Is it OK to have fun?
With the current financial state my mom is in right now abroad...
With the health of my brother in law right now. His everyday radiation and weekly chemotherapy...
With the stress my sister are facing right now. Taking care of her ill husband...taking care of the kids...taking care of piles of hospital bills...
The countless trips to government agencies for financial supports...
I know my sister could break down... any minute...but she's hanging in there... fighting. Stronger every day. I thank God for that.
I have been thinking a lot when I'm at home trying to find a solution. Praying.
I celebrated my birthday two weeks ago with just a couple of friends to save money, I don't wanna be wreckless in spending too much, I told myself, its just my birthday and this too shall pass just like any ordinary day and they did impressed me when each one brought foods and drinks just to complete my special day.
I am blessed to have caring and loving friends :-)
Is it okay to be happy?
To be happy with my friends? To go out and hang out with them?
To laugh and crack jokes that as if I'm having the time of my life?
I do feel guilty each time...
I feel that I should be alone...feel whats my mom and sister are feeling right now...lock down myself inside the four corners of my room...
Do I have the right to be OK?
