If you're a follower of my blog you could have figured out by now that I'm no good with keeping my relationships longer! I sometimes thought, I'm such a failure with this! Grrrrrr! No matter how I badly wanted to have a long lasting relationship...It all ends to one thing. Break up.
When I sensed that its about to end, I took the first move to end it. I don't know, maybe I'm afraid to hear it from them so, I would gladly take the initiative to end it myself.
My last was a disaster! I couldn't believe I entered that one in the first place LOL! I regret that I have been so trusting...yun lang!
Too many boyfriends have come and go...all started well and fun, but eventually, love fades...all what's left was pain and regret. Or have I ever found love?
When someone asked how many did you have? I always find shame in answering them, I'm not proud of collecting boyfriends contrary to what others believe. Because its a proof of my failure.
Its my long time dream to have a permanent guy on my side...someone who I could tell stories, someone I could share how my day was...someone who could comfort me and say its all right Mac. Eventually live on one house for us to stay with till we grow old together.
We could all agree that finding the right guy is not as easy as buying something at the store. It takes time. Its takes too much emotions. Rejections and heartaches. Many have been searching for that someone. And they're still looking.
On my case I have found and lost them. Too many times. Maybe its my fault or them. I don't know. But what I do know, I could have done something. I could have fight for it. I could have been patient. So many could have beens...
So now, with Clayton. Maybe I'm a matured Mac this time. Tested by time. Tested by experience, good and bad. I'm tired of looking for that special someone and let them slipped off my finger. This time I won't take it so easy. For love is patient, for love is sacrifice (kaya jakol nalang muna LOL), and for love is trusting.
I hope we could make it. I have a four month period most of the time. I'm determined to make it at least five this time! Kidding!
Clayton, good luck to us. Let's make it work. Lets make a love story, a love story that is so happy, a little complicated, less sacrifices but full of love. Here's a toast for our forever...
I love you Clayton, gaya nga ng sabi mo last time: Mac-ko, mahal kita, trust me on that, mahal kita na singlakas ni bagyong Glenda. Napatawa mo 'ko sa kakornihan mo. Nasabi ko nalang sa sarili mo, bumanat na naman ang asawa kong abnoy! LOL
This is me cam-whoring at the hospital while at work LOL!
