Mr.Italian II

We had a great chat that night.I want to share you this guys.If he found out I made an entry about this, Im sure he'll be embarrased haha.

“actually Im hesitant to go out with a stranger…”-- me

“oh what, ah ok, now Im a stranger…” --italian guy

“and besides u only known me just now,what if Im a thief or I might rob you,and you want me inside your car?LOL” --me

“uhhhh,I like it! Haha. ” --Italian guy

I told him that arabs bring Filipinos in the desert to rape them.

“Really?where?I wanna go!Is it free or I need to pay?LOL” --Italian guy. I was laughing when he said that! And I said you wanna be raped?he said “always” and I laughed harder!

“just kidding.Lets go somewhere tomorrow…”

“where?” I said

“desert,or the beach!I love the beach,or see other cities”

“waaa I don’t want to go so far with a stranger!Im afraid!” --me

“ok lets go out now so we can meet, and tomorrow we can go somewhere, so that I won’t be a stranger anymore to you…”

“you see, I heard so many stories about foreign guys,that’s why im reluctant now”

“Ok fine,tomorrow we’ll go to the mall with many people and we’ll see the fake sky intead! and we’ll freeze to death”

“Im sorry if im like this, trust issues haha”-- me,but im starting to like this guy he seems nice.”or maybe I’ll find you someone to go with you next time or introduce you to someone..” I added.

“No!forget it. Why you want to do that?” --Italian guy

“ because im such a killjoy,I feel guilty and I want you to have company” --me again

“No don’t worry, be happy ,I don’t want to push you to do anything.” --Him

I said Im eating muffin and if he wants some haha.

“Because of you I didn’t eat dinner, usually I eat at work and nothing on my fridge, I left work early I was in a hurry ready to meet you ,trying to get home at a decent time for you” now he’s making me feel really really guilty with that haha

He told me that he never likes cooking at home,I found that hard to believe that he's too lazy to cook his own food haha. He hates driving too. We talked about basically anything and im glad that I diverted the topic away from our meeting that night haha.I think this guy is cool, and he is jolly and nice. Its really late and I have work in the morning so I said goodbye.

“ok,have a good night”

“you too, wait you never give me your name yet” I asked

“Im ____”

--to be continued

How Often Do You Walk Your Dog?

Warning: The post you are about to read is perverted in nature.If you're not a pervert get your ass off here. Oh com'on! I know you're not leaving LOL!


I've talked to my good friend last time on yahoo messenger and he told me something that really bothered me.

"Mac, when I urinated this afternoon,I think I saw some semen with it."

And I was like "whaaaaattt?!" haha.I thought he was joking, but he isn't.

"This might be due to my lack of masturbation"

"Why?When was the last time you masturbate?"

"Ahm, six months ago?"

I fell off my chair!!! (napatambling ako ng bonggang-bongga mula Laguna hanggang Cavite, nahilo nga 'ko e LOL) after hearing that!Oh My Gawd! I mean, wanking is a normal guy thing right?Im sure even priests are guilty of this! LOL

My cousin even joked around when we were at the church that the reason why the priest was "moody" that day was because he wasn't able to wank! "

"Are you dead serious???!" I said

"Yeah, I know, you wont believe it but its true.For me, masturbation is a sin."

I thought to myself, if that would be a sin, I might be counting like a thousand sins already because I've been masturbating since the Dinosaur era!!! In fact there was a time in my teenage years that I was chilling and I needed to rush home to do it!why does it have to be so good ?!LOL like it has its own mind (yeah I know it has a head too!) but when it feels like it, he wont let me refuse!haha.Was that the "Demon" inside of me?

Maybe if the bathroom floor and tissues can be pregnant I already have dozens of babies LOL!!!!

"Besides I don't have that urge to do it, unlike other guys. Unlike you. I can even survive without sex!"

I cant believe it, that this guy can actually survive for six months! I cant even stand it for 3 days LOL! It feels like I can rape someone like a dog if i cant release that "white-ish-slimy-thing" inside of my "tube" haha as in nakakanginig!!!

I ended up advising him to do it that night(and begged him to do it on web cam so that I can watch LOL!) maybe it was looking for a way out, I added, it might be building up inside and might explode in the coming days!hahaha! I wonder what his boyfriend thinks?They recently got together.

Hmmm,I forgot to ask him the next day though, how it was?like how many gallons had he collected?! or nata-de-coco na ba or kaong? hahaha

How about you? Or are you like him, surviving for 6 months?!haha

Birthday Gift?

"Its my birthday on the 20th hehe wala lang...papansin lang LOL"

I found someone promising, hmmm...*wink-wink*
It started on twitter, he talked to me a little...
Then finally on May 13, he replied on my tweets, got my attention
I left for a while to have my dinner then and I saw a message on my YM account,saying:
"You never came back,I'm waiting for you at twitter..."
Hmmm....demanding haha

I smiled, I saw someone willing to talk to me, really, really wanted to talk to me
I got giddy and all haha, its been a while since I felt this funny stuffs
He said he's been following my blog since November
and that he's been trying to reach me for a while now.
"I read almost everything, from the beginning.
I'm more on the content of your blog"

I saw some of his updates on twitter while were chatting:
"I'm chatting with my dream boy right now... pls bear with me friends,Im busy with him. Gustong gusto ko kasi siya makausap ever!"
I know he's referring to me (ambisyosa ako di bah LOL)
I don't know if its right to flirt with your readers?!haha

Its been 5 days now, everyday were chatting at YM from 8pm to 5am. We even extend our chats till 6 in the morning! he just don't wanna stop! I have to remind him that the sun is up and he needs to go home! He's working on a call center and I kept him company while he works
It felt like I'm working too.LOL. Its a good thing he can chat with me while he work.

What I like about this guy is, he came to me so honest, no fuss at all
He introduce himself, gave me his real name with surname included ha! which is so rare on chatting. he showed me his picture right away too...
Even if I never asked any of them. He could easily talks about his past, his broken family, as if he wants to come clean and open with me. Im impressed.

You have a nice name, I told him
"you'll be carrying my name once were married" he said
And my eyes popped out of its socket and replied
"Waaaaa I don't wanna be the bride!" LOL and he said
"OK,fine, I'll wear the freakin' gown...just marry me!"

Maybe there's a reason why my surname on my visa was misspelled

For me to have more time with this guy?To get to know him more?

I don't know.I'm just too afraid to commit at this point in time.

I don't wanna be unfair at him.We both know I'm leaving soon.

"Don't be so pessimistic.Lets make the most out of this Mac, while it lasts.."

Out of nowhere..I don't know where it came from,I asked him

"Will you be my date on my birthday?"

"sure hehe.I will be your gift, I'll wrapped myself on a big box!"

Father And Son Story

Are you close to your father? -I'm not.

Do you love your father? -I don't.

Do you hate your father? -not anymore.

I know you're curious about my answers.Well,me and my dad had a very long history of disagreements and fights.We have this big wall between us, its too late to break it now.Even if he's trying to reach out for me,I just can't restart all over it again with him.

I like to watch Variety shows.He gets mad at me.He wants me to watch NBA or PBA!

I like staying home and read magazines and all.He gets mad.He wants me to play with the boys outside.

He wants me to play ball.But I played my friend's balls.LOL

He yell at me.I yell at him.

He said fuck you.I said fuck you too.

He pushed me.I pushed him back.

Everyday was like hell for many years.

My mom,defended me.They fight.

They're separated now.

I left home.He checked me out,because my mom wanted him to.

I hate him so much then.I wanted to put him in an elderly home when he reached old age and will let him rot in hell.And not attend his funeral.

Many years had passed.He accepted my preferences.

But I forgave him.He changed a lot.

I see him everyday.He's just an ordinary person to me now.

Like a neighbor.Like a boarder at home.

He's nice too me now.But I can't be nice to him.

Its too deep.I can't forget it.

I can't eat dinner with him at the other side of the table.

I'll loose appetite.I eat at my room.

He asked something.I answer.Just One word.

I assessed my self.I'm not angry anymore.I just don't feel anything about him.

If he dies maybe I'll cry.Maybe not.

One things is for sure.

I'll die for my Mom.

Settle For An Ave Guy?

I read from another blog that his friend was on this bar and staring at this guy he liked and later approached him and next thing you know they're flirting with each other already.I envy those guys hehe.I mean I'm not that courageous and confident about my self to approached a guy I like at a bar or somewhere where gays and bi's hang out,its just not my style and it doesn't suits me.I don't know about you,maybe some or many of you are like that.Good for you.


My way is the Internet haha.The gay sites and chat rooms.And only 10 percent are from friends referral.That's my market place.My sari sari store.Its like I'm pushing this cart and I just stop by a certain section and I choose which item to pick! I'm confident at that.I just message or let the guy notice me at the net that I think looks nice and looking for a dating buddy or someone to get to know more...if he replies"good" if not,I just go to the next section and choose again!


I have a different style,I know,but this saves me some hardships and disappointment.I don't go for guys that are out of my league or too beautiful for me.I'm careful at that.I choose guys that I think are at my level,the average looking guys.Sometimes those that are not good looking are the ones more trustworthy and might make you happy.And they tend to be the one looking as what you too are looking for.A happy and serious relationship.And I proved that to be true.

Because I believe,cute guys are for cute guys,and no cute guys will settle for an average looking guy.And those average looking guy who wants cute guys are just looking in the dark!But its their life let them be.But of course I'm not generalizing,I've been with a cute boyfriend before and we did just fine.But this is my way and I have been happy in my relationships so far.I literally follow the song "humanap ka ng panget at ibigin mong tunay" haha I just changed it to "humanap ka ng di masyadong panget at ibigin mo ng tunay"LOL

I just have some issues to settle with my self that's why I always broke up with my boyfriends before.Or maybe I don't find what I want in them yet...