Rejected

All signs leads to only one conclusion:

He's just not into me.

He's hiding on face book and if we're chatting, he would just leave, and won't take my calls every time I tried to talk to him. He's saying no indirectly on my invites to go out.

Yeah. I think R.A is rejecting me. I'm rejected. Lets say it all together now. Rejected.

Sa madaling sabi: Basted ang Mac...(insert hysteric cry...)

I wanna die.....

Chos!

So, I thought to myself. OK, fine, go on with your life and hang yourself when you can't take it anymore! hahaha.

Henywayz, due to stress, I've gained weight, slight :-) been eating too much lately. Been becoming emo lately too. Pero I know this shall pass too. All I need is a good porn! chos!

For 5 days, I've been avoiding R.A na, kung ayaw mo wag mo ang drama ko haha. Yes! Ampalaya ako! nuknukan ng pait!

Well, I'm trying to avoid him. Just being casual and polite towards him. I don't have a choice, I don't wanna be way too close with him and get hurt, right? So, I have to keep my distance and keep off the grass!LOL

Its funny seeing Darkguy and R.A and me on one ICU, working together...my past and my supposedly future! Toink!

(wala silang kamalay malay that Darkguy and me used to f*ck! take note: USED TO.)

My colleague told me that R.A asked him:

"galit sakin 'yang kasama mo noh? (refererring to me)"
(your partner hates me, isn't?)

O, di ba atleast kunyari affected siya!

Sigh, my love life sucks! Can someone just come along and save me? :-)

Jan na nga kayo makakanta nalang sa videoke ng I just need somebody to love ni justine bieber LOL

(Read related posts about R.A here)

Its Cold Outside

Its past midnight here and its really cold outside. I am sitting in my couch and listening to the sound of silence. Its really quiet tonight.

I didn't realize that I'm that lonely till now. Its been two months since I broke up with my last boyfriend. I didn't have time to mourn on that another failed relationship, I was so damn busy that I didn't have time to get the feeling of regret of losing him.

Next thing I knew, I already moved on and there's no pain left to remember. I couldn't even care to think. Being too f*ckin' busy was one hell of a great way to move on! LOL

And yeah, another failed relationship. I know.

Hay, what else is new right? If you were a follower of my blog you might have been thinking..."Mac really sucks on having a relationship longer than 4 months!" How many guys I've dated and broke up in the end. This blog is my witness on all of that.

Maybe its me. Yeah, I think maybe its me.

Did I give too much that I suffocated them? Or they just didn't love me like the way I thought they did?

All I wanna do is to love someone...

To give love and to experience love. I want to have that feeling of being cared for. That feeling of being significant. I want to live again.

I missed those hugs and kisses and sweet words and romance...

Many times I loved. Being loved...and ends up disappointed. Hurt. And lost. Whats keeping "it" to find me. I've been waiting and ready for a long time...

But no matter how many times I get down and hurt by this thing called love, I would never give up on LOVE. Its one of the greatest feelings in the world. Do you agree? hehehe.

Damn, this cold weather's making me lonely.

Goodnight everyone... :-(

Closed Book

This news just came through.Mainit-init pa.

Me and RR are no more.

You heard me right.We're history.

Funny,to think that we never really been together hehe

Hint:
It's just that his thing,is not my thing,period.

I erased everything.Its my way of moving on.So that I wont be able to contact him in any way and beg for him to come back and take me.LOL!