Father Lily

I call my mom Mother Lily minsan e. so si father, naging father Lily. *sabaw lang* hahaha

I don't know how to deal with my father anymore. Even my sister is having a headache. I'm glad I'm not there with them otherwise baka mauna pa ko mautas! LOL

Suko na ko. Jusme. Tigas ng ulo grabe.

My dad has a long history of drinking alcohol. He has hypertension under medications but he's still drinking. Everyday he's consuming bottles of beer. Sometimes hard liquor pa. Minsan nagsusugal pa daw. How lovely!

About two years ago he suffered from Bell's Palsy wherein half of his face was paralyzed and deformed. I remember my sister told me how afraid he was back then.

I thought he learned his lesson na after he recovered through medication and therapy. OO Pinapagamot ko naman siya afterall itay ko pa din siya. LOL

I'm constantly reminding him to refrain from drinking kahit na there's no specific relation yet his drinking to the condition. Tinatakot ko siya na dahil kako sa pag inum inum niya yun. LOL

If you're a long time reader of my blog you knew that I'm not close to my father. I have this hatred at him when I was growing up. Don't worry I already forgiven him for all the pain and verbal abuse he caused me back then.

But I'm still distant. I could never be close to him. The thought of hugging him makes me wanna puke. or maybe my eyeballs would roll back 360 degrees as soon as he hugged me and pretend that he loves me.

Yeah that's how I imagine it. LOL

I sent him money monthly for his personal expenses but I found out that he's still drinking nightly and used the money for nothing. I feel bad about it. Nakakabuwisit di ba? I worked hard for those. Well yeah. sometimes kapag di ako nagpapa cute sa mga pinoy nurses. charrrr!

Kidding aside, andami nagugutom sa pilipinas...getz nyo ko?

Ang nakakatawa pa daw according to my sister if may pera si father, tuloy ligaya lang sa inom. At every time he runs out of money saka lumalabas mga sakit niya. Andiyan yun head ache, masakit daw tagiliran, masakit ngipin...blah blah...

Sabi ko naman: ay siya kulang pa sa alak!

Lately kasi I stop sending him money na. I felt kasi na I'm just giving him resources for his vices. I'm afraid he might get a stroke or something if pinatuloy pa niya yung hobby niya. Nasa sister ko ang money. He just need to ask what he needs. Pero I heard na nag aaway din sila ni sisterette madalas. Haist.

It felt like if i give him money, the more siya mag iinum. So if there's no money to spend, mas less ang alak di ba? Pero wag ka, ako pa ang masamang anak. Ang anak daw na wala paki sa ama at ni hindi inaabutan ng pera. Kakaloka. Hahaha

I talked to my sister yesterday, she told me, dad is sick daw. Mataas ang BP. Masakit ang batok. His eyes are almost popping out daw! (parang naluwa na daw at namumula mata niya)

Sagot ko: ah kulang sa alak pa kamo. lak lak pa.

Sabi ng sister ko:  "gaga! this time mukhang totoong may nararamdaman na nga". I just took a deep breath and told her to bring him to the doctor.

Baka daw mag pa blood works sila bukas and she's asking if magpapadala ba daw ako ng pera.

"what to do Yanni...send ko asap"

Idinugtong ko pa: tell him next time uminom pa siya ng uminom hinding hindi ko na siya ipapa doktor.


Sorry guys ha nag rant ako, medyo personal ang post ko. haha well sanay naman kayo sa akin na personal masyado ang post minsan x-rated pa nga di ba? LOL. I just need to get this out of my chest lang kasi. Asar na asar kasi ako.

Alam na alam naman naming lahat bakit siya nagkaka ganun. and for sure he himself knew it.

Haist.

Kayo ba how's your dad?




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