Mac-Boys Series: Jeff

This will be a series about boys and real experiences as they gave me lessons and memories to complete me as a person to what I am now.Once in awhile I will continue to share stories about them so watch out for every story of heartache and joy of "Mac-Boys Series".(naks!parang Bud Brothers lang!LOL)


Year 2001, just graduated from college, and text mates was so cool that time, the more, the better, I remember using my nokia 5110 haha my gosh its so big and bulky, only 20 messages can be stored at the inbox!Imagine that!

Meet Jeff, 23 years old that time,a physical therapist, he was a constant text mate and we decided to meet. I'm so excited because he was my first eyeball.In my mind we are good match since we are both therapist. My first on everything...He went all the way to Laguna from Pasay just to meet me.I took him home!(landi noh?!) My parents were both working abroad that time and my sister was out, so the house was all ours!

I was sweating with anticipation, I knew what was coming.This is my initiation. I just don't know how to start it. I left everything to him, since I'm a virgin! We ate dinner and watched tv for a while, I wanted to force him to do it already LOL! "Aren't you sleepy yet?" I asked him "not yet,I like this program" he said.

My manhood was throbbing like crazy inside my pants and he wanted to watch TV instead?! When finally the time came to go inside my room, i felt like having a convulsion with excitement,(as in nanginginig ako!) we're lying on the bed together, close, he moved much closer, i could feel his hairy legs over mine, my gosh, it's ticklish...i love the feeling of someone's skin on me...

That's just the legs mind you!haha. I stayed still, waiting...maybe he got impatient with my mannequin-like-status, he moved on top of me and started kissing me...I don't know how to do it, I just do what he does in return and he moaned with pleasure, so I'm sure I'm doing it right. I love it when he's licking my neck and earlobes...its my weakness haha

"This is your first time, right?" he whispered to my ear

I started licking his neck too, it tasted salty, i remembered we didn't take a shower first!LOL. What the heck! Just go on lick and eat all the dirt on his body! He licked every area of my hot body too, kidding! i was on top of him, its a great sensation, body to body, heat on heat, till now i can still remember how it felt the first time.

When suddenly he whispered "s*ck me.." and I froze....I don't wanna do it, not yet. I'm not ready. "I can't...I'm sorry..." I hesitantly answered. He looked disappointed, but i really don't wanna do it haha, I never did it before, and I'm sure I don't wanna do it yet. He didn't suck me too, maybe his punishment on me!

He started rubbing his manhood on mine. It made me delirious! It sent a thousand voltage of sensation.Until he came....leaving me wanting more. He said "sorry I cant hold it anymore...." and I stood and said "no, its alright" and went to the bathroom to clean my self from all of his juices LOL! And I'm so pissed he didn't wait for me!I read somewhere that he should wait for his partner to finish too.What an inconsiderate ass hole!

When I came back of the room he was snoring already. I turned off the lights and went to sleep.The next morning,I woke him up,I wanted him to leave while its still dark,I don't want to draw attention from my neighbors and started gossiping about me.He kissed me on the lips before leaving and said "thank you,I had a great time".

I waited for a text after that,but there's none,the next day,still no word from him...I asked "how are you?why are you not texting me back?" In my naive and stupid mind,i thought we could still be constant text mate and do it all again....like boyfriends....instead I received this:

"Its just a one time thing.A one night stand.Forget about me".

Honestly I cried.My first disappointment with gay guys.My first rejection.

I realized I still have a lot to learn. About this gay stuff. About sex and some asshole like him!

I decided that I wont show my real feelings to any guys just like that.

They play around.I will play around too.

For three years,I did.Non-stop sex with every guys I meet.

My sexual exploration.

--to be continued.

Older and Wiser Me

Its annoying when you received text messages from someone you don't know and when you asked them "who are you?where did you get my number?" and they would just answer you " someone sent me your number I don't know who it was" and all I can think of helloooo this gimmick is so pre historic! For sure they know who sent them my number they just don't wanna say it!

And one time I received something like "ah,I saw your number at friendster" and I would say I didn't even post my ym ID at my account there why would I even post my number!hayyy people just don't think of a better alibi or something you know the one worth convincing,why cant they just tell where they got it?

Well,I don't text them anymore, its so lame.

But there was this time that I cant forget,it happened around 8 years ago,someone texted me and said "hi I saw your number at the CR of Starmall,care to be my text mate?" OMG this is totally absurd! I couldn't believe it at first imagine mall CR!!!!and starmall!!!and when a second text and third came from different persons who told me the same thing I was convinced someone was messing with me!Or someone might have a grudge on me and this is his way of getting back at me!

Then it strike me,there was this guy that I supposed to meet,my text mate I never saw his picture then,because at that time texting was your way of getting a date or to meet someone of the same sex unlike now Internet is so popular and you could see the picture of your date beforehand,we decided to meet at this mall and he described what he was wearing,he said he's in a red shirt and khaki pants with a small bag,I was first to arrived there so that I will have the first look at my eyeball hehe and I said I'm wearing blue but in reality I was wearing a white shirt.

I'm so immature then,when I'm thinking about it now, I'm so inconsiderate and bad.When I saw him from a distance coming,I freaked out!He was so out of what I'm expecting..he looks old for his age,and dark you know dark-dark and rough skinned...big belly just like the policeman,come to think of it he looks like a policeman in his civilian clothes! My eyes wide opened when I realizes he was my date!and I said to myself I cant face someone like that I don't like him!So I flew away and get out of the mall as fast as I can!

He texted me and said where I am I just said "oh I got to rush home my sister texted me!" and he didn't believe it, me myself couldn't believe that lie and he said "cursed you!you just don't wanna meet me!Fuck you!" I cant blamed him,i mean what I did was so mean and unfair...and I know he was the one who put my number with a message "text me I'm a whore" at those mall comfort room,I immediately changed my number after that.

I regret that thing in the past,now I can say I've grown and become mature in meeting my dates and eyeballs...and considerate too,Of course it happens to all of us,I mean there will be guys that we don't like when we meet them,and there are guys that we like but don't like us...rejections...its part of gay life...

Now whenever I meet someone that i think is not my type,I just go on with the date,I dont say Oh,I changed my mind I gotta rush somewhere else...guys its immature.I'm telling you hehe.I still spend time with him,and talk,I mean he is a human being too,he deserves that,and if I'm in his position i wanna be treated good too,not like a trash that if doesn't match your standards you just leave and on.I believe in karma.

Of course the after-date-text is important...Its like "oh no will he still text me?.he's not texting me..." I just text them and say,thanks for the time and nice knowing you.We could be good friends.That's it,he got it already that you only like to be friends with him.Unlike guys who would not text at all!That's rude!

I guess its true that when you become older,you become more mature and wiser.

Rejections...

"How could you make a move to tell someone how you really feel...
...If you already feel the rejection even without words."

Its really funny...a friend of mine texted this just for the heck of it and its really really how I feel right now, for Mike.I'm planning to get involved with him and get to know more of him and yet I already feel the rejection by his actions through the "avoiding and ignoring..." *sigh*

Just Some Truths

The truth :

• Not all guys that are cute on their photos are really cute in person-- some of them are just photogenic. Some looks cute due to proper lighting, angle, and even photoshopped!
• Dont be choosy especially if there's not much to choose from!
• Sometimes a wrong sent text/sms messages are not really wrong sent--it is the way of the other party to be noticed by not being obvious.
  
• Just because he always talks to you,chat with you,calls you,or invites you means he's into you or will court you eventually--there are guys whose just sweet and friendly, and flirt!
• It is true that its wonderful to be single.Night out,no hassles,you can do anything without someone telling you not to,you can fuck anyone,you can party all night---but after all the fun and you are alone at your dark room.Are you still happy? Its more fun to have someone waiting for you and tell you "where the hell have you been????!Now take off your clothes!haha
  

(source: my textmates!hehe)