Tragedy

It was my first orientation at the emergency room/accident room last night, of course I was a bit nervous at first, I mean its not my territory, I'm always assigned at the five ICUs of our hospital. I was told I will have regular duties there, as a punishment for not doing overtime work and being late at work!LOL

Many of my colleague don't wanna be assigned there. Little did my boss know, all my crushes, straights and gays are there! I mean this is so cool! ER has many new nurses that are gays and sooooo cute! (mahal, crushes lang naman to ha? wag selos!LOL)

Its really busy there, cardiac arrest left and right, vomiting all over, traumas, brains out, bloods etc. And besides, we don't know much of the people there. So technically at first you would look like a stupid unknown guy! My senior staff did her best to orient me and took me to places I need to know and the stocks etc.

But this entry is all about something else, something tragic. The charge-nurse sat beside us and told this:

I have a bad news...Marvin committed suicide at the prison yesterday. He's in our mortuary now.

He hanged himself.

I didn't know how long did my mouth was open that time. Its was so shocking. We didn't see it coming...I don't know him personally but I felt him. He's gay. He's one of us. I was sad, I felt mad, and tons of questions arises.

You may remember HIM on my post as the gay guy being arrested by the police here in Doha. You could check the story here. I was so concern abut his case because I wanna know why he was arrested in the first place. So that I could avoid it, and learn the lessons from it. But up to now its still blank.

We went at the morgue and we saw his friends sitting, one was looking at nothing, and the other one, crying at the side...They're saying its unbelievable. Marvin was full of life.

We are all clueless about the truth and now...he's dead. No one could know the real score. Was he having an affair with a local? Was he arrested because he's gay? Was he raped or tortured inside that's why he killed himself? Or he cannot face his family back home about what happened?

We were told he's about to take the flight back to Manila last night. So why would someone about to go home would hanged himself? why not on his first few days there? he's been imprisoned for a month now. It doesn't make sense....

Filipinos all over the hospital said this: Its a foul play.

Let us pray for his soul.

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Note: So I'd like to make a holler to all PLU's out here. Please be careful. As much as possible, don't entertain or date or make any affair with Arabs or other races. Its too dangerous you never know who might report you to the police. Stick to our fellow Filipinos.

A Bad News

The recent turns of event affected me that much, I'm concerned about my lifestyle and my rights...I was having so much fun and forgot that I am a foreigner here, a not so straight foreigner...I know I am very discreet but I still feel scared.

Recently, it was all over the hospital, a news about a gay nurse at the ER, missing for about two days. They don't know where he is, just found out the next day that he was arrested by the police.

Why?

Because he's gay.

I was saddened by this, concerned friends approached me and advised me, told me to be careful. "We love you, that's why we're telling you this" they said. I appreciated it."You should avoid local guys, as much as possible, only date Filipino guys, its much safer. Don't ever bring guys to your house OK?!

At this time, I'm shutting all kind of gay guys!LOL

I asked around why did they arrested him, no one knew, some of his friends are not saying anything, they're protecting their friends from further shame I guess.

People said:

1.He is having an affair with a local (arab/qatari)
2.Someone must've tipped the police that he's having gay practice and had him under surveillance for a week.
3.He was at his accommodation, doing his laundry, on plain house clothes, slippers etc., when the police arrested him.
4.That he will be put behind bars and be slashed every Friday.
5.He will be deported with nothing but what he is currently wearing.

All of this are just talks and I don't have valid proof that it is true, but they said, its been done before and those gays being arrested before told these stories.

Its scary, I feel bad about this nurse, I hope he's alright. I thought as long as you do it inside your walls you will be alright, but why do they have to raid some one's house? I read some articles that the police are even doing disguise (CID-cops in disguise) and make entrapment operations.

Sigh.

No more dating for me as of now. Good thing I'm not having sex for about 4 months now!LOL

Kaong at nata de coco na 'to! Nyahaha!

Relatives...Relatives...

I'm pissed.
Aunt who is here in Laguna asking for money again from my MOM.
Mom is sick in Dubai.Working extra time.
Why?She needed extra money to support my jobless uncle with her.
Why jobless?Due to other Filipinos who do nothing but to hurt one's reputation due to envy or to gain selfish ambitions.
And because he is jobless,there are unpaid loans.
He was put behind bars at Dubai.
Mom paid for his bail.More than a hundred thousand.
Where did my mom get all those money?Answer:working too hard and asking for friends to lend her money.Mom was problematic till now.She's helping uncle pays the remaining credits.Plus their everyday needs.
So Mom have big debts now thanks to uncle.
Why uncle have so many loans?Answer:He petitioned his crazy wife and kid to be at Dubai.
You know,the house,the schooling of the kid once they get there.All of it.Cost a lot.
The crazy wife of my uncle,was not happy and decided and insisted on going back to her beloved country.Philippines.
So now all of the effort and money used to get them was wasted.
And now,my super kind mother is the one suffering through all of that.
For this I wanna kill the crazy wife.LOL!
Since mom is so kind to relatives who are in need of money in Laguna
She looked for jobs for her two niece and fly them at Dubai.
When they got there,the other one was so lazy that her employer wanted her out.
And the other niece run away from employer.
The employer get back at my mom and wanted a refund for all the expenses.
Totally great!Right?So now I wanted to kill those nieces too!
So now I'm pissed.
Going back to the aunt whose here at Laguna
My mom is the one buying her medications.Monthly she receives money for it.
Mom asked us to give an amount to her since aunt said to my mom she's no money to buy foods!
Aunt is still strong and an expert seamstress.An old maid.
We asked her to moved in to us so that she wont have to worry about foods.
She refused!Great!
So maybe you already know what I wanted to do to her too right?LOL!

I mean come on!My mom have a lot of things going there right now,and she's sick maybe she don't visit a doctor because of those responsibilities she have with her relatives and wanted to save money!Damn them!All they do is ask and ask.Didn't they realized my mom had enough!Relatives thought once some one's working abroad that they have a lot of resources and no problems at all!

Its a good thing we are not adding burdens to my mom.We have a small Internet shop.My dad bought a passenger jeep and our hired driver gives us boundary everyday.And my sister's husband at Saudi always helps to our finances.Once I got my visa I will insist that mom to go home and leave all of those relatives at Dubai at their own!

Relatives are fun.But sometimes they are headaches too!And its pains me to have a kind Mother too!Wish she knows how to say NO too.I love you MOM.

I Was a Shoplifter!!!

I mentioned on my post last year"Am I evil?" that I have done some terrible things in the past and I just want to share this to you guys,when I did some shoplifting not once but I think many times! I don't know maybe I do really have a twisted mind and I have the making of a psycho way back then wooo...scary..hehe.Well,this happened many years ago when I was in high school,I went to this small store at the county and I'm fascinated with those cute little stuff and I have no money to buy them.

I started with some key chains and later some appliances like refrigerator!Kidding!haha I stick to the cute things I'm afraid of course that I might get caught I slowly put it in my pocket and next time I came back I took another key chain haha I don't know why I did it!I want to have my first stole to have a partner maybe or make it like an earring that I could wear or something LOL! It only cost 15pesos my goodness!!!And then from key chains i evolved to pocketbooks...not caught again,I have this great feeling of success when I accomplished my evil task!Told you I'm twisted!hehe,but hey Wynona Rider did it too!

But the last time was not so lucky....I went to National Bookstore(a local and famous store here) and there I was just looking around,I have money then and I bought some notebooks and silly stuffs but still I'm teased to shoplift one item,a romance pocketbook by writer Johanna Lindsey (so gay!LOL) I wont forget her in my lifetime haha because of that incident.I hid it under the stuffs that I bought earlier and when I'm exiting, the guard inspect my plastic bag and saw that item and he asked me to come to their office!!!!

It was so scary like hell "what am I gonna do?will they put me in jail?will they post my picture at their shame wall and put some text:don't be like him!" waaaaaaaa!those are the thoughts that came across my mind,I will have a police record or something!I was walking behind the guard and I bet the people that I walked through already have an idea why I'm there...such a shame...I think I was so pale at that time I could not feel my face its like its so cold.

He asked me to sit on an electric chair! kidding!hehe.They are polite,I don't know,maybe in their mind I don't look like a classic thief or something (sosyal ata ako!klepto nga lang haha) he asked me to give him my ID and I said "what are you gonna do with it?are you confiscating it?" he said no,just going to get your name and ID number..."what if they report me to my school?" I thought so huhu for sure I'll be dead!

And then I said to myself I need to say an alibi or something not like this that I look so guilty,then I said "I just forgot to pay for it,I just had fun looking around and next thing I know I was still holding this book on my hand without paying for it.I don't know if he was convinced or what,I gave him the amount to pay for the book and gave me a receipt and let me go...It was like that's the only time I really breath!!!


After that embarrassing moment I said to myself enough of this shit! I'll pay for it next time!Lesson learned,don't wait for you to get caught.Avoid something which you knew from the start that what you're doing is not right.This is the first time that I tell this story,no one knew about it,and now many people knew,I don't know I don't care,it was in the past and I don't do it anymore and maybe its just a product of my impulsive teenage years.I just thought that I'll share it here in my blog.

I recommend that you read this too from last year post-->Am I Evil