Sisterly

I only have one sibling, and that is my sister, I'm just a year older than her and I could still remember very clearly how we were when we're young.

We are like cats and dogs. We fight all the time. Literally. I don't remember a time that we never get jealous of anything. So my parents have to get me something if they gave anything for my sister or else...it would be chaos in the house!LOL

So if she received a doll, they have to give me a doll too!

Kidding!!!

Of course, i would love to have a car or a gun during those times...ano bah!!! (hawi ng bangs!chos!)

When we're fighting, it was like a wrestling match. I would pull her hair and dragged her accross the living room while she screams for help! Ibabalibag ko pa ulo nya saan-saan sa gigil ko!

And if she has the advantage over me, she would use a wet towel and lashed it on my face! and it would leave a reddish mark on my face and I would cry so hard till my mom comes! LOL

Fighting over who would wash the dishes was also a classic one! Sometimes it would take a whole day who would surrender to wash them till my mom arrives and beat us both! hahaha

Those memories makes me smile. We came a long way. Me and her. We are both adults now and she is married to a great guy and having a cute 7 year old boy and another one on the way.

Our relationship somehow changed and we became matured and responsible. I came OUT on her first and accepted me wholeheartedly.

Whenever I'm on vacation back home, she never fails to make my stay worthwhile. She prepared and cooked my favorite foods. Pag nag request ako ng kakainin, later on, andun na yun sa lamesa. She's making sure I'm comfortable and contented.

Especially my last vacation this year...we are closer than ever. Most of the time we go out together. Just the two of us. And always reminding me how to be careful in choosing someone to date and who to fall inlove with.

"Ayoko masaksak ka sa motel tanga ka!" her famous line whenever I go out alone and meet someone or go on a date.

Sometimes I felt that she's the one older. Because, she thinks much wiser than me. Last year when I had my first vacation and its my flight back to the middle east when she hugged me I felt really awkward because Im not really the hugging type of person when it comes to family members.

But this year, when I'm about to leave and say my good byes to them again, my body automatically approached her and hugged her really tight this time. I never felt awkward at all...

We are really different now. And we are both grown ups who loves each other. And besides, I know she will be there for me no matter what.

And I know she would take care of me when I'm old and...alone.

Walang Gaguhan

I have a bad schedule at work this week and due to time differences, me and Clayton had a hard time catching' each other online like we used to do for the past weeks since I arrived here. Though we text every day, but we like online chat better.

He suggested he would wake up at 4 in the morning, Philippine time, its 11pm here. But I told him its so unfair on his side. But he insisted. So i just told him to make it 5am there, that would make 12am here.

I felt bad about him waking up on a Sunday morning soooo early haha!

But you know what? Its kinda make me feel special...ayayay!

May kilig factor!

Sweet!

He had his first paycheck and he was so excited telling me how much he earned and I'm proud of him. Told me he gave half to his mom and the rest he will save at the bank...

"I'll be saving up so that when you come back next year, I will be treating you to anywhere you wanna go, anywhere you wanna eat without you spending a single penny..." he said

That gave a smile to my face. He deserves everything that's happening on his life right now, his loving family, great friends, new job, and having me!!! toinks! haha

"If someone fall out of love, or got tired of the other, or met a new guy...please let the other guy know, OK?" --me

"Yeah, that's what I want too, to tell it straight, walang gaguhan...(no cheating) I want an honest relationship." he answered.

I had that conversation with him because let's face it, we are miles away from each other, though we love each other, we never know what might happens next...or someone will come and suddenly you don't love your boyfriend anymore, though its tragic but, what to do?

"I think its you who would get tired of me first" I teased

"Really????you have your Brian! Is he courting you, anyway? Tell me...seriously?" he asked

"No. I told him I'm happy with you." I assured him

"I got a feeling he will try to take you from me...I just feel it." he continued. But I tried to convinced him Im not going to waste what we have just like that.

"You love me?" --me

"Yes. Too much. As in uber." --Clayton

"Hahaha. You're good now ha! nabobola mo na ko!" --me

After two hours:

"Go to sleep Mac, you need to rest! Stop chatting with anyone else" --Clayton

"You go ahead. I'll sleep at 4 o'clock...hahaha" --me trying to annoy him. I'm not really chatting with anyone else aside from him. He's worried that I might flirt with some gay guy and he's jealous hehe.

"Potaena matulog ka naaaaaaaaaaaaa!(F*ck! go to sleep!!!!) Do you want me to beat you?! enough chatting Mac. I'm serious please stop chatting. Go to sleep its 2am already." --Clayton

"yeah, yeah, I will log out now, but you go ahead first..." I was really laughing while typing those words. I knew he is really annoyed.

" ..|.."

he sent me that instead. Fuck you sign. hahaha!

"lets sign off together, nowww!"

"OK, OK!"

Don't tell him but, I didn't sign off

just clicked "invisible mode"

*wink* wink*

Reunited

My sister woke me up this afternoon and told me that Brian,my ex boyfriend,arrived and he's at our living room.I told her "im still sleepy" but she kept on banging my door for me to stand up and face my visitor.I had no choice but to rise from the bed one hour early than my alarm time.And there he was,after a year...Brian.Wearing a yellow polo shirt,sitting at our sofa.I dont know how many ex-bf I had I lost count already!haha maybe they're dead or what!(knock on wood!)

I was told that my sister fetched him up at the terminal because he wasn't familiar with the place anymore(?)that he has been texting me for the last two hours but I was sound asleep haha!After he got tired of texting me,he texted my sister instead to wake me up.Im glad my sister did the fetching.I hate fetching!(It so happened that she have to withdraw some cash this afternoon,thats why she didn't bother to wake me up and picked up my demanding ex-bf!)

He could go anytime at our house,I mean he's been here for like a hundred times in our 8months relationship.He just wanted to feel special that's why he asked to be picked-up.Brian has always been like that,he wanted me to pick him up at the bus terminal and accompany him back when he's going back to manila(I accused him of pa-girl with this attitude).Most of the time I didn't oblige,then he'll get mad at me haha but I don't mind,whatever.

I asked him why he's here?he said "i missed your sis and your nephew' (and I just thought to my self :blah-blah-blah whatev) I know he missed me!hah! am I conceited or what?! haha.Me and Brian have been friends after we broke up,we've been texting once in awhile.Sometimes if I don't reply at his text right away he would say :what's taking you to reply so long?" and I was like..hmm,demanding?!But i would explain to him,i don't know why I did!

I could sense a little jealousy when he asked me how many boyfriend did I had since we broke up and I said "there's three" and he just said trying to hide the emotions with "ang galing ha!" he never had a bf after me,that it is his choice, "bf's are only giving me headaches"he added.He was a graduate of Nursing and waiting for his board exam result.He applied for a med rep position at Manila while waiting.

Then I asked him to put his bag inside my room,then he took a bath and I was like"hmmm,this reminds me of when were together and taking a bath was one of our rituals before making love...(devilish grin) hehehe and I was like thinking dirty while he's taking a bath,I hid the lube under the bed for easy access LOL!Then he borrowed my shorts and T-shirts and lay down my bed and turned on my TV.

Then I locked my room's door secretly and I went to bed with him and I hugged him from behind and started giving him feathery touches,he didn't resist and I was like Oh my he still likes me.Then I was about to kiss him and then he moved his mouth away,then I chased it and he moved away again and chased it again and finally catched his lips and I kissed him hungrily...I was about to insert my tongue inside when he breaks our kiss and said...

Brian: "stop,stop,I don't want this,were not together "
Me:"so what?we could still kiss and have sex!"
Brian: "I don't do SEB!" he snapped
Me:"hahaha but this is not SEB!You knew me for a long time!"
Brian:"whatever!I don't wanna have sex with someone who is not my bf"
Me:"fine,then I'm your boyfriend tonight!"ha ha

And he was like furious that he realized that I only want to get laid tonight!ha ha which is the truth by the way!I don't feel the same way towards him anymore I mean there's still some memories of him and I still care for him but love?I don't think so.Maybe if we spend more time together the feelings might come back.But I noticed he is more ticklish now than before,he has never been with anyone for a year now he said.

He kept on refusing but I was persistent I kept on chasing his lips and grabbing his nipples and then he stopped fighting,finally he got carried away by my sweet lips and tongue LOL just like in the movies, he closed his eyes and hold my face while kissing him gently and I grabbed his undies and then he was on red alert again!he broke away from my kiss!ha ha.What a self control he had!Whew!

Then I snapped at him and said "what is your problem???" he said "we are not together,its not like before that you could kiss and make love to me anytime you want,we could just hug here at the bed instead" and I said "but why?I missed you and I want you now"(I sounded desperate) Then I tried to kiss his neck and shoulders and he loose the control again and allowed me for a minute and stoped me once again that's when I stop pursuing him anymore,I'm mad at him!I want to have sex!!!Waaaa!

"Ang arte mo!ewan!" I said and went to my computer and started to read my mails.

We ate dinner and pretend nothing happened so that my family wont see were fighting.When were watching TV at my room again and I was typing this post he said:

"come over here..."
"Why..?"-me
"just come here!" (with his hands inviting me to lay down beside him)
"no."I said
"hmp,now its you who's maarte!"
"talaga!"
"you'll sleep at the airbed" -I added

But now,I got so into reading some blogs and I realized he's snoring at my bed and I don't have the heart to wake the bastard to move to the airbed on the floor!Waaaa!

(to be continued...)