing me...I don't know how to do it, I just do what he does in return and he moaned with pleasure, so I'm sure I'm doing it right. I love it when he's licking my neck and earlobes...its my weakness haha

"This is your first time, right?" he whispered to my ear

I started licking his neck too, it tasted salty, i remembered we didn't take a shower first!LOL. What the heck! Just go on lick and eat all the dirt on his body! He licked every area of my hot body too, kidding! i was on top of him, its a great sensation, body to body, heat on heat, till now i can still remember how it felt the first time.

When suddenly he whispered "s*ck me.." and I froze....I don't wanna do it, not yet. I'm not ready. "I can't...I'm sorry..." I hesitantly answered. He looked disappointed, but i really don't wanna do it haha, I never did it before, and I'm sure I don't wanna do it yet. He didn't suck me too, maybe his punishment on me!

He started rubbing his manhood on mine. It made me delirious! It sent a thousand voltage of sensation.Until he came....leaving me wanting more. He said "sorry I cant hold it anymore...." and I stood and said "no, its alright" and went to the bathroom to clean my self from all of his juices LOL! And I'm so pissed he didn't wait for me!I read somewhere that he should wait for his partner to finish too.What an inconsiderate ass hole!

When I came back of the room he was snoring already. I turned off the lights and went to sleep.The next morning,I woke him up,I wanted him to leave while its still dark,I don't want to draw attention from my neighbors and started gossiping about me.He kissed me on the lips before leaving and said "thank you,I had a great time".

I waited for a text after that,but there's none,the next day,still no word from him...I asked "how are you?why are you not texting me back?" In my naive and stupid mind,i thought we could still be constant text mate and do it all again....like boyfriends....instead I received this:

"Its just a one time thing.A one night stand.Forget about me".

Honestly I cried.My first disappointment with gay guys.My first rejection.

I realized I still have a lot to learn. About this gay stuff. About sex and some asshole like him!

I decided that I wont show my real feelings to any guys just like that.

They play around.I will play around too.

For three years,I did.Non-stop sex with every guys I meet.

My sexual exploration.

--to be continued.

I Called It "Kiskisan"

I have been with same "top" guy before.Our relationship lasted for two months at that time it was already long for me since I'm only 23 years old then and all I did from previous years are having sex with any guy I like.Meaning: slut LOL! But that was in the past.I'm 29 now and I can say I'm done at that stage in my life,casual sex is a no-no already.

I met Mark from TV-chat where in you will post your number to look for a text mate at that time it was so "in" now I realized how cheap it was haha!But I gotta admit I loved it then I got too many respondent a 100 replies!My pre-historic Nokia 5110 phone almost exploded!He was one who passed for a text mate.We met and we instantly liked each other.He's cute and got a stable job.

We became boyfriends.And everything was beautiful for me.He seems so perfect.We were in love.But there was one problem.He's top too.Well,I'm his first bf and he was a virgin too but he didn't wanna be the bottom.I didn't want either.I cant forget him because his lips was so sweet (damn I love virgins) and he responded to my touchings very hungrily...and he always stare at my d*** i just pretended I didn't see him (napapahiya siya e).

Actually you might think that it was a lame sexual relationship,no one even do the blow job!haha.We kissed and touched each other,but I discovered one thing...we were both standing and I pulled off his briefs and mine and I pressed my d*** with his and it was so good!The sensation was so great...its hotness and the hair Oh lord it was heaven.Next thing we knew I was on top of him and I was humping and pressing my p***s on him real hard...I later called it "kiskisan" with the special help of lubricant and it was the only thing we did for the duration of our relationship.

I didnt know it was possible to have a wonderful sex life even if we are both tops.I preferred to do it standing with his one leg wrapping around my waist.I have nothing to asked for during those time.He's thoughtful,he checked me out at home,he was nice to my sister and he's in love with me.I could feel it in my boner I mean bones.

Why was it so nice to make your bf jealous?haha even if he tried to hide it, brought smiles to my face...

But I guess all things are not permanent,we broke up.I got really jealous to this girl he's with and when I look back I realized how stupid I was to let him go away.i mean he's gay why would he be interested in girls?he loves holding my d*** for god sake!I loved him so much.I asked for forgiveness a 100 times over and then he finally answered me and said "I don't know anymore,I don't think I can love you again.."

And after 2 weeks he texted me "I wanna come over at your house" I thought to my self,thank god maybe this is it,he finally realized he still love me.We talked but nothing about us and we went to bed and when I tried to kiss him he avoided my lips, "no kissing pls.." I was hurt by that,I didn't complain,beggars cant be choosers right?

We just had sex ate charo...haha.And he just visit me to have sex...he's punishing me.I felt so sad about it...what happened to us?I know its my fault but I already repent on all of my mistake and felt really sorry for it.

I felt like a whore a sex machine that if he had an itch he will have sex with me.But despite of all that I still love him.He just vanished all of a sudden,his number became unreachable.It made me cry.But anyway it was 6 years ago...

Top And Bottom:Which one?

Which role in bed do you preferred best?topping or bottomming? I have always been a top,since I discovered gay sex,I don't know,I just don't like being the bottom and my sweet ass is still a virgin till now!LOL. Its freakin painful one time I inserted my finger on it and i don't like it what more if a 6inches dick is on it?! I might break and bleed!kidding!

Since we have the same biological structure,this is usually an issue to most gays.I read from somewhere that the role in bed reflects one's personality,that gays who do the "topping" assumes the role of being the dominant one,he is the man in the house in a relationship and the "bottom" is the one that is more submissive,he likes to be dominated,he likes to be the "housewife".

But what about those gays who preferred to be "versa"?I think they are GOD!!!!hahaha.Imagine they could do both,this is the most flexible role ever,you wouldn't have a problem if you found a guy who strictly plays top and bottom,like me.Because for me,when I'm chatting and looking for someone to meet,the question of "are you top or bottom" are always there...and you would tell you're top and he's top too,then its the end of your conversati0n,goodbye Mr.Nice Guy already.

Its really a disappointment for me especially if the guy is nice and I like him and the only problem for us to be together is the role in bed.I've been with a top boyfriend too in the past and we did just fine.I'll tell you about it in my next post.