Showing posts with label bisexual relationship. Show all posts
Showing posts with label bisexual relationship. Show all posts

July 3, 2012

Sa Ating Pag Iisa


Usapan na namin na darating siya nun araw na yun ng linggo. Kaya naman hindi na ko nagulat nun tinatanung nya ko sa BBM if gising na ba ako at pwde na siya pumunta sa flat ko.

Alam namin pareho kung bakit kami magkikita. Sex. Yung dapat na one night stand ay masusundan ng pangalawang beses ngayon. Two night stand na ba tawag dito? LOL

Pero this time, tamang tama lang ang oras. Hapon na siya dumating. Hindi kagaya nun last week na may ginawa kaming kababalaghan, tanghaling tapat! Kaloka.

Nun oras na maisara at mai-lock ko ang pintuan ng kwarto ko agad ko na naramdaman ang pagyakap nya mula sa likuran ko...na miss daw niya ko. Tinapik ko lang ang braso nya at sinabing: libog lang yan. Tawanan kami.

Napansin ko ang bitbit nyang plastic bags. May kalahating pakwan, isang litro ng coke, at snacku. Para daw sa akin.

Agad siyang naupo sa gilid ng kama ko at nagpalit ng pang bahay na damit. Dito siya mag stay hanggang kinabukasan. Pareho kaming walang pasok. At home na siya sa kwarto ko, kaya natatawa ako.

Habang nasa harap ako ng computer at nagbabasa ng kung ano, muli kong naramdaman ang mga yakap niya mula sa likod ko. Hinalikan nya pisngi ko.

"Ano yang binabasa mo?" tanong nya. Sinagot ko lang ng wala to. In fairness naman sa knya. Pansin ko na sweet siyang tao. Thoughtful din siya sa BBM tuwing mag memessage siya sa kin, may na-miss daw nya ko, see you soon daw, at kung kumain na ba daw ako minsan.

Gusto ko yung pagiging HUGGER nya...parang gusto nya lagi lumingkis sa akin haha. Ahas ka ba? charot!

Masasabi kong masuwerte magiging kasintahan ni Gian. Pero hindi ako yun. Ewan ko ba, ala kasi ako napi feel na excitement, or kilig kapag kasama ko siya. Wala yung hinahanap ko na sparks. Tagal ko nag antay na may dumating na guy, pero ngayon na heto sa tabi ko at nagpapakita ng interes sa akin ay bakit wala akong maisukli sa knya?

Dahil ba sa nag umpisa kami sa one night stand?

Pero binibigyan ko ng chance ang sarili ko na magustuhan siya. Heto nga at nasa bahay ko siyang muli ngayon.

Nag order kami ng bulalo at fried chicken at masaya namin itong pinagsaluhan. Madami kaming napag usapan habang kumakain. Madami siyang na i-share sa akin tungkol sa personal niyang buhay. Nag work pala siya sa isang local airline sa pinas noon bilang cabin crew at madami pang iba. Pang maalaala mo kaya nga daw ang buhay niya sa dami ng drama.

"Napapasarap ang kain ko Mac, pag kasalo kita..." sabi niya

"bolero!" sabay bato ko ng tissue sa mukha nya haha

Para na rin kami nag dinner date, nag enjoy ako. Sabay namin nilinis ang table na pinagkainan namin. Mabuti nalang lahat ng gamit ko puro disposable! mula sa plato, kutsara at baso! OO hindi ako environment-friendly! Tamad kasi ako maghugas! kundi, siya maghuhugas! chos!

Binuksan ko ang aking red lamp sa side table at pumuwesto kami sa kama habang nanonood ng ASAP sa computer ko...malamig sa loob ng room ko. Namaluktot kami sa kumot. Naramdaman ko na naman ang muling pagkayap ni Gian sa akin. Hinalikan nya ang leeg ko. Idinantay niya ang hita nya sa akin, saktong tumama sa pagkalalaki ko. Sinadya niyang dun mismo idantay. Sakto.

Agad kong naramdaman ang pagtigas nito. Inilayo ko ang hita niya. Sabi ko maganda ang palabas maya maya na yan. LOL!

Pero inaakit niya ko. Tag libog na naman si gago. Kamay na niya nakapatong sa pagkalalaki ko sa ilalim ng kumot. He's licking my neck...di na ko nakatiis nagtama ang labi namin at sinibasib ko na siya ng halik. Mas matagal this time. May pagmamadali pero andun yun sarap ng halik.

Mas gusto ko makipag halikan ng matagal. Labi sa labi. Feeling ko andun ang true essence ng dalawang soul na nagkakasundo...andun ang passion.

Hanggang sa bumaba ang halik niya sa didbdib ko...halinhinan niya itong sinamba...pababa sa puson ko at hanggang sa tuluyan na niyang ilantad ang aking pagkalalaki...agad niya itong isinubo at nilaro...napapaigtad ako tuwing isasagad niya ito sa knyang bibig...hindi ko mapigilan ang mapadaing sa sarap...

Napapasabunot nalang ako sa mga buhok niya sa paghanap ng suporta. Magaling si Gian sa larangan na ito ng pakikipagtalik. Wala akong binatbat sa knya. At hindi ko kaya yun baka magkanda suka suka ako! LOL

This time masasabi kong na enjoy ko ang pakikipag niig sa knya. Mas naramdaman ko ang sarap. Mas andun ang satisfaction kumpara nun unang gabi namin. Kaya naman bago matapos ang gabi ay masaya kami nahiga at natulog.


Kulet nya, pichur-pichur naman daw kami, so yun pinagbigyan ko naman

Kinuha ko ang wax earplugs ko at isinaksak sa tenga ko! Kelangan ko makatulog ngayong gabi sabi ko sa knya! haha. Last time kasi super sabog ako sa puyat dahil sa pag hihilik niya.

Mahilig pa naman si Gian matulog ng nakadantay ang mga hita sa akin, naka akap mula sa likuran ko. Mahilig makipag-spooning. At kapag nakaganun siya sa akin, nakatapat lagi ang mukha niya sa batok ko or sa may tenga ko, pano naman ako makakatulog nun di ba? LOL

Infairness naman epektib ang dinugas ko pamasak sa tenga sa MRI room ng ospital at nakatulog aketch. Ginising ko Gian nung alas siyete na ng umaga. Pero umisa pa muna kami bago siya umiwi! Alam nyo na, with the morning erection and all. Ayun, nag amoy clorox na naman sa buong kwarto.

April 15, 2010

What Have Just Happened?!


I came home from a night shift, and EDC text me good morning, today marked our 2oth day as boyfriends, yeah, a long distance relationship. So far we are surviving, sms, calls, chats, and web cams. Too many plans are made, we were both excited this coming July where we could be united when I get my yearly vacation.

As usual we did chat, usual how are you's and I love you's, I told him I'm having tortang talong for breakfast, until sweet conversation turned sour!and spicy too!LOL. I was surprised that I had so much to say, and him as well, we are definitely fighting. My angel that was so gentle became a lion, we threw hurtful words towards each other.

"you don't love me the way I love you" I said

"nah, you don't love me the way I love you!' he snapped.

"you don't appreciate the things that I do. OK. I'm done..." he continued

" you don't have the initiative to do normal bf usually does..." ---me

"because you cant wait for me to do it!"--EDC

I wont go into details other things we said. We are both convinced that its not working. He said we have completely different views about relationship. I said, because you don't wanna meet halfway. I'm trying to reach him but he was so confined with his own ideas of things. He don't wanna give my ideas a try.

"You're childish Mac, grow up. You're expecting too much" He said. I cant believe he said that! That moron! I was hurt. In respond I typed these words to get back at him:

"Yeah maybe this really is a mistake. We just don't click." yeah I knew it hurt him so bad.
One thing for sure at that moment, I was totally turned off and about to say the magic words: Its over. I'm just waiting for the right time.

"So its over?" he asked. I felt his insecurity in that question. Should I say it now? My mind's saying 'yes, do it'. I typed these: Maybe it should be better if we stay friends. He said if that's what I want, its OK with him.

"I would miss you, you take good care of yourself 'ayt?" my parting words. There was a pause in him I thought he's already gone on the other end. Until he sent another message:

"I asked you if you are sure about this (our relationship) from the very start. You said you are. I also asked you we would encounter many trials, and you said, you can do it, you are very sure...but how come you're the one giving up?"

Those words almost killed me. I felt like he became a kid, a kid being ignored, a kid being so hopeless...I just wanna come where he was and hug him...

Until he sent me a draft of his blog entry that he wasn't able to finish yet. I almost cried when I read them. It felt so sincere and loving. I sighed....

"Let's just think this through, maybe you're not ready for this yet..." I composed my self and said. "I will always be here, loving you. I will be loving you on this far side of the world until you're ready..."

"You made me cry...I am ready Mac, but please try to understand that Im slowly building up myself again, picking up the pieces, I dont wanna feel the pain anymore, if I would have that kind of pain again, like what's happening between us now, I might not able to stand it..." he said.

I told him that we should think, and enough with the fighting already.

He typed :"So, we're over, right?

"tell me what do you want?"--me

A pause again.

"I want you to be with me, you're the only one I have left...you're the only I trust, you're the only one I dreamed of..." he said.

Juice ko di ko kinaya yun...!bumigay ako mga 'neng...LOL. mahal ko siya waaah!

I told him we should relax first and have a breather and think all through what has been said, that we would talk soon.

"Is this our last chat? Will I ever talk to you again?" him

"No, i love you so much that it aches..."me

"I love you so much that I dont care even if its aches..."

This was our exact conversation in tagalog before we said goodbye, sorry to my foreign readers hehe.

"Di ko tuloy natapos tong tortang talong ko...kaw kasi! (now I wasn't able to finish my breakfast, its your fault!)" I said instead, enough of the dramatics already.

"Gago ka Mac! Wag mo ko iiwan, mahal na mahal kita! (Damn you Mac! Dont ever leave me, I love you so much)" he replied, I knew the tension was over and I smiled with his words typical SIGA attitude of him. "Im sorry for all my shortcoming"

"I love you too, umayos ka kasi!" --me

"Kakagatin kita diyan e! mag sorry ka din ngayon na!"--him

"ok sorry na."-- me

"Galing sa ilong! Yun sincere naman, isa...dalawa..." he jokingly threatened me if I dont apologize hehe. "tatapukin kita jan, mag sorry ka din sakin"

"mahal na mahal kita, wag ka na nga magdrama at mag inarte diyan, tama na ang emote, puyat ka lang kaya ka ganyan..."he continued.

"Hindi ako maarte noh, kasi manhid ka"--me

"Kasi nga na pe-preempt mo yun mga balak ko, nawawala diskarte ko"--EDC

"E bilisan mo noh!"-- me

"mag antay ka kasi, ikaw din dami aali-aligid sakin.."--EDC

"Aba subukan mo lang tsi-tsinelasin kita diyan gusto mo???"--me

Sigh, I dont know why I love him inspite of this...Up to now I dont know what just happened, I was so sure I wanna break up with him earlier and turned out we're still together afterall! haha.


I just laughed so loud in my room. Maybe I am really crazy! Nyahaha!

March 20, 2010

One Day Soon


I am blessed with some of the good things in this world.

Only one thing that is missing in my life...

You.

Is it too selfish to pray to have you? Will our creator thinks that I asked too much? is it true if your successful at your respective careers, it is to expect your love life would suck? That you cannot have it all?

Oh, I wanna come home right this moment and give him a big hug, been longing to kiss the side of his lips before I could take them fully with my own lips...

I hope fate could give us the chance to be together...the guy that I have been praying for all my life, the guy I know who could love me, and I could love till our hair turns gray...

I could only hope and dream of you each night on my side and say: No matter what the day turned out to be, good or bad, whenever you open that door, I will be forever someone you could come home to.

One day soon.

February 24, 2009

Guess What!

Hay after a while I've been thinking whether to comply or not to the TAGGING made by Umleo (i hate chu) and Flamindevil(you chu hehe) last month. I visited other blogs that they tagged too and already made their part of the tagging I suddenly felt guilty since the two of them are nice to me (naks!) so now Im giving you 9 things true about me and one hoax.GUESS!
  1. I was born and raised here in Laguna.I only have one sister who is now married.(in other word we are sisters LOL) I was so thin when I was growing up,I always wanted to gain weight.I ate a lot but still not getting extra pounds.Its have something to do with my metabolism,but when I reached 20 plus I started becoming fat that it bothers me already haha!But now I'm happy with my current body built.

  2. When I graduated in college that's when I discovered gay sex,its like I'm having a sexual revolution.It was a lot of fun meeting and dating and fucking guys!I was like a sex machine way back then.All one night stands.Then after 2 or 3 years living a life like that,I got sick and tired of it.I searched for more meanings,I wanted more than sex,I want to experience love and be loved.Then they came.They go.They came again.But it was all worth it.I love being in a relationship,even if 50 percent of it are heartaches but I'm still looking forward to the other 50 percent of love,companionship's,friendships,and happiness it can give me.

  3. I'm close to my mom than my dad.I miss her,she's in Dubai right now.When I start working abroad I'll ask her to quit her job and stay at home and I'll just send her money and be at the spa everyday!haha.She could have a manicure every hour if she like till it bleeds!LOL

  4. One main reason why I'm so eager to work abroad is that I wanna prove something to myself,because I am 29 years old already turning 30 this May 20 by the way hehe,and I still haven't achieved anything yet.Yes I am successful at work,in fact I'm good at it,but in terms of financial stability,I don't have that.


  5. I wanna save up so that I can buy my own house and lot.Me and my future special someone will live in that house and we will fill the walls and halls of semen I mean of love and laughter! I hope he's just somewhere and I know god will find a way for our paths to meet along the way.I can feel it.


  6. When I was just a hospital intern I had this upset stomach and I have to unload and I had no choice but to run at SM North Edsa's CR haha.When I came out of the cubicle the people are like "ang baho naman!" deadma lang ako,paki ko taeng tae na e!"

  7. I was on duty that time and this cute guy was transferred to ICU because of an attempted suicide (he took a chemical I forgot what it is already) because take not,his gf was breaking up with him!Shacks! And the nurses are giving him a bath to wash out some chemicals at his skin and I pretended to be a nurse so that I can participate in the bathing of that cute naked guy at the CR!He's hairy and OH my...gifted!Yummy!haha


  8. I don't know how to punch anyone haha,Im not effem ok (defensive?haha) its just that I've never been to any serious fights before I mean,no physical matter involve, just pouring of some acid at the face!LOL! or just taking a number of hairs and with a little doll and some needle,and that's it!

  9. In all my relationship I never tried sucking at least once!I don't know,I felt like I cant do it.They asked me to do it,but I just cant.I'm glad they didn't insist on me doing it or they just love me that much?Hmmm maybe hehe.

  10. I was harassed twice while riding the bus going to work.Someone sat beside me and next thing I knew he's slowly touching my leg and moving at my genitals (well,I allowed it so technically it was consensual LOL) I don't know,it gave me a feeling of being lust about haha.Till he slipped his hands inside my pants and let him played my "patutut" but i never came because I'm about to reached the hospital so, sorry for him haha.The other one was when Im riding a van from festival mall alabang going back to laguna,and this guy touched the tip of my little finger,I was pretending to be asleep hehe.I allowed it,I wanna know how far he's at it.We were sitting at the back and there's only two of us left there and its so dark that no one will notice.Until he sucked me and I almost came.Unfortunately we reached the terminal.He's inviting me to a nearby motel but I refused.
So that's it guys! Its up to you to find out which one is the hoax! Good luck!I wont be tagging anyone so that I will receive good karma and no one will tag me again (?) so don't worry haha I will just cut off the curse for now LOL.

December 17, 2008

Tips On Finding Your Guy

I was thinking,If you are single,a single gay guy or bisexual or whatever gays call themselves now where's the right place to look for your partner or someone that can we call our boyfriend?Well atleast that is for those looking for love.Here are some of where you can find them:
  • At the mall --or any public place.well this is obviously one good way,if you like that guy and you seems confident enough about yourself why not approach the guy and introduce yourself.Well for me i never done this haha,This is for the cute one's who have the guts and what it takes not to be rejected.Well ofcourse be sure that this guy is gay/bi too,if not galingan nyo umilag kapag sinapak kayo!hahaha.Or do a gimik like you accidentally bumped into him"Oh im sorry i didnt see you!by the way whats ur name?"haha thats is a lame pick up line I guess just come uo with something original or funny.
  • Coffee shop -- this is a place where gays usually hang out!They love starbucks!
  • Gay events -- just like the gay parade that just held.Or some gay bloggers party if you are a blogger or a fan of a blog.
  • Gay club/bars --this is self explanatory.If you are a party animal,this is the right place,but be careful with the hookers and call boys always act with caution hehe baka mapatay ka kapag may tinake home ka!Always stay at the place that are public like the coffee shop or a cozy resto if you have an acquantance.
  • At work -- well if you noticed someone that you might suspect or think that he is gay that likes you or you like,why not befriend him,who knows you might get there.There's nothing wrong in trying,you will never know what will happen if you dont try right?Well there's some disadavantages of a co-worker though.You will see him regurlarly and sometimes its annoying!haha
  • Bathroom -- personally i dont recommend this!its so cheap haha.What will happen if a friend ask you "oh guys where did you meet?" and you will say "ah,at this mall's bathroom!"haha.They might think he's a call boy or something!
  • Chatroom -- this is my forte haha!There's lot of gay chatroom or website out there,who is a base of all like us,some are looking for friends,relationships and ofcourse the hook-ups.You just have to know what are you looking for.Some pretend that they are looking for relationship but in reality they just want sex.
A little tip: try guys4men.com for instance,browse the guy's profile out there,read whats in there,some guys put real stuff there about themselves,that they are also loooking for their mr.right.if you like what you saw,message them,let them know you're interested and if they answer,great.And if not move to the next guy.Try to asses your self,how you look,then look for guys that you might think at your level.I mean if you are average looking or not given the cuteness dont message guys that are out of your league you know what I mean,because for sure you will only get snobbed!

Or try the chatrooms,some guys they advertise the "serious relationships ads" or "looking for sensible chat ads"messaged them.It doesnt mean that because they post that ads means that its a realtionship at an instant,ofcourse there is a process,first you chat,friendly chat at first,exchange pictures(put your nicest pic) then if you have a good time chatting,you'll exchange mobile numbers then you will set a date and then just see what will happen if there is a sparks.

Well i hope this stuff helps!This is just my opinion Im no proffesional you know,so dont criticise me like this or like that.haha.Anyway goodnight!

(photos are from masterbasian.ning.com)