Ano Nga Kaya?

Hindi naman lihim sa lahat na madami na ko pinagdaanan pagdating sa pakikipagrelasyon. Marami ang naging saksi kung pano nag umpisa at nag wakas ang bawat kabanata ng lovelife ko dito.

Minsan napapaisip ako...Ano kaya kung mas inunawa ko sila? or mas sinikap ko pa'ng maging mapagbigay? Kung mas binuksan ko ang puso ko sa kanila? Siguro, baka meron na kong masasabing isang matatag na relasyon ngayon.

Aaminin ko. Masyado akong naging maramot sa pagmamahal... Dati kasi feeling ko, pag mas ipinakita ko ang pagmamahal ko, feeling ko talo ako...baka isipin dead na dead na ko sa kanya...kahit minsan yun naman ang totoo.

Laging nakatanim sa isip ko, mas mabuti muna makita ko'ng mas mahal niya ako kesa makita nya'ng mas mahal ko siya.

Masyado din ako proud. Iniisip ko kasi. Madali ko siya mapapalitan. Madali lang ako makakahanap ng mas higit pa. Kaya sa konting fault na makita ko. Mayabang akong nakikipag kalas.

Impulsive ako. Yan ang madalas nila sinasabi.

Mayroon naman na pinagsisihan ko sa bandang huli at humingi ng second chance...pero mukhang parusa ng tadhana...madalas rejected ako. Tatlo lang ang hiningan ko ng pangalawang pagkakataon sa dinami-dami ng mga lalake sa buhay ko! Oo...pokpok ako dati! chos!

Sobrang sakit at pag sisisi ang binigay nila sa kin...hindi ako swerte sa second chance. Hindi ko naman sila masisi...kasi ako naman ang nauna makipagkalas. Ako ang nagmatigas noon. Gantihan?

Madami ako natutunan sa pakikipagrelasyon ko...sa bawat taong nagkaroon ako ng pagkakataon na makilala at mahalin...laging may iniiwan itong aral at pagmumulat sa pagkatao ko. Mas higit ko nakikilala ang sarili ko...kung ano ang kahinaan ko. Kung saan ako dapat mag umpisa muli. So that history won't repeat itself...

Para san ba ang post na ito? Wala lang hahaha...nag iinarte na naman sa mga WHAT IF's na tumatakbo sa isip ko...

Isa lang ako sa karamihan... maaring nakakasalamuha mo sa araw araw...sa dami ng tao mapapansin mo ba ako?

What if...sa tinagal tagal ng paghahanap ko...andyan ka lang pala...malapit sa akin.

CHOS!




Wala lang.. mumuni-muni moment lang :-)

Take Your Chance

There are many couples out there, men and women, men and...errr men too! Some are married, well in other states, and some are just committed. Maybe in time, they will tie the knot soon, or just waiting for the right time to move in to their own love nest. But, above all of these, there are the singles...

do you have any idea how many single gay guys out there?

Nah, I don't have the statistics too, but I'm pretty sure, there's tons of them! Maybe, You are one of them!

I am definitely one of them!

Come to think of it, if there are many single guys out there, in fact too many to count, how come many are still loveless? Still cannot find that one right man for them?

Why can't those millions of single guys meet and date? No more lonely people in the world. No more lonely gay guy, I mean! Yeah!

But still many are searching...
Many are still lonely...
Many are still praying to meet him...
and be happy soon...

I am still waiting! LOL.
Whats taking him for so long to find me? *eager much*

Why?

High standards. Maybe. Too choosy. Maybe. But beauty fades...material things lose their value. I DON'T KNOW

But whats left was, whats really inside...whats really behind that beautiful shell of him. There are other fishes in the sea, maybe you're just looking at the wrong body of water...lakes is there at the back...rivers was inviting you there for a swim for a long time, you just focused too much time at the ocean and its beaches...

What if...

You already saw him at the store at the mall, you saw him and he looked back at you too. A first sign. But you're just too shy to approach him...and you let that chance passed and lost him.

When in fact, if you did approach him and ask for his name and eventually led to a coffee date somewhere else after...he could be that guy you are waiting for!

He danced with you at the club and introduced himself and asked for your number, but you didn't replied his messages after...because you thought he was too confident or you thought he would play you...and you let the chance passed by...

When in fact, that guy was really interested and serious about having a long and committed relationship this time after being playful for so long...

Or he was a reader of your blog for so long and he was constantly emailing you, sending you instant messages...but you thought he's too boring to chat with...you just ignored him and let the chance to talk to him and know him passed by...

When in fact, he's just not the chatting kind of guy and he was more interesting to talk to in person...

I for one, had Jason in my hands before, but I did not took good care of him and I let him slipped off my fingers and didn't do about it sooner. I lost him forever. Because I didn't take a chance to come back for him and asked for a second chance to prove that I really do love him. We could have been together till now. I just let the chance passed by. Why? simple. Its my pride. Fried chicken shit! LOL

But its all in the past now. That's 6 years ago! I'm just saying!

Lets continue!

I mean, there are countless possibilities...many opportunities that I thought could have been a happy ending if we just have the courage and...

take a a chance.

Rejections? So what! At least you tried!

But if.. what if...ah, damn! He could be the one!!!

Take a chance...that one chance in your life. Who knows, your future love is just waiting and just around the corner.

So. you, yes you!

Why are you single till now?