i am me

I created this blog to say something about me,being who i am.but who i am really?guys dont be confused im not having an identity crisis or something,atleast not now,im a gay guy.I know it,since i was in gradeschool that im different,had a hard time dealing with schoolmates,u know the teasing,but its all in the past now,ahh,well my sister knew,i told her last 2006 maybe,my parents?

Hmm..maybe they have an idea but too afraid to ask me,or maybe they already accepted the fact that im like this,silently accepting who i am,who else knew? you would ask,well im not that out in the open or shout out loud that im gay,if someone would ask i can say yes.before,i deny it,but now that im older im 29 already,wiser(really?)haha,im more comfortable with myself now.

Maybe this is my way silently telling them,that this is me,im a gay,im not fond of wearing girls clothes or something like the conventional types or what they say the "parlorista",im still the same guy who wear guys clothes,i love wearing them.I feel happy if i wear nice mens clothes,i mean its me, i love dressing up good,maybe its normal to gay guys like me to impress (i dont know or maybe its just me haha)

If you're wondering,im 29 years old,average height,im kinda concern about my weight im 138lbs already,maybe because im concern that other gays wont like me if i get too fat,u know being in the gay world, its judgemental, its more on the physical, how u look,i ts what they look for a gay partner, i know this because i've been having same sex relationships since i was 21years old.

Im 29 now, so maybe i mastered the art of having a serious relationships with the same, take note im only attracted to the same gay guy like me.I do have a bf right now, joss, i dont wanna drag his name, for the meantime lets call him joss, we are only more than a month together now,i courted him a little and we became a couple last july 27 hehehe,before him i was in a 8month relationship with a guy named brian.

After more than 2months i met joss, they're both nursing students, brian graduated already last april. while joss is now on his 4th year, i dont knowwhy i always end up with nursing students hehehe (maybe because im a respiratory therapist ,who work in a hospital) and they're always younger than me,sometimes i was wondering what it feels like to have a much older bf than me,

Not that old maybe 3 to 5 years ahead of me u know.But im happy with Joss right now,he is kind and always caring about me,i love him.He is now in Tarlac having his intership at a government hospital there,maybe next week we'll see each other.