Disappointed

"I like you Mac"
"I like you too.You will be a great friend.." (ek ek ko lang)
"Hell no!I don't wanna be just your friend!I want more than that!"

I smiled while reading his reply at YM.I smiled so big that you could see the gray matter inside my brain!LOL! I just know him two nights ago,at a chat room.Where else! After endless chatting he called me and we had a great time talking,his voice is so nice and sweet.I already knew I like this guy,let me give him a name:LJAS.That's his initials.He looks great too we exchange facebooks accounts that night.He said Im cute and I was like "oh,stop it..im not...(*blushing) and added "hilahin ko titi mo jan e! haha kidding! I didn't said that!You know me.

He wanted to see me this week but i declined.Maybe next week when I go to makati.He has a great job I googled his name and so surprised with so much things about him!I felt so little compared to what he accomplished! I mean,who am I compared to this person?Im just a "promdi" who works at a hospital and currently bumming!BEAT THAT!haha

At the middle of our conversation I told him that I was planning to leave the country,that my visa are currently being processed.I wanna be honest with him and I noticed that it bothered him. "So if ever you'll leave me soon..." and I told him "yeah,in the coming month(s)" I added " I may have a few months so lets make the most out of it,and if ever are u willing to have a long distance relationship?" me myself are not convinced that if ever it will work.

But who knows!Maybe,maybe not.But still worth the try I thought to myself.He said "why not,I never done it before maybe I can do it!" and I was like relieved that he is optimistic.But still its too early to tell!We haven't met in person yet for God's Sake and I was thinking long distance relationships already!haha.This is what I hate about myself,I always thinks ahead.Thinking about whats next even if I haven't accomplished the first work yet!Which leaves me disappointed in the end.I wanna change this attitude.

He works for a US base magazine and he' s so busy.That is what bothering me.I missed him.He said when he got a second to talk to me that he misses me and that he'll make it out with me once everything with work is OK.Hayyy,its been two days now and he's still busy.Maybe he just realized that he don't want someone who will leave in the first place.I just have to stop expecting that he's into me after all.

No text.No call.Nothing.haha I sounded like a demanding boyfriend!Stop!Stop!Mac!

Another disappointment.Another one down.I just wish he could be honest with me.I just thought he's worth getting to know with.Or maybe I thought he's a best candidate to be my bf.I erased him at my list already.There's no good keeping his account.But I'm OK its not that I have break up or something haha.

"Nag iinarte lang ako.SEB ANYONE? LOL"