May 28, 2012

Let's Get Thin!


Because I've gained weight this past few months, I finally decided to follow my 3-day-diet that I have used last year. Which I found very effective. Even my friends followed it since they saw the good result from me. I gladly shared it to them. And now I'm sharing it to you guys.

Before following this diet program, kelangan masanay na kayo na no rice at all. I started reducing rice last month. From 3x a day of having rice. I reduced it to 2x day, then once a day, and finally half cup of rice, till I could survive with no rice per day. Sanayan lang din. Tiis-ganda. Hahaha

I currently weigh 60 kg (132lbs) now. My goal is to be 55 kg (121lbs) in one month. Sana makaya ko! One month kasi for sure makakapandaya ako! LOL! I will keep you updated of my improvement and failures (?) wag naman sana!


3 DAYS DIET

DAY 1:

BREAKFAST

  • ½ GRAPEFRUIT OR 8OZ.GRAPEFRUIT JUICE
  • 1SLICE TOAST (NO BUTTER)
  • 1 TABLESPOON PEANUT BUTTER
LUNCH:

  • ½ CUP OR 40Z.TUNA (DRAINED/WATERPACKED)
  • 1SLICE TOAST

DINNER:

  • 2 PCS.OF ANY KIND OF MEAT(3 OZ EACH PIECE)
  • 1CUP GREEN BEANS
  • 1 CUP BEETS WITH VINEGAR (1 TABLESPOON) (I will use kamote, di ko kasi makain tong beets na toh nakakasuka LOL)
  • 1 SMALL APPLE and 1 CUP VANILLA ICE CREAM


I started Day one today. So far so good. In case magutom ako in between, I have oatmeals and nesvita.

Goodluck to me!


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DAY 2:

BREAKFAST

  • 1 BOILED EGG

  • 1 SLICE TOAST
  • 1 BANANA

LUNCH

  • 1 CUP COTTAGE CHEESE 2%FAT
  • 5 SALTINE CRACKERS (or skyflakes)

DINNER:

  • 2 HOTDOGS (NO BUNS)
  • 1 CUP BROCCHOLI (FRESH/COOKED OR RAW)
  • ½ CUP CARROTS
  • 1 BANANA
  • ½ CUP VANILLA ICE CREAM


DAY 3:

BREAKFAST

  • 5 SALTINE CRACKERS
  • 1 SLICE (1 OZ.) CHEDDAR CHEESE
  • 1 APPLE
LUNCH

  • 1 BOILED EGG
  • 1 SLICE TOAST

DINNER

  • 1 CUP TUNA (DRAINED)
  • 1 CUP BEETS WITH VINEGAR (1 TABLESPOON)
  • 1 CUP CAULIFLOWER (FRESH/COOK OR RAW)
  • ½ CANTALOUPE
  • ½ CUP VANILLA ICE CREAM

On the fourth day, you could eat anything you want! (pero ako ayaw ko magrice nito haha) Then you'll start your Day 1 once again and the cycle goes on.

May 25, 2012

For You

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Five messages to five random people:


I don't know what else to think. I'll just let you be and move on. Dead or alive. Thank you for the friendship though. Pero alin ba totoo talaga? LOL

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Just keep up the fight...don't lose faith in him. With God everything is possible. Miracles could happen you know... I know you will get better...We will all be supporting you all the way. Just hang in there. I may not tell you this, but I love you. We do.

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I pray to God to keep you safe, to give you good health, kasi we all know, you are his source of strength. I salute you for being so brave inspite of all whats going on around you. You are a great person. I didnt expect you to be this strong. I love you. Don't worry me and mom will always back you up :-)

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I saw your picture sa FB and nangangasim itsura mo dun hahaha! I miss you my baby...I hope I could be there to take care of you while SHE's busy. I know you understand all of this. Thank you for being so brave too. SHE needs you to be for HIM. I just wanna let you feel my love even though Im far. I wanna cry because I don't think you deserve to be in this situation. I wanna give you my tightest hug as possible...

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And my last is for you...a little more patience...don't you ever think that I forgot about you even for a minute...I don't have the luxury to forget you...you are always on my prayers... I know you've been through a lot and I wanna take care of you and carry your burdens and let you be comfortable. You deserved better than this. Don't worry...maybe...soon...this year...just hang in there. Don't you worry about me. I'm doing alright. I have loving friends who would look after me. I love you with all of my heart.

May 22, 2012

I Will Remember You



I Will remember you, will you remember me?

Don't let your life pass you by,
Weep not for the memories
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad.






To Travis, thank you.

Salamat sa halos gabi gabing pakikipag kulitan sa kin sa twitter tuwing duty ako ng night shift, hindi na kumpleto ang "kolokoys" na nabuo sa timeline...

Nakakapanibago na hindi na kita nakikita sa timeline ko.

Yun mga pagpapansin mo tuwing makikita mo kong online "MAC MAC!!!!" yan lagi mong sigaw. Natatawa nalang ako kasi ang lakas ng sigaw mo nababasag eardrum ko. Thank you for making me smile. Sa lakas ng mga pang aasar mo.

Sabi nga ni Ben ben, isa kang puzzle na isa isa naming binubuo...at malapit na kitang mabuo sana, kaso di umabot. Sayang di umabot ng December. Konti nalang sana Trav, that four of us...meeting.

Nag uumpisa pa naman ako magtampo kasi di mo ko binati sa birthday ko...yun pala that day mo din kami iiwan...

Nakakapanlumo :-(

Thank you for all your advice, for all the support mo. Pero thank you for the trust and the friendship :-)

I hope you are now happy in the arms of our saviour.

Wag mo lang sila sungitan diyan ah?

Last mention na to @Nohwan: We will miss you.

May 20, 2012

Its The 20th Again!



Its this time of the year again, the 20th of May where the calendar reminds me that Im old! Old maid that is! LOL

Another year has been added to my age. But I dont mind, Im happy with what i am now. It just feel that im stucked at 25! Saya lang!

Thank you Lord for all the blessings and all the joys and laughters that this year will give me...there are some down moments but I know with your guidance me and my family will get through this :-)

We'll have a simple dinner at my friend's house tonight, konti lang, I know, most of my friends magtatampo, hope you guys understand.

I don't wanna spend too much while my brother in law's at the hospital right? I thought it'll look insensitive on my part. Kaya yun.

I just have three birthday wish and I hope it could come true :-)




People! show me some love today hihihi

O kiss nyo na ko, with tongue! Charrr!

May 17, 2012

Tawas


Do you believe in such things as witch crafts? faith healing? Or even the famous "tawas"?

I am a hospital staff and those things are taboo for me. I've seen the help a doctor can give, procedures and tests or any proven medicine that could aide in our illnesses.

One time my nephew was crying endlessly and we don't know what's happening with him. I've told my sister to bring him to the hospital, but she refused and told me we have to go to our aunt's house instead, she's the only one who have seen my nephew this afternoon. My aunt just draw a cross line at his tummy using her finger with her small saliva in it and soon the baby's crying stopped!

Coincidence or what?

Minsan parang nagiging normal na nga sa pandinig ko ang word na "baka nabalis" lang yan...palawayan mo.

Its just sounds crazy at this age and time, that these stuffs still exists :-)

I also remember when I was sick with fever every afternoon, my mom brought me to a "magtatawas" who uses eggs to heal the sick. I forgot what happened to the egg if I ate it or what! LOL

And recently I was talking at my sister on the phone when she told me that my nephew was brought at the ER due to hyperventilation. They cannot calm him down. And he's having a slight fever as well. I was worried. My brother in law is having cancer now and another sick member of a family is not good for us.

Then she added that all of her mother-in-laws grand kids, 5 of them are sick too! some having fever, some are having diarrhea and now confined at the hospital.

"Para'ng nakukulam ata ang mga bata or baka naman "na-mamatanda"...grabe naman kasi sabay sabay..." she said. I dont know where my sister got all of these idea.

"naku naku wag ka nga magpapaniwala diyan sa mga ganyan. Sino naman kukulam sa inyo aber?" thats all i said. Kapatid ko talaga oh, nagiging makaluma na! LOL

"But I still brought your nephew to the faith healer after we've been discharged from the hospital. He's now much better"

Kaloka ang kapatid ko! But anyway, at least she brought him first to the hospital not to the witch doctor.

Her reasons for believing: wala naman mawawala kung mag try pa din ako noh, atleast sinubukan ko lang if gagaling.

Natawa na lang ako.

How about you guys? nakaranas na ba kayo ma-tawas nun araw?

Do you agree with my half-crazy sister?LOL

May 13, 2012

Paghabol



Naalala ko pa nun pitong taong gulang palang ako nang ihinabilin mo ko kina Ninang dahil may lakad kayo ng kaibigan mo.

Ayaw ko magpaiwan kaya iyak ako ng iyak at nagmamakaawa na isama mo ko.

Hanggang sa pumara kayo ng jeep at sumakay umiiyak pa din ako. Sigaw ng sigaw. Mama's boy na mama's boy ako sabi nina Ninang.

Nun halos paandar na ang jeep na sinasakyan nyo, kumawala ako sa pagkakahawak ni Ninang at humabol sa sasakyan na pumapalahaw pa din ng iyak. Sa bilis ng takbo ko hindi ako inabutan ni Ninang.

Sumampa ako sa entrada ng jeep habang tumatakbo ito. Nabigla ang lahat sa pagsakay ko. Natakot sila na muntik na ko mahulog sa pagsakay. Nagtitinginan na ang ibang pasahero. Pinatigil nyo ang pag andar sa driver at napilitan kang bumaba muli hawak hawak ako ng mahigpit sa braso.

Galit na galit ka. Naalala ko pa kung pano mo ko pinalo ng sinturon nun mga panahon na yun. Sa bandang huli naiwan pa din ako sa bahay ni Ninang.

Hindi nabago ng mga palo ng sinturon at mga kurot mo sa tagiliran ko ang pagtingin ko sa yo Nay. Lagi nalang akong hahabol at pipilitin makabalik sa piling mo. Kahit anong mangyari.

Nung hinahatid ka namin sa airport para mag trabaho sa gitnang silangan para matugunan ang mga pangangailangan ko sa iskwela, sabi mo para sa akin to. Para sa kinabukasan ko. Hinding hindi ko makakalimutan ang sakripisyo mo sa kin Nay. Itinago mo ang takot at pag aalinlangan na makipag sapalaran sa malayong lugar na walang kakilala.

Para akong nabalik sa edad na pitong taong gulang noon...muli kong naramdaman ang pag nanais na humabol muli sa yo. Gusto kong humabol ng iyak at pigilan ka. Ang bigat sa dibdib. Ang hirap.

Iba na ang sitwasyon ngayon, 17 na ko. Hindi na 7 years old. Pero bakit parang gusto kong humagulgol na parang nasa edad na pito akong muli?

Hindi ka namin nakitang umiyak tanda ng kakatatagan ng loob mo sa paglisan mong yun...hindi ka na din muli pang lumingon.

Marami akong dapat ipagpasalamat sa mga ginawa mo para sa aming magkapatid Nay. Walang katumbas ang mga sakripisyo at pagkalinga mo sa amin. Alam ko na kahit papano, nasuklian ka namin ng kaligayahan. Natapos ko ang kurso ko at may maayos na trabaho ngayon. May makulit kang panganay na apong lalaki at bagong bagong apo na baby girl mula sa kapatid ko.

Salamat at tanggap mo na din na di na ko mag aasawa pa. Wag ka mag alala...balang araw may maipapakilala din ako sayo na lalakeng magmamahal sa kin ng tapat. Di ko lang alam kung kelan :-)

Alam kong ito nalang ang ninanais mo para sa akin. Wag ka mag alala...malay mo sumaya na din ako soon di ba?

Tatlong taon na mula nun huli ka namin nakasama. Maraming nangyari na di natin inasahan. At sana ngayong darating na Disyembre...sana matuloy tayo...

Sama sama tayong muli.

Isang buong pamilya kahit saglit.

See you soon Nay.

Happy Mother's Day sa 'yo.


May 9, 2012

Si Bayaw


"salamat sa mga tumutulong at nagdadasal sakin....lalaban ako kasama si god, para s pamilya ko at sa nagmamahal sakin..."




Naalala ko pa nun una kang pinakilala ng nag iisa kong kapatid sa amin ni Tatay noon. Instantly, hindi na kita gusto para sa knya.

Sabi ko, mas marami pang deserving na boyfriend para sa kapatid ko. Hindi ka kaguwapuhan, oo mapanghusga ata ako pagdating sa nag iisa kong sister LOL, ok-ok lang ang work mo noon, at malayo ang edad mo sa knya.

Pero nagtagal kayo. Inabot ng tatlong taon. Hindi nanaig ang pagiging kontrabida ko sa pagmamahalan nyo. Nakakainis lang! chos

Hanggang namalayan ko na di na umuuwi kapatid ko. Two days bago ko narealized! OO late reaction lang, kasi naman napaka gala ng kapatid kong yun kala ko nasa habadan lang! yun pala nagtanan ang harutay!

At itinanan mo.

Galit na galit ako sa yo nun. Sabi ko iniumpluwensiyahan mo siya. Nag aaral pa kaya siya! Sinabi ko sa kapatid kong wag na wag ka nya isasama sa amin. Kahit pa sabihin nyo na nagtanan na kayo. Wala ako pakialam.

Pero nanindigan ka. Sumama ka pauwi sa bahay namin, hinarap mo ko ng buong tapang. Nanindigan ka. Irap at ismid lang sinukli ko sau. Baklang bakla lang pala ako nun! LOL

Dahil dalawa lang naman kaming magkapatid, di na ko pumayag na humiwalay pa kayo. Aalog alog kasi kami sa bahay kapag umalis pa kayo. At saka allergic ako sa tatay ko. Ayaw kong kami lang dun! Ginamit ko din kayo, ganyan!

Kontrabida ako habang nasa amin ka. Pero napahanga mo ko sa kabaitan, kasipagan mo, at sa pagmamahal mo sa kapatid ko.

Nakita ko kung gano mo siya kamahal. Binigyan mo ang Nanay ko ng isang cute na cute na apo na nagbigay ng walang katumbas na kasiyahan sa Nanay ko. Salamat sa iyo, bayaw.

Nag abroad ka. Sa saudi. Tiniis mo mapalayo kasi ayaw mong may masabi kami sa iyo na wala ka maipakain sa pamilya mo.

Natutunan na din kita tanggapin at mahalin. Bilang kapatid ko. Miyembro ng pamilya. (kasi nakita ka na ng malaki! chos!)

Nakita ko na masaya kapatid ko. Kuntento. May mapagmahal na asawa sa katauhan mo. May malikot at cute na anak na lalaki. Nag iintay ng pag uwi mo kada taon.

Napapangiti ako sa halos perpektong buhay ng kapatid ko. Masaya ako kahit malayo kami ng Nanay sa kanya.

Nabigla nalang ako nun itinawag ng kapatid ko na sinugod ka daw sa ospital sa saudi. Nagdudugo ang ilong mo. Hindi ka nakakain. Ilang linggo pabalik balik.

Natatakot ang kapatid ko. Sinabi ko sa knya na pauwiin ka na niya muna at magpa gamot sa atin sa pinas.

Pagkalipas ng ilang series ng tests...napag alaman natin na may cancer ka ...Halos kasabay ko umiiyak ang kapatid ko nun tinawagan ko siya sa telepono.

"kuya, stage three na daw...hindi ko pa nasasabi sa knya. Ayoko makita sa mga mata niya ang takot at lungkot.."

Hindi kami makapaniwala. Nakakapanlumo. Nakakatakot. Natatakot ako para sa kapatid ko. Para sa mga pamangkin ko.

"Kuya, alam mo ba ang sabi nya sa akin nun naka confine kami...pwde ka pa mag asawa kapag wala na ako...gawin mo yun...hindi sasama ang loob ko..."

Naririnig ko ang halos pigil na hikbi ng kapatid ko nun mga oras na yun. Gusto nya magalit sa yo dahil sumusuko ka na agad...

Nakakalungkot lang na di ko madamayan at ng aking ina ang nag iisa kong kapatid ngayon. Nag aalala si Nanay sobra. Nagi-guilty siya na wala siya diyan sa tabi nyo. Alam ko iniisip niya na obligasyon nya na dapat kasama nyo sila diyan.

Alam ko andami iniisip ang kapatid ko ngayon...bills...gamot...yun condition mo, yun dalawang pamangkin ko na halos di na niya naaalagaan.

Alam ko hindi ito madali para sa knya. Lalo na sa iyo. Alam ko pakiramdam mo helpless ka...walang magawa. Pero tandaan mo bayaw, miyembro ka ng pamilya namin, mahal ka namin. Kahit magipit tayo, kaya yan. Maging matatag ka sana lagi :-)

Napapatanung ako minsan...parang nun isang araw lang ang saya saya ng kapatid ko...halos walang iniintindi. Bakit sa isang iglap, nabaligtad ang lahat?

Pero maparaan ang diyos...binago nya ang paninindigan mo...pinatatag ka nya...at ngayon handa ka na lumaban...handa ka na mabuhay muli...

Para sa kapatid ko :-)

May 2, 2012

Dragged


I was alone on my evening/night shift (16hrs) that time on our department when patients kept on coming till I cannot handle the procedures anymore. There's cardiac arrest at the ER, there's problem at the machine at the ICU and the countless treatments at the wards. I cannot keep up anymore.

This happened a few years back when I was still working at a tertiary hospital in our country.

I called Ate Josie, our nursing assistant during the day shift to please come to work (its her day off) for overtime of course, and help me with the increasing hospital demands from our department. She said yes and I was glad she could help.

Hours have passed and I was wondering what could have happened to her. She's not answering her cellphone.

I went to the emergency room to check on some patients there when I saw Ate Josie lying on one of our stretcher. She's on her white uniform and to my surprised...she's covered with mud, and some stains of blood!

I've noticed that she has abrasions, and small wounds on her elbows, on her knees and feet...

I immediately approached her with a worried face. I love Ate Josie and I don't know how to react on seing her like this!

That's when I realized her husband was there beside her holding her hand. Ate Josie is conscious but I could tell how much pain she's experiencing. She's complaining about her back and arms.

I asked her husband what happened when they injected her muscle relaxant to calm and relax her a little bit. He said that they're on their way to the hospital since I called Ate Josie to help me out, he was driving their own tricycle and Ate seated at his back when two guys riding a motorcycle grabbed Ate Josie's bag.

She was horrified! she held on to her bag while both vehicles are running fast at the highway. The guy grabbing her bag did not let go and pulled much harder till...

Ate Josie fell off the tricycle.

Dragged along the road.

Till the thieves got her bag with all her money.

Ate Josie was on the middle of the road.

Covered with mud.

Bleeding. In the rain.

I was in shocked. I think I wanna cry.

I don't know what to say. I think may face turned red with so much emotions going on with me. Guilt. Anger. I felt bad. I felt sad.

There's no one to blame but me. If I didn't call her. These won't even happen. She'll be at home having her cup of tea. She'll be asleep.

I should have left her alone.

When I approached Ate Josie after a while. I told her how I feel. I told her how sorry I was. She said that its not my fault, that I should not beat myself up...that we just be thankful that its not that bad...

I cannot even look at her husband's eye... Who's just been silent all along. I know he's thinking otherwise. But how can I blame him?

This whole mess is on me.