A Friend In Denial

I felt good today,finally I had the chance to get out of my cage! I've been inside our house for a whole freakin week.Now I had an excuse: submitting my NBI clearance to my agency at Makati, after it was authenticated by the Qatar Embassy which I paid 385 pesos by the way(just for a small stamp!).This is necessary for them to know if I killed any ex-boyfriend I had in the past LOL.

Riding the jeepney going to the bus terminal I saw a face that I never expected to see!It was Ronn! shetttt! My super-dooper-I'm all-over-you-first-love way back from college!(hmmm let me count how many years was that already...1999...2001...oh my god!Eight years ago!!!! He have this dirty look,you know the moustache and beard that he never trimmed,and the hair "literally looking like an ermitanyo hehe" I had a hard time recognizing him for a minute.He looks like a drunk father from the streets of Tondo!He never changed a thing about his personality,he has this habit of going out of the house wearing his "basahan" looks!

He was wearing this t-shirt that the sleeves that I don't know where fell off,it has a lot of holes in it and the cloth was so faded and thin evident that that shirt needed to be dumped,that thing he was wearing had no match to the ones wearing by the beggars on the street!(mas ayos pa damit nila sa kanya!waaa!) I could feel it that he was uncomfortable me seeing him like that,maybe he thought" shett why now of all days he have to see me and with me wearing thisss!Mac will be laughing his brains out with this sight!" I know him so much,in and out!I could read his mind (psychic???)

Which by the way really made me laughing inside hehehe "Its like OH my god Ronn you look ridiculous! and I believed I smiled for a bit and I suppressed that immediately.I still have those memories of us together inside of me (may kabinet dun e) and he occupied a large storage area in it...lots and lots of folders of memories that if I need to read again will all be available...thats the impact he had on me...

We were best friend,(i know its so gasgas na) I believed we were more than that...I could feel it and I know he felt it too during those two years together in the same classroom.he's just too coward to face it..to accept it...he was in denial of his sexuality...of him being in love with a guy.That scared him.That made him go away from me and courted a girl just to prove his masculinity.hayyy those were the days....I will tell you more about that "tragic" story of my first love in the coming days.

Until he have to get off the jeep,its their house already....(I've been inside that house and his room so many times then..).and all through out the 10 minutes being in the same jeep facing each other and trying to avoid each other's eyes to meet was like forever!I almost got a stiff neck!I just pretended that I was busy texting and I'm glad I'm wearing my shades today!

Maybe if I'm like this then,I mean being how confident I am about my sexuality now being a gay guy maybe "wala siya kawala!" haha it sounded like a title of an evil movie!LOL Our time now was so different then,seems gays are like having this sexual revolution!Well maybe,we had a shot then,I was so convinced then that he was my soul mate if you ever believe in that crap hehe,I still do now,he's just too chicken to realize it till now!

Red Ribbon At DFA

Hayyy..Im so tired,sleepy and wasted!But its was fun and a pleasurable one hehe.To have an idea what Im talking about,I went at the Manila City Hall again for the release of my certificate of employment and training and seminar certificate authentication,I left our house at around 7:30am and I arrived there at 10:20am due to heavy traffic!And after that I have to rush it to the Department of Foreign Affairs(DFA) before 11:00 am its like Im in the Amazing Race just to be there before the cut-off.

I arrived at the DFA at exactly 11am and along the way I was thinking of what alibi I might say to the guards to allow me to submit my documents even if its the cut-off time already.But thank God,Manong guard was in a good mood and allowed everyone until 11:10!I found a friend inside while waiting for our turn her name is Alice a mother of 3 and her husband got a mistress haha I cant believed that she told me info that much!But atleast it made my time worthwhile while waiting.

The whole DFA Red Ribbon authentication was fast,at first we filled up this blue form and prepared one valid ID, even though its a long line,before lunch we are done but ofcourse I have to go back again next week for its release,I paid 200 pesos including my NBI clearance authentication and they issued a receipt,well done!


We ate lunch after because were starving to death I could eat evrything that cross my path if I dont get any food in my mouth. And at 1:30pm I was on a bus going to Megamall to meet my date...my new friend with benefits...Randall hehe.I'll tell you about the details tomorrow I got to go and watch the telecast of Obama's inauguration ok? promise!