Run To You

With everything that's been goin' on with our family right now...the situation with my mom and the health situations with my sister's family...

Half of the weights are on my shoulders at this moment... and it felt heavy...a little too heavy to carry. I didn't say this much to them...I'm not complaining though. I don't want them to worry about me too.

Playing tough...a tough son...brother.

I just pray to God that everything will be over soon and that everything would be back as what it was before...

With everything that's been goin' on right now...

I just wanna run to you and tell me everything would be ok...

Kiss away my worries...give me butterfly kisses at night...

Hug away the stress I'm holding...no talking...

Just hold me...

I guess, all I'm saying is...I just need someone to worry for me too...







Just to hug me tight till I get to sleep...

Sound asleep as your embrace gives me peace and comfort.

If only you're here with me now ...

If only you were my pillow...

Responsibility

It was a mixed feeling as I was leaving the remittance center the other day, glad that finally I was able to send my family the money they need this christmas season. It was bigger this time. They asked for an increase (oh di ba, parang tuition fee lang, may increase din!LOL) since it is the holidays. I understand.

I remembered the conversation I had with my sister: "could you please send more this time... too much expenses and we don't know if there would be enough left for us".

I wanna cover my ears and stop listening to them for a second. I wanna scream. Shout.

But I couldn't. I wouldn't.

Mom in Dubai is going through though times now. I wanna help. I should. But I don't have enough. So I'm doing the best I could to help.

I shouldered everything for now.
Because I should. I am family. They are my family.

A year ago, I was very hopeful to work abroad and save for my future. A dream house. A business.

But I'm on a different situation now.
I can't save up now.
No more shopping.
No more unnecessary spending.

As I was leaving the remittance center and closed the zipper on my bag...I just smiled and thought...more than half of my salary were all sent to the philippines and dubai...I only have enough to feed my self for the whole month...

Yeah it was a mixed feeling. Proud that I could help my family and a little low that after a month of hard work, all whats left is this much on my pocket.

But what to do Yani? :-)

So, this is how it really feels to be an OFW after all huh?
Suddenly a perfect word crossed my mind.

Bread winner.

Yes, Mac, you are indeed now the breadwinner.