Cover Up

I turned off the lights inside my room and shut the door.

I took the lift down to the ground floor and hailed a cab.
I'm on my way to the hospital...Its my night duty again.

When I came to our department, the afternoon shift was waiting. Its crazy inside. Ang ingay! Its the best part of the day...endorsements. We get to see each other. Colleagues I seldom see due to different schedules.

Work is fun. Though its tiring most of the time but its fun. I love my job. I've gained too many friends in this foreign land. I am contented with the kind of life I'm having. Who would predict that I will actually love working in the middle east when I first came here in the first place? I just took a gamble and leave everything to fate and to God.

Suwertihan nga lang siguro talaga. Some of my friends abroad, hindi sila masaya sa work nila. Pati sa mga pinoy na kasama.

Minsan kasi kapwa pinoy mo pa ang hihila sayo pababa...

I'm lucky to have my colleagues who supports me and cares for me. Its like a big family. So far I've never regret accepting this job...well, not yet...LOL!

I'm a jolly and goofy person. I love to laugh. Bungisngis ako. You could make me laugh with just some silly korni jokes you could throw at me. I love to talk a lot too. At mahilig din ako makipag asaran sa mga straight na kasama ko sa work.

Masarap makipag tawanan. Nakakabawas ng stress.

Then my shift are about to finish again.
I did my endorsement to the next shift. Chit chat with colleagues before heading out of the hospital. A friend usually gives me a ride home. While inside the car, more laughters and asaran na umaatikabo...

As soon as he dropped me to my building and gave my Thank you..take care... that's when the silence begins...

That's when the slow and heavy walks towards the elevator happens...till I reached my flat on the sixth floor...

I unlocked the door to my room and sat on my couch as I wait for my laptop to start...

Here I am alone again. Inside the four corners of my cold room. They said its fun being single...its fun being with your friends...yeah it is...walang iintindihin na ibang tao but yourself...Ok ang single....I've been telling that inside my head for the whole year and it worked really well...yeah nabola ko sarili ko.

But who am I kidding?

I cannot fool my heart for so long...

I am sad and lonely.

My heart is longing for someone.

Now I could honestly say it out loud.


:-(


Why am I still on my own, if there's a soul mate for everyone?





Meron nga kaya talagang soulmate??? Hay naku emotera na naman daw ako! hahaha! dyan na nga kayo at boborlogz na ko!

I'm Fine Now

Today is my fifth day back here at the middle east. My first 3 days are very difficult. Been adjusting to the weather and time difference. I was lonely and feeling homesick as expected. I know I will be in this phase. Been like this last year. I know, all OFWs got through this too. I wanna cry but my tears are not coming. I missed my family. I missed home. Been calling them every now and then.

hangbigat sa dibdib ate charing!

But I'm all okay now. Finally. As soon I started working at the hospital and saw my crushes, as soon as I saw some patient's blood, some open chest with their heart's exposed and beating, as soon as I saw some leg broken (and some dick?chos!) and this and that...I know I will be okay. LOL!

I got through it at last. Now I'm back to my old crazy self!

Purita ako pagdating ko dito, I spent all of my savings back home! Now I'm eating, dried pusit and salted eggs! LOL

Old Ugly Bitch

One sad reality I've seen working abroad is that many of our fellow Filipinos are ill-mannered! They're annoying. They're selfish. They're rude and arrogant! Well, not all hehe! But some are and I wanna stab their neck using my fork! LOL

Its disappointing when I was new here to find out that not all are as friendly and as helpful as the others I've been with. Its gives me a sense of shame knowing that they're my "kababayan". I could understand if its from other nationalities but a fellow pinoy? WTF!

Some act as if they owned the place. Some likes to be the boss even if they're not. Some would treat you as if you're less of a person. But I didn't allow it. I know now how to fight back! LOL.

May sungay na e!

One time I was the one who answered the phone call from an oldie-Filipino nurse, my colleagues just went out the door to go their designated areas:

Me: Yes, what can I do for you?

Bruha: Who is assigned here in _____?What time you do your rounds its almost 12am!!!

Me: Ah, mam, they're on their way, just went out of the door.

Bruha: Huh? How come they're still not here!

Me: Who is this? They are on their way...

Bruha: Its ____. you know the "mataray nurse". How come they're still not here its very late!

I tried to stay calm and still tolerate her annoying tone.

Me: What is it that you need from the assigned person there?

Bruha: Ha? Why you need to ask me that? Of course its your time to do the rounds and you're asking what do I need??? So stop asking me what I need!

Me: I know, I was just asking if you need something else and I might be able to help

Tanga pala siya e, kaya nga my bleeper kami. E di mag bleep siya pag may kelangan siya! kesa mag taray siya kung bakit wala pa ang duty dun (we have our own bleeps so that whenever an ICU needs us, they could easily use that.)

Bruha: Why the assigned here is still not coming????

I am now really annoyed and I wanna go up there and put salt and pepper on her rotting v*gina while tied on a tree and put a big eggplant on her ugly mouth so that she cannot scream!!! Freaking old bitch!

Me: Mam, as I've said, he's on his way. OF COURSE, HE WOULD WALK THE LONG HALLWAY, THEN TAKE THE LIFTS UP TO THE 6th FLOOR, THEN WALK AGAIN THE LONG HALLWAY TO GET THERE...

I spoke clearly and pausing on each words as if talking to a child for her slow and dysfunctional brain can absorbed what I'm trying to say.

Bruha: Whatever! Its hard to talk to you! Goodbye!

That bitch! she hanged up on me!!! Grrrrrrrrrrrrr!

Ako pa daw ang mahirap kausap? kakatawa! LOL

I told everyone what happened and we all just laughed after a while and said: she's an old bitch, don't pay too much attention to her. Just think that no one likes her and that maybe she has a miserable pitiful life. Instead of being mad at her, just feel sorry for what she become.

After ko siya dinurog durog sa Facebook update ko and my friends making hilarious and ugly comments about her, ok na ko. In my mind nakaganti na ko!haha

Buti nalang di ko siya friend dun.

Di niya nababasa! Nyahaha!!!

A Rectal Examination!

Tomorrow, I have go to a clinic in Malate,Manila to have my pre-employment medical exam as a requirement for working abroad but I'm anxious about it ,imagine I'll have to strip down in front of the doctor if I'm unlucky they might do 4 person at a time! Meaning I'll be with other 3 guys naked!Sooo embarrassing!!!Waaaa! And to top it all, he or she might do a rectal exam!!!!

Look at some of the photos I've found at the internet with regards to rectal haha!

My MCdreamy...

Dreaming is free,you can do it anytime you want.And I have a dream that I hope I will fulfill one day...

One is I wanna have a great work abroad.Where there is financial stability.This I think will be in the near future.To save money and built a house for myself.I've been wanting to have my own place eversince.

And hope along the way I'll find the guy.The right guy that I've been waiting for. I thought I found him but end up wrong. But this dream of mine is I think the hardest to make into reality. I want this guy to be my companion, my bestfriend where i can drag him anywhere and still have a great time with me, someone I can spend the days at our own home, where we can be one...someone who can celebrate holidays and special ocassion with my family, someone who can stay up late while I not home, someone who could just be happy just by being with me in a lazy sunday in front of the tv screen...

And I know one day..someday...if not now, syempre someday nga e!hehe that he will come.I will find him.I know he is looking for me too, we just dont cross our path and if that day happen, I will know...